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  1. ENERGY REPORT OCTOBER 2021 2021 OVERLEAVES ROLE: Server (emphasized all year) CENTER: Higher Intellectual (emphasized all year) (and Intellectual Center) GOAL: Re-evaluation (emphasized Jan - Mar) MODE: Perseverance (emphasized Apr - Jun) ATTITUDE: Cynic (emphasized Jul - Sep) CHIEF FEATURES: Martyrdom (emphasized Oct - Dec) OCTOBER launches into the Chief Feature of the year, Martyrdom. Martyrdom is not a new energy of 2021, but the emphasis on it is amplified from October to December. Depending on how one has navigated the year so far, or more precisely how one has navigated the Overleaves of the year, Martyrdom may or may not be amplified. If you found yourself in the Positive Poles of the Overleaves of the year so far, your personal emphasis on Martyrdom may be mild, but if the year has been mostly in the Negative Poles, Martyrdom may be quite challenging. On a global scale, Martyrdom is in high amplification as the world has been stuck in the Negative Poles for most of the year. Impatience and Martyrdom are all about the fear of losing control, with Impatience being afraid of losing control of time, and Martyrdom being afraid of losing control of space. Impatience will likely be involved as part of the emphasis of Martyrdom, but we will focus on Martyrdom. Martyrdom is likely to show up as higher anxiety, higher agitation, higher tension in one’s anticipation of events, more dread or defeat regarding the future, more sense of pointlessness, more blame, more resentment. For our students, this may show up passively and as an undercurrent that feels as if one is barely keeping one’s head above the water, but for younger souls, this is likely to fuel a need to act out violently and with hostility in some way that targets those blamed for why they feel victimized. This behavior may then amplify the Martyrdom of more passive individuals and the wave of defeat can be overwhelming. This wave of Martyrdom is parallel to a wave of Infinite Soul Energy that many of our students may have felt in some way. It is often subtle, but it may have shown up in bursts of inspiration, relief, sense of strength, renewed enthusiasm, and very high activity of dreaming. This is where we suggest that our students focus their attention if they have even a spark of enthusiasm or inspiration brought to their attention. This is a time for making changes that you have been meaning to make. It is a time for taking charge in ways that are meaningful and healthy rather than enduring and defeating. It is a time to pay attention to your impulses and your desires and intuition in ways that serve yourself and humanity. It is a time for you to honor and own the TRUTHS of what you have learned and what you know now. It is a time to pull together all of the Overleaves of the year in the most positive of poles that you can as a means to help free you and others from the Chief Feature of the year and the actual individual Chief Features. For many of our students, we think this season will bring an enthusiastic launch into a radical change that breaks patterns that were assumed to have been your responsibility to endure. This includes internal and external patterns that have kept you locked in ways that this year has revealed as the negative poles of the overleaves. In other words, have you found yourself in bondage rather than bonding/truly serving? Have you found yourself withdrawing from your life rather than simplifying it? Have you found yourself stuck and unchanging in your choices and actions rather than more flexibly persistent? Have you found yourself stuck in constantly denigrating and condemning rather than challenging what you see or how you see things? Infinite Soul Energy is moving out in ripples that add to individual and collective strength for bringing the change that is in alignment with evolution and progress, even as this may be violently resisted by some. Your “job” is to first apply this evolution and progress to your own life by honoring and acting on the truths that you have learned in this life, and refuse to be consumed by the lies that you have been told or that you tell yourself. This is true with or without the support of Infinite Soul Energy, but it is made a bit easier with this energy of support. AN ASIDE: We mentioned that this wave of Infinite Soul Energy ripples through various regions and individuals may increase dream activity. This may be a good time to begin tracking and recording dreams as you remember them. Many of our students are generating prophetic dreams and dreams that are relevant to the eventual Manifestation of the Infinite Soul. There may not be much that one can do about or with these dreams, but they may be useful and insightful at some point. It maybe of value to create a dedicated repository of dreams from the community to see if there are patterns. Overall, October looks to be fairly calm except for a quiet urge to break negative patterns that have been in place for far too long. We suggest that you trust yourselves as you consider what to do next. **** [approximate] DATES OF INTEREST: OCTOBER 16th - 20th: NEXUS - CONVERGENCE - This nexus appears to be a merging of parallels where there is the highest probability for Manifestation of the Infinite Souls within 12 months of at least one of the Infinite Souls. HELPFUL THOUGHTS OVER OCTOBER: I AM NOT A VICTIM OF THE FUTURE/I AM THE FUTURE - Rather than wait to see what the future brings, if you are in any position to do so, CREATE your future through your choices, actions, perspective, and compassion. The next 3 months can bring great support for such choices that participate in the creation of your future. You have been learning how to choose. You are also allowed to choose how to learn.
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  2. "Martyrdom being afraid of losing control of space." This has been happening to me personally. To make a long story short, we have been renting a house from a friend for the past 7 years. At the beginning of September, our landlord/friend had a major blowout with his wife and needed a place to stay. We opened up our house to him and he has been living with us for the past month and a half. The irony is not lost on me that our landlord moved in with us. Unfortunately, though, because of his divorce proceedings and custody battle over his kids, he needs the house back and has given us only 90 days to move out. It literally felt like the rug had gotten pulled from under us. We have wanted to move and purchase a home in a more desired location for a long time, but that was put on hold after my husband's mill shut down and he got laid off. Now we are being forced to move at the worst time. I have been a stay-at-home parent up until now and we can't put an offer on a house until my husband secures a job. Needless to say, we have been high, high stress. But...an inheritance coming to us that has been tied up in probate has finally wrapped up, so we should have enough to invest in a property, and my husband has a second interview today at a good company. Please send good vibes that he gets this job. Then we will be able to pull the trigger and hopefully get a home in the area so my kids can finish out the school year. Best case scenario, we can eventually rent out the home we buy when we are ready to move to our more desired location and earn some passive income. There are a lot of puzzle pieces floating in the air, and having Martyrdom as my Primary CF has not been easy. But I have been finding tranquility in taking things one day at a time and doing only what's within my control. Much love to everyone that's going through a rough time. I'm thankful to this community and the validation I receive from these Energy Reports.
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  3. MICHAEL SPEAKS – Open Floor – September 26, 2021 MEntity: Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin. Uma: First question is from Cong: Hi Michael! You indicated previously that Infinite Soul host candidates-- Pat McCabe (Woman Stands Shining), Kumi Naidoo, and Emma Gonzalez--are all from Cadre 11 or Cadre 12. So is poet Amanda Gorman. Are they from the Cadre 11/12 of our Energy Ring or previous Energy Ring? To be frank, it is very difficult to imagine Kumi being the Entity Mate of Donald Trump and Ted Cruz. If indeed this is the case, what makes them evolve so much faster than their typical Entity Mates? I will guess the Infinite Soul hosts also have very high Grand Cycle counts, which makes it even more interesting if they are in one of the later Cadres in our Energy Ring. MEntity: Your assessment is valid in that the latter two fragments are not from the same Energy Ring as the first 4 fragments. When requesting Overleaves of those well outside of what you might consider your own sense of energy, it can be helpful to request the Energy Ring Number for validation. Energy Rings have distinct energy signatures that the sensitive and aware may recognize as different. The latter fragments in question are from Energy Ring 5. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Sam has another IS question: Have any further IS hosts besides Emma Gonzalez, Kumi Naidoo, and Woman Stands Shining been identified? MEntity: No, but we see patterns that indicate public attention over the next 3 to 6 months brought to 2 candidates who are siblings. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Tom asks: Hi Michael, with the world moving toward a non-binary paradigm and breaking down old hierarchies, some of us think that the current terms for the Roles are becoming outdated, since a couple of them are traditionally male roles (particularly Priest and King), and they imply a hierarchy and specialness that are often assumed by newer students but aren't really applicable to an Old Soul teaching. What is your perspective on updating the Role names, and could you suggest a new set of names that are non-binary and non-hierarchical that students could consider adopting? MEntity: We are not attached to any terminology and actively encourage its evolution, particularly as language is something that is alive and of direct reflection of those using it. However, we tend to focus on evolving terms that have become irreparably damaged (such as Slave) or transcended (such as Male/Female Energy). Terms with historically heavy associations to binary representation, such as Priest, are of no concern as a priority as this role in society is evolving beyond those limitations. King is far more rigid in its binary association, even if Queen is added to help bring balance. We are not adverse to RULER. We expect KING will be replaced sooner than other terms. TomB: A question from the chat: Might 'Delegator' be a suitable substitute for King? MEntity: DELAGATE is quite acceptable. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Next is my question: I would like to know the Casting/Role, Soul Age/Level and Cadre/Entity, and Energy Ring, and anything else that is significant in the Overleaves of Mitch McConnell, and what Karma he has with the current cast of characters in power if any. MEntity: 6th Level Young Scholar-Cast Server from Cadre 11, Entity 2 of Energy Ring 5. To delineate the range of Karma for this fragment would require more dedicated time. This fragment is heavily burdened by Karma that has been avoided and compounded over the course of the current lifetime. The Karma could be said to be themed in: MANIPULATION Servers are of the most adept at manipulation. A Server who is overburdened can be of the most paralyzed or of the most dangerous in a society. By "most dangerous" we mean that Servers can find ways for others to carry the weight of their burdens to an extent that paralyzes others. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Annali is asking: I’d like to know Role and Casting, actual and manifested soul age, cadre and entity (and energy ring if outside of ER 2) of Boris Johnson, PM of the UK, and his life task (if time permits) MEntity: This is the 5th Level Young (manifesting Baby to Young) Sage-Cast Sage from Cadre 11, Entity 1 of Energy Ring 5. The Life Task for this fragment would be described as: TO ENCOURAGE ENTHUSIASM MEntity: NEXT Uma: AnnaD’s question is: You said that between 2023 and 2037 "there is a surge in climate change effects that seems to prompt concurrents to ensure survival during challenging times", what are the climate changes between 2023 and 2037 (and if you can, specify changes in major earth cities), (if that is what prompts the increase in human concurrents, if not, please identify what increases the concurrents) that increase risk to human (and animal/plant) life on earth please which prompt the increase in human concurrent creation? MEntity: The effects of climate change over the next 10 to 25 years looks to be related mostly to extremes of weather that literally changes the climate of regions that have known stability for hundreds or thousands of years. More flooding, more fires, more droughts, more disruption of food supply chains, more tsunamis, more tornadoes, hurricanes, more blizzards, and tropical storms that are relentless. In addition to all of this, the effects on stable currents affects some geographical plates to shift dramatically with earthquakes. And throughout this is likely more pandemics. It is not that all of this will happen within that window of time but that this window of time would be the bulk of events that would then require the next 10 to 50 years to recover and adapt. The momentum is quite strong but is still able to be altered, but we do not see most humans concerned with making the changes that would alter their future for the better in this way. This is not an all-at-once catastrophic apocalyptic event, so Essences will still want to incarnate and be a part of the experience of either altering, adapting, or forging bonds throughout these waves of extremes. Adding concurrents to the time frame would ensure more secure footing in the world, so to speak. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Jeroen’s question: Jupiter's moon Europa and Saturn's moons Enceladus and Titan are thought to have a subsurface/interior ocean containing saltwater. There may be other moons in our Solar System with subsurface oceans. Subsurface oceans are now thought by scientists to be commonplace in other star systems too. During the Cassini mission, evidence was found of Hydrothermal vents existing on Enceladus which release water heated by geothermal activity and releases minerals and other nutrients that could potentially support and attract life as part of an ecosystem. The compounds of hydrothermal vents were detected by the Cassini spacecraft from water geysers that erupted from the surface of Enceladus. From what you can see, do the moons of Europa, Enceladus, and Titan contain lifeforms as part of an ecosystem in their interior oceans that you could describe? MEntity: Yes, there are life forms. The most complex might be considered something like an electric eel. This may come to be validated in your lifetime. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Zahra’s question is about anti-vaxxers: I doubt anything would change their stance when defenses are this high. And I believe most people are only vaccine-hesitant instead of hardcore anti-vaxxers. How could we best deal with these two different groups of people and where do we draw the line? MEntity: When we said that the most threatening element to humanity at the moment is the dismantling of truth, this is one of the consequences of that dismantling. It would require an awakening on a scale that now requires trauma for that awakening. When an individual or a population awakens to Truth, it happens through willingness that leads one to the Truth or through trauma that sharpens the focus away from denial and delusion. Imagine the difference between one who is willing to consider the consequences of texting while driving vs one who denies the validity of these consequences. One does not have to fly through a windshield to consider the truth of the consequences of texting and driving, but the person who flies through the windshield now knows that same truth. Those who are delusional or in denial and refuse to participate in practices that consider the well-being of the masses can likely only learn from trauma now. Keep in mind that most who reject the truth of healthful participation in a society are likely Young or Baby. The rebellious teens and the tumbling toddlers are either going to learn from those who are willing to teach, or learn through painful consequences. With delusional leaders who have large platforms as means to teach while dismantling the truth, then the teens and toddlers, so to speak, have no other real means of learning but through eventual trauma. The average Mature and Old Soul can continue to keep the invitation open to learn, and/or focus on ensuring the well-being of those who are already learning. MEntity: NEXT Uma: Marigold’s question is related to virus mutations. Michael have said that viruses do not carry their own consciousness but are instead carriers of collective consciousness. With that in mind, does this (collective consciousness) also affect viral mutations in the sense of a virus increasing or decreasing its level of danger/virulence to the public? And if it does, then how? Can human behaviors such as selfishness or altruism and concern for others exhibited on a large scale, make a virus evolve to be more or less severe? MEntity: Mutations of a virus tend to reflect the severity and complexity of that which is already spreading and can come to represent a specialty of what that virus carries as an impact. For instance, the common cold is a means for individuals to process grief. Humans deny their grief to such an extent that the common cold is... common. The Coronavirus is a family of viruses that have been carriers for human processes for eons and those processes are fuel for the viruses. The short answer, then, is yes, collective consciousness does affect viral stability, mutation, or diminishment. It may be of value to our students to arrange for discussion about various illnesses, disease, and any viruses associated so that we can delineate what it means for the host and what fuels the virus. Marigold: Can you at least share more about what fuels the current SARS-COV-2 and what it means for the host? MEntity: The more a population is a source of similar fuel for a virus, the more likely it is to be contagious and the more contagious the virus, the more fuel has accumulated for the virus to consume in that population. For example, SARS-CoV-2 is fueled by REJECTION. This is rejection of life, rejection of joy, rejection of others, rejection of self, etc. This does not mean that one who is positive for COVID-19 is guilty of having done something wrong and is being punished. Viruses do not work this way. SARS-CoV-2 is fueled by what grew to be a mass collective level of Rejection from many directions for many reasons. As it has given rise to COVID-19, the reality of the extremes of Rejection among the masses has become front and center of most conversations and awareness. We know this level of consideration for how viruses work may not have technology developed to track correlating collective moods or psychological patterns, so we suggest taking this as a matter for consideration, not as a way to avoid or treat an illness. It is also important to note that a pandemic puts everyone at risk for hosting the virus, even if they are not great sources fuel for the virus. In other words, those who catch the common cold are likely doing so for very personal reasons vs a person who carries SARS-CoV-2 who is merely in the path of the momentum. We must conclude here for today. Good day to each of you. Goodbye, for now.
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  4. Definitely sense the high anxiety, high agitation, and an intense feeling that I'm losing control. This triggered my questions about bipolar the other day. A younger version of myself will handle this differetnly, probably with more recklessness. What I have learned over the years through Michael, and many other teachers, is how to ground myself using various tools such as meditation. It's still very difficult to do so, but I learned to "snap out" the agitated state and become an observer of it. I believe in Buddhism tradition it is called "Vipassanā", but there are many ways to do it. thank you, Troy, Michael, and the community for empower me through your wisdom and kindness.
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  5. I found myself remembering this beautiful OMW, On Loving and Being Loved...and highlighting most of it because it is amazingly good! (below an extract) so I wanted to ask you my friends How do you Realize you are Loved? can you validate the channeling? (I most certainly do!) and how would you define your Love Language? ( in your own words / using the Gary Chapman terminology) I look forward to read your experiences... and if you feel inclined to acknowledge fellow TLE'ers for participating in your own realization of Love, please do!! (and give them a nice surprise hehe ) I am specially curious about @Warriors and @Kings since I haven't experienced much of those energies in my personality dynamics and Essence grand cycles. this conversation feels especially inspiring and vital to me because my Essence/ Life could be summed up in this question how can I LOVE "Better"? How can I love you better/the way you want and need? thank you so much, and Soul Hugs!!! ~Ro ********************* Before we go into the dynamics of the Personality and how Loving and Being Loved works within each Lifetime, we will point out the general themes for each Role and how that pursuit of Loving and Being Loved shows up over lifetimes. Every Role has its blind spot to love, and when that blind spot finds light, that Role usually experiences a profound exposure to Love. Before describing these generalities for the Roles, we will say that every fragment, regardless of the Personality, lifetime, circumstances, etc, is ALWAYS LOVED by someone, somewhere, in some way. First, there is the Love from your own Essence that cannot be altered. Its baseline is Love, Unconditional and constant. However, it learns to Love in different ways over lifetimes until all Facets or Degrees, etc., are collected as experiences and developed strongly. But there is no lifetime that is born without at least the Nurturing Love of Essence. However, more than that Loves you. If you are animated, conscious, and living your life, you are Loved. It is one of the primary life forces that allows for Sentience. That being said, the Role does have its own blind spots to Love in terms of receiving it, despite its capacity for giving it to its own Personalities. No amount of rejection or blind spots can deter Love, for the Essence or the Personality, but it can deter the conscious experience of it, and that conscious experience of it is vital for collecting all forms of Love over lifetimes. We will describe those now: For SERVERS, the experience of Loving comes so easily that at some point over the lifetimes there is a period of time where it is blocked as much as possible so that there is a well-rounded experience of Love, and this gives insight into how to work around blockages in others. This period of blockage is cyclical and within each Level of Soul Age, so it is rather common enough that we can describe it as a pattern of significance. Servers, then, more than most Roles, tend to need PROOF OF LOVE in order to bring light to through their blind spot. Keep in mind that we are describing blind spots, and the means through which to bring light to that blind spot, but these conditions for experiencing Love does not equal a distortion of Love or a lack of Love. Love, if you will, does not mind the hoops that each of us requires of it, which we realize is a paradox or irony. In other words, the person who Loves the Server who requires Proof would not be offended by that necessity for Proof, and would allow room for that necessity. Because Servers are often so overlooked or taken for granted, this wish for Proof make go on as a silent longing, and the Server may never give voice to that craving. They may even dissuade it or dismiss the attempts. At first. But they will also know when it is true. When it is Love. And that will not be forgotten. PRIESTS, more than any other Role, tend to require being SURPRISED by Love as a means to bring light to their blind spot. Priests will often note that they are Loved, and even feel that Love, because, like all Roles, there is a default kind of Love that shows up in various ways. The Servers' is Nurturing, while the Priests' is Altruism. That Altruism is a faceless kind of Love, so the blind spot is the focusing of Love on a face, so to speak. There is nothing more profound, in terms of Love, to a Priest than to suddenly realize he or she IS Loved. By someone specific, or for a specific reason, or quality. Priests rather presume they are Loved, in general, but when that is given a face or a form, it sheds light in their blind spot. ARTISANS, more than any other Role, usually need to SEE that they are Loved as a means to bring light to their blind spot. By this we mean that they are often quite affected by displays of Love, showcasing of Love, an aesthetic means of bringing it to their attention. Artisans, despite their capacity