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I went through the Energy Reports to look at Nexuses since Dec 21 2012, when we officially moved into the Mature Soul Age. I summarized each one in my own words, but you can just go to each Energy Report post in the transcripts and see what was written if you'd like. I hope this sparks some understanding of the world in the last few years. It's very interesting to see how each Nexus builds up into the next. Try not to think of them as separate points in time, but as a stream of energy forming or dissipating into the next- as it's a lot more entertaining to see the patterns holistically. 2012 Dec 21= MAJOR DIVERGENCE and CONVERGENCE: Realities branch and merge because of various beliefs and theories about shifts, destruction, ascension etc. that emphasize our Anxious Uncertainty and whether this will be met with Reaction or Response. 2013 (Based on the info below, my guess is this was a Year of Collective Confidence) Jan 5-8= DIVERGENCE: Realities branch that either emphasize and amplify Collective Stubbornness especially in Politics & International Events- or free themselves from that to move on. Feb 11-15= DIVERGENCE: Themed in Flow. Realities branch that either resign to -Inertia, or actively contribute to collective redirection. Around this period, it’s especially inspiring and motivating to create structures that increase our capacity for peace, calm, abundance and +Freedom. Mar 15= DIVERGENCE: Same as the February Divergence, but with more resistance to being responsible for the Flow of our life. - Jun 14-16= MAJOR CONVERGENCE: Parallels merge due to a rise of consciousness among all of them that are aiming to represent one’s Personality more confidently in the world. This Nexus merges several branches from our past that resigned from their Power and hid themselves from scrutiny, rejection, failure etc.- but have now accepted their Empowerment, bringing a mix of grief, anguish, struggle, insight, motivation and excitement. - Aug 2-5= DIVERGENCE: Versions of us “peel away” from this reality to focus on their collapsing, ignored, rejected or eclipsed Ideals. Aug 28-31= DIVERGENCE: Themed in Resolution. A spontaneous branching for the Collective to focus on various ideals and responsibilities still unresolved in Politics. On the Personal Level, this brings apocalyptic, disastrous or disturbing imagery through dreams as we are “weeding out” the worst-case scenarios for how these world issues could be tackled. - Oct 7-21= DIVERGENCE: Parallels branch off to focus on strikingly different versions of our future Global Economy. This then pivots us all toward or away from a Resource-based Economy. Nov 9-11= CONVERGENCE: Themed in Death. A Reunion of Parallels where we or significant others passed away. This brings dreams in that recall vague, strange variations of our life/experiences that came from other parallels where we or our loved ones, animal companions or people from our past actually died. Dec 1-3= MINI CONVERGENCE: Themed in Death. A Nexus that merges any parallel versions of us/others that died over the past few months. Dec 15-19= DIVERGENCE: Themed in Acceleration. A branching into 2014’s Intellectual Priest in Growth energy, or not. If there’s a rapid amplification into a strong whirlwind of activities & effort emphasizing renewed enthusiasm for your intentions, projects and tasks for 2014 then this would’ve occurred. Otherwise, these last 2 Weeks of 2013 would be more calming and recuperative before the coming January Nexus. 2014 (Based on the info below, my guess is this was a Year of Collective Healing) Jan 6-8= DIVERGENCE: Parallels split that will most strongly or weakly emphasize the core themes of 2014- bringing more focus and footing to our Intentions. Feb 12-15= CONVERGENCE: Themed in Relating. Parallels “here” that are working on growing closer to tentative relationships & dropping barriers/inhibitions in the process, merge with those realities that have already done so. Mar 29-31= CONVERGENCE: Parallels merge that wish to bring focus back to projects, plans, future anticipations and coordination through Cooperation and Community. - Apr 5-9= CONVERGENCE: Parallels merge that branched off as far back as Childhood. This may cause dreams to come up bringing back nostalgic symbols/memories from our childhood and any past lives resonating with that. May 17-19: CONVERGENCE: Themed in Turning Points. A subtle or obvious haunting, distracting sense that how we’re doing things may need to change- merging us into parallels where we are already doing things that matter more to us. Jun 3-8= DIVERGENCE: Themed in Efficiency. Those involved in this nexus branch off parts of themselves not willing to participate in/contribute to the changes needed to create new paths for their life. This brings a sharp halt to those that see their ideas for change would simply not work, so they then clean out