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OMW - Jun 21, 2014 - You and Your Centers Channel: Troy Tolley MEntity: Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin. Today we are asked to discuss each of the Centers/Chakras, not only in terms of their nature, but in fairly personal terms of where and how you are with the health, function, habits, blocks, and balance of your own. Instinctive Center - Regulates Choice What we will do is speak a bit about the Instinctive Center, then address that Center for each of you who are present, then the Lower Centers, then the Higher Centers. We know that time is limited and that we may not cover all of them, but we will attempt to do so. To help deliver this in as succinct a manner as possible, we will cover these elements of each Center: Basic Function, Most Obvious State of Positive Health, Most Obvious State of Negative Health, Most Direct Means of Healing, and then your assessment. The reasons that the "most obvious" states of health can be useful is because these states can help one to sense fairly easily which direction one is leaning, even if nowhere near the extreme. By "health" here we will mean this in terms of the Center, not necessarily in terms of symptoms in the body, which can often be symptoms of combinations of issues and not specific to a Center. For the most part, the more obvious health of your Centers can be seen in your behaviors long before your bodies. First, we will say that Center and Chakra are often used interchangeably because they are the same systems. However, in our teaching, "Center" is a reference to one's habitual "center of gravity," which is how one navigates the life. It is the funnel through which all experiences tend to first be processed by the Personality. Chakras, on the other hand, are more a teaching of the complex system of circuitry that runs as part of the various bodies, including how that links to Essence. In our teaching, "Center" extends to include all of those that are not your habitual "center of gravity" because each Center still has its use of all of the other Centers, its "Parts." So it is fair and safe to use these systems of understanding interchangeably, but there is a difference. Though none of you here are Centered in the Instinctive, your Instinctive Centers are as active as your Primary Center. No body or Personality can function without the Instinctive Center. It is from the Instinctive Center that the Personality arises. This is the only Center that is ever carried forward from each life. All others "die" with the bodies. Think of this as the "floppy disc," to use a rather outdated technological term that is carried from one life to another. It can also be "copied" easily among Concurrents, and then recombined in Reviews. No matter what your Primary Centering, the Instinctive Center will be your Center that regulates your capacity to CHOOSE. So in its simplest terms for this particular exchange on the topic, we will say that its Basic Function is the means by which the Personality will Regulate Choice. When the Instinctive Center is in its Positive Health, it shows up as owning the responsibility, consciousness, and capacity for choice. This means that the individual understands that, however restrictive the contexts, there will always be levels of choice with which one can work. One can be held captive in a box and still know that there is the capacity for choice for one or more bodies. The Physical Body, in that case, may have been stripped of choice, but the intellectual and Emotional bodies may still utilize Choice. This is an extreme, and disturbing, scenario to be used as an example, but we only do so to illustrate that some of your most restrictive scenarios in your life are nowhere near as restrictive as they could be. And you still have choice. The healthy Instinctive Center knows this. This does not mean you like your choices, or your range of choices, and that you may wish to work on expanding your range of choices, but there is, at no point, a sense that one no longer has a choice. The negative health of an Instinctive Center is when one begins to relinquish the responsibility of choice, and default only to reaction (rather than response). This Instinctive Center functions only as a means of navigating away from perceived or real threats. The life is spent only assessing threats. Possibilities become elusive and lose priority. This is sometimes necessary, so we do not mean "negative health" in terms of "bad," but more in the sense that the capacity for conscious choices has been reduced or honed toward only survival. Depending upon your Primary Centering, this can take the form of Emotional Survival, Intellectual Survival, or Material Survival. You will know if your Instinctive Center is leaning toward the Negative Health if you perceive your Emotional realm, Intellectual (expressive/social) realm, or Material Realm to have been reduced to a point of dependency, defense, or desperation. The most direct means of healing the Instinctive Center when in the Negative State of Health, or when damaged or "blocked" in any way, is to ask for help. Even if one were locked in a box, this is true. And most already know this, regardless of Soul Age, and "instinctively" call out for help, even to unknown or invisible forces when having fallen into Negative Health. We can safely say that each of you here lean toward your Negative end of Health for this Center. This is not a static state, but probably relative to your Primary Centering. [ViP1] i'd estimate i'm at the negative end at least 60 or 70 percent of the time [Janet] I’m very surprised. I would have said I lean toward the positive end [ClaireC] I know I fluctuate a lot. [ViP1] these days, at least, I think I've had times in the not too distant past that may have been closer to the opposite [GeraldineB] I'm somewhat surprised, too as while I have medical issues that are ongoing, I am seeking help for them [Ingun] I'm not surprised, I think most people lean more toward struggling in some way with survival issues, but fluctuating a lot. [ClaireC] Defense and desperation ring a bell. :) MEntity: Janet, we are not speaking in static terms, nor in assessment of more recent times, but in broader terms. However, it should be noted that even as each of you are far more conscious and in Positive Health of the Instinctive Center than most, you would not grow if not for the challenges that the Negative bring. [Ingun] Yes, that makes sense. [Janet] I agree that makes sense. [ViP1] what are those broader terms, Michael? [Maureen] I know I have had anxiety for, oh, about 6 million years or so. It's a hard habit to break. MEntity: It is not a report card, but a fact of incarnation. We could have posed the question as a "test" of your own understanding of this, but we do not think that the Instinctive Center is covered enough for that to be a fair question. [Janet] We incarnate in order to learn to choose. Once we have mastered that, we no longer need the experience. MEntity: It is natural for each of you to dip into the Negative on a regular basis, though some will tend to do so in more extreme ways than others. What may be new to you is the context in which this is most often played out, and this would TEND to be through what you identify as your Primary Centering. [GeraldineB] oops -- I slipped up again and used a standard definition for negative pole, not the Michael one MEntity: Even if someone struggles financially, but is Emotionally-Centered, it is in terms of Inspiration, self-esteem, meaning, etc. that this struggle plays out. Yes, there will still be the material, of course, but this person may have a much more difficult time separating his status from his sense of value. So when each of you sense your move into Negative Health of your Instinctive Center, note that, first, there is likely still a great range of choice, even if not what you would wish for it to be, and that you can make the effort to respond, rather than react, as a means of navigating a scenario, and finally, that you can ask for help. You may not get it, or you may have to ask more than you would like, but remembering that you can ask, that you have a right to ask, and that you may need to ask, is healthy. By "asking for help" here we do not mean coaxing someone else to do the work that you can do. Though we described each of you as leaning toward the Negative Health, we did so to point out its necessity to do so as a part of your living a life. Now we ask that each of you consider your own assessment. Share what you think is your likely percentage of Positive Health vs Negative Health as you see your life right now. [ViP1] for me, same as mentioned earlier - 60 to 70 percent in the reaction/survival in response to "threats" mode, which I understand now as Negative end of health of the instinctive center [GeraldineB] I would say that I'm reasonably healthy both mentally and emotionally, am in a state of wellbeing -- maybe 80% -- but, physical, am declining, so would put that at 50% or less even though I am seeking help [ViP1] by the way, that "right to ask for help" - is that one of the 7 basic Rights, Michael? [ClaireC] I could definitely ask for help a lot more, from my guides and Essence I suppose. [ClaireC] Positive 75% Negative 25%. [Maureen] I would say I may be at 80% Negative Health but I'm finding it hard to put a number to it. [Janet] It is hard for me to ask for help but I think I do it more often than I used to do. I’ve been working to avoid being reactionary. I am generally conscious of my right to choose. I can’t give a percentage for right now. I will have to give it thought. [Ingun] Fluctuating, but between Pos 40 - Neg 60 [GeraldineB] I still am locked into a belief system of "permanent conditions," rather than one that could be changed by other beliefs and/or Essence [ClaireC] I think our physical health affects our emotional health and outlook. MEntity: Visaish, yes. The "right to ask for help" is a subset of the most basic Right to Be Real, to Exist. No one exists in a vacuum. [ViP1] great, thank you (as I saw from other material you shared through Troy, that is indeed the Right that is related to the Instinctive Center.) [Ingun] I would guess I sometimes can be in more than 60% Neg Health also, and also in more than 40% Pos Health [Ingun] I'm also working on asking more for help. [Maureen] I have a hard time asking for help. Half the time I wouldn't even know what to ask for. It's more feelings. MEntity: We would wish to add that "asking for help" includes asking this of yourself. For some, this does not occur to them. There is a complete sense of paralysis, fear, defense, distance, etc. They can even use their conscious choice to refuse to choose. [ClaireC] Our interactions with Michael are a way of asking and receiving help. [ViP1] agreed, Claire MEntity: Claire, we agree. [Maureen] I agree too Claire. MEntity: We would point out that our exchanges with you, in that regard, are not one-way. You help us. Our invitation to our teaching is a request for your help. We cannot evolve without you. [ViP1] oh wow, that really touches me for some reason... [ViP1] but I'm glad to help [ClaireC] That is touching, ViP. MEntity: Existence is never a vacuum. Not even in the High Planes. [ViP1] "Vacuum" and "aloneness" are different things, in the way you use those terms, right Michael? [Maureen] I do ask Essence and my Guides for help and Michael, of course. It's just harder to ask for what I need from a living, breathing person. [Maureen] maybe it's a Priest thing. [ClaireC] But you're really good at offering and giving help, Maureen. MEntity: Correct. Aloneness is recognition of one's existence as singular representative of wholeness, while being a part of a greater wholeness. Vacuum is an emphasis on a false sense of distance between the self and other. Maureen, eventually, it is understood that help is effective and accessible from all realms of relevance. [Maureen] understanding it and asking for it are two different things -- aren't they? MEntity: It is often useless to ask "God" or guides to help one with material concerns, for instance, and much more effective to ask for help from those within the relevant realm. "God" and guides can help one with the less-dense dimensions. We agree, Maureen. [ViP1] you agree that this is a difficulty that Priests especially have, Michael? MEntity: That is the case with any learning. The gap between learning and application. [ViP1] oh sorry, never mind MEntity: It is not unique to Priests. [ViP1] that's what I thought, I misunderstood which of Maureen's comments you were responding to - please ignore, sorry MEntity: We understand. To continue with the Centers: [ViP1] by the way Michael, what do you think of our assessments of ourselves in terms of negative vs positive percentages for the Instinctive centers? MEntity: We think they are fair, even if leaning a bit on the high side for Negative Health. We think that each of you are closer to the middle than that. [ViP1] ok, thank you! MEntity: The assessments we see are when you are at your "worst." To clarify: the assessments each of you offered are more accurate to when you are at your "worst." [Maureen] When I am bad -- I am really bad. :) [ClaireC] :) [Ingun] How will it be played out if an Intellectually-centered person struggles financially? MEntity: This might tend to show up more in terms of how this represents the individual, how others might see that individual, and/or how this person struggles to express himself or herself, to give presence and form to the self in the world. It is a struggle with havingness and self-worth. Which is different from self-esteem, by the way. Self-esteem is how one feels about the self, while self-worth is about how one thinks about the self. Self-esteem is the use of relationships as reflections of self. Self-worth is the use of things as expressions of self. [Ingun] Thanks. Please continue with the centers/chakras ... Moving Center - Linked to Goal MEntity: MOVING CENTER has as its Basic Functions the regulation of your movements, directions, and paths. In its simplest description for this exchange, we can say that it is how one navigates WHAT WORKS and WHAT DOES NOT WORK. This is everyone's means of creating or clearing his or her path through life. It is directly linked to the Goal. No matter what your Goal, in terms of Axis, it is your ACTIONS that create or clear your path to fulfilling it. One cannot fulfill their Goal in any lifetime without ACTION. In Positive Health, this shows up as an evolving capacity for LEARNING. Though learning happens among all Centers, there must be application and implementation for true learning while in a body. Regardless of one's Primary Centering, this Center is where one actually learns, at least in terms of the lifetime. Not necessarily how one learns math or how to raise a plant. Those who are Moving Centered will tend to have greater emphasis on the Goal as their priority for the life. When the Moving Center is in Negative Health, it often shows up for the older soul as AGITATION. One of the most direct means of healing this Center is to apply what one has learned. It is that simple. Keep in mind that this prompt for application of learning can come in the form of impulses, a quiet sense of knowing what one "should" do, and often as your means of handling pain. On the scale between AGITATION and APPLICATION/LEARNING, where do each of you feel you might fall in terms of learning? You need not use a number, just a sense of direction. [ViP1] I think I lean more toward agitation, but not too far off the "50/50" mark [Janet] I have been studying and have received many tips from you Michael that would aid in my goal of (self-)Dominance. But the tips are hard to apply so I clearly haven’t learned them. I am definitely on the negative side here. [Maureen] I have one foot in agitation and one foot in application -- on average I'm uncomfortable. [ClaireC] Confusion at times, some Agitation. [ViP1] I think I tend to react to agitation with freneticism and/or tendencies to addictive behaviors as a distraction from the agitation, but I do believe I'm getting better at applying what I am learning [ClaireC] I work on Application constantly. MEntity: The reason there is a Goal is because it will require the use of the Moving Center in some way, even if one is not Moving Centered. When looking at how you are Agitated, look to your Goal. In most cases, it is directly relevant. [Maureen] That makes sense. [Ingun] Fluctuating, but 45-55 [Janet] Oh that’s good advice. MEntity: It would indicate that you may not be applying all that you have learned. [GeraldineB] I could be self-deluded, but I don't feel all that much agitation with my Goal -- I've gotten quite patient with myself MEntity: Agitation tends not to come unless there is Learning that is not being applied. Agitation is a kind of short-circuiting that indicates the gap between action and experience/knowledge. [GeraldineB] I'm in such a constant state of learning, it's like all of it just keeps rolling over and into itself [ViP1] I like that description of Agitation [ClaireC] Me too. [Maureen] Me too [ViP1] :-) [Ingun] I know I'm not applying everything I have learned MEntity: For example, if you you find yourself in a pattern of Agitation with certain "kinds of people," or a circumstance, or relationship, you may not be applying the experiences and knowledge that has come from previous fulfillment of the Goal. [Janet] That definitely happens to me. I’m doing better though. MEntity: Each of you continue to do better. If not, you would not be here. [ClaireC] I would imagine that one's Frequency of processing would help here. MEntity: It is relevant, but one end of the range is not better than another. Not allowing oneself to process at one's natural Frequency can be troublesome, though. [ViP1] you said that when not manifesting Essence, one tends to process closer to the default Frequency of their Role, rather than the Frequency of their Spark/Essence, right Michael? [GeraldineB] I'm not familiar with that idea -- does each role have a default frequency? [ViP1] it appears so, it was in a question that I asked in a Michael Speaks [ViP1] or a default range of frequencies [ViP1] or an Ask Michael, I can't remember which MEntity: In the same way that Bodies are 100% Male Energy when of the male gender or 100% Female Energy when of the female gender (in most cases), so are Roles locked into a range of frequency. This range of frequency is not the same as that of Essence, so Essence will trump that frequency, in the same way that it does in the Body's Energy Ratio. This is how one can find a low Frequency Priest and a high Frequency Priest, even if the default range of frequency for the Priest Role is high. And how one can find a high "female energy" man and a high "male energy" female. When one neglects the care of the body, Energy Ratio starts to move toward the default. When one rejects Essence, the default range of frequency for processing in the Personality is that of the Role. [GeraldineB] Do we have a list of the defaults for each Role? [ViP1] ok, so that is the case when rejecting essence, rather than NOT Manifesting essence then (rejecting Essence is not the same as not Manifesting Essence) [ViP1] Not through Troy, G [ViP1] not that I know of at least [ViP1] sorry if I'm derailing the topic of the session by now though... please continue with the Centers if we can take up Frequency further in a different exchange :-) Emotional Center - Linked to Mode MEntity: The EMOTIONAL CENTER has as its Basic Functions the regulation of your intimacy, empathy, and sensitivity. In its simplest description for this exchange, we can say that is how one navigates between MEANINGFUL and MEANINGLESS. This is everyone's way of infusing or extracting meaning from his or her path/experiences in life. It is directly linked to the MODE. No matter what your Mode, in terms of Axis, it is your EMOTIONS that create or destroy your sense of meaning from your experiences. One cannot fulfill any range of significance in intimacy, sensitivity, without having infused or extracted Meaning. One cannot implement the Mode in any healthy way without evolving one's range of INSPIRATION. The more one limits his or her sense of Inspiration, the less-likely one can relate to others, to see himself or herself in others, and more importantly, less-likely to recognize others in himself or herself. By "others," we speak of any creature, sentient or non-sentient. In Positive Health, this Center could be described as showing up as GIVING/GENEROUS. In Negative Health, it can show up as RESENTFUL. The means by which the Mode is fulfilled at its best is when approached from this state of Giving/Generosity. The trick here is that no lifetime can be experienced without some experience in giving, but when one begins to keep score, to stand in righteousness, to give when not fully capable of giving, then Resentment begins to step in. So the evolution of Giving is a matter of one's evolution of Meaning. As each of you look at your Emotional Center, how often do you feel Resentment? How often do you feel that you Give in meaningful ways? How honest are you in your stating Yes? No? [Janet] ‘Resentful’ feels strong but I recognize it at times. I am definitely on the negative side here. [Janet] I think we are hoping to pursue intellectual center to get a balanced transcript. [GeraldineB] Yes, I agree with Janet MEntity: In that case, we will close on the Emotional Center by stating that the state of your relationships is a fair means of assessing where you are in terms of Health in the Emotional Center. Intellectual Center - Linked to Attitude The INTELLECTUAL CENTER, then, has as its Basic Functions the regulation of your impact, effect, and presence on your path in this life. In its simplest description for this exchange, we can say that it is how one navigates between HONESTY/Innocence and DECEIT/Jaded. This is everyone's way of testing out behaviors, traits, and negotiation in terms of their effects, impact, and presence in form. It is directly linked to the ATTITUDE. No matter what your Attitude, in terms of Axis, it is your INTELLECTUAL CENTER that runs the core of your basic philosophy about this life. One cannot test out one's philosophy without experimenting in the range between Honesty and Deceit, both in terms of others and the self. The Attitude cannot function in any healthy way without this Center moving more and more toward Honesty. The more one limits his or her sense of Expression, which can show up as false personas, lying to oneself, lying to others, not questioning inherited philosophies, avoiding contact, evading society, etc. the more one falls into Deceit. Or Jaded. In Positive Health, this Center could be described as ENCOURAGED. In Negative Health, it can show up as DISMISSIVE. The means by which the Attitude is held in the Positive Pole is at its best when one is Encouraged, or Encouraging. The most direct way of healing this Center is through QUESTIONING. By this we mean that one does not operate from a higher proportion of presumptions and prejudices than one does from curiosity and inquisitiveness. So the questions here, for your assessment of health of the Intellect, is in how often you feel discouraged, jaded, avoiding of contact vs curious, inquisitive, and having an impact. How often do you turn to your sense of encouragement over your sense of dismissiveness? [Janet] This is one center where I think I’m on the positive side. [Janet] Recently anyhow. [ViP1] I think I too might be slightly more on the positive side recently, than the negative [ClaireC] Michael, does this apply to the Intellectual Part as well? MEntity: We are speaking today of these Centers, regardless of Part or Primary. [ClaireC] Okay. [ClaireC] I tend to be on the Positive side here. [GeraldineB] I'm definitely on the more positive side -- it's a major component of post-5th IM MEntity: All of these Centers are functioning in each of you in many ways at all times, though the range varies in terms of health and awareness. [Ingun] I'm sure I have a potential for healing here as well as in all my centers. [Janet] Since yours is an intellectual teaching MIchael, are most of us here more likely to lean toward the positive side of this center? Is there a correlation between being drawn to these teachings and the impact on the intellectual center? MEntity: We think we have shared enough for each of you to consider how these can be checked on for their health, and how to bring them back into positive health, if you choose to do so. It can also help you to understand the point of your falling into negative health, which is not because of failure or doing something "wrong," but that you have a chance to evolve. [Maureen] I'm been focusing on the internal dialogue that goes on in this center as a way towards better health. It isn't always what other people see or how you are in relationships that need "the work". MEntity: Ingun, yes. We will conclude here today by saying that each of you, while allowing yourselves the room for the Negative Health of these Centers, always move back into Positive Health as your integration and evolution. That is the nature of the older souls in positive poles. That is the nature of a true student.

