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My essence is 35% male and 65% female energy. I notice this in my appreciation for the female form. I do feel reasonably comfortable with my body but the female form feels like the preferred form and the one that I am most comfortable with. Now that I have chosen the male form, I am exploring the areas of manhood. I work with wheel loaders of a well known Swedish brand as a test driver and live out in the forest (occasionally cutting down trees for firewood). I am considered a manly man by most other than me. When it comes to sex, I often use my female lives to guide me and give me inspiration. It is a peculiar feeling to remember being of the other gender in the act of lovemaking. I can remember or feel how it is and what I like in respective body formats. It becomes a yin yang experience, the female and male form combined into one. Being female or male ceases to exist and you are simply human. This was at its clearest, when I was with my essence twin (35f65m). One time during lovemaking, we could feel our bodies merge. Afterwards we talked about what it was like and we had had the same experience of being simultaneously male and female. What I have noticed is that according to the Michael charts, I have the most satisfying experience with the opposite energy configuration. When I have been with a partner that has the same male female ratio as I, the sex tends to get awkward, uncertain and lack the oneness feeling. My current relationship with a 2.lvl old scholar (she's 70m30f) is very satisfying. She also knows that I am not much of a man, really...