their mind/heart of these attachments. - Aug 25-30= MAJOR CONVERGENCE: Parallels that have similar realizations about Global or Environmental Conflicts now merge. On a smaller scale, versions of us that are exploring internal conflicts & indecisiveness about commitments/directions now shift to either a conscious choice toward personal/global fulfillment or a needed breakdown & rebuilding. *A branch of realities from the 1700s CE where the US wasn’t founded & wide-scale religious, political and military oppression ensued across the globe for the last 200 years, now merge with ours- as they have gone through uprisings since the 80s against this to establish a constitution that is now birthing the US in 2014 “there”. This will either lead the US out of its seat of power for the next 20-50 years, or escalate it into a heightened position beyond all comprehension. (This info is not from the Energy Report, but from this Private Session by Maureen.) - Oct 28-31= DIVERGENCE: Permanently-wounded aspects of us that refuse to allow Healing branch off, freeing those that are willing to heal to feel relief. Nov 26= CONVERGENCE: Versions of us that are willing to Heal now merge, bringing gratitude, appreciation and comfort that can bring more relief, confidence and trust again. Dec 11-13= CONVERGENCE: More parallels and people that have brought wounding to the surface come together to Heal anything from across 2014. Waves of creative solutions and resources now emerge to facilitate this personal and social healing. 2015 (Based on the info below, my guess is this was a Year of Collective Peace) Feb 25-28= DIVERGENCE: Realities branch based on choices toward -Subservience or +Devotion. This focuses us on healing parts of our life left in broken circuits, or brings out realizations of anything missing that could replenish our Submission. Mar 20-23= CONVERGENCE: A Reunion of parallels from 1999 over the Fear of Technology. They explored moving away from technology, then cleared up these fears & returned trust in it, merging with us. This Nexus then explores how technological impact is accelerating & how we need to either take breaks from it to return balance, or transform isolating technologies into more meaningful and intimate ones. - Apr 18-20= CONVERGENCE: A Reunion of parallels from 2002 around Overreactions/Phobias that veered toward Full-scale War- but then brought focus back toward greater peace, merging with our Parallels that have secured that (even with clear growing pains). Jun 20-23= DIVERGENCE: Realities branch based on our reactions to Surprises happening through the month that bring shock or understanding. *In some parallels, Earthquakes happened in the Pacific Rim and New Madrid Fault. (This info is not from the Energy Report, but from this Ask M Transcript.) - Jul 20-23= CONVERGENCE: June’s divergence separated parallels creating war/oppression & parallels creating equality/inclusion. This Nexus then brings all realities in that are actively evolving & exploring Equality, Inclusion, Empathy and Compassion. Aug 14= CONVERGENCE: Straggling Parallels of versions of us that gave up/stopped trying because of hardships/obstacles/struggles now return because they’ve worked on Healing. As such, we feel our sense of effort, enthusiasm and energy amplify now. Sep 14= CONVERGENCE: Parallels merge for those who explored isolation, separation, lack of intimacy/community etc. This Nexus then brings heightened efforts to nurture and sustain common ground, intimacy and resonance. On larger scales, this shift relates issues of immigration, borders and equality. - Oct 18= DIVERGENCE: Realities branch to bring Shifts in Power among countries. Nov 22-23= DIVERGENCE: Realities that are concerned with the balance of Practical Reality with Fantasy/Illusion, or an extreme entrenching in one or the other now branch off. For most older souls, this was a reality check nexus that could be used to practically nurture or plant our fantasies into reality. Dec 25-28= DIVERGENCE: Parallels branch to explore dreaded or anticipated versions of the Future, through choices of self-nurturing or self-preservation. 2016 (A Year of Collective Turning Points [Confirmation]) Jan 10-15= CONVERGENCE: Themed in Death. Similar parallels reunite where certain fragments just died vs had died some time ago. Most who die in the next 3 Months are in final closure of all their parallels. Feb 8-17= MAJOR DIVERGENCE: A Planetary Shift of parallels to more Peaceful and Humanitarian Paths, more Turbulent and Disruptive Paths, or more of “The Same”. This Nexus feels like letting go of directions you’re no longer interested in & a renewed conscious focus on what you are. Mar 19= MINI DIVERGENCE: A possible shift related to events caused by a high-profile event or person representing the force of a population/collective. If it occurred, it would narrow paths forward. - Apr 22-29= MAJOR DIVERGENCE: A previous