ENERGY REPORTJanuary 20162016 OVERLEAVESROLE: Server (emphasized all year)CENTER: Moving (emphasized all year)GOAL: Discrimination (emphasized Jan - Mar)MODE: Caution (emphasized Apr - Jun)ATTITUDE: Cynic (emphasized Jul - Sep)CHIEF FEATURES: Self-destruction (emphasized Oct - Dec)JANUARY begins the shift into a new Role and Center for the year, and the initial introduction into the Goal for the year. The Role and Center will be undercurrents throughout the year, and while the Goal (and all overleaves for the year) are currents throughout the year, the Goal is emphasized mostly in January through March. This sets the tone for the year, if you will. This is a Server year. This means that sensitivity is going to run higher than usual and this can be met with recoil, reaction, and resentment, or met with impulses to help, to reach out, to care and nurture that which seems to be in most need at the moment. A Server year can feel overwhelming even when approached positively because it is a year where NEEDS come to the surface more than usual. Wants are set aside and Needs come to your attention. Your own Needs and the Needs of others. It is a good time for reviewing the Nine Needs that every person is responsible for upholding for himself or herself. Others can help in supporting or challenging those Needs, but only you can truly provide them for yourself. We will further discuss the Nine Needs with our students if this is requested.When there is a year in which Need is emphasized, it is important to consider your resources. If you cannot give, you cannot give. This is an important consideration. Give when you can, and give what you can, but know your limits. This limitation is not a shame, nor is it necessary to be enforced with defenses. It is simply honest that is important to communicate. When you need help, it is just as important to understand that not everyone can or will give. If you do not have responses to your needs around you, it okay to look elsewhere. It is okay to keep looking. It is okay to keep asking for the help. Keep in mind that if you find that responses are perpetually saying “no” or not responding, it may be that you are the one you need to ask and the one who needs to give. It is often the case that when one expects solutions personal needs to come from others, but finds that the asking for help pushes people further away, it can be a reflection that you are the one who is not doing the work of providing for your needs. This is not always the case, but is often the case. You are quite often your own best and immediate resource of help, support, and kindness. This is not to emphasize separation or isolation. It is a means of nurturing your own reserves and resources so that you can return to being a giver.The Moving Center for this year should be a fairly smooth transition from the Higher Moving/Moving Center of the previous year, but with a sharp plunge into physicality. A Higher Moving Center year tends to focus on larger patterns and instances of sexual and spiritual resonance, whereas the Moving Center tends to focus on details of “tighter” patterns and instances of physical harmonies or discord. In a Higher Moving Center year one can “float” above the patterns unfolding “below,” but in a Moving Center year you may find yourself “right in the middle” of intensity, activity, discord or bliss. Issues of the body, health, weather, material well-being all tend to come into focus and intensify in demand for attention, relief, revitalizing, reconsideration, recalibration, resolution, etc. A Moving Center year brings patterns that “bump into each other” in ways that can bring surprising unions and shocking collisions in any of the above contexts. In Higher Moving Center years large groups of fragments tend to exit together, but in a Moving Center year there tends to be a disproportionately high exit of individuals. In other words, disasters or accidents can tend to be common scenarios for large groups to exit in a Higher Moving Center year, but in an Moving Center year it is separate individuals in separate lives and with no apparent connections, but seemingly one after another after another. Higher Moving and Moving Center years are popular for deaths.With the Goal of Discrimination coming into focus, the initial wave of energy would likely be from the Negative Pole that is REJECTION. In other words, most will not like the beginning of this year. January will not be looked upon as delightful or a “good start.” This is not true, but it may feel this way.Discrimination is a Goal that aims for one to learn better how to choose by learning how to say NO. The Positive Pole is REFINEMENT or Sophistication while the Negative Pole is REJECTION. Rejection is a way to avoid choosing by saying no to everything. Refinement is the confidence and honesty to say no when you mean no, so that you can feel comfortable saying yes.In a year where Discrimination is the Goal, there tends to be a process of introduction through Rejection and then an eventual Refinement. The year will tend to bring one up against all things that one has tended to reject in some way and that has not been explored for nuance and variation. These are things that you simply have put into the category of NO. You may not want to look at these things, to experience these things, to revisit these things, to be touched by these things, but they are likely things that will not go away. You will have avoided dealing with them by simply rejecting them. If you are finding your year starting out with some strong elements NO, you may be inviting yourself to look closer at what you have rejected and find the nuance, beauty, possibility, or peace. If that is the case, you can still say no, but you will know if you mean it or if you are simply avoiding responsibility.We will discuss more on Needs and Refinement as the season unfolds.DATES OF INTEREST (dates are approximate):January 10 - 15 -- NEXUS - CONVERGENCE - a reunion of parallels linking together similar parallels but where fragments were living versus having died. For most who die within the next 3 months, it is final closure of all of their parallels.January 20 - 25 -- ENERGY SHIFT - RELIEF - A shift in energy may come for many of our students of this time to bring some kind of relief, release, a catching of breath, some rest, energy, burst of creativity, socializing, etc. HELPFUL THOUGHTS OVER JANUARY:YOU ARE NEVER NOT CHOOSING - Rejection is a choice. It is an attempt to avoid choice, but it is a choice. And choices have consequences and effects. To confidently say no is not rejection. To say no in defense against choosing is problematic.YOU CANNOT UN-EXIST - Death may come to be a prominent issue for many of our students to process in these days and months ahead. We will talk more about this in our live chats with you, but it can be helpful to remember that death is not meant to eclipse a life. It is a part of life. There is little difference between life and death for either the Personality or Essence except in that whichever one is “in” tends to get the priority of importance. When you are “dead” it is exciting to process a life and plan a dive back into life. When you are alive, it is exciting to consider your immortality and your extra-dimensional selves. Death and Life are two sides of EXISTENCE. You exist. You cannot un-exist. No one you know can un-exist. You will continue to love, and find even more ways and whys to love. Letting people live is to let them exist, and letting people die is to let them exist. This understanding will not replace grief, but it can be a part of the healing that returns you to focus on life when death visits around you.

Michael Speaks LIVE CHAT Dec, 2010 2010 Review and 2011 OVERLEAVES MEntity: A request for a review of December and of 2010 in general has been made for starting, so we will cover that, first, and then respond to questions before going into 2011. As many of you already understand, the Overleaves that we use to describe a year do not describe energies that are being imposed upon a frame of time, but rather a description of the energies being generated collectively during that frame of time. The same could be said of your own Overleaves: your own overleaves are descriptions of genetic dynamics that have a spectrum of manifestations that are described by the Overleaves. You are not "confined" by those Overleaves any more than you are "confined" by the fact that you are Human, for instance. In other words, Overleaves for a year, or for a person, describe patterns that are generated from within the structure, but how those patterns are used, directed, rejected, exploited, etc, are still rather limitless. When it comes to our describing the energies for a time frame (a year), it is much like sharing with you the type of weather that is "outside," and how you respond to that, participate in that, ignore t, etc. is up to you. If you choose to participate in any way in your world, then these Overleaves would have some potential bearing on your awareness, and can help in many ways to bring understanding, peace, greater choices, and better navigation. The Overleaves for 2010, in general, were described as an Emotionally-Centered SAGE Year with a Goal of Dominance, Power Mode, Spiritualist Attitude, with the Chief Features of Arrogance/Self-deprecation being explored. As each Overleaf tends to correspond to a "season," the Chief Features tend to become amplified for exploration in the months from October through December. Chief Features are technically NOT Overleaves, but we include them under the general term for convenience. There are several ways that we can share our perception of the Overleaves and how these play out in the world for a time frame, but for simplicity and relevance, we will try to focus, in general, for our Students and older souls. In light of that, it would be fair to say that December has "not been easy" for our students, nor the older soul, in general. The past year was one that was intended to bring great overhaul of certain patterns that each student felt was limiting and in need of altering. The retrospect of the past year has been disappointing to many. In addition to that disappointment, it appears that the year seems to have had more of a command and demand upon the individual than the individual had upon the year. Add to that the feeling that the new year is impending, there might even be a sense of chaos or electrical static in the consciousness, which may be played out in the environment as well. We have already shared insight in previous monthly reports about the pitfalls of COMPARISONS, which are hallmarks of Arrogance and Self-deprecation, but we will remind you here that it is still a tactic that one would want to keep in check, if one chooses to see the life more clearly. Because the year was a mix of Dominance, Power, and Spiritualism, there was a great sense of possibility in the intent for taking leadership of the life through Power, or Presence. What we have seen most of our students doing is aiming high, but landing low. For some, this will feel as if what was intended was not fully accomplished, and is therefore disappointing. However, it is fairly important to keep in mind that the very mix of this past year's energy describes a natural tendency to see all of the possibilities, which means it would be difficult NOT to aim high. In looking back at the year, we know of very few students who did not actually implement a pivotal, important, and altering pattern that was directly in line with these higher intentions. The problem for some is that it has not been revealed exactly how that pivotal pattern is tied into the higher aims, and so as the year passes into another, it feels as if the intentions may have been lost, but we doubt that they have been. What we would suggest for each of you to do before the end of your year is to look back over your year and notice one to three pivotal events, people, relationships, choices, etc, that have come to now be a part of your life. However unrelated these pivotal things may be, they are tied directly to your original, higher aims. If you are unclear as to what your higher aims may have been, it can be easy to assess what they were/are by looking at what you wish had happened in 2010 that did not happen, or did not happen in a way you had wished. Understanding that the pivotal things that have happened in your year are tied to higher aims, may shed light in what you could be getting from those pivotal patterns that you may otherwise miss. December brings with it an opportunity to SEE YOURSELF. Arrogance fears being seen too closely, while Self-deprecation fears not being seen clearly enough, or being misunderstood. If you have dismissed the past year as a "bad year," you have probably fallen into the pattern of Arrogance. If you are looking forward to the next year as making up for this past year, or as a new context through which you will try again to prove yourself, you are probably exploring the Self-deprecation energies. Of course, many of you will relate to both. Your opportunity now is to see yourself beyond your judgments and disappointment. Truly SEE YOURSELF. Let yourself be okay with what you experienced. To be okay with a gentle recalibration for the new year as a part of life, not a means to make up for failures. This also applies to others in your life. It is an opportunity to see others more clearly, to see beyond their disappointing you, failing you, and to see beyond your judgments of them. This includes those who have died. Death can often leave those remaining extant to experience a kind of resentment, anger, and disorientation that then fuels Arrogance and Self-deprecation. It is okay that these fragments have exited, even if one does not understand why, or how, and that none of it makes sense. December's Arrogance and Self-deprecation, then, are opportunities to rise beyond all speculation, prejudices, and imposed perceptions to see to the truth, the love, and the beauty/energy of the self, the life, and others We will open the queue now for questions that may be relevant to the past year in terms of the Overleaves and how world events may have been a reflection of them. *****QUEUE IS NOW OPEN************ [Bobby2] Where has Julian Assange and Wikileaks played in these overleaves? MEntity: This could be said to have nearly epitomized the year's Overleaves in that it was all about the exploration of Sage, Dominance, Power, Spiritualist, and Arrogance. With an intense push for Dissemination, the Sage energy is present, along with the emphasis on taking control through taking the Lead against Dictatorship, regaining Power through Authority over Oppression, and removing fear through the Spiritualist's Verification, rather than Beliefs. Of course, this prompted Arrogance in the fearful reactions to the Vulnerability that this presented to those who have been representing Negative Pole positions of these Overleaves. Those who felt vulnerable then pushed for that vulnerability to be emphasized so as to bring that same fear out in others. In short, the "wikileaks" scenario is one of the planet's "pivotal events" of 2010 that will have lasting patterns that would bring about changes that most on the planet prefer in the long run. It also played out in the world stage a representation of the year's overleaves, almost characterized as one side playing the Negative Poles, and the other playing out the Positive Poles. [ValSage_Priest] What then can the living do to ease their passing of a loved one, removing themselves from the resentment, anger, disorientation that fuels Arrogance and Self Dep? Thank You, So nice to feel/resonate with all of you again, Val MEntity: Each fragment will have his or her own process for grieving, and we do not mean to imply that this process should not include resentment, anger, disorientation. We also know that it would be absurd to imply that it ever gets "easier." That being said, the process can be clarified (stripped of unnecessarily painful aspects) by focusing directly on the GRIEF, not the RELIEF. By this we mean that most who experience prolonged pain do so, ironically, by struggling desperately to understand WHY as a form of relief. There is a sense that if it just made sense, or could be explained, or if there were a reason, then the pain would be lifted and replaced with a peace, or at least an understanding. Grieving is the process of accepting a profound Truth. That Truth is usually that someone or something is no longer present in a way that you wish that it would have remained. Accepting that something or someone is no longer present is difficult enough without imposing the WHY of that apparent loss or division. Mourn that loss, that change, that death. Allow the Grief to come, even if in wails or brooding silence. Therein lies the path to relief. But to focus only on Relief can bypass the Grief, and prolong the pain. The understanding and the truths about the experience will come. But never before the grieving is completed. [Jon2] I have been feeling like I am "on the cusp" of achieving the things I want for a while now, and making definite progress, but not quite getting there. I have seen a lot of friends in a similar situation, having made definite progress without reaching their goals. You said that we were "aiming high", does that mean that our goals are unreachable or invalid? MEntity: When we said that we see our students "aiming high," we might also have said "aiming wide." What we meant was that a broad net has been cast, so to speak, and that net is going to reel in some catches that are entirely relevant to the "big catch" you may be seeking. To ignore what has been brought in so far, or to ignore the changes and achievements of the past year, out of disappointment for not landing the big catch, would be similar to throwing yourself off the boat, or "cutting of your nose to spite your face." Your "cusp" is not idealized or imagined. Most of our students who intended to make a change and do something different for their lives in 2010 are in that same stage. Though it is your choice, we would say that to keep moving toward your intention would be Good Work. [Jon2] That is how I feel too, but it is nice to hear someone else say it [corinne] 2010 has been a year of huge upheaval and transition in my life with many positive new courses set and indeed nothing really achieved or finished yet. Could you give some guidelines to us in how we single out these pivotal events in the past year that will better lead us to achieving our "high/wide aims"? MEntity: For the most part, we see those in your similar position as having ADDED something to the life in some way in the past year that is indicative of the pivotal. Added a relationship, a project, a new address, etc. Though we would not limit it to this, we would say that a fairly accurate assessment would include looking back to see what is NEW in the life that either still remains now, or at least the repercussions of it remain. At least one to three major NEW things, people, relationships, projects, etc have been added and have altered your patterns toward the higher/wider aims. ******QUEUE CLOSED******* Now we will share what we perceive as the 2011 Overleaves. The underlying energies for the year are described by the ROLE and CENTERING. These would remain in effect all year. The rest of the energies are in effect all year, as well, but tend to build upon one another as the year unfolds. The year unfolds from the Goal, to the Mode, to the Attitude, to the Chief Negative Features almost parallel to "seasons." Because the Goal starts off strong in January through March, the Role, Centering, and Goal tend to set the tone for the year. 2011 Overleaves are: ROLE: PRIEST CENTER: MOVING GOAL: FLOW MODE: CAUTION ATTITUDE: PRAGMATIST sliding to Cynic and Skeptic CHIEF FEATURES: Impatience/Martyrdom For most of our students, the most important thing that would come from understanding this mix of energies is that it would do you well to start out your year as clear as possible in terms of intent for the year. The year ahead could be said to potentially feel as if one is on ice skates on a block of ice on a choppy ocean. For some of our more adventurous students, this "is going to be fun." But for many, it will mean either sitting down and holding on, working together in tight groups, or at least focusing exactly on the direction intended to go so that "looking down" does not distract from the path. With the Priest energy unfolding, we would say that the year would carry with it strong themes that display the spectrum between COMPASSION and ZEAL. The struggle for continued extension and placement of RIGHTS in various contexts will probably stay in the collective consciousness, with those who are for these Rights playing out Compassion, while those who refuse those Rights playing out Zeal. With the spectrum between Compassion and Zeal playing out, we would think that POLITICS will stay front and center in the media as reflective of the continued shift from the Young paradigm to the Mature Paradigm. This is because the political arena is quite effective in reflecting the mass psyche of a time or place. Politics have been the stomping ground of the Young Souls in the same way that Religion has been the stomping ground of the Baby Souls, but with the aging Essences dominating your world, these institutions are not being replaced, but rather repopulated. The Mature and Old are finding their way into Politics as more and more Mature Souls push for valid representation and uncovering of corruption. Because Mature Souls do not subject themselves to segregation, despite longing for like-mindedness, they are populating nearly every institution that was usually held in control by a specific Soul Age. Religions, then, are seeing the effects of this, as well. We bring in Religion in particular because it has long ago become simply another form of politics. In the year ahead, we would think that this institution is also brought into the collective consciousness as either collapsing into Zeal, or evolving into Compassion along with the context of RIGHTS. The Moving Center of a year usually shows up as a sense of constant movement, with many actually experiencing relocation in those years, and often large quantities of fragments exiting in Physical Plane events. These things are not easy to validate in terms of our Overleaves for the year because these things happen "all the time," but we can say that in Moving Centered years, there is usually an element of emphasis and profundity about these events that other years tend not to have. With the Goal of Flow opening a Moving-centered Priest year, as we alluded before, AIM OF VISION is probably the most important key phrase to remember. With an AIM OF VISION, then the pattern may tend toward everything falling into place in a way that cascades toward that vision. Because of the nature of Flow, it would mean that the challenge is to trust in that flow, rather than to control it or fight it. It would mean adapting to the cascade effect, recalibrating quickly, rather than being preoccupied with correction. When we say AIM OF VISION, it only means that you decide what ONE THING you wish to do, experience, see, complete, accomplish, etc. in 2011 and then let that be the aim. Everything else is presumed to be a part of that aim. For instance, even if "going to work" conflicts with your more creative endeavors, it would be presumed that your going to work is PART of what can be contributing to your creative endeavors. To become preoccupied with "if only," might bring about the difficulties. Such as "if only I didn't have to work so much, I could do my creative projects." With the Goal of Flow for the year, it brings with it the spectrum between FREEDOM and INERTIA. As the year opens up into January through March, for those who