to Create, have the most challenging time HAVING, and therefore, when Love is made tangible in some way that is beautiful to them, Love is let in. SAGES, more than any other Role, need you to TELL THEM that they are Loved, in order to bring light to their blind spot. More than any other Role, they need to hear it. You can be the most difficult and challenging person in his or her life, but if you can express a heartfelt, genuine Love into WORDS, the Sage knows that everything will be ok. Though it is important for the words to be genuine, even the most-fleeting of "I Love You's" for a Sage can often make a difference. But the more genuine, the more profound the embedding of that Love. WARRIORS, more than any other Role, tend to require you to WIN THEM OVER to Love as a means to bring light to their blind spot. This is different from "proving" Love, in that it does not require proof as much as it does endurance. Of course, that endurance is often experienced as Loyalty, and Loyalty is Love to the Warrior. KINGS, more than any other Role, tend to require you to LET THEM LOVE YOU FIRST before he or she can let you love him or her. Of course, this does not mean you cannot Love the King, but it does mean that he may not experience it until he has decided he can Love you. "Letting the King Love You First" would simply mean that you go about your business of being yourself, with no airs, no pretense, no agenda, and this gives the King time to Love you. The SCHOLAR, more than any other Role, tends to require you to LOVE THEM ANYWAY, as a means to bring light to their blind spot. Scholars, of all Roles, have the hardest time understanding and experiencing Love, and therefore can be quite obtuse to these matters. Your Love must "make sense" to them before they can experience it, and no matter what you do, say, or are can alter the process of the Scholar needing to find the equation that fits to make that sense. The more data you can provide, the better, which means this Role more than most needs to be pushed into Love, led with a strong hand and heart. We will recap briefly each of the Roles for consistency of correlations so that you can see the pattern: SERVERS - need Proof - defaults to Nurturing Love PRIESTS - need Surprises/Faces - defaults to Altruistic Love Both of these factors of need are extensions of the correlating Chief Negative Features of Self-deprecation and Arrogance, which are about Being Seen Too Closely, and Not Being Seen Close Enough. Self-deprecation is about Not Being Seen Close Enough, or Being Invisible, etc, hence the necessity for Proof that you can see that fragment. Arrogance is about being Seen Too Closely, being Too Vulnerable, but if you can expose yourself, show your face, it can help the Priest to overcome that obstacle. ARTISANS - need to SEE Love - default to Alliance Love SAGES - need to HEAR Love - default to Comprehensive Love The needs here relate to Self-Destruction and Greed, which are about Having Too Much, and Not Having Enough. It could be said, then, that the Artisan needs permission to WANT Love, while the Sage needs permission to NEED Love. Demonstrating Love for the Artisan is acceptable to the Artisan because once it is in creation, and created for him or her, it is often okay then to Want it. Telling the Sage that you Love her, and telling her often, is important to the Sage because it means that it is okay to Need that Love. Artisans can tend to "take" love if it is not offered, creating manipulative strategies to secure it without looking like she wants it, and the Sage can often come off as "needy" and resort to quiet or demonstrative tantrums in her wish for more direct and honest expressions of Love. WARRIORS - need to be Won Over - defaulting to Reciprocal Love KINGS - need you to Let Them Love - defaulting to Agape Love These needs are correlated to MARTYRDOM and IMPATIENCE, which are about Losing Control of Space, and Losing Control of Time. In other words, the Warrior needs shared "territory" to Love, and The King needs shared "time" to Love. SCHOLAR - needs to be Pushed to Love - defaulting to Appreciative Love The Scholar's needs are extensions of Stubbornness, and this means in terms of Love that there is resistance to new input, new data, new meanings, etc. The Scholar, then, needs EXPERIENCE/Experiments to Love.
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  6. i Whith nfinite soul or not... my dreams are still predominantly about my family... IoI... It seems that not even an infinite soul is able to change that... IoI... This month things happened that made me a little more excited... as I discovered another Brazilian Michael studant. it's nice to be able to talk about it in Portuues too. my parents spent a few days here..and honestly it was the least stressful visit since 2019. I wouldn't say it was enjoyable, but it wasn't stressful. Despite what was said in the energy report, my mother seemed less affected by the martyrdom than at other times. And for the first time I asked how long they would stay and my mom didn't give me a passive aggressive answer. She simply replied…until Tuesday. Not a bit tiring because I had to pay attention to everything I say...but it wasn't stressful. Keeping the conversations superficial is something that has worked well... maybe I have found a way to have some contact with my parents without my mental health being affected... Maybe that's part of that enthusiasm that Mihcael talked about.
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  7. This rings 100% true. I wont go too into detail, but I have not been doing well this month. I feel like I'm running on a lifeline. I've been full of erratic mood shifts and energy crashes and have been barely sustaining myself in my struggle against thoughts of quitting and shutting down everything. On top of that my sleep and health are horrible. In short, I feel stuck. One day early this month, I had a dream that was viscerally real unlike any other. It was a wake from a dream within a dream kind of dream and I couldnt escape it. Id gone to bed early that night because I couldnt function. Ill be honest I was so lucid in that dream that I was 100% not on Earth, nowhere close to Earth. That was the Astral Plane. Id never seen colours so vibrant and movements so elegant. It felt like someone made the dream for me and I was living through it. I think the dream was meant to be an inspiration for me to keep living, because I was losing interest in living. Ive had more dreams since then but theyre less lucid and more vague. Still wonderful though. Im making lots of connections and enjoying things. Ill pay more attention to my dreams. Since that dream ive still been very borderline of breakdown, but my friends are keeping me going. I reached out for help at school so I can manage my workload better. Im nowhere close to being through my turning point, but at least im moving.
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  8. Well, that feels like it’s talking directly to me. Wow. Wowowowowiwoe. I just had a really difficult (albeit 90% one sided ) conversation this morning that needed to happen. I’ve been stressing about it for months (maybe years subconsciously. ) It isn’t resolved, but it’s a step that I’d needed to take for a long time and has cleared up a lot of the uncertainty I’ve been experiencing in my brain. It feels so uncomfortable, standing up for myself and my needs, but I’m glad I made a solid attempt even if it didn’t go as smoothly as I was hoping.
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  9. I don't know if this is IS energy, but "alignment" has been a big inspiration for me lately -- alignment with my truths, my values, my personality. I've been paying attention to people in my circle who are role models for that sense of alignment (Pat McCabe, TLE student @Giedre Kotryna, Susannah Conway), and they inspire me to frequently return to my truths instead of getting lost in the stress and hustle of life. Then express those truths back out to the world through my writing. I've been taking Susannah Conway's business course for two weeks now, and it is like a balm for my soul. It's a business course about how to create a heart-centered business for intuitive, sensitive people. Every lesson so far has been about returning to yourself, nurturing yourself, sharing yourself. It's been deeply healing.
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  10. Thank you so much Troy and Michael!! so much to validate. Heightened dreams and I really felt that Nexus. Fatigue, body aches, even feeling disconnected from my body as if my soul was escaping out there haha!! pretty much spend the weekend curled up in bed listening to music. But still, I feel really Inspired and re-committed to my dreams and goals!! For many of our students, we think this season will bring an enthusiastic launch into a radical change that breaks patterns that were assumed to have been your responsibility to endure. This includes internal and external patterns that have kept you locked in ways that this year has revealed as the negative poles of the overleaves. In other words, have you found yourself in bondage rather than bonding/truly serving? Have you found yourself withdrawing from your life rather than simplifying it? Have you found yourself stuck and unchanging in your choices and actions rather than more flexibly persistent? Have you found yourself stuck in constantly denigrating and condemning rather than challenging what you see or how you see things? this!! so much this!! I'm recognizing this deep-seated frustration and worry about my mom and brother. My brother is studying engineering day and night, and he doesn't have time to properly take care of himself, eat well or clean and do chores with me. I feel for him because studies take up all of his energy, but I also think...why are you taking so many courses per semester? (well, the shitty educational system is guilty with their stupid requirements) why are you doing this to yourself /us!? LOL. Also, he never really learned how to cook or clean. And I don't have the energy or patience to 'teach him". My mom's health and mood is also unstable, some days she spends the whole day on bed, others she goes on shopping sprees. I'm caught up in between frustration, compassion, bitterness. I love them but there are increasing things that I don't like about them. My mom has become super codependent on me, and I'm trying to resolve feelings of guilt if I suddenly leave my family's apartment and never come back LOL. My cousin (daughter of my mom's sister) is getting divorced and all my mom's side of the family are angry and disappointed at the husband (well, poor man turned out to have some mental health issues that stem from his abusive father and emotionally turbulent childhood...somehow my cousin didn't see this before and the red flags began to pop up during 2020) My little niece is staying with my cousin in my aunt's house for now poor baby. she's only one year old. I just want a smooth way to transition out of this place. But I'm bracing for challenge and accepting it might not be easy. Right now I'm self-employed and my income is enough for food, bills and occasional gifts to myself, but not enough to rent an apartment. I thought of having a roommate but after all this time living with people, I really need a good vacation and a place just for me. On a brighter side, tomorrow is my Psychology "graduation". It was supposed to be in 2020 but it got postponed due to covid. And it's going to be online via Zoom my university sent us a package with the graduation cap and a squirrel stuffed animal since they are our mascots LOL
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  11. SYNOPSIS of Grand Cycle #1 Your first Grand Cycle was through a species that would be described as a kind of living fire whose Soul Ages were tied to the fuel that was used to sustain the life. The more simple and short-lived the fuel, the younger the Soul Age. These “fire bodies” were not dependent upon oxygen and so behaved very differently from what you may understand as fire. These were sustainable bodies that could not only move freely but would not destroy their sources. Instead, the fuel would also evolve, or be chemically altered to become a variation that could fuel another life for someone else. Early incarnations burned bright and fast and could almost be seen as sparkles when entire Entities would incarnate. As the Soul aged, so did the capacity to sustain the life through fuels that burned indefinitely. The older the soul, the softer the fire, so as the cycle of Sentience came to a close, the planet appeared as a beautiful sunset across the surface of lavender/purple flames. This species never met any other species.