Energy Shift on April 16-19 that emphasized Power Struggles & made us see where our personal, national or global Center of Power is, may now result in a Shift in Power that closes down several potential parallels. May 30= MINOR DIVERGENCE: A small but intense shift that emphasizes a major event in your individual life or on a larger-scale for the country or planet. - Jul 29= DIVERGENCE: Parallels branch off for those that are interested in escalating toward greater War. Sep 26= BREAKTHROUGH: For those in a Turning Point, this Nexus emphasizes Breakthrough and leaves behind the options of Breakdown. If this shift didn't come, you may have felt a huge release from gravity to float above and be free from patterns of burden and demand to recreate yourself, refresh your perspective, bring relief from fears so you can catch your breath & take on the rest of the year with vitality, creativity and love. - Nov 7-10= MAJOR DIVERGENCE: A dramatic shift to work on Collective Karmic Themes. All living on the planet are on a path that seeks to heal the world on a profound and lasting level now- though it may not look like so as the wounds have to be clearly identified and pronounced & the creation of such peace is not always pretty. There are 2 Major Karmas being tapped into now. Younger Souls are working out Karma around choosing Collective Responsibility and Self-Discipline vs Self-Preservation and Oppression. Older Souls are working out Karma around choosing Passivity/Complacency and Convenience vs Being Awake and Taking Action to Resolve Legitimate Threats. Dec 13-21= CONVERGENCE: A slow, lengthy merging of all realities coming together on the verge of Global Revolution. 2017 (A Year of Collective Humanitarianism [This was confirmed, but I cannot find the Transcript, except for this.]) Jan 19-23= CONVERGENCE: Same as the December Convergence above. Feb 26-Mar 2= MAJOR DIVERGENCE: A nexus bringing the first signs of Relief from recent events. It was an exit ramp for those interested in extreme versions of reality which removed that element from our parallels to help improve morale for those “here”. Mar 30= MINI DIVERGENCE: Parallels branch off for those in our Energy Ring that are actively refusing Pleasure or Peace. - Apr 15-20= DIVERGENCE: Certain Parallels branch towards themes of War. May 19-21= DIVERGENCE: A potentially Dramatic Shift to more meaningful, acceptable and inclusive negotiations among world leaders- or more turmoil, shock and extremism. - Jul 20-23= MAJOR CONVERGENCE: A great clash between discordant realities arises- where how deeply you’re invested in Being Right vs Being Fair comes up, due to strong Declarations made by you+others toward one side or the other. On a Personal Scale, this shows as a strong sense you must choose between staying locked in -Subjectivity or finally embrace +Objectivity. For the Collective this divide shows in the Political Arena. Aug 21= DIVERGENCE: Branchings related to the Total Solar Eclipse that prompted unexpected effects triggering collective panic/shock or wonder/awe (especially in the US). Sep 20-23= DIVERGENCE: More branchings that shifted Parallels toward various extremes for the next 100 Years. As they split off, they acted like release valves bringing greater relief from pressure, or a continued sense of trust and calm in collective progress over collapse for our parallels “here”. - Oct 10-14= DIVERGENCE: A branching with unknown effects that were never explained. Nov 21= CONVERGENCE: A mix of Parallels where growing fears/anxiety/uncertainty were met with successful solutions now converge, bringing a fairly pivotal time for Healing & Problem-solving that will unfold over the next 3 to 6 Months. Dec 18-22= CONVERGENCE: An unusual merging of parallels that have “failed” or “succeeded” at fulfilling key patterns share in common extremes of Climate & Power Struggles. The same conditions exist across these realities, but there are differences in the people's capacity for resolving these daunting scenarios. A wave of “refugee” parallels that moved into hopelessness were integrating into our reality to seek help & this brought a sobering vision & awareness of the larger-scale issues for those who had been ignoring reality. 