[Excerpt from Energy Report: August 2009]
We would like to add a word about Enlightenment, as we play this Position within many of our students' Support Circle: We will first say that "enlightenment" is simply a building of a structure through which one can make sense of life. It is not a goal, nor is it a state, so much as it is a natural ingredient in the process of evolution. Even your "a-HA!" moments are not moments of enlightenment, so much as they are punctuations in the book of enlightenment you write with your experiences.
One of the greater steps of enlightenment, and one that is taken over and over across many lifetimes, is the submersion into experiences that are overwhelming, deeply disappointing, painfully disheartening, defeating, or distracting, and finally grasping the truth that you are allowed to feel what you feel when you are in those experiences; that you are allowed to be overwhelmed, disappointed, disheartened, distracted, and to feel defeated; that to fight these feelings, to ignore them, to shame them, to contain them, to color them with pleasantries, to rise above them, etc. only leads to addictions, sedation, therapy, and other methods of securing False Personality at the gates of life to protect you from either feeling anything associated with these experiences, or to protect you from others seeing that you are feeling anything associated with these experiences. We would call this "Endarkenment."
Endarkenment is not opposite to Enlightenment, but are much like Hate and Love. Hate is not the opposite of Love, it is a misunderstanding and distortion of Love, or, in other words, both are descriptions of a kind of intimacy. In that same way, both Enlightenment and Endarkenment are attempts to make sense of life, but Endarkenment is a delusion, a distortion of the structure that helps make sense of life, and often an angry insistence of the meaning of things as if this may never change.
And so it is that many of you have stumbled upon your Endarkenment, holding up to the surface of your life what it is that you have insisted is true about your life, that contradicts your passionate higher vision, your ideal.
For some of you this is quite dramatic, and for others of you this may simply be a bitter undertone in your days, but you will recognize what we describe if this has been the case for you in the past 6 weeks or so, and for some of you, this has not yet happened for you. If you are one who has set out this year to make this a pivotal year, we would say that it is likely that you would be stumbling upon your own Endarkenment in the weeks to come, and this information may be of help. ...
We rarely remind you of this, particularly for the sake of our position as a teacher, and for the sake of exemplifying the valid weight of such words when said with full presence; and though it is not unheard of that we say this when we feel it most important and appropriate, we do wish to say now that it is true that you are not alone, that we do care, and that it is true that we love you.
We do not share our teaching flippantly. Most of you who work with us for any length of time are not doing so as a novelty. We have a relationship with you, and that can often be forgotten in the intellectual emphasis of our teaching. But our higher perspective does not exempt us from these sensitive states of resonance with you, it simply allows us to know love for you more profoundly than we can express within the sentimental distortions of language.
We do not bring all of this up randomly, of course, but to speak to some of our students who will have stumbled upon a stage of Endarkenment. The words we share in this report that would normally have been seen as uncharacteristic of our communication, will probably be heard more clearly than usual without contradiction to our usual communication.