have that clarity of aim, the year may start out feeling quite free, light, and almost as if you now may catch your breath, and breathe. For those who are not so sure, still preoccupied with corrections, comparisons, or disappointments, the year might move into a state of INERTIA, feeling as if you are running in place, or moving with a momentum but with no sense of direction. To clarify your AIM OF VISION will not mean that you are choosing only one thing to accomplish in the year, but that you are simply choosing one emphasis that will help you to keep your footing. In other words, choose that one thing that, if reached, you know would be a "good thing" for you. Choosing that one thing to aim for will not sacrifice any others in any significant way. An analogy: When a student receives or deciphers his or her Overleaves, it will never truly matter if those Overleaves are 100% "correct" if the aim of that student is to aim for the Positive Poles. This is not to say that there are not correct overleaves, but that it is the aim that makes the difference, not the words. If a Sage thinks he is a Warrior and aims for Persuasion instead of Dissemination, the mere act of aiming for his idea of a positive pole warrior will make him a positive pole sage. And so it is with your aim in the year ahead: Aiming for anything that is significant and important to you will naturally align all of the things that are significant and important to you. The reason we suggest this idea of Aim of Vision is because it is also in alignment with the energies of Priest, and this means a natural kind of support for that aim is in place. The cliche of the "vision board" would not be amiss in exploring, either. In our monthly Energy Reports, we can more specifically speak to how these Overleaves are showing up in your world, but for now, we can say that the main arenas of 2011 would most likely be Politics, Religion, and Weather/Climate. We will open the floor for comments/questions for the remainder of the hour. Though we have more to say on the interpretation of the overleaves for the year, we can do so as the year unfolds. ******QUEUE IS NOW OPEN****** [TimW] Are there any specific positive affirmations that we would most benefit from in the coming year? MEntity: If one is to use "positive affirmations," we would suggest that they be customized to your Aim of Vision. For instance, if one is aiming to complete a novel, but one is stuck at work, distracted by a relationship, etc., then one could affirm, "Even in this, I am contributing to the completion of my novel." This kind of reminder might help one to see the point of these so-called "distractions." One must eat and have shelter and the tools for writing, so going to work is actually a contribution to the novel; and being responsible to another, compassionate, nurturing, understanding, etc are food for the emotions and intellect that can be used to fuel the writing. A "generic" affirmation might be: "Everything I DO is contributing to my Aim." [Mstudent_23] What is the PART of the Moving CENTER for 2011? MEntity: The PART fluctuates, but the pattern emerging appears to be Emotional, lending the year a rather reactionary element to it with knee-jerking, volatility, and difficulty communicating past feelings. [Bobby2] Other than your summary, you really didn't mention weather/climate much... care to elaborate a bit more there? MEntity: In a Higher Centered year, or a Moving Centered year, there tend to be greater emphasis on the Physical Plane patterns of weather as reflective of the collective consciousness. In Higher Centered years, the impact is usually global, and often with more than one event, such as the Higher-Emotional year of 2005 that was rung in by the Indian Ocean Tsunami and exited with Hurricane Katrina. In Moving Centered years, the weather and climate still tend to get emphasized and intense, but peppered throughout the Physical Plane in highly-localized ways. What we see over 2011 is a collage of events that some will take and use as support for the "2012" theories. Major droughts "here," raging fires "there," freak blizzards "here," torrential rains "there," devastating earthquakes, etc. Those who fear and crave the "prophecies" related to 2012 will find most of their fodder in the weather of 2011. The weather and climate is still greatly misunderstood and carries with it the collective instinctual fear and awe of that "something greater" that can be tangibly imposed upon the masses. Therefore, it can still be hijacked as a reference of "proof" of things to come. [Brian_W] would this be related to the mass-exit to stage left that Michael said that large number of fragments would be undertaking? MEntity: Weather appears to be moving in a direction that would be experienced as undoubtedly more volatile and unpredictable due to many factors unrelated to any "dimensional shift," but related to a natural cycle that the Earth has sustained over and over. In a Moving-Centered year, the effects tend to be much more obvious and tangible, and this is why we say that Weather is one of the main characters of 2011, but also because there will be those eager to showcase it as evidence of ominous things to come. [Geraldine] Of course having a population explosion that will reach 7 billion people this year will have nothing to do with the size and range of any disaster -- i.e., a hurricane that might have affected 100 people will now affect 100 million. MEntity: That is correct, Geraldine. Many natural disasters are not worse in terms of intensity, but that there are simply more things and people in the line of them. In response to Astarte: no, not much would be different except the awareness and emphasis on these events. [Kathryn41] are earthquakes and volcanic eruptions included in what you refer to as 'weather'? They are really geological events but can have impact on the weather. MEntity: Yes, Kathryn. [Angela] Earlier you mentioned overleaves being a description of genetic DYNAMICS, can you explain more about these dynamics and their influences? MEntity: All Overleaves are genetic, in that they can be found in the DNA of every individual, and this is what springs forth in creating the Body and Personality. There is more "nature" to a person than "nurture," in other words, even though there is a mix, and the choices of the individual can affect how either are emphasized. If one were to use our system alongside the study of genetic markers, there would be a time when Overleaves can literally be found in the DNA of an individual. Personality structures are rooted and blueprinted in genetics, but built from the experiences of the life. [Angela] could ALL overleaves be encoded in an individual's DNA? or only the ones specific to that person MEntity: In the same way that a Body is predesigned to a great degree, but experiences such as food, climate, activities can alter that design, so are Personalities born and raised. The entire set of Overleaves could be found in every individual, but only certain markers to activate code combinations. We are speaking through a non-medical channel, so our terminology is limited. [Kathryn41] so this is how a walk-in can essentially 're-wire' the genetic markers over time to reflect the new overleaves - makes sense MEntity: Those Overleaves that are not the individual's would be dormant, and are rarely activated in replacement of others. When there is an alteration of the active overleaves, it is usually limited to the axis. For instance, a "walk in" might activate Growth over Re-evaluation, etc. [Angela] can beliefs be used to activate these code combinations? MEntity: The alteration of one's DNA by beliefs is about as easy as concentrating hard to change your hair color, or skin color. One can always mask or alter those things, but cannot truly change them. We will conclude here. We will continue to elaborate upon the Overleaves for the year as the year unfolds. Good day to each of you. Goodbye.

Michael Speaks: The Darkness Among Us December, 26, 2015 Hello to everyone. We are here, now. We can begin. We have been asked to discuss how one might navigate what seems to be the overwhelming "darkness" that can come from personal and collective events in your world. First, we will say that nothing we will say today will change the world, but what we can share with you today is a way to change how you see the world, and more importantly, how you see yourself IN that world. What we share today can help you to not only change how you see the world, how you see yourself in that world, but how you act within those parameters that are meaningful and practical to you. It is fair to describe the effects and forces in the world as "darkness," if that term is intended to describe a force or experience of limitation that challenges your force or experience of "light," or choice. In other words, if choice = light, and interference of choice = darkness, then the terms are fair. However, if the terms are synonymous with "good" and "evil," then the terms are useless. For there are forces that interfere with choice, and there are consequences that are experienced because of that interference, but these can rarely be simplified into terms such as good and evil, but the terms light and darkness are neutral. For many, the day (light) allows far more freedom and choice than the night (darkness), but neither of these would be considered good or evil, but simply more useful parts of each day and quite natural. We share this distinction because one of the first things one must do if one seeks clarity, effectiveness, and peace while navigating the forces of the world, one must resolve the apparent conflict between these forces. Understanding that night is not competing with the day, that the night does not swallow the day, and that the day can never truly destroy the night frees you from one of the first layers of intensity and stress that the navigation of life can bring. When you were younger souls, you may have thrown rocks at the moon to stop an eclipse, but you know now that you are safe, that there is a natural cycle, that you are not losing your Sun. As you grow older, the fear of an eclipse moves from the sky to your political and social arenas. You fear that the darkness is taking over the light, and your reactions are about as effective as throwing rocks at the moon. The truth is that the world will never be free of darkness, or "bad" people, or karma, or inconveniences, or destructive forces. But equal to this truth is that the world would be in no better position if there were no more nights, no more cycles, no more interferences to the broad light of day. What we shared here is the broadest context with which you can understand the dance between light and dark, between the forces that seem to benefit and the forces that seem to harm. You must have this greater context as a means to then focus more specifically on the details. Understanding this broader context does not mean permitting harm, but it does allow you to reduce the broad notion that all darkness is harmful. It is also helpful to remember that not all light is beneficial. Both darkness and light are neutral, and the effects, consequences, and experiences of these are dependent upon relativity, intensity, and proximity. In other words: your world would burn if closer to the Sun... Consideration of Relativity, Intensity, and Proximity leads us to the next important layer to explore in regard to navigating life/darkness/light. As you grow older, your empathy evolves, rises, expands, and encompasses more and more of life. Empathy is vital for evolution of consciousness. Without it, you do not evolve. It is impossible not to evolve one's empathy, but one can certainly stall or halt it for a while. Hand in hand with Empathy comes Sensitivity. Keep in mind that we say "hand in hand." Empathy and Sensitivity are different things, but they tend to be drawn to one another as tools for those who seek the path. Before one begins to evolve in one's Empathy, one tends to increase one's Sensitivity. Sensitivity tends to come from experience, and a great deal of experience that fuels Sensitivity is wounding. This is one of the reasons even an older soul will draw the line and halt or stall in one's increasing capacity for Empathy. This is because Empathy begins to equate Sensitivity equating Wounding. In other words, it hurts to care. What the older soul must, eventually, grasp is that caring FEELS GOOD. Empathy FEELS GOOD. Compassion FEELS GOOD. Sensitivity does not always feel good, but it is the tool used down the paths of Compassion, Empathy, and Caring. Returning to the concepts of Relativity, Intensity, and Proximity, it can change everything for you to remember that IF IT IS NOT HAPPENING TO YOU, THEN YOUR EMPATHY, CARING, and COMPASSION are not there to make you feel bad about or for others, but to motivate you to help. If you feel bad about events in the world, you care, your compassion is there, and your empathy is intact, but if you do nothing, or feel you can do nothing, or you make it about your sensitivity/wounding, then you will feel bad. 99% of what one feels overwhelmed by, upset by, angered by, frustrated with, etc. is not actually happening to you. This is not to say that you are not a part of the picture, or that you are not affected by events and forces well beyond your personal space, but that you are in a position that allows for greater choice and action than you realize or choose to implement. If it is not happening directly to you, then you can let your sensitivity lead you to Empathy, Compassion, and Caring in ways that feel good. And by "feel good" we mean that you can either make a difference, or acknowledge that you cannot make a difference. If you can make a difference, then make a difference. If you cannot, then you must trust those who can, will. For example: If you are overwhelmed by the mentality being fueled by the Young King known as Donald Trump, you can make a difference with your educated vote, or if you cannot vote, then you can encourage those who can vote to cast an educated vote, or you can focus on the trust you must extend to those caught up in the experience who are closer to it. If you are concerned about climate change and its long-term and short-term effects, then you have more immediate choices and actions you can take to participate in helping to reverse or alleviate the momentum of this force. If you are upset by the murder of a family by a father who "snapped," there is very little you can do to have prevented or helped with that scenario. If you are upset by a recent bombing that has occurred, or a recent mass shooting, you cannot always make a difference to have prevented these, but you must then decide if you can help, how you can help. And if you cannot help, you trust. If it is not happening directly to you, then you must consider if you can help, and if you cannot, then you must trust. And, finally: you cannot help everyone, every time. But you can always care. It becomes much easier to care, even if you cannot help, when you have helped where and when you could help. The world is neither overrun by darkness or fighting to sustain its light, but you are learning to care, and how to care without being consumed by your own wounding. When a Higher Moving Center or Moving Center are involved in a year's Overleaves, or in an event or person's overleaves, then the tendency for Martyrdom and Impatience can run high. The dance between Victimhood and Intolerance can be quite painful. There can tend to be more collective commiseration of frustrating world when these Centers/Chief Features are involved. When collective commiseration displaces collective help, the overwhelm and anxiety is perpetuated. Rather than add to the collective commiseration, you can harness your caring and share ways for others to help, if there are ways to help. When you share solutions, you increase the probability for your caring, and someone else's caring, to make a difference. If you do not know of any solutions, then asking for solutions can be as helpful as offering solutions. Commiseration can serve to bring people together, but if it ends with only commiseration, then the darkness of the world is not the concern of these individuals. It is their personal wounding that they seek to heal. If you find that you simply commiserate without any effort to help, then you are probably looking for help for yourself. And this can be quite a relief to understand about yourself. Because then you can get on with the more honest search for help, rather than the gamble of hope for healing through the pain of others. When you realize that it is your own wounding you seek to heal, you can then allow that healing. Not only does the world then begin to be brighter, but your load becomes lighter as you share it with honesty. So if something "bad" is happening directly to you, in close proximity, and with intensity, then you must ask for and allow help. We have covered a great range of concepts for our students to consider when pondering the overwhelming darkness that can seem to be in the world. Our intent is to help you to move away from throwing rocks at the moon, and knowing when and how you can make a difference. Because you do make a difference, even when you choose not to make a difference. QUEUE IS NOW OPEN ************ Yes, Brian. Brian: What techniques or exercises might we use to expand upon having sensitivity, empathy, and understanding? BE ALIVE. If you are alive, you are already immersed in technique and exercise for expanding your sensitivity, empathy, and understanding. However, we will say that as with every other "muscle" that is increased in strength, there can be pain along the way. Those who actively exercise tend to recognize that there is "good" pain. In our teaching, we tend to differentiate Friction from Resistance. What most experience as "bad" pain is Resistance. "Good" pain is Friction. Friction is the range that includes challenges, difficulties, obstacles, and the coming together of forces against one another to create an experience. Friction tends to build upon itself, bring expansion and growth, evolution, fulfillment, and pleasure. If one can begin to consider the difference between Friction in life and the Resistance to life, then one can change how one expands in sensitivity, empathy, and understanding. You cannot avoid Friction, and you are almost always the solution to Resistance. Navigating your life in terms of gaining as much as you can from your experiences vs resisting them with anger, frustration, and evasion can be the difference between the imbalance of darkness over light, and the comforting balance between the two. Most of our students do not need to learn how to be Sensitive, but what to do with that Sensitivity. And we will say that Sensitivity is an invitation to make a difference, if you can, and if you cannot, then let it matter that you care. Let it be enough. There are other areas of sensitivity where you can make a difference. You can always care, even if you cannot help. Next, Rosario. Rosario: Hello Michael. I think your answer to Brian's question applies also to mine: how would be the process from "darkness" to "light" in children/people recruited by ISIS militants? First, those who have been recruited would need to want to move away from that "darkness" and into "light." If they have been recruited through brainwashing by choice, then they have determined that there are solutions to their pain in what you describe as "darkness." When someone is brainwashed by choice, the only thing that can make a difference for that individual tends to be in the presentation of even more effective relief from their pain. In those cases, education, information, opportunity, etc. tend to be the means by which one can move from a darker place to a lighter place, if you will. When someone is recruited through mindfuck, then intervention tends to be necessary. Mindfuck is karmic and compelling, so even when intervention is offered, the person may reject the help. You may or may not have the means through which to help those who are recruited through brainwashing or mindfuck, but both require clear paths of information, addressing of pain and needs, and options for solutions. Those who are recruited entirely by conscious choice fall into the brainwashing category in terms of what would be necessary for help in expanding their choices and inviting different actions from them. Rosario: I see. Keep in mind that many who are labeled as "terrorists" are often just crude versions or reflections of greater superpowers who have become more refined at the same behaviors and actions in the world. The line is rarely distinct in the greater scheme of things. Next, Sevemanalo Sevemanalo: I'm wondering how what you've said today on light/darkness, can be applied to social justice work such as anti-racism work or youth rights? It can be applied in terms of doing what you can if you are able to help "from the outside," and allowing help if you are on "the inside." If you are directly affected by racism, then you must allow help, and if you are not directly affected by racism, but care, then you can help by asking how you can help, and listening to what help is needed. In cases where racism is addressed, it is vital that the request for help is seen as a strength, and that the offer of help is formed through listening to the requests. Next, PaulyBoy PaulyBoy: Hi Michael Entity. Most of us probably have some family or extended family member who is wrapped up in "Trump Mentality." To quote from earlier: "If you are overwhelmed by the mentality being fueled by the Young King known as Donald Trump, you can make a difference with your educated vote, or if you cannot vote, then you can encourage those who can vote to cast an educated vote, or you can focus on the trust you must extend to those caught up in the experience who are closer to it." How might we approach "encouraging those who can vote to cast an educated vote" when topics of "religion and politics" are often off the table when talking with family at gatherings? How might we approach this in a way where we might actually "get through" to some folks, and not just alienate them? Is this a matter or just letting them "make their mistakes" or "having their experiences and consequences?" and there's only so much we can do? Or do we have to let "them" come to "us," like you have to wait for the question to be asked? Wearing political-messaging t-shirts seems likely to provoke a fight without much of a discussion... I seem to be having some trouble with the question, so I hope the question is coming through, even if it somewhat conflicted and confused inside of me. "Gentleness, healing, song, and story" just came to me, and "be an example." I'm not sure if that was you or me or something else there. Maybe I just answered my own question for me. None the less, I am curious what your extended thoughts are on "reaching out" to folks in the Trump Mentality. Thanks! You can only invite education and choice; you cannot force or impose these things. We have learned this, ourselves, by working with all of you over the past 5,000 years. If you can have a conversation, then have the conversation. If you cannot, then you cannot. PaulyBoy: That is so simple it makes sense, even if I'm making a funny face and cracking up But the most effective way you can communicate in those instances is to A) know your facts B) reduce your reactions, and C) to offer the insight, not presume it should already have been gained. If you cannot pull off all three of these, your effectiveness diminishes relative to the strength of these three keys. PaulyBoy: Ooo, that last one really stuck out (not presume it should already have been gained. We are losing focus through Troy tonight and must conclude here. Good evening to each of you. Goodbye, for now.