2018 (A Year of Collective Revolution [Confirmation by Kurtis]) Dec 23 2017 - Jul 11 2018= NEXUS BUBBLE: The Ms say that Nexuses are like synaptic pathways for the mind of Human Sentience to explore various passages of thought, emotion and action. A Nexus Bubble however, is like a neural cell that gets so dense with Karmic and Self-Karmic thoughts, emotions and actions it weighs humanity down. As such, we were now forced during this period of time to deal with these patterns of karma & self-karma until everyone on the planet could see it's a problem- and so any sense of personal reality was then flipped upside down so we could see the collective reality around us. Nexus Bubbles tend to occur during a monumental Paradigm Shift from one Soul Age to another, as there is a pivotal lesson learnt at these times that changes the course of life forever. (You can explore this in the Nexus Bubble Transcript) In our case, we are shifting from a Young Soul Paradigm to a Mature Soul Paradigm- and the karma & self-karma at hand is one of humanity continuing to perpetuate and allow all forms of INTENTIONAL VIOLENCE to occur indefinitely. During this period, we have learnt that we are all A PART OF LIFE, and that the idea that we all have separate personal lives is an illusion. As such we are facing the fear that we can't divide, separate, escape, compartmentalize ourselves from the world- and realizing a deep truth that we are all interconnected and always will be. Through this, Humanity is en route to generating a reality of GLOBAL UNITY, but this will play out in both negative and positive ways. --- July 12-21= NEXUS BUBBLE COLLAPSES, bringing MAJOR DIVERGENCE and CONVERGENCE. This shift is characterized by a strong sense of acceleration, intensity and escalation. The Divergence was focused on a Liberation of incompatible & disparate parts of everyone that were bottled up in the same reality throughout the Nexus Bubble. The Convergence was focused on various parallels of us Listening to our Core Voice- cutting off or through all the noisy bullshit voices around & inside us to hear at least one voice within or around that says we matter to & in this world. (Three Private Sessions talked about this: JanetH, Dawn and Becca.) Aug 25-27= CONVERGENCE: Parallels that each see "Strength in Numbers" and are willing to address, shift and resolve the looming potential of war & great conflict now merge. This marks a rise in serious awareness & consideration of the Reality of War, as Humanity comes to shift away from Young Soul ideas of Growing through Conflict, and into Mature Soul ideas of Growing through Compassion. September 25-27: DIVERGENCE: Sudden and solid obstacles came up that needed immediate solutions. The more one was locked into Dogma, the harder the path to solutions was for the Personality, Community or Planet. --- November 5-11: MAJOR DIVERGENCE: Parallels spin off to explore a morbid curiosity for and apathy to a 5 Year descent into Unimaginable Dystopia. (This info is not from the Energy Report, but from this Private Session by Janet.) December 31-January 3: CONVERGENCE: Parallels come together to Heal and Recover. 2019 (A Year of Collective Empowerment [Confirmation by Rosario]) March 1-5: DIVERGENCE: Parallels spin off to explore various "worst-case scenarios". [Perhaps for the 5 Year descent into Unimaginable Dystopia?] --- April 19-22: CONVERGENCE: Parallels come together with a focus on the Cleanup and Sorting through of one’s house, relationships, mind etc. May 18-21: CONVERGENCE: Parallels come together to focus on True Grounding through a growing sense of emotional peace and sanctuary that is done with old problems, and ready to embrace new power and pleasure through revitalizing social connections. June 21: CONVERGENCE= We're merging with parallels that have increased inspiring actions in their lives and world towards renewed paths of enthusiasm for a better future- because they've committed to Participating in their lives and now we are too.
OMW - Dec 21, 2013 - What I Learned in 2013 [MEntity] Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin. We understand the request is for a review of your past year. [GeraldineB] with the inclusion of "What I learned" [Martha] Hello Michael [MEntity] We can approach this subject any number of ways, but with the emphasis on "what I learned," we have a couple of suggestions for how to go about this review today. [GeraldineB] sounds good [MEntity] We know that we can look to specific instances that you may wish to explore, but to truly grasp what was learned, it can be helpful to explore just how your Overleaves operated over the year, and how they were challenged, supported, and to which pole one tended to lean. YEAR ROLE OF SAGE In a year that was threaded with the energy of Sage, you would want to look at these 7 elements that would tend to be prompted as part of any attempts to learn during the year: ONE - what efforts did you make to bring into your awareness the recognition of innocence in yourself and others? TWO - what efforts did you make to bring levity to your struggles and challenges? THREE - what did you do to bring honesty to your communication? FOUR - what did you do to truly communicate (listen, as well as express)? FIVE - what efforts did you make to own the responsibility of your influence on others who may be affected by how and what you express? SIX - what did you do to play? SEVEN - what truths did you face? In asking these questions of yourself, you will see just how much of your year was about these elements as a thread or undercurrent through nearly everything? Before we