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  12. From a panel including Pat McCabe (Woman Stands Shining) from October 20, 2021. She is the first to speak on the panel. Quote from Pat McCabe speaking in the panel: "If we look around us at every other lifeform: plants, bumblebees, salamanders, elephants, clouds, mountains, stones, and yes stones are alive, we can see that every other member of that sacred of hoop of life, every single member, lives their life in such that they only ever support all other life. They only ever cause all other life to thrive."
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  13. 4 pins in two trees is all that was introduced into the trees to mount the house,(fluid movement). they don't mind at all and thrive after 12 years. Squirrels nibbled away the rope knot handle but you can still enter through the door if you are "woodsey".
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  14. I think that with the Inspirational Roles there is a bias in the sense that Priests usually are the ones that can get a lot of flak and Servers are seen as the more agreeable and nice but it seems to me we have not explored the different facets of the negative pole of the Server Role. By the way, in connection to this I just thought I'd mention that in my opinion in a number of mainstream shows and movies the main villain or antagonist usually looks more like the stereotype or caricature of a very negative pole King or Priest. You may also get the evil inventor or scientist trope (aka the bad Artisans and Scholars), etc. but, damn, Server-like fictional antagonists seem more rare in comparison to others. I would love to see more nuanced and varied depction of negative Server qualities a little bit more often. Maybe screenwriters should consult Michael. Here's a funny article from The Onion I remember reading some time ago on McConnell. Mitch McConnell Wonders If He Could’ve Done More To Harm People In Private Sector Michael's answer to my question aligns with my thoughts and intuition. I think that one of the reasons for the worsening of the variants and their higher transmissibility is because many, many people just continue doubling down on the Rejection theme which fueled this whole thing in the first place. First there was a rejection of many public health measures like masks, social distancing, etc. and there still is but now we also have the added rejection of vaccines on top of this. Then there is greed and the rejection of pharmaceutical companies when it comes to patent waivers even while the pandemic rages on. I'm imagining in my head a really toxic sandwich as a visual metaphor for all of this. With the different ingredients being the various types of rejection, stacked on top of each other.
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  15. The revelation about Energy Ring 5 was a nice surprise. It is true that till now (at least me) when we were getting profiles, we assumed it "must" be from ER 1 or 2. Also, the theme of rejection regarding Covid resonated deeply. Michaels have been hammering the topic of rejection (of truth) this year in many instances in the monthly Energy Reports.
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  16. Martyrdom manifest... ... Police are quitting their jobs ... Healthcare workers are quitting their jobs (HEALTHCARE WORKERS!!!!) ... Firemen are quitting their jobs ... State Patrol are quitting their jobs ... Lots of people are quitting their jobs Often giving up time in the job that would soon provide them a nice comfy retirement, benefits, healthcare, etc. Never to qualify for unemployment either. Just simply jobless. All because they refuse to get the COVID vaccination. Bye, Felicia!!! I got my 3rd Pfizer COVID vaccine yesterday along with the flu vaccine. Hunkering down the CF crazy season here.
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  17. So THAT'S what it was! I had a vivid dream during this period, too, about attending a family's really fun Halloween party. Everyone was having a great time! There was plenty of food, drink, treats, and the guests were all people who loved each other. Either COVID hadn't happened, or everyone was fully vaccinated, based on the dream's visual images. Their home was a lovely big house that resonated in a good way- warm, comfortable, and decorated with wonderfully-creative Halloween-themed items of all kinds. I had a sense it was followup to a past dream I had about the same family. We've never met in-person in this life. They live in the American state of Virginia- a place I've always thought resonated with feelings of "home" and looked beautiful, but never been in this lifetime! In the first dream, the family's home and neighbourhood had been devastated by the severe flooding that happened in real-life at the time (a few years ago). Then, I was serving as a kind of advisor / counsellor as they struggled to come to terms with their loss, and figure out what they were going to do next. If the second dream is "right", they've rebuilt their lives and bounced back spectacularly! Enough that there's plenty for them to celebrate!
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  18. A touching story between a gorilla and her human companion. I teared up while reading it. "But in a public statement, Mr. Bauma said that getting to know Ndakasi had “helped me to understand the connection between humans and great apes and why we should do everything in our power to protect them.” “I loved her like a child,” he added, “and her cheerful personality brought a smile to my face every time I interacted with her.”" https://www.nytimes.com/2021/10/07/world/africa/ndakasi-the-mountain-gorilla-selfie.html
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  19. September 30, 2021 marks the first designated Day for Truth and Reconciliation. Pat McCabe Speaks On this day we have chosen, designated, as “Orange Shirt Day,” a day to acknowledge and co-witness - at last - the actions, the consciousness, the moral downfall, that took place in the residential boarding schools set up for the kidnapped children of indigenous peoples, such that we would now be finding large pits on the premises of these “schools” filled with the skeletons of thousands of children’s bodies, on this day, I must be very mindful. It is my understanding that I walk in a “free will construct.“ This means that what I choose to do with my will is perhaps the most powerful influence I have. Part of the expression of my will is my consent. What do I consent to? What do I dissent to? As it turns out, it matters hugely. Like gravity, Spiritual law bows to the forces of my will, and is ever accounting for how my will interacts with the will of those around me: Human Will, Plant Will, Four-Legged Will, the Will of the Water, and more. It is quite the set up. Every living being has the will to enact life, or every living being has sovereignty, and each will is independent of every other will, and yet all of our actions, even our presence, our choices for the use of our will, affects every other being. I have been calling this dynamic, the ultimate three-legged-race. It has been proposed to me that part of the spiritual law around free will is that no one being’s will may overtake, over power, another being’s will without an accounting coming due. So it is very important for me to be aware of where that line is at all times, how is my will allowing every other free will? Is my will encroaching on another’s free will? Is any other’s free will encroaching on my will? This is such a powerful gift that has been given to each one, the use of our will, and our consent, in all of our relating and activities, and yet in the authoritarian, hierarchical, power-over-paradigm way that most of us have been subjected to through elaborate indoctrination (including those residential boarding schools), we are led away from this amazing spiritual gift, this power that has been granted to each one of us. We are instead led to believe that we have few choices, that there are many, many forces that have the right to overpower our choices, our ability to live, the manner in which we live, and which may also violate the very earth that gives us life. We are taught that this is a “given.” But it is not. Everything, every action, ultimately, must gain our consent or it is in violation of spiritual law and every infraction of this spiritual law requires an accounting. Each individual has so much power, what happens when you talk each one out of that power? How do you do that? You do that, by making each one believe the “given.“ It is a “given” that we relinquish our will and our power frequently, says all of the indoctrinating systems we are embedded within. If we accept this as true, then we give our consent, wholesale, to that construct and all of its demands. We no longer have to engage with our own free will, our choices, our consents and dissents, very much at all after that acquiescence (and there is some relief in that). This is where we stand at the moment by and large as a species: Duped into forfeiting our greatest power and spiritual gift given, for navigating a free will construct, on an Earth of Wisdom, Radical Abundance and Fearless Generosity, endless Creativity and Beauty, a mirror of ourselves. The firm declaration of my consent or dissent in the face of the illusion of towering, authoritarian, power seems flimsy from my indoctrinated mindset. “It does not matter whether I give my consent or not,“ says the narrative, “they are just going to do it anyway, what’s the point?” It turns out there is a very important point. My consent or dissent actually determines the course of the future, and sometimes the present, and for that matter, sometimes even into the past. They also, the would-be authoritarians, are deceived into thinking that they have that power when they do not. All of their brute force tactics, all of their lying and stealing in its many, many forms, is a boomerang. And so they will likely step over the line, the boundary, of my consent, but this will set into motion vast wheels of consequence and destiny. That’s how I like to imagine it now: vast wheels of consequence and destiny. I may not get to witness this accounting with these brown, human, eyes, but I am told, it will come. There is no other way. It is as certain and impartial as gravity. This is how I am oriented when I look at this day of acknowledgment of how brutal, heartless, cruel, depraved, humanity can become when we are deceived out of the true nature of reality, when we do not understand the construct that we are placed within, when we misunderstand Power, and try to have it where there is none. I ask of myself today, how shall I set my powerful gift of free will into motion on this day? Do I consent to make myself relative only to those horrific events of the past? Do I want to disregard Spiritual law, and try to bring about an accounting by imposing my will over the will of others? What is the highest possibility for Life, Light, and Love, that I can contribute to with my will on this day? Spirit has told me that I am an experiment. The kidnapping of native children, brutalizing them, and imprisoning them, in these “schools,” forcing them into a knowledge system and an indoctrination that was foreign to them, and to their branches of humanity, was a massive violation of spiritual law of one will overcoming the will of others. And there is an accounting that must come due for it. Perhaps this is what we are witnessing now. There are choices to be made by each one of us relative to these events. How shall we view them? How shall they lead another powerful spiritual gift that we have been given, our emotions? How shall they affect our thoughts, and dreams, and