March 28, 2002 Troy Tolley, Channel Open Floor [M_Entity] Hello to all of you. We are here. We will begin with the requested “Energy Report” for the weeks between March 30 and April 12, 2002. As most of you know, the energy throughout the year as the Overleaves describe it, shifts in emphasis as the “seasons” change. The entirety of the year could be said to have a context described by the Role for the year and the Centering, while the first 3 months tend to focus on the Goal, the following 3 months the Mode, the following 3 months the Attitude, and the year ending with the Chief Features. This means that “spring time” is, IN GENERAL (and not a rule), a time period with emphasis on relationships, intimacy, and the Mode. This year’s Mode is Passion, meaning that relationships in general will take on a more profound emphasis in the context of Self-actualizing or Identifying, the positive and negative poles of Passion respectively. During the next few weeks any important relationship that can possibly bring you lessons within the context of Intimacy will be drawn to you. Your reaction, regardless of your own Mode, will tend to AT LEAST have more of a passionate feel to them. This means you may either find yourself creating attachments and needs to those who are close to you, emphasizing THROUGH OTHERS what it is you most want or don’t want in yourself. OR, you may emphasize that these relationships are actually helping you to “actualize,” or manifest, the very things you most want, most consciously. The only difference, really, between Self-actualization and Identification, is in that the first allows you to bring out of yourself what you perceive, while the latter attaches a desired or undesired trait to someone else. This we say in the context of relationships, while Passion will mean other things within other contexts. Over the next two weeks we would suggest being open for a great amount of physical and astral interactions with many fragments known and not yet known in your life. We remind you that the Overleaves for a “year” are simply a description of parameters that the general collective consciousness is seeking to emphasize for a time period as a means to create, change, or update Community and World Truths. In that process, your own may be created, changed, or updated. We will comment, as well, that the past week was a Parallel Shift, with a focus on Converging. We will take questions now on the Energy Report, if there are any. If there are no questions, we will then move to the OPEN FLOOR Format for the night’s session. You may begin. [Val1] Can you tell us more about creating, changing our own truths? [M_Entity] In the context of this time frame, most of you will be looking at your own Personal Truths in relation to the average World Truths about WAR, Religion, and Community. There is a focus now on these very important Truths as they stand for those who are in more dangerous positions and how that may or may not affect you. As most of you know, there are Personal Truths, which are subject to change at any time, and they may or may not be anyone else’s Truth. There are Community Truths, which are shared beliefs, which contribute to World Truths. World Truths are true for everyone on a planet, whether they wish them to be Truths or not, such as Grass being Green, and Gravity. Depending on your Personal Truths, the World Truth that War still exists and affects the planet may or may not be a “good thing.” When enough Personal Truths shift, which then shift Community Truths, then World Truths can change as well. Even the Truth of Gravity can change, if its properties change as a World Truth. We believe the properties of War would be even easier to change. Many of you will be dealing with your thoughts, feelings, and actions as they relate to those issues of War, Religion, and Community. Your own Personal Truths may or may not be affected. [ShannonB] You have told us in the past, how new diseases will have to develop as we discover cures for existing ones. Today I read about a mysterious disease that has killed people in Europe: variant Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease, similar to “mad cow” disease in bovines. Is this one of the diseases that we “needed” to thin our population, and what is causing it? [M_Entity] No disease is “needed,” though there will always be new ways for exiting the planet created as old ways are alleviated. That particular disease appears to be localized and not contagious or hereditary, though dietary-based in its origins. This disease has been around much longer, but not so specifically defined as now. As dietary intake continues to be more poisonous than nutritional, more effects will be seen. [ShannonB] Is it related to ingesting contaminated red meats? [M_Entity] We see a common denominator among these fragments ingesting consistent amounts of toxic flesh, yes. [LiSaC] I’d like some suggestions on what some options are that women have to be healthy during and after menopause. [M_Entity] If Menopause were treated as a passing life transition, it would be much easier to process. Menopause, and Menopause-Andropause in men, is a hormonal wash removing the base desire for procreation. It is practical biologically, but is also a profound opportunity for shifts psychologically or spiritually, as well. During this phase, which is usually linked to the 5th Internal Monad, biological relief can be found in what has come to be referred to as “wild yam” products. Estrogen replacements are risky, but worth it for some. Other than these basic remedies, only time can remedy the process. With the emphasis being on the 5th Internal Monad, the process will include a very profound look at what the life has accomplished by your own terms, and what you can now do to experience freedom within the frameworks and patterns that have been set. Although Menopause and Andropause are not limited to those experiencing the 5th Internal Monad, it is consistent enough to be considered. We do not have a quick remedy or suggestion for alleviating the stress of the process, but we do believe the more difficulties involved for an individual tend to be directly proportional to their personal belief that they have not “proven themselves” yet. We believe addressing the wonders of the life that have been experienced, rather than the want for something undefined, vague, and somehow more meaningful, the process can be freeing, rather than debilitating. Menopause/Andropause allows the psyche the opportunity to truly assess the life-to-date, and though much of it may be disappointing to the Personality, choosing to view the life from the eyes of your Essence can alleviate the strongest of discomforting symptoms. Your contributions to a life are far more amazing than may be possible to see from your position, but Essence knows. It can do wonders to ask family and friends for feedback and stories to convey any influences and meaning a person may have left in a life. [sam-nemo] In the original transcripts meditation, fasting and concentration were mentioned several times, it seems the last two are no longer being emphasized, why? [M_Entity] We remind you that we are always filtered through our channels and their own personal agendas at the time, however synchronistically or not that may be. We also remind you that we are speaking to different groups than we were in our early days before publication. Fasting and Concentration were concepts carried over from those studying other teachings at the time. For some, a more severe or radical change in daily practice helps the individual create changes they may want. For others, gradual practice is as acceptable. [sam-nemo] So meditation is the most beneficial to the most people? [M_Entity] No, it is not that meditation is most beneficial, but it is the most acceptable and most easily applied by most of our students and channels. Most are willing to find some means to relax, but would find it difficult to go without food for a few days. We can, however, say that many of you would benefit more than can possibly be assumed if a proper fasting were implemented. The same can be said of Concentration. Fasting, Meditation, and Concentration are all linked to the Centers, Moving, Emotional, and Intellectual, respectively. Finding techniques in any one of these can help balance all the Centers. [MaryBV] I am feeling some very familiar, yet new energy in the room tonight. Can you tell me anything about this energy? Is there a group past life to be shared? [M_Entity] Of course there are past lives shared. There is no one present that does not share a past life with the entirety of the group here in some way. The Energy you feel is familiar because it IS. It is also “new” because new Personalities now house these familiar Essences or souls. It is a time of reunion for many of you. Watch your emails, listen for your phone, answer your doors. Many of your Cadre Mates are looking for comfort in numbers, as you are. [essencess] How can one shift the cellular memories and all that that brings up to a new truth of peace on this planet now… I mean memories of war. [M_Entity] Until all fragments on the planet have been touched on all levels in deeply important ways by war, then there will continue to be war. With the shift from Young to Mature Soul Consciousness on the planet, a great deal of Late Baby and Early Young are feeling anxious and in need for making their marks. They have not been touched emotionally by war, only intellectually or physically. We speak of these fragments in terms of their collective lifetimes, not this particular one. All Souls engage in war, willingly, at some point in the incarnational cycle for varying reasons and on varying levels and degrees. You may not be able to change the choices of those fragments wishing to participate in or create war, but you can personally make choices and decisions in ways that will alleviate the impact on you as much as possible. There is no way to “escape” the physical plane, but you will always have choices. With that being said, we believe CHOICE then is the best way to “shift cellular memories.” Many of you who have experienced what might be called atrocities of war, are now quite repulsed by the entire concept. Making conscious choices can change anything, even if only on a personal level. Within the context of War, we think taking time out to resonate harmony outward and to the planet is much more than a fantastical daydream; THIS DOES CONTRIBUTE. Closing yourselves off from the reality of the situation on the planet will not change anything. There is a war occurring on your planet and you are affected, whether only energetically or specifically. Decide to what degree you feel you can contribute to the emphasis of certain choices available and act on that. By this we mean, if you feel volunteering time in some way helps make the world a better place, and then do it. If you feel meditating and inviting harmony for all will help, then do it. Many of you have clever and appropriate and affecting ideas, but do not implement them. The physical plane requires Action; therefore, in some way, the body must be used to help bring change. We remind you that we do not have an investment in whether you participate or not, whether you care or not. We are merely responding to your question. We do not share this to tell you what to do, but rather to point out the discrepancies between wanting change and making change. Choice and Action will be your tools, whether relieving your cells or your local neighbor. [JNelson] If the entire world decided that gravity did not exist, would it cease to exist? [M_Entity] Yes. It really is that simple. But we doubt any Sentience will choose that route of destruction when there are more creative paths requiring less patience and time. What most will do when in want of overriding a World Truth, such as Gravity, are to find means to defy those Truths, such as flying, space travel, etc. This does not change the Truth, but it does change how you relate to the Truth. [JNelson] Have many such drastic changes happened in the past? [M_Entity] We have never seen a change in a World Truth on that scale. There are truly “root assumptions” hardwired into the fabric of a soul that allow the game to be played. We would call these Natural World Truths. On the other hand, Generated World Truths, such as War, do change. We will conclude here. Good night.

August 3, 2003 Troy Tolley, Channel MICHAEL SPEAKS (Online) – Energy Report with Q&A [MichaelEntity] Hello to all of you. We are here. We will begin with the Energy Report as requested: It appears the more intense energy of June and July is waning as a lull is settling in. This comes after a great deal of physical and mental activity during June and July. As many of you already know the months of June and July brought with them a great deal of Clarity and Implementation. Most of our students dealt with some form of serious change during those months with some form of revelation being implemented. As we had mentioned in our previous report, it is not unusual to implement a serious change, but the difference was in the fact that so many of you participated in such an investment. After June’s and July’s activities and shifts, August should bring about some relief, some “down time”, a short break. For most of our students (especially those in the United States) calmness is moving through the collective consciousness, and while this is an opportunity to simply relax, most will find this calm to be unsettling and distrustful. Because this year is rooted in the energies of the Moving Center, it may be difficult for you to simply relax and peacefully go about the routines of your life right now. A momentum is in place and calmness may be difficult to settle into, even if only briefly. Even for those who are quite sedentary, you may be associated with another fragment who will keep you restless along with him or her. Our suggestion for the next 3 weeks or so is to take advantage of the calm, to make a decision that for at least one of the weeks, you will trust your life; you will simply do the routines of your day, and know that you are safe. For those who have made a major change in July or June, then August can be seen as a Maintenance month, continuing the implementation of your changes, getting comfortable after some of your personal shifts. In light of the opportunity to choose Calmness over the next three weeks or so, we will not complicate matters by elaborating the Energy Report too much. We already know that many of you will choose to follow your restlessness and that is as valid a choice as choosing to rest. We will help in your ability to consciously make your choice by stating that if you find you are choosing restlessness, or if you seem to not be able to relax even when you try, that you can help generate peace for even a few hours at a time by simply reminding yourself that YOU ARE SAFE. In most cases restlessness is due to some form of control issues, and if you let your guard down for “one second” things will “fall apart”. Many times those who are restless don’t even know what it is they worry about, but in many situations that worry is simply rooted in feeling unsafe. Those who “worry” to the point of being unable to relax are the same children who were usually punished in some way for behaviors deemed unacceptable. “Worry” and restlessness are only for superficial appearances then. As long as you are worried, or as long as you are restless, then even if you are judged, rejected, or reprimanded (internally or from external sources), at least your worry and restlessness will show you tried. This is not to diminish the very real worries of life, or the restlessness of certain experiences and bodily/hormonal fluctuations, but when a fragment feels he or she CANNOT choose against these things, it may be rooted in that lack of feeling safe. For those who choose to access and experiment with the energies available over the next few weeks, you can experiment with how often you can look at your life and say with trust and truth that you are safe. While the past couple of months helped support serious changes among most of you, this month’s energy can lend support in your reacquainting yourself with the “groove” of your life from the stance of Trust. We will now take questions from those who have them. QUESTIONS [infoloon] I thought virtually all children in this culture were punished for behaviors deemed unacceptable? [MichaelEntity] And the act of “worrying” is as pervasive. [Whillo333] Is the unsafe feeling from the unstable political and economic status of “the world” and the “fear” that seems to permeate society now? [MichaelEntity] It is actually rare that any older soul (Late Mature through Old) ever feels completely safe within the lifetime. Regardless of the state of any culture, society, country, or planet for that matter, the Older Souls have known many tragedies and have experienced many struggles these souls know all-too-well how easily a life can shift and change. Over many lifetimes the Essence gains experiences in managing these shifts and perils of the physical plane, but each lifetime also brings a new Personality that has never experienced death or struggle. [pitcoozer] That is a revelation – re: late mature and old souls .. and feeling safe. [MichaelEntity]This is a strange dichotomy that will eventually resolve itself as the Personality learns to access and trust what it considers its Essence. [pitcoozer] Explains a lot – the trust is like the candle blowing in the wind .. [Whillo333] Thank you. As an old soul, your comments are very meaningful to me. [MichaelEntity] As that dichotomy resolves itself, the Personality, while still being “new”, will not only find access to the memories of hardship and deaths, but also to the reality of the immortality of its Essence. [pitcoozer] Yes – alleviates the fear of death itself, and increases the zest for living and being .. [MichaelEntity] As we have said many times, but will say again, it is the Personality that “controls” the lifetime, not the Essence. While Essence can offer an overall theme to the lifetime, it is the choices and decisions of Personality that create the path of a lifetime. As each choice is made, Essence can “spin off” versions of that lifetime into “parallels”, allowing thousands of versions of the Personality to fulfill itself. [Whillo333] Can the 2 be at odds throughout the lifetime? [MichaelEntity] There will always be AT LEAST one parallel that will find resonance and recognition of Essence, following the original intent of the lifetime. There will almost always be at least one lifetime that completely rejects the notion of a soul and creates its own path. [Whillo333] In which case, what happens to the soul? [MichaelEntity] So, in answer to the original question, the sense of unsafety we speak of is that which is inherently a part of any life, especially of the older soul. Eventually, and as part of any final cycle of lives, the Personality and Essence become “One”, and a kind of “telescoping” of all lifetimes occurs, with all Personalities across time finally experiencing a sense of Home. In answer to your question, Whillo, the soul observes that lifetime/parallel and learns. [freyaisissuz] Wil’s que: Wil was channeled as having a secondary channeling agreement with Michael. A definition from Michael about a “secondary agreement” and how it differs from primary would help validate the contract for him and others. [MichaelEntity] Different channels will create different ways of describing our Agreements with us. Those who use “secondary” to describe an Agreement with us would usually be describing the seeking of direct contact with us for personal reasons, along with the ability to offer that contact to personal circles of friends or family. A “secondary” Agreement would not include any pull to “go public”, while a Primary Agreement may not only involve publicity, but the use of the Agreement as a source of income. [schleiv] How can we learn to trust the action of just letting your day go by. How do you know its right to just let it flow? At times I feel this, when doing my art but later, I think I could have been much more productive, where does the trust begin and the uncertainty end? [MichaelEntity] As with most distrust, it comes from speculation, not valid perception. Trust begins when you can learn to differentiate and choose between Speculation and Valid Perception. When you are in the middle of your day, trusting, flowing, and generally feeling synchronized with your life and Essence, it can safely be said that you are in a state of Trust. At the end of that same day, upon reinterpretation, you may then find yourself speculating, extracting upon retrospect all of the things you could or should have done; therein lays the source of your distrust and worry. Whether in speculation before or after an experience, you will always find ways that you could or should have done something. The ability to learn and evolve comes with a “double-edged sword”, meaning that along with that ability to evolve, you also have the ability to extract possibilities/probabilities that could/would have worked better or differently. [emberton@…] Thanks Michael, here is my question: If we find ourselves permeated by worry and fear-of-letting-go during this period, what method(s) or technologies do you recommend to facilitate a break in this pattern, beyond what has been mentioned previously? [MichaelEntity] We only suggest making the attempt to consciously choose Trust and to do so with the knowledge of why you may have difficulty doing so. There is no other way to truly make the choice. The most profound method of choosing Trust/Safety is in the simple act of STOPPING. By this we mean to literally stop moving, stop fidgeting, stop thinking about anything distracting, even for one minute or 30 seconds, and stating with as much gentleness as possible… “I AM SAFE. THERE IS NOTHING MORE THAN ME AND MY CHOICES RIGHT NOW. I AM SAFE.” Taking 30 seconds to feel safe and to choose trust can have a calming effect on the body and mind for at least an hour or so. We suggest stating the words once, gently and with as much truth as you can, and HEAR THEM. Repeating them over and over may create a reaction from your Instinctive Center that something is wrong and requires trying to override reality. So state the words calmly, plainly, sweetly to you, and listen to how they sound. It would do you well to understand that the words being stated will not change your life. Instead, they will be words that invite a new perception, which can then change your experiences of your life. Taking those moments to invite the perception, allowing more conscious and loving interpretations of the lifetime, lead to more conscious and loving choices. [H2OSprtlvr] Do you suggest that August is a good month to review personal fears such as with interpersonal relationships? All fears, I suppose. [MichaelEntity] Any Month is always a “good month” for any introspection. In your case, it may actually be a “good time” to give yourself a break from your constant internal scrutiny. While we are not suggesting you choose against your own inclinations, we will say that some of your solutions you seek can be found by not “looking so closely” at the matter at hand. You are submerged in an experience that could be benefited from a bit of distancing from it. The past few months were for such close scrutiny and clarity. August could be used to say, “Why did I ever think anything was ever wrong?” This does not mean you have to dismiss any responsibilities you feel inclined to work through, but it can help you make clearer, gentler decisions and Choices. Modern lives are not wrought with Survival as many of your past lives have been, but are wrought with “Improvement”. The greatest “improvement” you can make on any life or relationship is in freeing yourself from assuming there is some conclusive improvement to be reached. You will ALWAYS “improve” and we have yet to have seen any end to our potential evolution. We quote the word “improve” because of its being a misnomer. There is only Evolution. “Improvement” is relative. Relationships, internally and externally, will ALWAYS Evolve, which may be seen as an Improvement or not. [Anla899] What are ways to synchronize personality and Essence on a day to day basis? [MichaelEntity] There are three very simple and effective ways of synchronizing Essence with Personality: Writing to Essence, Talking to Essence, or Meditating to Essence. [Anla899] How do we do those? [MichaelEntity] Most fragments assume that Essence “knows all” about the lifetime being lived, but that is not the case. Essence only “knows” what YOU inform it of, which is why some lives can seem to spiral out of control, reaching a point where crisis is the only time the Personality seeks to contact its soul. Essence can only experience your life THROUGH you. There are moments within the life called “Instinctive Review” wherein the Personality “uploads” the experiences of the life to-date and Essence can then help to direct the life, if the Personality will allow it. Otherwise, it is up to Personality to keep the lines of communication clear and up-to-date. Keeping any form of a journal, whether daily or weekly or monthly can help keep Personality and Essence in contact and more united. For journaling, simply write about your life, stating clearly what it is you seek to change, stating clearly about areas in which you believe you would like help from Essence. Keep a log of your dreams and observe the changes you are recording by looking at patterns in your days, your choices, and reactions, dreams, etc. Keeping a journal is like remaining gently conscious of what it is you want, need, and keeping Essence included in that. Some of you may benefit from simply speaking out loud to Essence, treating this part of you as an actual “invisible friend” who is humorous and caring. State to your Essence occasionally how you feel your life is going, asking for help, or giving gratitude when it is felt. This can be done as ritualistically as prayer or as playfully as making comments throughout your day. And finally, some may be inclined to use Meditation for continual contact with Essence. We say Meditation as it includes any practice of focus whether through calming of the body and turning inward, or through running, exercising, doing a puzzle, etc. In those instances of Meditation, however you choose to meditate, remember to invite your Essence to access your Instinctive Center where all experiences are stored. These three methods can keep Essence continually updated and your life continually synchronized, instead of having to go through startling revelations during the scheduled Instinctive Reviews. [Additional information: Michael explained later that the reason for writing, speaking, or meditation, rather than just random inner dialogue, is not only due to the fact that those three methods engage all of the Lower Centers, but that they also help refine what it is you wish to communicate, rather than all of the random worries, fears, anxiousness, etc.] [schleiv] how often are those reviews? [MichaelEntity] Val, the Reviews are approximately every 7 years, with the major reviews around the ages of 28 and a 56.