move on, how do you feel about these questions in terms of their relevance to your past year? [GeraldineB] all have been highly relevant to me [Janet] I feel I generally had a good year and learned a lot based on these elements [GeraldineB] oddly enough, this is the first time I used the filter of innocence as a conscious attribute [ViP1] I feel that I've seen these elements being present, and may have applied them around 50 percent on average - I felt like I was beginning to become aware of how to bring consciousness to these things over the past year [Martha] I'm not concentrating well today, but most of those sound Sagey to this Sage, for sure, and good points to look at. [Martha] And I definitely can see where I worked on some of those [ViP1] I think I could have let myself do better at the "let myself play", but it wasn't the best year that I've had for that [Maureen] Yes -- I feel after your comments that I may have had quite a delightful year...and I got more "done" than I realized. [Martha] #5 is one I did take a hard look at recently (thank you Troy) [Maureen] A truth I face is there is a Part of me that doesn't want me to "play" -- it wants me to "work". [Maureen] ....but I do anyway. ;) [MEntity] Keep in mind that these questions are not to ask of you if you had a "good" year, or a failed year, or a successful year. These questions are to ask of you which of these elements may have stood out with emphasis, which ones seemed prominent, new, familiar, most challenging, most neglected, etc. [Janet] Some of these elements I feel are inherent to me. Probably FIVE owning my responsibility and SEVEN facing truths were prominent. [MEntity] In terms of what you learned, this list of questions will help you to see the most basic underpinning of the past year's overall "point." [Martha] Based on recent events, I think wrapping up some self destructive elements has been one of the points for me [MEntity] The questions that bring up the most obvious in terms of emphasis, either in conscious priority, or seeming demand on you, would tend to be "what you learned" in the past year. [Martha] as well as looking hard at #4 and #5 [ViP1] I'd say 2 and 6 were neglected for me - 3, 5 and 7 I thought were emphasized more [MEntity] Those areas of neglect do not mean something was missed. You would have emphasized those if there were any interest. So it is those that were of priority to you, or of priority because of demand upon you. [GeraldineB] Accepting the concept of innocence and actively applying it seems to have been what I learned most -- the other elements were already in place [MEntity] For those whose Role (or Casting) is the same as the year, there can tend to be a great familiarity with the energy that threads through the year, but there would tend to be some kind of emphasis on blind spots for that Role, then. Now, bring in your own Role to the mix. The same questions would apply, but in light of your own Role (particularly if different from Sage). In other words, AS A PRIEST, what did you learn is playful to the Priest? What did you learn is the truth about being a Priest? How did you find that you communicate as a Priest? And so forth. [GeraldineB] As sage-casted Sage, I think the reason I resonate with all of those items is that they describe me at this time in my life [MEntity] That would make sense, as you are Manifesting Essence nearly full-time now. Or rather, as often as is relevant and meaningful. In terms of the year and its "lessons," this is the broadest and greatest context with which to assess. [Janet] All of these elements seem to have an impact on me as an Artisan, but the focus of each changes with new experiences. Does completion of the 5th IM mean that we would generally have a different view of these elements than pre-5th? They all seem somewhat natural to me. [MEntity] Play with these questions more over the next few days to see what other ways they might be meaningful and relevant, both in terms of general themes, but also in terms of your own Role as it explored those themes. [GeraldineB] Michael, if you have anything to offer about Troy throughout this session, please do so. He needs these reviews as much as we do [MEntity] If an Internal Monad was completed in this year, this would mean that the themes of the current year would have tended to be relevant to what was necessary for that completion. [Maureen] Michael -- I feel like I was "solidly" in all the 7 Elements. Some days I think I make a better Sage than a Priest. [Maureen] That was a joke -- but there's a lot of truth in it for me. [GeraldineB laughs, well, Maureen . . .I think you could work a bit more on "innocence" :) [Maureen] LOL [Maureen] Actually -- I see the Innocence -- I just don't choose to "act on it" at times. [MEntity] This last exchange is an important prompt for us to remind you that because of your differences in Role, the ease with which these elements