actions? Do they inhibit us and cause us to contract? Can they open us to new possibilities that cause us to soar? Who says? Who do I look to, to know how I am “supposed to act, think, feel?” Why? What does life ask of me at this moment? How does the co-witnessing of the discovery of these bodies align with what life is asking of me in this moment? My grandparents and parents went to missionary residential boarding schools. I am the first generation who was not subjected to that particular process. This is why Spirit says that I am an experiment. The experiment is to see who I will be, what my choices will be, what my vistas are able to hold, given that I am surrounded by those who were subjected to such a deep violation. The truth is, I was not subjected to this violation. I did not literally experience that will overtaking my will. I do not have that accounting coming due to me. But is the momentum of it enough to sweep me into the flash flood breakage and debris swirling in the human psyche as these graphic violations are unearthed and put on display? My free will is being actively seduced by this opportunity for rage, despair, anxiety, revenge, hate, to identify inappropriately, with those who were in the battle of wills. Spirit says to me, you were not there. You are not subject to those mathematics. You are accountable for your life, for your time, and for the events you find yourself in, right now. Spirit has said, those children have already paid the price, you do not need to pay it again. Do not jump into the grave with them, if you would meet your own time and your own circumstances. This input is somewhat disruptive to my story, my belief, my consent to, “intergenerational trauma.” Also to my story of loyalty. Also to a fundamental way in which I have been lead to hold my cultural identity. If it were coming from any other source, it would be hard for me to entertain, much less allow it to begin to reshape me. Because this was the named day, it has brought me to the point of giving an answer. My answer is, I am loyal to Earth, I am loyal to Life, I am loyal to serving a Future that is trying to find its opening among us. I bless the spirits of those who went before me with my prayers for their peace and solace. I bless the spirits of the children, and I bless the spirits of their violators as well. I will look for every way to further Life, to uphold the Honor of Being Human being, and I will listen for my identity outside of the events of the past only. Who does Mother Earth need me to be right now? Who does Spirit ask me to be right now? Who has Spirit made possible, in me, right now? I will listen for my identity in the Future that is arriving. I give my will to the answers to these questions at this time. Photo by Daniel A. Brown
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  20. Hi guys. My name's Sylvia, I'm a Michael Teachings student and I'm from Brazil. This is my first time here, I usually do my researchs by myself. Does anyone speaks portuguese here? I'm releasing some content about MT in portuguese and creating a website (hopefully it will be released soon). I'm looking for some students, colleagues and collaborators to help me with the website. Greetings from Brazil
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  21. I do enjoy when we can get rapid fire responses like this. It helps to open up lines of questioning that may not be considered before.
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  22. @William Hromada I am seeing more of this attitude of people choosing to lose their employment because they refuse to get vaccinated. It is such a weird hill to choose to die on. It seems as though it is the epitome of not being able to change one's beliefs in the face of correct information that contradicts their viewpoint. It seems like stubbornness and martyrdom. But honestly, this is these people's choice. It is a shame that (again) the choice of those who refuse to listen to medical science affects all of us. Refusing to vaccinate allows this covid-19 to continue to mutate, so that we have to continue to create vaccines to keep up with Northern and Southern hemisphere winter viral variants. People choosing to lose their jobs because this vaccine is *a threat* to them. FFS. Endless shrugs over here.
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  23. Good to hear that you are making progress with your mother! Being able to have a stress free conversation is amazing.
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  24. So in this Transcript, Michael revealed the shift into the Mature Soul Age is a lot like going through a Collective 4th Internal Monad. --- For the clueless, the Stages of the 4th Internal Monad are: 4th IM as a whole: -Acquiescence +Self-Realization Stage 1: INITIATION: -Indifference +Enthusiasm Stage 2: INTROSPECTION: -Brooding +Awareness Stage 3: REALIZATION: -Separation +Freedom Stage 4: MANIFESTATION: -Otiose +Purpose Stage 5: CONTENTMENT: -Contention +Satisfaction Stage 6: MAGNETIZATION: -Repulsion +Attraction Stage 7: EMANATION: -Incongruity +Alignment --- Michael said we started this process in 1987, at the Harmonic Convergence. This initiated the sequence from the 1st Stage: -Indifference. At the time of the transcript, posted November 24 2019, Michael said we'd progressed through the 1st & 2nd Stages in the +Poles and had begun the 3rd and 4th Stages in the -Poles. In other words, we were looping around issues of -Separation and -Otiose. Of course me being me, I wanted to look at history since 1987 to see when we shifted into the various stages and poles. It's been a few years since that transcript, Im fairly sure we've progressed into more stages and I wanted to map out my thoughts on that, substantiate them and offer some inspiration. My current idea of when we hit each pole is: Collective 4th IM is Initiated into -Indifference, with the Harmonic Convergence in August 1987. This is the sense of trust that things can and should shift into a new, truly global world. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Enthusiasm can be found in 4th IM Stages. We shift into +Enthusiasm in November 1989, with the Fall of the Berlin Wall. This provides a boost of inspiration to the idea that we no longer have to be defined by old Authoritarian structures. This is also when the World Wide Web grew towards publication and global usage. We shift into the Introspection of -Brooding around September 2001 with the 9/11 Attacks shocking the world. This brings a deep plummet into reassessing what is wrong in society, and whether the current American Superpower will even withstand the coming challenges. The optimism of the 90s is over, replaced by a dreadful War on Terror, Homeland Security Act, Rise of Big Data and Mass Surveillance. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Awareness can be found in 4th IM Stages and AnnaD's IM Session. We shift into +Awareness around December 2012, when the Winter Solistice passes and nothing happens. After years of holding on, expecting a collapse or transformation, this is when we understand worrying is futile, and nothing will change without our participation. - Note: Michael said in the January 2012 Energy Report that "December 21st, 2012 has moved to become a kind of anchoring effect of the Mature Soul consciousness and paradigm shift. Since 1988, the population that has been incarnated has fluctuated over and over between having more Mature and more Young, almost on a yearly basis, but this current year may bring that to a conclusion, with a momentum in place that keeps the population sustained as having mostly Mature Souls at any given time." This means that this date represents when Humanity officially became a Mature Paradigm, reflecting a +Awareness of that reality. We shift into the Realization of -Separation with the Election of Donald Trump in November 2016. This proves a shocking realization of the political division, extremism and lack of responsibility our governments have. It also highlighted the separation felt internationally towards Russia, China and the United States. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Freedom can be found in Luciana's IM Session and AnnaD's IM Session. We shift into the Manifestation of -Otiose around March 2018 with the Nexus Bubble of that year. This brings attention to the addiction and complacency to violence that Humanity has, notably reflected in the Stoneman Douglas High School Shooting & March for Our Lives Movement intent on addressing Gun Control issues. But also in Vladimir Putin's 4th Election, North Korean Tensions and the US-China Trade War. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Purpose can be found in Avi's IM Session and Michael's IM Session. The March 2018 Energy Report has a good description of the Nexus Bubble and state of the world then. We shift next into the Contentment of -Contention with the May 2020 Black Lives Matter Movement inspired towards change after the unjust killing of Black man George Floyd by a White police man. The contention around Socioeconomic Oppression & Injustice, and the reality of Racism enters most conversations around the world now. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Satisfaction can be found in Royce & Marius' IM Session, Geraldine's IM Session and DianeHB's IM Session. We shift into the Magnetization of -Repulsion come January 2021 thanks to the Capitol Riots by White Supremacists and Trump Supporters denying his loss. We also explored the Rise & Denial of Vaccines here. This is a clear physical confrontation and reflection of the truths and lies people believe. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Attraction can be found in Maureen's True Love Session, Oscar's IM Session, Tincha's IM Session, DianeHB's 2nd IM Session and Dawn's IM Session. We shift into the Emanation of -Incongruity in September 2021. This is the feeling of just having to deal with what is, when we know it isn't who we are or want to be anymore. It is the consistency of inconsistency. The Climate Inaction lambasted by Greta Thunberg, Texas Abortion Ban, Facebook's Whistleblower Crisis, Disconnect between People and Government etc. are examples of incongruity. - Note: An exploration of this pole and +Alignment can be found in Martha's IM Session, Leela's IM Session, DianeHB's 2nd IM Session, Dawn's IM Session and Dawn's Moving through Grief Session. This is where I think we are today. Stuck in several negative poles, feeling overwhelmed and exhausted by the Separation, Otiose, Contention, Repulsion and Incongruity. You know what else Michael said in the November 2019 transcript? "The shift to the Positive Poles is likely to come by March of 2020, but we will have to look again." Yeah, no. Turns out that's not what ended up happening *cue eyerolls*. It's possible we could just complete the 4th IM with all these -Poles stacked up. But that's not of interest to me and I would guess most of you too, so I want to redirect attention to the positive poles we have yet to reach as of October 2021. These are +Freedom, +Purpose, +Satisfaction, +Attraction, and +Alignment. Even though I feel so dissatisfied and tired and paralyzed, thinking of what it will be like for us to reach those +Poles makes me feel excited and enthusiastic. So I dont give up. Freedom from the Pandemic and Authoritarian ideologies. Purpose towards a sustainable future worth fighting for. Satisfaction from all the persistence we make to reach some great results. Attraction of communities working together on solutions. Alignment with the greater truths of life, and our own Earth, reflected by our actions. I get to be alive through that, through this, and I really do look forward to participating in these shifts.