OMW - Apr 20, 2013 - How You Matter and Why This Matters To You 9:45 AM 4/20/2013 Channel: Troy Tolley [MEntity] Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We may begin discussing with you the suggested concept of how you "matter" and how this might matter to you. [MEntity] Before exploring the nuances of "matter" as a matter of study and self-reflection, it is important to note, first, that there is no such thing as someone not mattering. Everyone matters. Everyone. There are no exceptions. [MEntity] As we explore the nuances of this, the validity of this may become clear. [MEntity] This quality of mattering starts to become clearer as one exits the Young Soul Age, and enters the Mature Soul Age. [MEntity] This is because it is when the Essence and the Personalities begin to truly grasp the impact of oneself and others in both figurative and literal senses. [MEntity] There are two ways in which one finds one matters: figuratively, or perceptually; and literally, or directly. [MEntity] As with nearly everything, there are ways to matter in positive ways and in negative ways. [MEntity] Keep in mind that our polarities are not degrees between "good and bad," but degrees between expansion and contraction, openness and closure, inclusivity and exclusivity, etc. [MEntity] In earlier lifetimes with earlier Soul Ages one tends to focus on how one matters from the negative pole. This brings an emphasis on how one matters to those defined as significant, as opposed to the older Soul Ages were it begins to matter to you if you matter to even the broadest range of strangers. [MEntity] As one grows in Soul Age, it will continue to matter if you matter to those you have deemed significant, but this will be included in the broader scheme of things regarding how you matter to the world, how your life matters, etc. [MEntity] In earlier Soul Ages, it will tend not to matter at all how one matters to "the world," as long as one matters to those deemed significant. [MEntity] Another way the Negative Pole can manifest is if one is only concerned with how one matters to "the world" over how one matters to those deemed signficant. [MEntity] Again, the poles are about inclusivity over exclusivity. [MEntity] How one matters to "the world" overshadows how one matters to those deemed significant is a hallmark of the Young Soul. [MEntity] The weight of how one matters begins to grow heavy for the Mature and Old Soul because how one matters to "everything and everyone" comes into consideration, and the balancing that can be required of this can be quite challenging. [MEntity] It is particularly heavy for the Mature Soul, and begins to lighten for the Old Soul over the Levels. [MEntity] This is because during the Mature Soul Levels, this is constantly measured and there is a constant monitoring and balancing in place that can be exhausting, but during the Old Soul Levels, the assumption that (every) one matters begins to integrate as part of one's base line. [MEntity] Depending upon where one is in Manifesting Soul Age, then the consideration of how one matters will take on different degrees of emphasis and weight. [MEntity] For most Old Souls, there is still some weight and emphasis to the concept because it has been a Young Soul world shifting to Mature Soul for a long time. It is difficult to transcend the resonance of considering how one matters. [MEntity] The first part of this workshop's activities is to respond to the following question: CREATE A LIST OF 5 THAT MATTERS TO YOU. This list is not definitive, but a sampling. Let whatever comes to your mind or heart be heard in this moment, and list those 5. It is okay if more come to you after that list. [MEntity] *****LIST OF 5***** [brian] 5 people, topics, events? [MEntity] We leave that to you. [GeraldineB] Things that matter to me: the internet, my computer, the Michael Teachings, the Project, completing my 5th IM [DianeHB] Tex, my family, friends, the Michael Teachings, sustaining prosperity [brian] security, self-expression, ability to make a positive lasting impact to others by helping and teaching, figuring out where I "belong" in the world, and being accepted and relatable to others [Janet] Supporting my daughters in pursuing their life goals, Ensuring that my Mom and Dad are okay , Leaving a positive legacy in my work, Being perceived as a pleasant person, Being creative whenever possible in things I do at home or at work [Bobby] (in no particular order) Marty, my home, my cats, my freedom, this teaching [ClaireC] Family, friends, Ecology - all animals, plants, oceans, communication and Love. [IngunD] Joy, me, my sons, family/friends, the earth [Maureen] That “everything” be understood, people’s health and well-being that I come into contact with, sleep, rest, physical “security” [MEntity] We will return to these. [MEntity] As we stated in the beginning of our discussion: there are two primary ways one tends to matter: perceptually/figuratively, and directly/literally. [MEntity] How one matters perceptually/figuratively is how one contemplates how one matters when alone. [MEntity] It could be described as how you see yourself. [MEntity] How you interpret yourself. [MEntity] But not just how you interpret yourself, but how you interpret yourself in the SPACE between EVENTS. [brian] could you give an example of what you mean by the "space between events?" [MEntity] Though only a minor play on words, "Matter" is always, almost completely, made up of SPACE. [MEntity] The depth you determine you matter is often defined in that space/time between experiences, between events, in your "down time," your aloneness, your fragmentation. [MEntity] No Essence or Personality is bombarded with experience 100% of the time; there is always space/time between those experiences, and this where perceptual matter comes in. [MEntity] This is inclusive of your Reviews, both within life and between lives, and your time between relationships, between events, within your boredom, your meditation, your dreams, etc. [MEntity] MOST of your life is aloneness. MOST of your life is the space between. This is because you are never where you are not, but you can often be where others are not, or where nothing is happening. This is not a sad or bad thing. It is a natural function of this universe. [MEntity] How you matter to you, then, is often determined in that space between, reflective of how matter exists in the universe. You are made up of the same materials, functions, and properties that can be found in the physics and quantum physics of matter, and so it is not merely novel to draw parallels to how you define the depth and degree of your own matter. [MEntity] This degree and depth of perceptual matter helps define the degree and depth of Manifestation of True Personality and Essence. [MEntity] It is the medium through which Essence Manifesting, and True Personality emerge. [MEntity] This entire function of perceptual matter is managed in the Personality by the ATTITUDE. [MEntity] How you perceive and interpret the world through your primary philosophy helps to determine the space between events, people, experiences, and how you determine how you matter to you. [MEntity] If your Attitude is in the Negative Pole, how you feel you matter may decline in value. [MEntity] If your Attitude is in the Positive Pole, how you feel you matter may increase in value. [MEntity] We describe this angle on how you matter as being perceptual or figurative, because it is not truly measurable. It is self-determined, and cannot be determined by anyone but you. [MEntity] However, it WILL BE what you present to others. [MEntity] Your Attitude is the first Overleaf offered up when interacting with others. [MEntity] In nearly every social exchange, it is the Attitude that is the primary medium. [MEntity] It is where you display your self-esteem, your trust, your confidence. [MEntity] It is how you display how you matter to you. [MEntity] And this is determined by you in your aloneness. [MEntity] Depending upon where one is in this determination can play out as activating the Chief Negative Features for protection of one's values, or for expressing, representing one's values. [MEntity] This is one of the reasons why Meditation is considered seriously as a matter of healthfulness for being extant, as it brings to the forefront of your consciousness the truth of your aloneness, your existence, and when you can sit with this, you increase your capacity for matter. [MEntity] Keep in mind that "meditation" includes a spectrum of methods that is not limited to simply sitting in a lotus position, but is a practice in allowing singularity, both in focus and in presence. [MEntity] Regardless of your Attitude, its poles, or where it may "slide," a quick check in with your Intellectual Center can help you to determine in the moment where you are in your Attitude and its expression of how you matter. [MEntity] Regardless of your Centering, the Intellectual Center is hooked into the Attitude Overleaf. [MEntity] The Intellectual Center is polarized by INSIGHT vs REASON. [MEntity] So a quick check in with yourself in terms of where you are in how you matter to you is to pay attention to how you interact socially, but also whether you bring Insight to those exchanges, or Reason. [MEntity] REASON is expressed in justifications, explanations, causes, usually removing oneself or another from an equation. [MEntity] INSIGHT is the capacity for accurate, intuitive comprehension of a person or event, inclusive of all parts of the equation. [MEntity] Insight will include Reason, but Reason will function differently than when it is exclusive of Insight. When Reason is a part of Insight, it is logical, critical, rational thinking, whereas when Reason is exclusive of Insight, it tends toward defense, excuses, blame. [MEntity] Reason within Insight is the parts that helped bring the whole of Insight, the bricks that build the platform. Reason without Insight is still bricks, but usually just thrown from where one stands, if you will. [MEntity] Does this make sense? [Janet] The description of insight vs. reason makes sense. [Janet] I don't yet see application to the topic. But I'm sure it's coming. [DianeHB] yes, it makes sense [MEntity] We will try to clarify here, then. [IngunD] yes [MEntity] How one perceives oneself in terms of matter is expressed through the Attitude. The degree to which one is in the positive pole of the Attitude is the degree to which one has determined one matters, and the degree to which one might be in the negative pole is the degree to which one may still feel one does not matter. [MEntity] This plays out in social scenarios and exchanges. [Janet] I see that. [brian] I understood that part [MEntity] This is because this is where one carries self-esteem, confidence, and trust, and how that is built, which is determined by how one matters to oneself, or perceives she matters. QUESTIONS [MEntity] We will take your question, then, to help us determine if we can clarify further, or if it is a matter of continuing on. [brian] I think I know what the answer will be, but I'll ask the question anyway [brian] how do we figure out how we matter to ourselves? [MEntity] Brian - here are a few considerations for determining your perceptual matter, or how you matter to you: the degree to which one can be alone without being lonely; the degree to which one can express his values without defense; the degree to which one allows trust; the degree to which one is confident. [MEntity] Keep in mind that we say "HOW" one matters, not "whether" one matters. You will always matter, but HOW you matter is what may matter to you. How one matters is described by your determination of how you "matter to the world," and/or "matter to others." [brian] That may explain why I think of "utility" when you say "how one matters" because I am seeing it through the lens of the pragmatist attitude [MEntity] When one of those excludes the other, it can be painful and heavy, or when there is a lack of connection between the two as extremes. [MEntity] Whomever may wish to ask a question at this point can do so, regarding what we have shared, so far. [GeraldineB] Does one's CF trigger the negative pole of Attitude or vice versa? [MEntity] Geraldine, it is the latter. Chief Negative Features are passive. They can only be activated by another Overleaf. [MEntity] We will continue. [MEntity] The other way one matters is in terms of Direct or Literal ways. [MEntity] This is managed in the Personality by the GOAL. [MEntity] This tends to play out in how you impact "the world" or "others." [MEntity] The emphasis here is on "impact." [MEntity] That is because the Moving Center is hooked into every Goal, regardless of your Centering. [MEntity] You can determine how you feel you matter in terms of impact by checking in with the Positive and Negative Poles of the Moving Center. [MEntity] This is a spectrum between PRODUCTIVE and FRUSTRATED. [MEntity] Your Goal is something that is never completed, with no finish lines, but is a state or quality your Essence/Personality aims to create, sustain, and share as an impact on the world and others. [MEntity] The more one tends toward the Positive Pole of the Goal, toward being Productive, the more one tends to determine that one matters. [MEntity] To the degree that you feel you create, sustain, and share the impact of your Goal, is often the degree to which you feel your presence and participation matter to the world and to others. [MEntity] Though the Goal, in itself, is not always something obvious and tangible, the impact of the effort to create, sustain, and share it is entirely measured in tangibility. [MEntity] Your Productivity or Frustration at any given moment helps to describe where you are in that aim for the Goal. [MEntity] And this, in turn, helps you to determine how you matter. [MEntity] OUR NEXT QUESTION: [MEntity] Do you see a similarity or a discrepancy between how you feel you matter to you, and how you feel you matter in impact? Do you feel they are difficult to differentiate? [GeraldineB] I think that's a nuance that's too fine for me to really grasp [Janet] I really think how I matter to me has an effect on how I matter in impact. [brian] I'm still seeing / experiencing so much through the negative poles that it seems the same to me. I haven't built up a gradient to be able to see the difference yet [Maureen] I feel there is a direct correlation between my impact in the world and how I see I matter. I wish it didn't matter to me -- but it does. [IngunD] How I matter to me influences how I matter in impact [brian] the only distinction I have is when others tell me that I'm making an impact, but it doesn't feel like one to me [GeraldineB] I think I'm usually at a place of just assuming that I have an impact, regardless of whether or not I can see it [DianeHB] I matter to me, though I have more doubts about how I matter in impact. [MEntity] The next part of our discussion on how you matter may bring this together into some realizations for each of you. [MEntity] As with most of our teaching, there is no isolation of parts, but a circuitry and networking that is beautiful and vast. [MEntity] In terms of how one matters, to the self, or in impact, to others, to the world, or both, and whether those are positive or negative, all ties back to your MODE. [MEntity] The MODE is the fuel for both the Goal and the Attitude in the circuitry for how one feels one matters at all. [MEntity] That is because the Mode is where you develop your CORE VALUES. Your Core Values are at the hub of what you use for determining how you matter in all ways. [MEntity] Your list of 5 is relevant here. [MEntity] To the degree that you IMPACT or EXPRESS those values is the degree to which you feel you matter. [MEntity] Core Values develop from how one RELATES, which is described by the Mode. [MEntity] The Emotional Center, or Inspiration, is hooked into the Mode, and thereby one's Core Values, regardless of one's Centering. Therefore, Core Values describe the medium that you use for REFLECTION or PROJECTION. [MEntity] HOW YOU MATTER IN IMPACT, TO YOU, TO OTHERS, TO THE WORLD is dependent upon your pursuit, fulfillment, creation, nurturing, sharing, etc. of those Core Values. These are either Reflected in your impact, in yourself, in others, and in the world, or you Project those Core Values upon those things. [MEntity] Even in your short list of Core Values, you will see the clues that shape your sense of matter. [MEntity] That list shifts, changes, evolves, updates, etc. but there is always a list. [MEntity] OUR NEXT QUESTIONS: Do each of you see how your list fuels your sense of how you matter? Do you see how these play into your Attitude and Goal, as they are expressed or used for motivation for impact? [MEntity] This list is not just about what matters to you, but how you wish to matter in the world, to others, and to yourself. [brian] under that guidance yes (took the thoughts and question right out of my head again) [Maureen] yes -- I do. It's like an entangled loop. [Janet] I see the connections [DianeHB] I can see it [ClaireC] Yes. [Bobby] I'll think on it some more [GeraldineB] I see the correlation [MEntity] ANOTHER QUESTION: Does it matter to you that you can map out the ways in which you determine you matter? [brian] yes [DianeHB] yes [ClaireC] Yes. [Janet] The connections you have pointed out between centers and attitude, goal and mode are enlightening and the interconnection makes mapping out the ways I matter valuable. [Bobby] yes [MEntity] Your Overleaves are far more than quaint Personality characteristics. It is a simple system that holds many truths about you. [IngunD] yes [Janet] I see those awesome connections more and more. [MEntity] The discussion of how one matters in a life is not a trivial discussion for comfort, but is entirely relevant to how one uses the Overleaves, how one brings oneself into the world and experiences oneself within. [MEntity] You matter. How you matter, is up to you. [MEntity] A final layer of consideration here is that your list of Core Values of the Mode, and how those play out through your Goal and Attitude, helps determine who and what matters TO you, as well. [MEntity] Today we explored how you matter, and how you matter determines everything about how everything else matters TO you. [MEntity] To conclude today, we will say again that you matter. There is no way around this. How you matter is up to you. The spectrum of how you matter is defined by the impact and expression of your Core Values to yourself, the world, and others. [ClaireC] Thanks for the great material, Michael. [Janet] Really really helpful to me right now. [MEntity] It may be difficult to quantify how one feels or thinks one matters, so this is another example of how the simple effort and consciousness of working with the positive and negative poles of your Overleaves can affect far more than meets the eye. [MEntity] Whatever method works best for you in moving toward True Personality, and Manifestation of Essence, works to define how you matter. [MEntity] Good day to each of you. We will conclude here. 12:20 PM 4/20/2013

Note: This session continues a topic first opened in Michael Speaks: Dreams and Symbols (Part 1 of 3). Part 1 was presented in March 1999, which Michael refers to in the session below. September 2, 1999 Troy Tolley, Channel Dreams and Symbols 2 of 3 Note from Otterly aka Troy Tolley: The chats no longer include the “Energy Weather Report”. They are channeled the night before and posted to the TrueView List. This allows more time for Q & A on the Energy Report and for the Topic. [Michael_Entity] Hello to all of you. We are here. One moment. We will open by taking questions from you in regard to our posted Energy Report. If there are any questions or comments, we will respond now. [La] You mentioned clear goals for the East and West Coasts, but what of the rest of the country… Do we not have such definitive geographic goals, or should we identify with one Coast or the other? [Michael_Entity] When we speak of the “east” or “west” it is the channel who adds in “Coast”. We mean to differentiate more or less as a division in three parts: The River known as the Mississippi and East would be “East”. Santa Fe as a marker, more or less running an imaginary line North and South, on over West would be “West”. All between, marked mainly by the width of the State known as Texas, is a mixing of energy. From these basic references you might be able to define your geographical location and which influences are strongest for you. DREAMS & SYMBOLS: Part 2 [Michael_Entity] We define the Topic in two terms because they are not limited to any partitions you may believe experienced. What is termed “dreams” may easily be experienced in certain forms while meditating or simply noting your environment (including body) while in waking state. “Symbols” are important on all planes up through and including the Causal. As you approach your waking state in as meaningful a manner of interpretation as you would a “dream”, much is gained. We began this topic in March 1999, this year, so we will not cover the basics again at this point, but we will continue. Tonight we will cover the Instinctive Levels/Symbolic. Whether in Waking State or in what is termed actual “dreaming” (the biological relinquishing of presence), Symbols play an important and integral part of your realities. At this point we will describe the three levels of Symbols. We correct the channeling here by referring to “levels” instead as “facets”. The three facets of Symbolism are familiar as the axis the Overleaf system is based on. There are Expressive, Inspirational, and Action, with Assimilation not acting as a facet, but rather the comprehension of the original Symbol. The three facets are consistent in “dreams” or waking state. Since “dreaming” can occur in either Waking State or Sleep State, we will use Sleep or Waking to differentiate from here. The EXPRESSIVE facet, related to the Intellectual Center, is anything in your environment that is truly an extension of you. This would include the state of your immediate environment, the clothes you choose, your style of hair, and your mannerisms. This facet is usually regarded as the “most important” personally. By this we mean that if it is interfered with in any way, there is usually a sense of imposition, fear, reaction, defense, etc. This is the facet reflecting what you see as “you”. The INSPIRATIONAL facet, related to the Emotional Center, is what might be termed the “messages” received around you; omens, the traditional usage of symbols, anything standing out as a distraction in your usual or expected environment or self, any discrepancies. This includes illnesses, extraordinary experiences, conversations of some intensity or surprise, lying, revelations, etc. The ACTION facet, related to the Moving Center, is the literal action taken in response to any stimulation, including your reactions, your excitement, anything connecting one point to another. This is also the facet that is usually considered your “feelings” since what are usually accepted as “feelings” are Moving Centered. The symbolism from this facet can include the motivation behind the actions. As in many of our online chats with you, we realize we are limited in your time. We will pause now for questions in regard to these facets before moving on. [bn] I had a dream where I was leaving my military life behind for good even though I had been out of the military for over a year. I have the feeling that I was transitioning a level of the 4th internal monad instead. Can Michael verify if I moved ahead a level in the completion of the 4th IM? [Michael_Entity] We will make some time following the basics for personal dream analysis. We will look into this as we progress though. Any questions about the facets. We will continue then. [M6] What is meant by “the biological relinquishing of presence”? [Michael_Entity] In response to M6: In order to “dream”, in either sleep or waking state, we would consider this the biological relinquishing of presence, in that no need for or want for focus externally is experienced. “You” are no longer present. Your body simply acts as a “bookmarker” for your reality as you at some point “return”. We speak to this more