come to you are entirely different. For example, the Priest must struggle to see the innocence in others. It is often a useless term to a Priest, whereas the Sage must learn to be more discriminating and refined in how and where to draw the line between innocence and abuse/exploitation. [Martha] oh yeah [GeraldineB] good point [Janet] Whereas for the Artisan it might be a struggle to even see the others, much less whether or not there is innocence? [MEntity] Janet, that is valid. [Martha] would that apply to all I went through with my cat? It took what some people considered an extreme amount of abuse before I could give up on him. [MEntity] Not really. Non-sentient animals are not abusive. There is no intent to harm for benefit, only as defense. [Martha] Oh, I get that. I could still see his beautiful self in there. I know he wasn't trying to be mean. [ViP1] if it would not be digressing, Michael, could you say a little more about this? "For example, the Priest must struggle to see the innocence in others. It is often a useless term to a Priest" [MEntity] The reason the Priest has a harder time with innocence being upheld is because the idea of innocence often equates "excuses," or unaccountability. There is a high standard of accountability in most Priests, particularly after the mid-Mature Levels. [ViP1] I see - when combined with the idea of applying concepts to "self" at Old soul age, that especially sounds familiar [Maureen] Yes -- "Once you see the Truth, Do the Work" [Maureen] [that just popped into my head] [MEntity] The reason that Sages find innocence to be a more natural perspective is because they have counted on that factor in themselves for so long as a way to maneuver through struggles, sometimes in ways that excuse responsibility, and eventually as a standard for honesty. YEAR GOAL OF FLOW To move on to more specific exploration of your year, we would move on to the Goal. In a year that is a Goal of Flow, the combination with your own Goal can be easier to explore. What you would want to ask yourselves is how you managed the navigation between CHOICE and ALLOWANCE in the past year, particularly in terms of how you went about your navigation of events in the past year. There are some events that require your choices as part of your navigation, and some events that require your allowance. This is the difference between knowing when you can control a situation, and when you must simply steer through it. This is what you were learning in the past year. [Janet] That is an interesting question since my goal is Dominance, but I am also a Stoic so ALLOWANCE also seems to be a struggle between Resignation and Tranquility. [MEntity] There are two points to address there, Janet. One is that your Goal, then, is about knowing when and how to lead, how and when to stand as an example, and in a year of Flow, this would mean knowing when and how to lead and represent either steering through forces greater than you, or when and how to relax against the strain of trying to sustain control. The other is that Resignation is a refusal, a giving up, and relinquishing of power, whereas Tranquility is an embrace of a force greater than you as a way to come back to one's center. [Janet] I understand this now Michael. But I had not made these connections with the yearly over leaves until you presented this material. [MEntity] That is why a walkthrough together can be helpful. Together, as in, with others as a means to have more input and perspective. In terms of the Mode of the year, how present do you feel you were to those with whom you are relating, exploring intimacy, working on projects, etc. Did you learn that your presence matters? Did you learn that your helping another to honor the impact of his or her presence made a difference? Those are the themes that would be in effect in your relationships. In terms of the Attitude, did you find that you were able to uphold an ideal, a vision, a dream for fulfillment? Did you find that you were demanding fulfillment without doing the work of the steps? Did you find that there are no short cuts? That you must "do the work?" These may seem like questions that would be valid in any year, and they would be, but in particular to this year, these would be quite insightful for extracting and clarifying just what you learned in the past year. This means from EVERYTHING, not just in general, but from all of your experiences. [Martha] We've had an influx of excited newbies on TLE lately, but some just seem to NOT want to "do the work" [MEntity] We wish to note, as well, that the list of Overleaves we have worked through are from the greatest, broadest context, down to the most tangible and specific. [Maureen] You sound like a Priest Martha... ;) [Martha] Well, they've been very loud about it! [Maureen] [that was a joke...] [GeraldineB] Not everyone knows "how" to do the work -- they think learning the theory is enough [Martha] Or mapping the theory [Maureen] LOL [MEntity] Martha, that is not necessarily valid. Many of the fragments we have seen arrive are new to their Agreements with us, and therefore new to the concept of such "work." To begin studies with us is to begin that process of realization that there is work to do that cannot be done passively. [Martha] So, more "growing pains" then refusal? [Martha] I can see that [Janet] Learning what Michael teaches is different now than when many of us started. There is far more than a single book. It must be overwhelming for those that are new. [Martha] Oh, yes! [Martha] We had to take our little dribbles of info as we could find them. Now, there is a flood. [GeraldineB] When you say new to agreements, Michael, do you mean this is their first lifetime working with you? [Maureen] Well it was "Flow" this year. :) [MEntity] The amount of access to us, or the amount of information available, has no bearing on this. It is a matter of individual consciousness. Some come to the realization that there is work to do, and some come to the realization that they prefer not to do that work. This is how we meet with and secure Agreements with our students. [ViP1] actually I've made a conscious decision to take a break from frequent sessions with Michael and let myself live with what i've learned for a bit, so I can try to apply it instead of most of it remaining theoretical [ViP1] not sure how long that break will last, probably not as long as I think :-) [MEntity] In addition to this, when a new wave of students arrive among those who are already secured as our students, the validity of just what has been learned, and how that is being integrated and applied, comes to light for the older students. [Janet] I definitely can understand that. [MEntity] VIP, the time and experience relevant for integration and application is valid, but the distancing or separation from the teacher is not necessary unless there is an unhealthy exploitation of the teacher as a means of escape. [ViP1] I think there was at one point (and I said as much to Troy once), but not any more [ViP1] it's more that I feel I've gotten to a point where I can't absorb any more new information without trying to put what I already have into real application - then I think that will generate new directions of interest [MEntity] We would describe it as a dependency that turned into a trust, not as an exploitive escape. [ViP1] but I do plan to check in regularly, of course [ViP1] thanks - there I go being hard/accountable on myself again :-) where is the innocence in me!! [MEntity] We are not discouraging your choices, but simply helping to clarify them. [ViP1] that does help and put a more inclusive perspective on it, I'll certainly remember that [Janet] I am wondering if Michael would like to comment on how well (or not) our TLE community handled the most recent situation with the new student who caused an uproar and left after numerous disagreements. I feel an effort was made to apply what we've learned. Is that the case? [MEntity] To respond to Janet: we think the community displayed tremendous application of our teaching, ranging in spectrum from benefit of the doubt to having to own one's limitations. Allowing others the benefit of the doubt may seem obvious as a means to display the effects of a beneficial teaching, but owning one's limitations and boundaries can be much more difficult to do, and to see as a benefit from a teaching. Owning one's limitations and boundaries is very different from defending or justifying them. The most tangible, and the most specific of what was learned over the course of 2013, then, would be relevant to how you may have been convinced that your worthiness and value were dependent upon Sacrifice, at best, and on Suicide, or rejection of a life force, at worst, presuming that the self was not worth the life force being wasted on it. The idea that sacrifice is necessary for the value of something to be increased, is a defense against the fear of unworthiness. Or put another way, that sacrifice somehow adds value. How often did you find your sense of value because of the sense that you are sacrificing something? How often did you find that the sense of value of someone else was dependent upon his or her displaying sacrifice? [Martha] I feel like I sacrificed my peace of mind and sense of safety all year with my poor cat, but did that somehow add value in that sense? Yes, it made me feel like I was doing what a good, loving pet owner "should" be doing, to try my hardest with him, but I didn't feel like it was an ego trip. But would this qualify as Self destruction in action? [MEntity] To respond to Martha, yes, there was sacrifice, but not along the way; only in the end. By this we mean that the path was one of value for life, and that one was not more valuable than another. However, in the end, there was a retroactive interpretation of