[Excerpt from Michael Speaks: The Roles for Mature and Old Souls]
The Old Scholar has now moved through the Mature Age that helped to reconcile the struggle between HAVING EXPERIENCE and BEING INTIMATE. During the Mature Age, the reconciliation between Experience and Intimacy is a long, often painful, road for the Scholar.
Much of what is considered necessary by the Scholar for Experience is to have as "clean" an experience as possible, which often means leaving others out of the inner world that processes these experiences.
QUESTION: Could you define intimacy in the sense of your meaning?
Intimacy here is meant as any form of Resonance, from sharing common ground to sex. The key being that it is INCLUSIVE, in that what is shared is not only mutual, but experienced as mutual.
More than any other Role, the Scholar struggles with issues of Intimacy, of feeling connected to others, of finding common ground, and of feeling embraced.
The Old Scholar has realized that Experience and Intimacy are not mutually-exclusive, but Intimacy has been put off for so long for the sake of experiments, exploration, etc. that the world of Intimacy as an Old Soul is entirely new for the most part.
Because the nature of the Scholar is to observe objectively, then this search for Intimacy may often be approached from the angle of provision, in that it IF it exists, then it must be something provided for the Scholar, and not something he or she must work to generate from the self.
Intimacy is such an amorphous concept to the Scholar that in the Old Soul Age, it will either feign intimacy as a means to have any kind of human contact at all, often leaving it to others to sort out the details, or to nurture that intimacy, or it will finally realize that he or she IS the source of intimacy, and begin to develop this from "the inside, out."
The issue for the Scholar is often that if it is not found externally, then it is not a valid Experience, and therefore is not to be trusted.
Ironically, anything that is already deemed as so amorphous that it cannot be trusted when generated within, will also be deemed suspicious when generated from others.
Therefore, the key for the Old Scholar in his or her embrace of Being Intimate is to begin comprehending TRUST.
Trust is a mix of anticipated results and past experiences. It is not blind, and therefore it can be used by the Scholar.
When the Old Scholar begins to recognize his or her embrace of himself, he or she can then begin to embrace others. If the embrace of others is attempted before the embrace of self, then there will always be an equation that returns the Scholar back to the beginning.
They are highly mathematical that way.
Trust comes in as the gathering of experience grows to show the Scholar that he or she will not die because he or she reached out, and that one is not alone just because one might actually like oneself.
In short, the validity of Being for the Scholar cannot be proven through others, but the validity of others can be proven through the embrace of Being.