metaphorically than literally. We will continue. While in waking state, at any moment, you can choose to observe your environment (this includes your body) as a means for utilizing symbols. Treating waking state as you would a dream, determining the facet the symbol reflects, and “listening” to the messages, can be quite liberating. At this very moment your environment is no different than in sleep state, except in its apparent solidity. Looking around you, it is clear what is “you” (the EXPRESSIVE facet), what is “not you” (the INSPIRATIONAL facet) and what you are going to do in response (the ACTION facet). It is the same in sleeping state. There will always be areas that are “you”, “not you” and the actions as a metaphor. The comprehension (as a reminder) in either case, whether sleeping or waking, is the ASSIMILATIVE facet. In the case of Barry: The “Military Life” is the EXPRESSIVE facet, the “leaving” is ACTION, while the discrepancy in the time of leaving was the INSPIRATIONAL. The message here can be seen in the apparent “delay” of progress internally that needed to be addressed; “life was moving on” without some internal progress being registered. This can lead to overwhelm when internal and external do not “match”, and the dream state helped to align these levels of self. The symbolic leaving of the Military internally is an indication that you have released final influences INTERNALLY carried from the experience, even if before you had ceased to EXTERNALLY be affected. While we say, “released” we mean more accurately that you integrated what works and released what does not. [bn] During the dream I had intense feeling of release or finally being free…. [Michael_Entity] That would be expected, in this case. To BN: do you see the symbolism and the facets clearly? [bn] Yes. So it didn't have to do with moving on in the 4th IM but dropping the military personality finally… I didn't realize I was holding onto it that much…. [Michael_Entity] We did not say that. We were merely responding to the level of symbolism as it applied. The more personal application can be extracted from there. You determine your progress through the Internal Monads. We do not. We will comment on that progress at a later date, if asked, but your own assessment seems to be accurate. Questions? To help bring the practical applications of this information to bear, we will take any personal questions as well, in regard to dreams. Be brief in your descriptions. [LE] Could you just use the symbols to clue into your internal progress so as to help bring balance between both the waking and dream worlds? [Michael_Entity] In response to LE: While there are many times when sleeping dreams and symbols are left resting in subconsciousness, the waking state can always lend you clues. This method of utilizing your visual or experiential environment as a means for comprehension is empowering and valid. This can then bring what your refer to as “balance”. In further response to LE, we realize you have placed the word “just” in your question. Utilizing only one or the other, the sleeping or waking state as a means for comprehension will always be difficult. It is much more efficient to utilize both worlds, though yes, seeking the symbols in one world as the other seems less accessible can bring balance as well. [Fg] I'm wondering about people from my past, usually high school showing up in my dreams. Many I didn't know personally. [Michael_Entity] Yes FG. You have not asked a question. [Fg] They usually play some role in helping me do something I'm trying to accomplish within the dream (or work against me). I'm wondering why this type of symbol is used, especially in the case when I didn't know them [Michael_Entity] We will walk through this to help in application: The characters involved would be from the EXPRESSIVE facet in that they represent a time in your life and people who comprised that time in your life. That you did not “know” many whom are “helping” in the dream is the INSPIRATIONAL facet, the message. The shared focus, what you are “trying to accomplish”, would be the ACTION facet. We do see this as stemming from what we would refer to as the ASTRAL LEVEL of dreaming (which we have covered in the past, but tonight will not). The characters involved here in your dream are mere aspects of self, represented in part by “strangers” and some recognized individuals. FG, you have long suppressed aspects of yourself stemming from your teens and this dreaming experience helps to bring some aspects of self, in the past disregarded, into conjunction with common interests, internally. The “strangers” are aspects of present self, partially, and aspects of other Personalities from other lives, symbolically represented in the recognized High School environment. They are recognized, yet distant. You have never required intimacy as a factor for receiving collaboration. Therefore these aspects can work together and not necessarily need intimacy fully realized. Next. Aa. [Aa] I wanted to I wanted to ask what a ghost in a dream might symbolize? They've been showing up a lot in mine. Also, is the notion of the different levels of a house correlating with the conscious, subconscious etc. correct?? [Michael_Entity] In response to the first part: A “ghost” in most respects symbolizes the template created and left unfulfilled by a fragment. These “ghosts” can be of templates created by present self or other Personalities. In your case, Aa, you attract those which retained a template or imprint in their life, but feel it is unfulfilled. Those seeking resolution visit you regularly. In response to the latter part of the question: We ask first if you mean this as in having multiple floors in a dwelling? [Aa] yes [Michael_Entity] Yes, this would be symbolic. They would only correlate to “subconscious” or “conscious” if you chose to imbue them with that symbology. Most “levels” in a dwelling are indicative symbolically of the largest or most used space on that landing. The bedroom level could be said to be the “subconscious” then, but that must be individually determined. The levels and their meaning will need to be explored personally, if there is differentiation of levels at all. Next. La. [la] What's the meaning of recurring dreams in which I am trying to escape a huge, towering tidal wave, sometimes a female friend or child is with me? [Michael_Entity] To walk through for La: The characters with you are EXPRESSIVE facets, the tidal wave is the INSPIRATIONAL facet, and the escaping is the ACTION facet. This dream is simply indicative of your want for protection of aspects of self that you feel have been brought against their will into highly charged, emotional “tidal waves” in your life. You are seeing these aspects of you (the young girl) as needing direction while the one aspect is in a position to act as guide (your present self), fully knowing the enormity of emotion that is swelling and engulfing you. This is a dream reflecting an on-going procession of healing between your present self, and a couple of past selves. You have always reached across time to encourage or seek support for self from self. This leads us to a final important note needed for the Symbolic level. When in sleeping state, it is not always convenient to follow through with the symbols as they have been presented, once in waking state. It is the task then to take what you remember and follow it through in your imagination. In La’s case, it would be to turn and allow the tidal wave to wash over, standing strong, creating strength and trust against what was originally seen as only motivating “escape”. In most dreams remembered upon awakening, if there is a sense of symbolism and need for follow through, it is on the ACTION facet that you will direct the imagination. The sleeping dream state on the Symbolic Level gives you an indication as to where you stand presently in your life in most cases, while the utilization of that information upon awakening can actually change the impact of the experiences originally symbolized in the dream. This is all simply another tool, though one usually only taken up by late mature and older souls. Last question: Ka [Ka] I have a recurring image in my dreams, of a cat that talks and has some kind of superior wisdom or knowledge that I and the other around me do not have. What does this mean? [Michael_Entity] This also stems from the Astral, by the way. This is a “familiar” of yours and a vehicle of expression, personified in a cat, used by your Essence as a conduit for messages from your own entity. Though your Essence has the final effect on your receipt of information, the source stems from accessing your discarnate entity members. This symbol is drawn from your lives working with large felines as symbolically representing higher wisdom. There are quite a few of you as our students who place great emphasis on this species. This is partially due to their easy access to off-planet incarnated species as well; they are excellent conduits of various energies. We will continue the next chat exploring the Astral Levels. We suggest taking in your environment, from sleep and waking, through the understanding of those facets discussed here. We will summarize again: The EXPRESSION facet is what you see as “you”, the INSPIRATIONAL as what is “not you” (taken as messages) and the ACTION facet is how you respond to any stimuli. We will conclude here. Goodnight.

Next Wave Michael - Sept 19, 2015 - Your Center of Gravity Channel: Troy Tolley MEntity: Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin. Today we will speak on a topic that is one of our early pieces of the teaching that made it through fairly concisely during the 20th Century CE. Despite this clarity, the details have become simplified in a way that left behind a great deal of the layers and details that help add dimension to this piece of the teaching. This is the information on the Centers or "brains" of the body. We have said this before, but will say it again here for review: though the correlations between Centers and Chakras are virtually inseparable, the concepts are different. In other words, though the Chakras and Centers can be spoken of in interchangeable ways, Chakras describe the stationary locations/portals of energy as they function relative to the body, while Centers expands upon these and are not stationary or are not necessarily local to the body. One of the reasons we use the term "Center" is that it is short for "Center of Gravity." Center of Gravity describes an average location of the "weight" of an object, by which that object can then be understood in terms of its motion through space and time, as well as an even deeper understanding through how that object is bound in rotation around that Center of Gravity. The "object" here is most often understood as the self, but can extend to refer to events, relationships, time periods, etc. There is a "natural" or starting point Center of Gravity for each "Center," but these change over the lifetime. For example, the Emotional Center of Gravity is in the Heart, or rests in the Heart Chakra. Your Moving Center of Gravity is in the Gut, or the Solar Plexus Chakra. Your Intellectual Center of Gravity is in the throat, the Vishuddhi, or the Throat Chakra. Your Instinctive Center rests at the base of the spine and throughout the spine, or the Root Chakra. This is where they begin, their natural resting point, and this is because your Centering DEVELOPS out of these points. You are born with Chakras. You are not born with Centering. Chakras are the electrical currents or connecting points through which the dimensions of Essence animate and live the life. The Personality, then, develops from those points the Centers of Gravity. To understand the depths of Centering, then, you would want to understand that your Centering describes the "brain" with which you use to process life, or the Center of Gravity around which you "rotate" within yourself, and the PART tends to describe that which you then "orbit" around. For example, an Emotionally-CENTERED person tends to rotate/process within the self in terms of how things, people, events, life moves them, inspires them, and bypasses their prejudices and logic to get to a place of direct perception. An Intellectually-CENTERED person tends to rotate/process within the self in terms of how things are expressed, make sense, are logical, formed, and bring them insight. Now, look at these in terms of Center and PART. The Part tends to describe that which one likes to orbit around as input for the primary Center. But it also describes what one reflects back from the surface of one's self, if you will. So the Emotionally-CENTERED navigates and processes in terms of Inspiration, but its Intellectual PART means that this is both given back to the world in Expression and is taken in from the world of Expression. Think of your Primary Center as that which holds you together, and your Part as that which you tend to gravitate toward and around and reflect. Now, what tends to happen over the course of a lifetime is that your Primary Center of Gravity (and all of your Centers of Gravity) move out and away from the natural resting place in you, and you place these in other people, in events, in the past, in the future, in relationships, etc. So, rather than your Emotional Center being within you in a way that allows you to process on your own terms, you may have placed your Center of Gravity in your Mother, in your mate, in your career, etc. This means that you then begin to look to that which you have placed your Center of Gravity for how to process and navigate. So while you may be Emotionally-Centered, your Center of Gravity for the Emotions is in the PAST, and everything is processed in terms of the gravity of the past. It could be said that there are 7 locations beyond the natural resting point, or the SELF, in which one places one's Center of Gravity: HEALTH or the Material World; CARETAKERS or The Past; LIFE, or the forces bigger than oneself; INDIVIDUALS, or intimacy and relationships; THE WORLD, or the faceless OTHERS; THE FUTURE, or Unknown; and SPIRIT, or non-specific dispersion. These are broad and overlapping categories, but can help our students to look at these areas where Centering may have a gravitational force. Keep in mind that even though you may be Emotionally-Centered, you may have several locations beyond you where there are Centers of Gravity for the Emotions. While it is not "bad" that one's Center of Gravity may beyond the self, it can be difficult for the older soul for this to be the case, because when one's Center of Gravity is in someone else, or in an event, etc., then SELF-AWARENESS IS LOST. For many, the Center of Gravity is a literal gravitational pull that draws one's attention on a regular basis. Does your Health take up a lot of your attention? Do Others take up a lot of your attention? Does your Relationship take up a lot of your attention? Do you find yourself stuck in The Past and comparing everything to that? Do you find yourself worried about The Future, or thinking that there are solutions found only in the Future? And so on. As you can see, none of these are probably unfamiliar to any of you because, regardless of your Centering, your Center of Gravity can be in many locations. To bring your Centers of Gravity back to the SELF is to bring your attention back to yourself. SELF-OBSERVATION is the only way. Self-Observation is Self-Awareness is the awareness of your part in the equation of all dynamics in your life. Self-Observation brings your attention BACK TO YOU, and therefore brings your Center of Gravity back to a resting place, to its origins. This is not to say that The World or your Health or your Past or The Future will no longer be relevant as factors, but that your emotions, thoughts, and actions will no longer be dictated by these. You will no longer rotate and process from within those external factors, but bring that rotation, that calm, that centering, that process back home to you. We know this may be a lot to consider, so we will now open the floor to questions. QUEUE IS NOW OPEN Yes, Maureen. Maureen: I can see I move towards INDIVIDUALS, with my Emotional Centering but interestingly as a Caretaker would. It does feel better when I get my power back. It's more restful. Maureen: I don't think that was a question. MEntity: Caring for others is not the same thing as putting one's Center of Gravity in Individuals. Caring feels good. Placing one's Center of Gravity in Individuals will often feel more like obligation, annoyance, dependency, etc., and one's Emotions (in this case) would be dictated by these Individuals. ClaireC: Michael, I am Emotionally-Centered, Intellectual Part. Although I am concerned about the Future, I feel the gravitational pull towards my heart most of the time. Would that constitute being self-aware according to your description, of bringing the rotation back home? MEntity: Claire, your question brings us to the next area we would have covered. It is important to differentiate between Self-absorbed and Self-aware. Self-aware is a sense of observation of how one is a part of the equation of dynamics in the life, whereas self-absorbed is cutting off of all sense of participation in the dynamics in the life, and a protection or defense of the self against those dynamics and equations. This comes when the Center of Gravity returns to the self, but is then protected or defended. We will leave to each of you to determine how self-aware or self-absorbed you may be, but the difference is usually in the sense of calm vs the sense of defense. To return to your question more specifically, we will say that if you feel that gravitational pull toward your heart, toward that resting place, but there is defense involved around your heart, then you may find that a return to self-awareness means allowing, inviting, and embracing one of those areas outside of the self that may have been the context for your hurt. If you find that the Center of Gravity in your heart brings a sense of calm, healing, and balance, then it is likely a state of Self-awareness. ClaireC: Thank you, that's helpful, Michael. MEntity: Your question prompts another piece of the puzzle, as well: Keep in mind that while each of you receive an indication for your Primary or habitual Centering, ALL Centers are active and working. So while you may be Emotionally-Centered, it may be that your Center of Gravity for the Emotions has returned to the heart, but your Intellectual Center of Gravity is in The Future. Just keep in mind the difference between that which dictates your processes (Center) vs that which your processes rotate around (Part). Diane_HB: So in the case above, the Future would dictate your thoughts but your feelings would be centered within the self? I'm not sure how this works. MEntity: Diane, it can go one of two ways: If there is Self-awareness, then the Emotions are processed on one's own terms, and this is then funneled into what one aims for in The Future. If there is Self-absorption, then the Emotions are still processed within the self, but in defense against and in reflection of the threat of The Future. To be clearer: reflected in what one THINKS and EXPRESSES into form about The Future. Does that make sense? Diane_HB: Yes, thank you Bobby: I'm Moving Center, Intellectual Part and looking at what you've described so far, I would guess that I tend to project my Primary Centering into relationships which would be toward the Intellectual Center? I'm guessing since I know the Mode deals with intimate relationships which falls on the Inspirational Axis. Does this sound like a fair assessment to you? MEntity: We will leave out the Mode for now as a means to help focus on this concept being discussed. Your Center of Gravity is certainly in Relationships. This means that your Actions, Feelings (how your body feels, processes, and moves energy), and your Effectiveness are often dictated by the states of your Relationships, and processed through those Relationships. This is then reflected back in your Expression (or lack of Expression), in your ideas, thoughts, and the form that your expressions take. In other words, in your case, your Moving Center of Gravity is dictated by and processed by your Relationships, and these revolve around the gravitational forces of you where your thoughts, ideas, reasoning, and insights take you, and are reflected in your thoughts, ideas, reasoning, understanding, and insights. If you were to move into Self-observation and awareness, you would bring the Center of Gravity home to you, and realize that how you feel, react, act, and your sense of effectiveness is less about how others understand you, how they express themselves, their ideas and thoughts, but about yours. Bobby: Ok MEntity: You are aware of this and we know that you can feel when your Center of Gravity comes home, and when it is left in Relationships. GeraldineB: I'm Emotionally Centered, Intellectual Part. I interpret Rotation to be regular and/or constant movement, especially as one ages and expands experiences. While I've had severe Health issues and focus during this past year, in many ways I've avoided making it my sole Center of Gravity. I've not felt emotionally “attached” to my health. I think I've approached it far more from an Intellectual perspective. Can you describe the process that I'm using? Or is my Center completely elsewhere? MEntity: One's Center of Gravity tends to be drawn to places outside of the self for three reasons: TO ADD to the self (learn, grow, evolve, experience), to DISTRACT from the self (defense, fear, blame, anger, etc) or to BALANCE the self (healing, comfort, acceptance, understanding, etc). It is not a "bad" thing for one's Center of Gravity to be placed beyond the self. The dynamics of living require great fluctuation of location for the various Centers of Gravity. However, as one grows older in Soul Age, it begins to be more and more important to learn how to bring those home to the self in a way that allows one to be a conscious and aware participant in the life, and not just a receptor that will review later. In your case, your Emotional Center of Gravity is in THE WORLD, in OTHERS. How "others" behave, and what is happening in The World, have great impact on your state and processes of Emotion, Inspiration, and Perception. Your health is demanding and a great focus in the life at this time, but it is not where your Center of Gravity is. Your Center of Gravity still remains in processes that are dictated by Others and The World around you. GeraldineB: I can validate this. MEntity: Your health, however, has been the catalyst for you to bring that Center of Gravity home, to yourself, and a great deal of calm and healing and stability has been generated by these lengthy returns of your Emotional Gravity to the self. You have fluctuated between the Self-aware and Self-absorbed, and you may likely know when each of these are in effect. GeraldineB: Since I know that it's possible to monitor, I will definitely be paying more attention. MEntity: Though "monitor" is not particularly charged, it can be more inviting to consider self-observation rather than monitoring, as observation is participatory, whereas monitoring may provoke a division within. GeraldineB: Well, and Observation is my Mode, too :) MEntity: We will take a final question from Diane. Diane_HB: Would having your self-worth be dictated by others' opinions about you be an example of having one's Emotional Center of Gravity in Relationships? Diane_HB: And if it's not as bad as before but still recurs, is that an example of the fluctuation of the Center? MEntity: It can be, yes. It can also be in the vague and faceless "OTHERS" that are The World. Yes, the fluctuation may be felt in terms of how calm and how well you process on your own terms, or how distracted you are so that your processes are dictated by the terms of a Relationship or Others. Diane_HB: Thank you. This is a lot to think about. MEntity: We understand. That is why we offered this up in the context of "next wave" as it must be built upon and expanded. This transmission is merely a bit of a jumbled glimpse. But it is a beginning. Good day to each of you. We will conclude here for today. Good day to each of you. Goodbye, for now.