your actions as "sacrifice" so that your choice could be upheld as justified and noble. That is when the defense came. [Martha] I don't feel noble, but I couldn't live with a wildly unpredictable cat any more. [MEntity] However, as the defense wears off, you will know that you sacrificed nothing. You chose to give the best chance to a life that you deemed as being as worthy as your own. [Martha] and I had no humane alternative [MEntity] You did the same in giving birth. Both have come with their problems. Both have come with their toll. [Martha] laughing through my tears here [Martha] Can I request the cat hive send me an easier friend next time? :D [MEntity] But what you learned this year is that there is/was no sacrifice. Only choice. Allowance. Until your space is free from internal and external chaos, there would still be an effect on a companion animal. [Martha] I'm in no rush to get another MESSAGES FROM MICHAEL [MEntity] We have offered you a broad range of questions that are deceptively simplistic for your use in assessing your year in terms of what you have learned. Spend some time with these questions and What we will do now is offer each of you a quick phrase to help you in your assessment. What we offer here would be placed alongside your own assessments and phrasing for other things learned. Consider these suggestions as examples, but not definitive. GERALDINE: what we see you have learned is THAT IT IS ALL WORTH IT. This can be interpreted in several ways, in several contexts, but it is a valid phrase to capture the range of what was learned. So much is now included in what was "worth it." [GeraldineB] yes, I can see that [MEntity] JANET: what we see you having learned is that I AM NOT DEAD; I AM NOT DYING. We would have liked to use the phrase, "I am still alive," but that is not as to the point. The first phrases describe the internal and external struggle to assert oneself as accepting the continuation of life (and all that the term "life" implies.) [Janet] Wow. That's a lot to ponder. [MEntity] So much of this past year was your about your ownership of your creative forces that are often subtle, but vital. [Janet] That part I can understand. [MEntity] MARTHA: we see what you have learned as being I CAN DO THIS. The past year was themed in taking on challenges that were far "over your head," dependent upon patience, endurance, persistence, optimism, and possibility. So much of this past year was about owning your confidence in your choices, even if your actions were shaky. [Martha] Shaky? [MEntity] Yes: uncertain; not always able to be implemented ideally; requiring you to negotiate, to return to them, etc. [Martha] Oh, yes, I see that [MEntity] MAUREEN: your past year would appear to have brought great learning about: I'M ONLY HUMAN. This was a year that emphasized your blind spots, your trigger points, your necessity for pleasures, intimacy, your limits to compassion, and your humanity. [Maureen] That sounds right. :) [MEntity] The trajectory toward cycling off can be daunting, so there can come a shift in gears toward reminding oneself of the best and worst of being Human. This past year has been an exploration of those things, as painlessly as possible. This "best and worst" of being Human was not only in terms of your person, but in terms of how others exemplify this. [Maureen] Thanks Michael, I love you too. [MEntity] Ironically, this past year helped to build what will most likely be one of your most compassionate years alive as 2014 comes into full swing. [Maureen] I'm looking forward to that. :) [MEntity] VIP, we might describe your past year as having learned: I WAS ALWAYS FREE. This was a year of ownership for your position among others, your position of power, your position of choice, your acceptance of your depths for love and patience, and your recalibrating your sense of direction to own all of this. So much of your past year was not about breaking free, but about knowing what free means and is and what it looks like. [ViP1] you got it [ViP1] i feel "free" expanding mentally by the minute literally since I've been sitting here during the afternoon [MEntity] We would say to Troy that he has learned: THIS IS WHY I LIVED. This is not to describe some end result or reward for the life lived, but to describe the ownership of just what he has created with his choices over the lifetime. This channel has overcome death and abuses to the life in a way that make it hard to understand why he lives, if looked at in terms of rewards or end results. But when the life is looked at in terms of cumulative effects of choice, it is about the path, not the destination. Good evening to each of you. We know that far more has been learned than we can summarize, and we know that far more will be learned even beyond your assessments, but it is Good Work to look back on a block of time and consider how you might extract the best from it. Goodbye.