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  25. LOL - I have a Scholar husband, too! I've had to teach him to tell me often that he loves me. I also had to teach him to hold me when I was crying instead of looking at me hopelessly lost, not knowing what to do. Luckily, my youngest son is a Sage and lives with us. There is no shortage of expressive love going back and forth here!
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  26. REGARDING DREAMS: I have been having incredibly lucid dreams with absurd themes. Below is a small sampling. BEES I couldn’t figure out why they suddenly appeared in my dream. I was dreaming about something else and kept getting distracted by bees. I never felt threatened, but they were hovering in a swarm and locked onto my face like little drones watching me. Like if I moved fast or slow they would move exactly with me. Just hovering and looking at me. CREAMED CHEDDAR AND JALAPENOS I dreamt that I was getting some new age treatment for my very disturbing mystery symptoms that I've been enduring for a few years now. I was in a new age-y clinic on a massage table, naked, new age music and nice ambiance, and I was about to get a treatment. The woman with gloves came toward me and said matter of fact and professionally to roll over on my side. She was carrying a bowl of soft cheddar spread with pickled jalapeños and scooping a handful up as she neared me. I said, are you sure that's a thing? Will this work? And she gave me an epic eyeroll and said, who is the professional here... and she proceeded to smear my asshole with soft cheddar and jalapeño dip. I could actually feel her poking the pickled jalapeños in and trying to keep them from sliding off. The cheddar was melting and I could smell it. I looked back at her and said, well it smells good! [WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH MY DREAM BRAIN!?] MICE/RATS I dreamt that my apartment building (a dream version, not the one from my waking state) was infested with mice and rats. They were so thick that they were on every inch of the floor and up the stairwell in my building. You couldn't walk without stepping on them and they didn't scatter or scurry, they were just standing around making noises. They weren't inside my apartment and they never tried to get in, but they were thick outside our door. I decided to make a video of it and send to my landlord to tell them we had a problem. I recorded the video and stooped down to get a sweeping close up of the rats and mice just standing around. I was going to send the footage but decided to look at it before sending it. I could not understand what I was seeing. The video wasn't of rats or mice, but of a mob of people. The close up was just people standing around yelling and shaking fists and holding signs and protesting. I was like, I can't send this! I was so confused.
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  27. Thank you, @Troy! For our students, this may show up passively and as an undercurrent that feels as if one is barely keeping one’s head above the water /.../ /.../ a wave of Infinite Soul Energy that many of our students may have felt in some way. It is often subtle, but it may have shown up in bursts of inspiration, relief, sense of strength, renewed enthusiasm, and very high activity of dreaming. Both of the above in my case. I know I'm dreaming lots, but hardly remember anything, unusual for me. The Nexus timing fits me to a T! Something just TURNED, I could almost hear the clicks of some rotary switch. In my personal life this resulted in a sudden deeply vulnerably honest conversation after a long game of emotional hide and seek which was getting exhausting for both. So yeah, "an enthusiastic launch into a radical change that breaks patterns that were assumed to have been your responsibility to endure" for me. I've been simply saying No without the slightest feeling of guilt where I previously thought I couldn't, and no longer try to "carry other people". Lots of "I love you, but no to this, that, and the third thing." My personal space hired better border guards! Fully vaccinated and all It is really interesting to see Michael actually recommending we open a collective dream diary. Wow!
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  28. @alex_s Essence Twins are always from different Entities (and sometimes different Cadres), so merging takes place after these Essences are cycled off. However, there are apparently additional reviews between Essence Twins on the Astral that contribute to the eventual merging of both the Essence Twins and their Entities. My parents were Esssence Twins -- and to my good fortune they had a very close and good relationship, which apparently is not always true of Essence Twins. They died a month apart, and when I asked about their activities after their deaths, I had this exchange with Michael: Janet: We think she and my dad are Essence Twins, so do they have any current activities together? MEntity: ... they appear to be 'working out' issues from the recent life so as to bring closure and healing to any outstanding issues between the Personalities. The counseling consists of further review that is unique to them, and the unspoken or unknown elements that contributed to any benefit or harm. Janet: Marriage counselling continues after death! Who knew? MEntity: They would not have to be major issues, or apparent issues, but anything that could do well to be uncovered, such as private thoughts, intentions, all emotional truths. Janet: [This is] as you have said occurs when the entity is reuniting. Does this kind of revealing between Essence Twins help the eventual reuniting of the Cadre? MEntity: Very much so. That is part of the main forms of evolution through the Astral. Emotional truths are revealed down to the greatest denials and lies. These are not for punishments, embarassments, or even for reward, but for the point of bonding. ### end of exchange You might also be interested in this exchange I had with Michael after a dream about merging with another Essence: Essence Merging
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  29. Yes! Troy seems to work faster in this format.
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  30. This month has been calm relatively speaking. Last month I had a hernia surgery and then while recovering from that my daughter tested positive for covid. Then we all got it despite immunizations. I also coughed unexpectedly and popped one of the hernia repairs. So not have to repeat that. But The CPAP and hernia repair were all part of a larger of idea of taking care of my health. This is part of the larger idea of getting gardens and home up/fixed. To start growing more of our own food. This report clicks with me.
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  31. Thank you, Troy and Michael! I have been looking forward to this Report.
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  32. I’ve actually been thinking about our collective 4th IM, because I’m seeing so many conversations in my own social media feeds and other media peeling away our collective imprinting one belief, one assumption at a time. Of course that’s only my sliver of the world, but this IS how the 4th IM goes — recognizing what imprints were handed down to us, what we wish to let go of, and what we wish to keep. It’s amazing to see it on happen on a cultural level. I’ve been wanting to write about the IMs without Michael jargon to help people make sense of their own 4th IM transitions, but now I’m realizing that I don’t need to delineate the structure to call out imprinting we need to change, and this is one way I can contribute to our collective 4th IM while doing something I really love.
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  33. *edit: I sent my S.O. the link to the love languages test and asked him to take it. Waiting for a response Here's mine Not terribly surprising that Words of Affirmation is by far my highest ranking, as Sage is my Role. That's where I struggle most in my current romantic-ish relationship, not feeling like I'm loved because I literally have never heard the words come out of his mouth, unprompted by me saying it first. I know I shouldn't let myself get upset about it, and I'm trying to say it more often in hopes he'll start feeling safe enough to say it of his own accord. I feel like, as Task Companions working on a Love Monad, this is part of my Work for this life. I struggle with speaking up and making myself heard. I know from some previous M channeling, that he (a Sage-cast Scholar) has some Sagely wounding that affects his expression, so I try to take that into account when I'm feeling flustered over his lack of communication. I'm trying to Love by example.
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  34. Maybe Servers aren't discussed as much as Priests here, but several people I know (including @TexB) have had manipulative, controlling, or downright abusive Server mothers or relatives, particularly the Server/Warrior combo. So the manipulative aspect of Servers wasn't a surprise to me. Now that I think about it, my Server-cast King grandmother can do this too. I brought up this video of the villain Mother Gothel from the Disney movie Tangled to @Luciana Flora once as an example of the gaslighting that her mother does to her. Your comment made me realize she's probably a great example of a negative pole Server. Check out the video here breaking down the ways in which Mother Gothel manipulates Rapunzel.
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  35. GRAND CYCLE REPORT for #8 A Grand Cycle is one trip as Essence from Tao through the 7 Planes of Physical, Astral, Causal, Akashic, Mental, Messianic, and Buddhic, returning to Tao. In truth, we never “leave” Tao, as each Plane is layered within each other like concentric circles, with the Physical Plane as the densest and at the center, within the Astral, which is within the Causal, and so on, with Tao encompassing all of these. Each Grand Cycle is its own dance through time and space as an individual Essence who chooses a Role, an Entity, an Essence Twin, etc. Each Grand Cycle can be a completely different Role, Entity, Essence Twin, and so on. Think of a Grand Cycle as one giant lifetime for your Essence as a ROLE, and your Role creates a new Personality as lifetimes within that. Essence and Role are often used interchangeably, but Essence chooses a ROLE, and that Role can change when in a new Grand Cycle, but Essence remains. Though one can have a multitude of Grand Cycles, each one is separate and does not bleed into any other. There is no significant influence among them. However, because Essence still has a memory and consistency, it will carry that experience forward into creating and setting up a new Grand Cycle. Because time can only be measured relative to one’s position within a planetary system, there is no way to really describe when your past Grand Cycles might have been, but if it is possible, Michael will mention it. Other planetary systems and species of your previous Grand Cycles will most likely be completely unknown to us as Humans. Knowing your history as Essence may not make a big difference in your understanding of who you are in your current life, but it can help you to consider the vastness of the universe, and the beauty of the incarnational process. Most Humans have an average of 3 Grand Cycles. NOTE: We should note here that we can only re-report on shared Grand Cycles to some limited extent without questions. Therefore, many reports requesting Grand Cycles that are shared may read similarly or exactly (if Troy has deemed it more practical to copy/paste). However, as different fragments may have had different numbers of Grand Cycles, it would not be meaningful to assume that the 8th Grand Cycle of everyone is the same, for example. But many will be the same, of course. YOU ARE IN YOUR _9th__ GRAND CYCLE Below is a synopsis of your chosen Grand Cycle as Essence: SYNOPSIS of Grand Cycle #8 The 8th Grand Cycle for you was through what we consider to be the first lab-created species. This species was created by an off-planet species that had rendered its own planet uninhabitable and losing nearly 80% of the population. This lab-created species was to be their new bodies, but this did not work out. The bodies created were similar to what you would recognize as humanoid now, but with terribly fragile bone structures. The creator species was adept at configuring DNA and genetics in a way that established a functioning intellect that gains self-awareness rapidly. After three generations of stability for these bodies, another Sentience “moved in” and anchored itself in this species. The creator species that had been living aboard a ship as their home would have to find another species to live out their Grand Cycle. The creator species resigned to this reality and chose to care for the newly-Sentient species they had created. They cared for this species until they died out, leaving generations of the new species stranded on their ship. The new species remained evolving and growing and systems were in place to care for this species for generations to come. The species thrived fairly well as they floated aimlessly through space. Eventually, species from what is known as “The Pleiades” would intercept the ship and bring it into orbit around a planet. To help transition to living on a planet, “your” species lived between ship and planet for quite some time before settling on the planet. Over time, and with access to the entire history and research and knowledge of the species who had created them, “your” species then helped to alter a native species on this new planet and this allowed the creator species to anchor itself in new bodies and complete their own Grand Cycle. *********** NOTES: I described this cycle to @BrianW affectionately as being a "lab-rat".