Michael Speaks -- "Imagination, and What is it for?" December 11, 2011 Troy Tolley, Channel Start: 12:57 PM 12/11/2011 MEntity: Hello to each of you. We are here. We have always enjoyed that our students are rather "rowdy." It is a good match with us, despite our seemingly stolid approach to sharing our teaching. We understand the subject to be IMAGINATION, and What It Is For. We will share what we can on this, and aim for it to be useful in understanding this often-misunderstood process. Though we have shared some in the past about Imagination, we have not shared enough with which to build upon in this exchange, so we will speak to this subject anew. Imagination is a powerful tool of Sentience that exists in every known scenario while in a body. There are no circumstances of great pleasure or great suffering that does not allow for Imagination. Imagination exists as a kind of frequency into which all Sentience can tune, if you will, but also generate. Imagination exists as a result of Sentience, and Sentience exists as a result of Imagination. Everything exists as a result of Imagination. And Imagination exists as a result of everything. In short, Imagination IS Tao. If any one of you wondered what Tao "is like," it is that part of you that Imagines. If you wondered what your "spark" was like at the core of your Essence, it is Imagination. And by extension, your Imagination is Essence, as well. And by further extension, your Imagination is YOU. We share this rather amorphous and aphorismic introduction because it is valid that Imagination permeates everything, and emits from everything, in ways that literally help to perpetuate the universe. This is one of the reasons many teachings teach that the world is "illusion." Therefore, in terms of Imagination then, every existing thing is "illusion." Therefore, it is silly to presume that because it is Imagination that it must therefore be ignored, transcended, avoided, denied, etc., because one does so, one only trades one "illusion" for another. Trading one illusion for another that is "better" is like keeping chlorine on one side of the pool. The only way that life gets "better," particularly while in the Physical Plane, is through participation. All other paths are stalling, which are valid, but stalled. "Participation" means tending to that which was Imagined, or taking responsibility. Imagination is used to FORM, INTERPRET, EXPERIENCE, and COMPREHEND, which are Imagination in Motion, Intellect, Emotion, and Assimilation, respectively. In the same way that Imagination is TAO, it is also CHOICE. Therefore, one could say that Imagination is used for Forming Choice, Interpreting Choice, Experiencing Choice, or Comprehending Choice, while Choice, itself, has its influence on each, i.e., you can Choose how to Form a Choice. Imagination is generated from three natural resources within your existence: The Past, Present, and Future. "The Now" is the whole that is the sum of the parts - Past, Present, and Future, and "the Now" is different from the Present (for this discussion, at least). The use of Memory (the past) to form, interpret, experience, or comprehend the Past, Present, or Future is REPRODUCTIVE imagination. Reproductive Imagination is Sensory-based, and usually relative and relevant to the Body, or Moving Center. It could be said, then, that Reproductive Imagination arises from, and/or influences Action, Form, Memory, and the Goal. Reproductive Imagination ranges in use from memory to crafts to recognition to procreation to routine and to the nurturing of the Body. A reason Goals are associated with Reproductive Imagination is because scenarios must be formed, interpreted, and experienced over and over again for a Goal to be pursued. The use of The Present to Form, Interpret, Experience, or Comprehend the Past, Present, or Future is CREATIVE Imagination. Creative Imagination arises from, and/or influences Inspiration (emotion), Experience, Perception, and the Mode. Creative Imagination ranges in use from ideas, to art, to problem solving, possibilities, and healing. A reason Modes are associated with Creative Imagination is because Inspiration is always formed, interpreted, and experienced through Relationships, within and without. The use of the Future to Form, Interpret, Experience, or Comprehend to Past, Present, or Future is INVOLUNTARY Imagination. Involuntary Imagination arises from, and/or influences Expression (intellect), Interpretation, Beliefs (philosophies), and the Attitude. Involuntary Creativity ranges in use across fear, defense, reaction, illness, pathologies, depression, dreams, anticipation, anxiousness. A reason Attitudes are associated with Involuntary Imagination is because one's Expression is naturally formed, interpreted, and experienced because of one's Philosophies (beliefs), within and without. Though these are nicely organized in ways that align with the Axes, they are not static associations in such a way that one could relate a Role to one of these forms of Imagination. In other words, all Sages and Artisans are not locked to, or rooted in the Involuntary Imagination. That being said, there is truth to the tendency for use of certain types of Imagination, which can be approximated not only by the Role, but by the dominance of an Axis in one's Overleaves. The Overleaves, and the use of them over many lifetimes, expands every fragment's capacity for use of all forms of Imagination, though all forms were there from "the beginning," as it is a frequency that is stored or accessed through the Instinctive Center. This frequency is one's indirect line to the Akashic Plane, as it is the frequency that is used to update/upload to your Essence, through your Essence, and to its own Causal Body for the updating of records. Each of these can be positive or negative in their uses to the individual. And each will inherently trigger and overlap the others. This information acts as a kind of map for how to understand from what angle you are drawing your Imagination, and what parts of you it may be generating from, or influencing, so that you give rise to ever greater spectrum of choices for how, who, where, and why you are. You DO "create" your "reality" in the most fundamental and personal sense, even if not all of "reality" is your personal creation. Your Imagination uses your memory, perceptions, and beliefs. And, your memory, perceptions, and beliefs use Imagination to form, interpret, experience, and comprehend your Reality. ***FLOOR IS NOW OPEN FOR QUESTIONS*** Maureen: If a person wishes to have a different outcome in “whatever” – how might they use their Imagination to make this happen MEntity: One would first want to assess to what degree one has control over the outcome of that "whatever" in terms of Form, Interpretation, Experience, or Comprehension, and this would most likely come from the Creative Imagination. If one cannot control an actual outcome (form), one may still have the capacity for controlling the interpretation of that outcome to best suit his needs or wants; or he may be able to control his experience so that disappointment can be minimized, or joy can be generated; or control his comprehension so that sense can be made of the results. We will say, however, that "wishing" for a different outcome would have far less effect than actual participation in the process. Maureen: perhaps I am thinking of the use of Visualization as it relates to Imagination MEntity: Understanding from where that "wishing" is generated can also help. Is it a result of Reproductive Imagination? Is he trying to recreate? Is it a result of Creative Imagination? Is he trying to visualize and hold an intention? Is it a result of Involuntary Imagination, generated from fear and defense against the alternative outcomes? Knowing from where it comes can sometimes help to point to other resources. For instance, if it is Creative, then the outcome may require other people to help, and Relationships can be explored for even more Imagination. For more Inspiration, etc. As Emotions are also how one experiences Time, Creative Imagination may also point to the fact that it is a matter of patience, as well. carolyn: Is the frequency stored/accessed through instinctive centre, the same as the essence frequency, and does this frequency work through seven levels, of the three types of imagination. MEntity: The Frequency that we offer as insight into your Essence is Essence's particular "vibration point" from within Sentience as it is relative to your Sentience. In other words: all of Sentience is its own spectrum from 1 - 100. Human Sentience may be at 30 in that spectrum, for example. That point of 30 within the full spectrum of 100 is then delineated into its own spectrum from 1 - 100. Imagination then could be said to be the equivalent of all Sentience, and Humans are one point in that spectrum of Imagination. Your Frequency describes your Essence's speed at which Imagination is accessed or generated. To answer your question: yes, the Frequency that is your Sentience, and the specific Frequency with which your Essence participates within that, are stored/accessed in the Instinctive Center. While we have no delineated process of 7 Levels for how Frequency uses Imagination, our information on the 7 Methods of Choice can shed light on that process, indirectly. Kathryn41: How much impact are we able to effect on the physical plane reality as a result of 'imagination' as individuals, or is this a co-imagined reality and we are only really able to effect 'big' changes with a more collective agreement of that imagined reality MEntity: The level of impact one has on shared reality is the extent to which one actively participates in it. Your Physical reality, at least in terms of FORM, are results of Actions (Goals). Physical reality is dense, so working together in time and space is important, as results that land here can remain here for a very long time and space. The more removed one is from that process, the more confined the time and space, and the less influence on the greater, collective time and space. Your Emotional reality, at least in terms of Experience, are results of Perception (Mode). The more present and active one is in relationships, the more impact and influence there is. Kathryn41: So this is why young souls are so often able to effect big changes, because many at this soul level are very actively involved/participating in the shared 'reality'? MEntity: Your Intellectual reality, at least in terms of Interpretation, are results of Beliefs (Attitude). The more present and clear one is in his philosophies about life, the more influence and impact he tends to have on those for himself. That would be valid, Kathryn. All fragments exist within all of these "realities" (there are 9, all together), but tend to pick and choose, based on many factors, where the impact and influence will most likely be. Keep in mind, however, that "thoughts are things," so the work that one does on his Involuntary Imagination, the more it contributes to the capacity for soothing others from their own fears, prejudices, reactions, etc. Involuntary Imagination tends toward fear, reaction, and protection, and this is a good thing in situations where danger is actually present, but when it is simply a difference in philosophies, for instance, then fear, reaction, and protection are often exacerbating, contributing to a reality that is often unwanted. So one does have influence and impact to some degree across all of the realities and through all of the paths of Imagination. EVERYTHING counts, if you will. [Bobby] You've stated before that I used imaginative access to my own Instinctive Center when I briefly heard (phonetically) "Siffin". Is this indicative of the fact that I am Moving Centered and how I tend to use imagination? If this is too personal of a question then feel free to skip it. I can ask it in a different session. MEntity: That is a valid indication, as it could be said to be the Reproductive Imagination. We realize we have shared a collection of terms that may have to be organized in a way that our students can then make more sense of them, and begin to build a better understanding of this profound tool. But this is a start. We will conclude here for today. Good day to each of you.

MMW - Jun 18, 2016 - The Health Of Your Lower Centers MEntity: Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin. Babylove: Bonjour! ClaireC: Hello, Michael. DianeHB: Hello Michael MEntity: We have been asked to discuss the health of your "lower" Centers. We will begin with a quick review of these Centers. The "lower" Centers are thought of as the MOVING, EMOTIONAL, and INTELLECTUAL Centers. Though the Instinctive Center may be thought of as "lower," it is actually the meeting ground of all Centers, or the "hub," if you will. This can be confusing in terms of correlating to the Roles, but we will address this at another time. We will define "healthy" here as the Positive Poles of the Centers discussed today. We will define "unhealthy" as the Negative Poles. The discussion today will be about the Centers, not your Centering. In other words, your Centering merely describes your habitual and prioritized use of the Centers, but all of your Centers are working. So as we discuss a Center that is not a part of your Centering, it will still be relevant. MOVING CENTER: +Productive -Frustrative The greatest indicators of one's Moving Center Health is where one is in terms of patterns of Productivity or patterns of Frustration. When one feels as if progress is being made, there is Productivity, and this feels expansive. When progress is hindered, delayed, or halted, it can show up as Frustrating. The key here is not in a day of frustration or a day of productivity, but in the consistency of one over the other. The more you are frustrated, the more you are in the Negative Pole. The more you are productive, the more you are in the Positive Pole. It is the patterns that matter, not the pauses. There are times when a single event may come into play that feels as if it destroys progress or suddenly catapults one into progress after a long term of frustration. However powerful these single events are, it is the follow through, the larger pattern that will always matter most. If you have a tremendous breakthrough and then do not follow up on this, that pattern of frustration matters more than the breakthrough. If there is a tremendous setback, a blow to the life, to progress, it can seem all progress is lost, but it does not have to be. If the pattern of Productivity is upheld, then the blow to the life shifts into a curve, not a wall. Before we continue, we will ask you for your self-assessment of your Moving Center based on the above: ON A SCALE FROM 1 - 5, with 1 being full Negative Pole, and 5 being full Positive Pole, where do you think you sustain your patterns? Maureen: Maybe 3... PeterK: 2 DianeHB: I think I've been at 2 in recent months Johanne: I try to avoid frustration more than before so 3 Bobby: I think I tend to stay more Idealistic so even with occassional setbacks, I'm always hopeful of recovery so I think I'll go with a 4 Janet: Probably a 4 for me Babylove: 3-4 for me... Maureen: I have great lurches between extremes so it's hard to tell. MEntity: Now we will discuss this a bit more deeply for deeper assessment. Two factors are key symptoms to the overall patterns of use of the Moving Center besides the obvious Production and Frustration. Your relationship with your BODY and your SELF-CONFIDENCE. The relationship with one's Body and the state of one's Self-Confidence are the deeper elements that indicate the foundation of one's Moving Center. If these are in poor states, then all use of the Moving Center will be affected. In other words, no matter how Productive you may be, you will have a much more difficult time experiencing this as progress if you have a poor relationship with your Body and lack Self-Confidence. Full access to the Positive Pole of your Moving Center means having a healthy and loving relationship with your Body and a strong sense of Self-Confidence. If you give "100%" of your effort to success and progress in the life, yet despise your body and/or bombard yourself with self-doubt, you may only have access to about 10% of your energy. Conversely, if one has great confidence and love for the body, then the slightest efforts can yield tremendous results. Loving your Body means accepting it AS IT IS and as an accurate representation of you, even as you may seek to improve and maintain it. Self-confidence means allowing room for self-doubt, but making choices based on intentions, not on fears and defenses. USING THE SAME SCALE: Where would you place yourself in terms of Love/Acceptance for your Body? In terms of your sense of Self-Confidence? Maureen: 4 for Body and 5 for Self Confidence. PeterK: 2 for body, 3 for self-confidence Janet: I’ve come to the point where I’m pretty accepting of my body, but I’m usually too focused on things that interest me to pay much attention to how I take care of my body. Or not. So it seems you are saying that the most important part is to accept my body, and in that case I’ll choose a 4 for that part. And 5 for self-confidence. Babylove: 3 for both... Bobby: For the Body, I'd go with 5. For Self-confidence I'd go with 3. The average works out to the 4 I mentioned above. ClaireC: 4 and 4, maybe? Johanne: body: 4-5 now (not in the past); self-confidence: mostly 4-5 except in one area: 2 (where I get the most frustration) DianeHB: 3 for the body and 3 for self-confidence MEntity: To clarify: We asked for two additional assessments: for the body and for the confidence. This is separate from the original assessment. For those who may have read it differently. Janet - ignoring the body or being distracted from the body is different from accepting and loving it. We do not say this to challenge your assessment, but to help in your own assessment. In cases where one is "busy" and not focused on the body, it can either be from a need to distance oneself from the body by making efforts that push its limits, or can be because the body is thoroughly accepted and allows access to that energy that leads to being so busy. Maureen: Michael, do we have time today, in this session, for you to "review" each of our numbers or is that best left to each of us to work through on our own? I am aware that we need to work through the 3 Lower Centers today. MEntity: We intend to comment, yes. Maureen: Thank you ? MEntity: One way to determine if you are merely distracting yourself from your body, or that you are taking it with you and it is a resource, is your levels of energy. If you find you have extremes of energy, scattered energy, you may be ignoring your body. If you have even levels of energy that are there when you need them, you are likely quite inclusive and loving of your Body. If you think of the Polarities of the Center as the "skin" of the Center where one Pole or the other comes to the surface, and your state of relationship to the Body and your levels of Self-confidence as the blood, then the very deepest core of your Moving Center issues would be your PRIMARY SHAME. The bones. Where you are in your dance with Shame affect everything "above" that. Everyone has access to each Primary Shame, but the Primary Body Type tends to be the key to one's Primary Shame. Babylove: ...I think mercury body-type is shame around the need for healing... MEntity: LUNAR - Intelligence - the shame of not being smart enough JOVIAL - Indulgences - the shame of giving in to the pleasures of life and the body MARTIAL - Demand - the shame of requiring more than what is obvious or offered SOLAR - Needs - the shame of needing more than one will admit or ask for MERCURIAL - Desperations - the shame of expressing what is important for your healing SATURNIAN - Talents - the shame of not being important or unique enough VENUSIAN - Appearances - the shame of not looking or being as you are expected, or expect, to look Matching your Primary Body Type to your Primary Shame can shed light on some of the deepest wounding that you may carry that alters the quality of function for the Moving Center. If you do not find this at the deepest core of you, it means you have worked hard on this and have transformed it, or you are not looking deeply enough. If you have worked hard on this, you probably recognize it. Babylove: Michael, can you elaborate on the "desperations" for the mercurial bodytype? Maureen: Is it possible to have a blindspot with this where perhaps others can see it and you can't? ClaireC: Yes, that's what I'm also wondering. MEntity: These are universal obstacles built in to the Body Types. They are what might best be understood as unique "pockets" in the Body Type that collect experiences quite specific to that Body Type and there comes a point in the life where that pocket gets heavy, and/or must be sorted through and emptied. Babylove: Though I don't thoroughly understand what is meant by the "desperations" and the shame around expressing what is important for healing, I think I have definitely worked on this. ClaireC: Is it like being ashamed of asking for help, for instance? Babylove: I think that must be a part of it, for sure. Maureen: I know how "MERCURIAL - Desperations - the shame of expressing what is important for your healing" relates to me being a Priest, for example, pretty clearly actually, but I'm not so clear on how it relates to the MERCURY Body Type. MEntity: To respond to your questions: Desperation is the shame of not just needing to ask for help, but needing help at all. Mercurial shame will put on a brave face, pretend he is doing things to that are healthy, healing, and actually believe these things are helpful, but it will not address the shame of being the one who needs to speak up and admit to failure, to surrender, to ask for comforting. It goes very deep in this regard. It is often far below the surface, in the "bones" of effort, in the endurance and pride and push forward. Babylove: Ugh, yep, I recognize this. MEntity: It is not so much in the need, however, but in the Expression of that need. Maureen: I thought that was just a core "value". Now sounds more like it's a blindspot. DianeHB: I have it too, although it's better than it used to be. MEntity: Particularly in terms of its necessity for one's healing. Babylove: Yeah, Diane, me, too. I have worked on this. MEntity: For example, one may need special conditions for sexual pleasure, and rather than address this with a mate, sexual pleasure will either be diminished or avoided. Maureen - one's Primary Shame can be so hidden from the self and others that