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  36. Items I can never eat again: jalapeños creamed cheddar
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  37. Ive had horrible energy crashes and debilitating thoughts myself, but my friends, family and TLE too have been very supportive so I was able to dig myself out. Your comments on my recent posts have been helpful in keeping me optimistic. October 31-November 12 is the next Climate Summit and something tells me that it and our response to it, is the next major event. The event would have happened in November 2020 (same time as the US Election), but Covid-19 derailed it. I'm very curious and interested in the promotion and propagation of climate and environmental solutions.
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  38. The reason is context, which is that we have 7.5 billion humans on earth, and the planet can't sustain our rate of consumption if we continue to eat high on the food chain (which uses up 4-12 times more resources than eating the plants directly, depending on the animal being eaten). Fish populations are being decimated, and there are estimates that we might run out of commercially viable fish populations by around 2050. Our fish is also contaminated with mercury, dioxins, and other toxins due to the oceans being polluted. Does it make sense to apply the context of a small fishing village with nothing else to eat due to their extreme northern location to the rest of the world? From a soul evolution standpoint, we've probably all had lifetimes where we murdered someone and fought in wars, and thought that was justified. Does it mean we should keep doing those things? Or do we change our hearts and minds as we grow and learn different ways of doing things?
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  39. I'm reading this thread and I don't see anything in what @Hjorturis saying as "stirring up trouble," and I'm not so at ease with the attacks on his expressions of his own thoughts and perspectives using a demeaning tone towards him. I'm a free thinker too. The late, great Congressman John Lewis said "Let's make some good trouble." He did and he changed a lot for the good. Isn't this a forum for discussion of diverse ideas and reflections in light of Michael's teachings? Or is it another church with an adherence to one belief system handed down like the Catholic Church I was raised in? "We believe in one holy Catholic and Apostolic Church." They recite it in unison weekly on Sunday mornings and that's what they ALL believe. They dare not deviate from that. How strange. How about a little more tolerance, folks? As far as the vegan perspective goes, I can see that its adherents are passionate and I understand that. I'm a long-time vegetarian who grapples with the respect for all life, the way food is prepared, the considerations for health, etc. I'm "right in there" with most people's challenges in the current time and not above it, and yet hoping to navigate to a greater resolution collectively. I see the same passion in anti-abortionists, to be honest (and I am pro-choice with a matched level of emotion about that). The emotion doesn't make it right, it doesn't convince anyone, it more likely than not arouses opposition, and It certainly does not change history - all the hundreds and thousands of years of humans as carnivores and as women who have had abortions are still part of history, like it or not. If you care about these things, your care may, perhaps, open a pathway to a new future, but as I read what @Hjorturwas saying, I understood him to say that we can't go back and rewrite history with the eyes of today, or the wishes of today, and I concur with that. My words - we can try to rewrite the future and give it our best if we think it is for the best. But as with everything, dogmatism isn't the most persuasive route to the goal, imo. It just doesn't win people over to the cause. One positive potential for the future is finding a way for the whole planet to live off plant-based foods when THEY NEVER COULD BEFORE - as pointed out by more than one person here. Another is to have a world where all women have full reproductive control over their bodies. Let go of the punitive and move towards the new potential and the incentives. End the fighting. My two cents.
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  40. “Essence Recognition is the conscious awareness that expands beyond the limitations of logic, perception, and body to include the truth, love, and energy that exists beyond those limitations” MEntity
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  41. How ‘losing friend to misinformation’ drove Facebook whistleblower (Oct 4th article from UK's The Guardian) Frances Haugen was frustrated that Facebook was not publicly acknowledging the harm its platforms could cause Frances Haugen, the whistleblower behind a series of damaging revelations about Facebook, is adamant that she wants to help the social media company and not foment hatred of it. The 37-year-old leaked tens of thousands of internal company documents after becoming frustrated that Facebook was not publicly acknowledging the harm its platforms could cause. “If people just hate Facebook more because of what I’ve done, then I’ve failed. I believe in truth and reconciliation – we need to admit reality. The first step of that is documentation,” she told the Wall Street Journal, which revealed the documents in its Facebook Files series. In her final message on Facebook’s internal system, posted when she left in May, she wrote: “I don’t hate Facebook. I love Facebook. I want to save it.” Haugen, born and raised in Iowa by a doctor father and a mother who gave up an academic career to become an episcopalian priest, said it was a lost friendship that changed her view of social media. Haugen was a successful tech professional with a CV that included stints at Pinterest and Google but a decade ago she was diagnosed with celiac disease, an autoimmune condition, and in 2014 entered an intensive care unit with a blood clot in her thigh. A family friend was hired to help her with daily tasks such as shopping but their relationship deteriorated as he became obsessed with online forums touting conspiracy theories about dark forces manipulating politics. “It was a really important friendship, and then I lost him,” she told the WSJ. The former friend has since abandoned his conspiratorial beliefs, which had dragged him into a world of the occult and white nationalism. But it changed Haugen’s career. “It’s one thing to study misinformation, it’s another to lose someone to it,” she said. “A lot of people who work on these products only see the positive side of things.” So when a Facebook recruiter approached Haugen in 2018, she said she wanted a job that related to democracy and the spread of false information. That led to a role in 2019 as a product manager in Facebook’s civic integrity team, which looks at election interference around the world. The group was disbanded after the 2020 US presidential poll and Haugen contacted the WSJ soon after, her dismay deepening after the 6 January riot in Washington. Facebook has said it “invested heavily” in people and technology to make its platform safe, but Haugen believed the company was not doing enough to combat misinformation. “Facebook acted like it was powerless to staff these teams,” she said. Reacting to Haugen’s comment, Facebook said: “Hosting hateful or harmful content is bad for our community, bad for advertisers, and ultimately, bad for our business.” On Tuesday, Haugen will appear in front of US lawmakers to reiterate her argument that Facebook did not do enough to stop the hate and harm. https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2021/oct/04/how-friend-lost-to-misinformation-drove-facebook-whistleblower-frances-haugen
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  42. I want to hear it regularly from my husband, hear him say that he loves me. Sadly, my scholar-husband does not see the point nearly as much as I do. He goes: but you know that I do, so what is the point in me telling you again? Then I say: Because I really need you to reaffirm that regularly. Then I can tell from the confused look on his face that he still doesn’t get it. Come to think of it, this is more of a sage-thing I have going on. Maybe the influence of being in a sage-entity? Reading the description for the warrior (need to be won over), I must say that in our case it was more of a case of me winning him over. I can’t say that I felt the need to be won over particularly.
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  43. I have been thinking about this for the last 24hrs. The connections between to these two are so obvious. The rejection has been in the hardest hit area for a very long time. Currently the two states with the highest 7day avg case per 100k people are WV and Alaska. WV was literally founded on rejection. They rejected being involved in the Civil War on the side of the Confederacy because Richmond said the were going to war. CT and CA are not over 100 cases per 100K. I don't know about CT. CA took everything seriously and has been doing hard lockdowns etc. There also has been the obvious huge rejection in GOP state of the loss of the sentient orange. But that was hardly surprising. A few years ago, I was at Grant's Farm in Saint Louis, MO with the family. It was busy summer weekend. There was this typical mid-western white dude (TMWD) a head of us. He was talking to random tourist he was with. TMWD said that he was glad foreign friend got a chance to visit here and see The Real America tm. I had to bite my tongue. It wasn't until reading this that it occurred to me that incredibly dismissive statement was a rejection of the US as a whole. This is a common sentiment in this part of the country. Here we are the real people of America. Here is real not those fake people on the coasts. This is not to say that the sentiment does not go both way. I have way to often heard this part of the country are Fly Over country. Rejecting it as uninteresting, not worth the time, and a drain on the rest of the country. To be fair the former is far more predominate than the latter. Just pointing out that both exist. Now, however, the rejection has gotten to the point that if we still had standing militias and no standing army, I fear there would be another Civil war. In a sense, we are. Those that are not rejecting the science are "winning" if it could be called that. Perhaps suffering less would be better. Though even that seem inadequate. It seems though those that will only learn through trauma will doom many who learned with out it. Just as texting while driving doesn't mean the texter ends up in the hospital. I stated before in 2016 with the sentient orange's victory that we didn't listen. Many rejected what those now suffering the most were saying as being backward racist yokels, which to be fair, they certainly didn't help dissuade anyone of that thought. We didn't listen to their legitimate concerns about dying towns and rampant poverty because of the perceived and actual racism and ignorance. They then, like petulant children, ramped their rejection to 11 and openly rejected the very idea of the US, the Constitution, rule of law, Kindness, compassion, and the fact that their politics were not supported by a majority. They were right and they knew it and the rest of you can fuck off. And now they are suffering worse and dragging us down with them. Given that my daughter is covid positive, I have been running a fever and all the other symptoms and my son and wife show symptoms. I want to and have say Fuck them. But that is also a rejection. The anger I feel at this is because THEY SHOULD KNOW BETTER, DAMNIT. Then Michael says " With delusional leaders who have large platforms as means to teach while dismantling the truth, then the teens and toddlers, so to speak, have no other real means of learning but through eventual trauma." and I am reminded of how much shit I had to unlearn from my parents. The info Glut and how humans normally gravitate that which they agree with not that which is correct or truthful. I can be angry with the children for knowing and not heeding. I can also remind myself that I have consciously rejected having perusing having any type of platform beyond what I consider safe, because of the glut and the hate that people feel is their obligation to spew. I guess my thought in this is just to examine rejections on a micro and macro scale. I don't think that all rejections are equal by a long shot. I do feel that rejecting someone's humanity or right to exist is far worse than me rejecting having more of a presence online for my own sanity. One can still teach without a large platform. One cannot overcome bigotry without re-examining themselves to their core, and many are unwilling to do that. Anyway, just some thoughts.
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  44. In a conversation about the Library of Alexandria, I was expressing my feelings of sadness about the destruction of all that knowledge, and @Connorsaid we should send a time traveler back to photograph all those scrolls. He said that we know time travel is viable, since that's how the pyramids were constructed, when time travelers went back and helped them. This brought up a whole bunch of questions about time travel, so that is one topic, although it has many tangents. Are all Transcendental Souls currently alive on Earth from Cadre 4? I was under that impression, but both @Maureenand @Janet Hboth said that we don't know that for certain. My last question/topic has to do with Energy Ring 5 and how and why they are messing with so many countries now, bringing that authoritarian vibe to the planet and interfering with human progress. Is there a mathematical correlation between Energy Ring 2 (our Energy Ring) and Energy Ring 5, similar to the Expression Axis relationship?
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  45. A lot of this resonates for me. All the dream activity. Feeling the Infinite Soul energy for sure. Coincidentally, I had a scheduled Michael session this morning and Troy said he had just finished the Energy Report for October as we began our session. I hadn't yet seen it but in our session I asked Michael about a dream I had this week. In that dream, I am with two siblings - a sister and a brother (adults) - in an elegant upstairs lounge. We are all elegantly dressed. Downstairs is some kind of special event/fundraiser for a cause. These two siblings are in charge of all of it. They are significantly positioned. I am wearing all kinds of beautiful gems and the woman is taking a keen interest in them. I start to wonder how I came by them and if they are even mine. Mainly I hope that whatever happens that we all still love each other no matter what. There was a lot more to this dream but the emphasis of the interaction was on bonding and love with them. They are very kind. Some guitars were involved, too, and we were in a city but I don't know which one. Because Michael had recently said that the two remaining Infinite Soul candidates may likely show up as siblings, I wondered if this dream could be related to that. This is what I asked Michael. "Might my dream have been connected to these two Infinite Souls?" Michael replied: "Yes. This is addressed in our recent Energy Report. You may find the information relevant."
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  46. I cannot speak for Michael, but I can speak for myself. I’ve gone vegan after reaching adulthood. Part of the reason why was my own health. If you look at human biology it’s rather obvious we are not actually optimised for eating and digesting meat. If you just start looking at your teeth something starts to stink. True omnivores in nature, such as bears are equipped with a very different set of theta from ours. And that trend continues throughout our whole system. Yes, we can adapt to eating meat, but given the number of people who die from ‘lifestyle’ diseases each year, I wouldn’t say we thrive on an animal diet. Another point is that it is horribly inefficient. If we start with a plant. Of the 100% of energy it absorbs 50% goes directly to life processes within the plant. Meaning only up to 50% will be stored in the plant and available to the animal who eat the plant. An animal however spends 90 % of the energy it eats on life processes and can at best store 10 %. Meaning that for every calorie of animal derived energy 10 fold of that was consumed in the process. We are nearing 8 billion people on this plant and an increasing amount of those people are adopting the western model of large portions of animal flesh. We already produce enough food to feed the whole planet, yet 855 Million people are currently undernourished. Part of that is obviously due to a whole slew of social injustices going on across the board, but another part of that is how we spend the resources already available to us. Feeding animals for feed makes absolutely no sense in 2021. As for fish, for one you have factory farming which is doing a spectacular job of poisoning the ecosystems around them. Wild salmon are rapidly nearing extinction here in Norway. As a direct result of factory farming. There are dead zones sea floor for miles under the ‘factories’ due to tonnes of shit. The living environment for the fish is horrible, and fish like most other animals have the same kind of pain receptors we have. They suffer! Oceanic fishing is not much better, in fact from the stance of loss of life it is worse. The amount of our sentient ‘cousins’, Wales and dolphins who die each year due to ‘bycatch’ is horrific. How we drag stupidly sized nets along the sea floor razing whatever ecosystems might be in our path. All of that, and I have yet to go into animal welfare, or rather lack of and torturous conditions most of our farm animals live and die under. - Yes, there are exceptions, at least up until slaughter is up, but even then the killing of another, unless strictly necessary for survival I don’t get. I can vividly remember, in retrospect, how awful it felt to kill the fish I caught as a kid and teenager. The feeling of wrongness was there all along, but I was too numb to really pay it much attention. - I would guess that is true for most. Then there are the vast environmental impacts of animal agriculture. I’m not going to go into that right now, but it is yet another factor for why I came to agree with Michael. - If you need to kill because the alternative is death by starvation, go ahead. Otherwise there are no compelling reasons to hold on the the archaic system of the past anymore. It has brought us here, but we now have other options and we should take them. Beyond all that, you have my compassion. I don’t know how many times I heard the phrase “Fisk er viktig for Norge” // “Fish is important for Norway” growing up. Every traditional Norwegian dish is animal derived in some manner or another. It has been hard to break out of that imprinting. Very hard. Not too long in the past, it didn’t make sense to me not to eat animals either. But the evidence kept building to the point where I couldn’t ignore the facts anymore.
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  47. Thank You @Luciana Flora for sharing the Link, I like tests too, they are very amusing! Here is mine: Your Primary Love Language™ is Physical Touch Save Results Physical Touch 27% Quality Time 23% Acts of Service 23% Words of Affirmation 20% Receiving Gifts 7% Physical Touch This language isn't all about the bedroom. A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, holding hands, and thoughtful touches on the arm, shoulder, or face – they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive. Physical touch fosters a sense of security and belonging in any relationship. I can go for this test result, I am a touchy person!
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  48. Sylvia., I am also Brazilian. I was born in Rio de Janeiro and I am currently living in Vitoria in Espirito Santo. I'll send you a private message in Portuguese!! Welcome!! I'm happy to meet a Brasiliero who knows Michael...!!
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  49. oh I love this! thanks for sharing Ro. I think love languages go two ways, one is what you prefer to receive and the other one is the one you prefer to give (can be different). My preferred receiving one is Quality time. I can spend hours in someone’s company without getting bored, just together, there doesn’t have to be much interaction. But physical touch and acts of service are important too. Words of affirmation only if the person means what they say. I sometimes question people’s intention when they use words of affirmation because I don’t know if they only use it to get something from me, like quite a few have in the past. The same when I give words of affirmation (something I do a lot I hope, one of my top giving love languages), I make sure I really mean what I say. When it comes to roles, despite being a scholar, I don’t think I find it difficult to love. I love a lot but what I don’t like is when someone loves me and I don’t reciprocate. I can hardly take it, it makes me very uncomfortable. I then try to ‘persuade’ the person that they certainly can’t love me by listing all my negative traits or I push them away in other ways. I’m getting better at it though and finding it easier to just ‘allow’ them to love me. i relate most to Warrior (loyalty!) and king (I have to love YOU first or at least have the feeling I do, like described above). I really don’t like to be rushed or pushed into anything, actually I absolutely love to win someone over. I’m an Aries with a martial body type, so there’s quite a natural tendency to conquer but again, that’s more of a King trait. Who knows, maybe entity does play a role in it too? We scholar’s can be so oblivious sometimes! @Felicitas Funny enough though, my ex is a warrior and it was the other way round with us. He told me he loved me only two times. The first time when we just started to go out, within a week or so. And the second time after 4 years when I decided to end the relationship (oh what a betrayal for him! It took years of open display loyalty to amend (I think we were close brothers in a previous life, so there’s always been a big feeling of brotherly love and loyalty towards him)). But he showed his love in other ways, like by doing stuff for me. He actually still does that but with a big grumpy face so that it really looks as if he doesn’t care lol (I think he secretly actually enjoys it though) What I’m trying to say, it sounds like words of affirmation as a giving love language don’t seem to be very important for your husband. Does he show it to you in other ways or do you know his love language?
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