no one would guess it was a shame. However, when that is the case, it can often be spotted by others before you spot it for yourself. ClaireC: Is this shame where chronic stress springs from? MEntity: Claire - it can show up as shame for asking for help, but it can go much deeper into realms that seem to have no voice or obvious form. In any case, it is the DESPERATION that is avoided. Mercury does not want to be desperate. Claire - chronic stress can spring from any shame ASSESSMENT - 1) do you relate to the Primary Shame associated with your Primary Body Type? 2) Using the same scale, how much do you feel this may have been healed in this lifetime? Bobby: YES, 3'ish mostly from not accepting that my Demands can't always be fulfilled by those I wish them to be fulfilled by ClaireC: 1 - yes. 2 - not much. Johanne: yes I relate very much; 2) 3-4, I have felt an improvement recently. DianeHB: 1) yes 2) 3 PeterK: I do not know my Body Type. But based on the above list, I believe my Primary Shame is Appearances. It has been a very big problem this lifetime. On the healing scale: 1. Maureen: 1) Yes 2) 3-4 Janet: Definitely relate to Venusian. I recognize the statement about sorting through the pocket. I have become far more accustomed to NOT seeing the girl I remember in the mirror. Probably a 4 on healing. DianeHB: I ask for help eventually, but after feeling like I need to resolve issues myself first Babylove: 1)yes 2) 3 ViP: Apologies, I just joined and am still catching up with the transcript, I can start answering as soon as I've caught up. PETER - your bodytype mix is Lunar/Venus/Mercury. PeterK: Thank you. MEntity: MAUREEN - the reason this is associated with Mercurial Body Types is because Mercury Body Types tend to have the capacity to "figure things out on their own" very easily and when Mercury cannot figure things out, it can accumulate into shame. NOW - we will comment on each of you (except "ViP" for this round). It is important to note that older souls, and in particular Old Souls, have the greatest challenges with the Moving Center, even if Moving Centered or using the Moving Part. Babylove: oy MEntity: This is because the Moving Center tends to accumulate understanding about its nature and function only from actual action and movement, but as your Essence and Personalities move into more philosophical states of existence during lifetimes, the Moving Center is explored in its more subtle and expanded terms. The Moving Center does not merely manage movement and action, but all of your processing and movement of energy and resources, both tangible and intangible, obvious and subtle. The Old Soul does not tend to move away from immersion in the Physical Plane because she is "tired," but the Personality experiences this "being tired" because it is learning how to manage energy differently. When it was merely an equation of cause and effect, of physics, it was "easy." Hit the ball. Ball moves. But now you must be responsible, not only for the final form and action, but for the energy that fueled the action into form. Maureen: I agree, and thinking of the MECURIAL Body Type in relation to this, where do Old 6's, Old 7's (for example) and so on, go to for "help"? It's a conundrum I've thought about many times. I think that's why many of us show a preference for Causal Plane "help". It's the next (or next to the next) step up. Causal Plane help is a "greater" teacher, in our cases, literally. Babylove: I agree, Maureen, but I needed to ask for much more physical help for my healing...like holding and hugging...comforting... Maureen: ? Maureen: Good point, Nicholas. MEntity: All of you appear to have fair assessments of each of the areas we discussed. We do not disagree with your assessments. Here are our quick commentary for each of you in terms of your Moving Center and your capacity for greater health. We can discuss the details with you in further depth individually, but this is a start. Bobby - to move your Moving Center into greater health, we can suggest that humor not be your shield. It often interferes with deeper wounding that requires your kindness. Often when humor comes up as a shield, it is an opportunity for you to shift into consciously kinder actions, either toward yourself, or for another. Babylove - to move your Moving Center into greater health, we can suggest that you allow yourself to "be a baby." Babylove: oy yes, always been a challenge for me... MEntity: Trying to uphold pride and persistence is important, but your healing that would free greater depths of energy would come from your being a baby. We mean this in as literal terms as possible. Even if alone. Cry, whine, throw a tantrum, pout, stomp off, Babylove: ok lol MEntity: Claire - to move your Moving Center into greater health, we can suggest that you continue to do what you are doing: embrace and create change. Your body has been starving for change, and it is here. ClaireC: I'm consciously working at this. Thanks, Michael. It's good to know I'm on the right track. MEntity: Diane - to move your Moving Center into greater states of health, we can suggest that you continue to do what you are doing: TRUST YOURSELF. DianeHB: Hmm MEntity: Janet - to move your Moving Center into greater states of health, we can suggest that you continue to do what you are doing: FEEL YOUR WAY FORWARD (even if you cannot see your way forward). Janet: Fits my platform: UNKNOWING. MEntity: Johanne - to move your Moving Center into greater states of health, we can suggest that you continue practicing Being Present, or LETTING PEOPLE KNOW YOU ARE HERE. You have tremendous respect for power to the point where yours is treated with such reverence so that it is as quiet as possible. It is okay for you to be loud, to be obnoxious, to play, to be silly. Embarrass yourself. Johanne: lol MEntity: Maureen - to bring your Moving Center into greater health, we can suggest that you STOP COMPARING. In truth, one cannot stop comparing, but the phrase is important as a means of catching yourself when you are in a spiral of comparisons that undermine your energy. Peter - to bring your Moving Center into greater health, we can suggest that you LET PEOPLE LIKE YOU. This is an important phrasing because this does not suggest that you must do anything in particular but to be open to being liked. You are likable and lovable. Your Moving Center is crushed by the weight of your presuming differently. It is time for you to know you are loved and to behave as if you are. PeterK: [Tears] Maureen: I'll have to think on that one, Michael. ViP: Michael - if it still applies, my responses to the last Assessment were: relating to primary shame (for Venusian, as Appearance): Yes, very much so (I previously thought this was entirely an effect of primary CF Arrogance). Degree healed: 2 (Just in case it affects your comments.) MEntity: ViP - we know we stated that we would not offer a comment to you in this round, but this simply proves that we cannot even predict ourselves: Bobby: lol ViP: lol MEntity: ViP - To help you move your Moving Center into greater health, we can suggest that you continue doing what you are doing, which is KEEP TRYING. You have not given up. You have continued to nurture the higher energies of resonance and agape as your motivation for continuing forward in deeper relationship with yourself and to others. We use the phrase "keep trying" because that is how it feels. It is not easy. It is often painful, even slow, and the growing pains can be exhausting, but underneath that is that strength of healing that is in your "bones" of being. ViP: Thank you Michael. MEntity: We think that Troy was a bit ambitious in asking us to cover all three Centers, so what we will do now is open the floor to your questions and save assessment of the other Centers for another exchange. Digging deeply into the Moving Center today is vital and your living with the thoughts and feelings from today for a while can help in further assessments. FLOOR IS OPEN Yes, Claire ClaireC: In my case, will changes in my life bring about a "natural" lessening of the constant, underlying stress I am experiencing? MEntity: In the most enthusiastic "voice" we can convey, Hell Yes. ClaireC: LOL! MEntity: We say this affectionately and with enthusiasm because it reflects where your Essence is in this. The changes are exactly what have been missing that have led to such stresses. New stresses will arise, of course, but there is a difference between the stresses of "what to do next" vs "why do I even exist." Yes, ViP ViP: Hi Michael - in a previous session, you mentioned that the highest level of the self-karma that I still carry relates to not feeling any sense of progress, of not noticing the effects of the work that I do in fact do and feeling no sense of progress at all. (If I recall correctly - should be close to those words.) Is this related in any way to habitually being in the negative pole of the moving center (Frustrative)? Is it a cause, or does it simply reflect the self-karma, or something else? MEntity: The Self-Karma reflects the frustration, not the other way around. Self-Karma and Chief Features are reactions to wounding. They arise to teach and to protect. And yes, being the Negative Pole is deeply connected to the wounding. You have been taught that you are ineffective, weak, and that you must work hard to make up for this, rather than simply to do what brings you pleasure and happiness. Living on the terms of others can bring about resistance and shut the Moving Center down into Frustration. Giving rise to Self-Karmic issues and Chief Features that only seek to protect you from that pain. As you have begun to transform your actions to include your pleasures and happiness, you have begun to break the patterns that have been in place for so long. This is not to say you are free from those patterns, but they are "wobbling." ViP: Thank you very much Michael MEntity: Yes, Maureen Maureen: Michael, just to be clear on what you told me. I don't find myself in comparisons with the classic "others" (unless that's a blindspot) but I do often find I "compare" myself to an ideal, a standard, or an expectation that is within me. In other words it feels more personal than external. Is that what you see or am I missing something? MEntity: Maureen - we are not speaking of comparing yourself to others, though that is certainly included. The primary area of comparison that hurts you is in your comparing expectation to reality. Reality can knock you down for days because of this. By "reality" here we speak of the behavior of others, the differences in understanding and comprehension, the differences in what you would do vs what someone else might have done. The reason it can be overlooked is because all of it makes perfect sense because you are often right, correct. But it hurts you. Maureen: That hit a nerve. Now I'm crying. Babylove: {{{Maureen}}} MEntity: We can speak to you in more depth about this for healing, but simply knowing this can help you to stop for a moment and ask if it is productive. Yes, Babylove Babylove: If there is time, can speak a bit more on WHY and HOW being a baby will help me with my energy? I get it on some level but can't really see the equation... MEntity: We must end at the top of your hour, so we do not short-circuit our channel, but we will answer as quickly as we can. Babylove: Understood! MEntity: Because you are too controlling. You want to control yourself, control your trajectory, control your appearance, your practices, your results, your desires. It is not always an obvious state of controlling because you are so in control. Babylove: lol point taken MEntity: "Being a baby" is that moment when you surrender to forces that are within you and around you that make no sense, have no point, and simply move energy through you. You need to let the senseless energy move to make room for the more sensible energy. Babylove: Ok, I can work on being more aware of this...and the control. Thank you. MEntity: And we do not speak in terms of artistic or performed moments of expression, but full-on ridiculousness of being a baby. Babylove: Got it. MEntity: You had to give up a great deal of your childishness early in life. You learned how to bring forth the child within for healing, but he never got to be childish. He acted out, he got angry, he got sad, he got worried, but he never got to be pointless and for that to be ok. Let yourself be pointless. Babylove: I was JUST thinking this..that I never really got to be a baby...so that is why this would be so healing:-( MEntity: More so than you can imagine. Babylove: tears...you got another one, Michael. MEntity: We must conclude here for today. We think we have touched upon your Moving Center in ways that you might promote healthier functioning and deeper healing if you choose to do so. We wish to note that such elaborate discussions about what needs healing can leave one wondering just how broken he might be, but that is not the intent here. Each of you are in the home stretch of complete healing after a lifetime of work. Our point today is to help you see how far you have come. You are almost home. Goodbye, for now.

120M Live Session - 2013.01.24 MEntity: Hello to you, I. We are here, now. We may begin our exchange with you. Q: Hello. Please elaborate on the functions of the Moving and Higher Moving Centers, and their 7 Parts MEntity: The Moving and Higher Moving Centers, both, govern the conduction, direction, and form of energies. The Lower Center tends toward the management of Matter, while the Higher Center tends toward the management of the matrix for that matter. The Moving Center's spectrum is described as functioning between the Positive Pole of PRODUCTIVE, and the Negative Pole of FRUSTRATIVE. PRODUCTIVE is meant to describe the result of an action that is intentionally, or unexpectedly, beneficial. FRUSTRATIVE is meant to describe the results of an action that are not beneficial, despite intention or expectation. The Higher Moving Center's spectrum is described as functioning between the Positive Pole of BEAUTY, and the Negative Pole of DESIRE. BEAUTY is meant to describe the recognition of patterns, and their subsequent benefits and fulfillments. DESIRE is meant to describe the trust of impulse that generates those patterns. Lower Centers' Negative Poles can tend to be emphasized as a result of fear, but the Higher Centers' Negative Poles are merely a more focused version of the Positive Pole. They are not affected by fear, but fear can keep one from accessing the Positive Pole of that Higher Center. Negative Poles are merely a more exclusive part of something being described. For instance, DESIRE is not "negative" in the sense that it is wrong, but more that while DESIRE is a trust in impulses, it has yet to recognize the patterns that are being generated from those impulses. BEAUTY, then, is inclusive of Impulses, but knows the BEAUTY of the bigger picture, patterns, and the fulfillment and benefit of those. Fear cannot squash someone's DESIRES, but can cause them to distrust those DESIRES, turning them into longing and aching, or distorting them, or replacing them with compulsions, rather than impulses. Keep in mind that we are describing these Centers as experienced from Personality. The Moving Center manages all energy that moves through the body, which includes the energy generated by the Intellect and the Emotions. Most tend to presume that Emotions are "feelings," but in technical terms, any "feeling" one has is because of the Moving Center's translation of the energy generated by the Intellect or Emotion. It is giving form to that energy. It is conducting that energy. The Personality manages the Lower Centers, and Essence manages the Higher Centers. This means that one always has the choice as to how one "feels" about anything. It is often presumed that one cannot control or choose one's feelings, but that is wholly untrue. Feelings are no different from any other action conducted by the body. When one kicks a dog, it is not because his leg betrayed him. When one feels bad, sad, or angry, it is not because of something that has more control over you than you do. One can always choose how to direct energy that is flowing through the body. When one does not choose how to direct energy that is flowing through the body (and the life, by extension), it can lead to Frustration. When one chooses to manage the energy that flows through the body, and the life, it can lead to Productivity. Choosing how to manage feelings is not the same thing as denying them, or repressing them. Managing feelings is no different from the choices that manage any other movement. For instance, if one is in a hurry to get from one destination to the next, one does not have to do so while putting oneself and others in danger. It is not necessary to crash the car. Careful driving, regardless of the necessity for speed, is of utmost importance for reaching the destination, if you will. And so it is with feelings. One can feel angry, sad, even happy and excited, while not losing the fulfillment of intended and beneficial patterns. The key is in differentiating between ACTION and REACTION. Sadness and anger, for instance, can be directed with action, but when sadness or anger are directing you, then you are in reaction. Allowing one to have any feeling that is generated is important, but keeping those from generated reactions is important if one wishes to maintain the capacity to choose. Every feeling is information, but they are not the truth. Feelings are a form of navigation, which is managed, primarily, by the Moving and Higher Moving Centers. The Moving Center helps one to navigate through the senses, and through feelings generated by those senses. The Higher Moving Center is used by Essence for navigating larger patterns of incarnations and their matrix. The more one Manifests Essence, the more one's DESIRE is acted upon, and the more one tends to see the BEAUTY of his or her life, self, and body. In the same way that Feelings can be managed in healthier ways by discerning between Action and Reaction, one's DESIRES can be managed and directed in healthy, beneficial ways by discerning between Impulses and Compulsions. Impulses are attractions, magnetic, and inviting, whereas Compulsions are demanding, distracting, and consuming. Impulses are quieter and more easily ignored because they are inclusive of your capacity to choose. Compulsions are louder and difficult to ignore, often dismissing your capacity to choose. If one were to manage Feelings and DESIREs by discerning between Reactions/Compulsions vs Actions/Impulses, one would navigate the life with the utmost capacity for benefit and fulfilled intentions. CENTERS are our way of describing a Personality's "center of gravity." By this we mean that the Personality tends to use that Center as a means for input from the world around him or her, and tends to return to that Center, regardless of the call for the use of any other Center. PARTS are our way of describing how the input from the Center is then output back into the world. So if one is Moving Centered, Intellectual Part, he might take in the world through stimulation, senses, feeling, and actions, then organize that input through thoughts, ideas, and expression. No Center is literally divided into parts. That is merely a description of convenience. Instead, the Center and Part describe the circuit of input/output that is habitual for the Personality. The "part" is merely the output, and is processed through the actual Center that the part describes. So the Moving Center/Intellectual PART simply means that life is taken in through the Moving Center and then goes back out into the world through the Intellectual Center, itself. The Personality and Physical Body is only capable of being Centered in a Lower Center and Lower Part, but has full access to the Higher Centers and their Parts throughout the life, both intentionally and through trauma. The Personality and Body cannot sustain Centering in the Higher Centers as they cannot process that energy for any sustained length of time. This sustained centering in a Higher Center is unnecessary anyway, as they are for the functioning processes of Essence. Or rather, the ROLE in Essence. If one thinks of the Essence as having polarities described by the Personality and Role, with the Personality being the more focused and exclusive end of the spectrum of Essence, and the Role being the broader and more inclusive end of the spectrum of Essence, then you may see why the Lower Centers are for Personality to process those denser energies, and the Higher Centers are for the Role to do so. So the Lower PARTS of the Higher Center are those that of Personality, and the Higher PARTS of a Lower Center are those of Essence/Role. The Moving Center and its Parts might be described as manifesting in this way, then: Moving Center/Moving Part – pure stimulation, physical ecstasy, and extreme, consuming, and absolute pain Moving Center/Intellectual Part – Life is taken in through sensation and feelings and the body, then organized into thoughts, ideas, plans, strategy, and expression. Act/react First, then Conclude Ideas, Insights, and Reasons from those actions/reactions. Moving Center/Emotional Part – Life is taken in through sensation and feelings and the body, then used to inspire (provoke) particular interpretations, feelings, and perceptions around him or her. Act/React First, then conclude what perceptions and sentimentality one wishes to inspire in others/self Moving Center/Higher Moving Part – Life is taken in through sensation and feelings and the body, then fed directly to Essence and turned over to the greater patterns of the life. Total Trust. Moving Center/Higher Intellectual Part – Life is taken in through sensation and feelings and the body, then fed directly to Essence for sorting into the levels of Truth. Total Authenticity/Honesty. Moving Center/Higher Emotional Part – Life is taken in through sensation and feelings and the body, then delivered directly to Essence for greater context. Total Inclusion. Moving Center/Instinctive Part – navigation based in local experience, imprinting, anticipated and remembered pains and pleasures. Higher Moving Center/Higher Moving Part – Tao, the spark or pure Essence. Total Resonance. We must correct a previous statement: Higher Moving/Higher Moving are Physical/Buddhic Bodies. Higher Moving Center/Higher Intellectual Part – Causal and Mental bodies, communication with Entity and Cadre. Total Truth. Higher Moving Center/Higher Emotional Part – Astral and Buddhic bodies, processing of inspirational threads and reflections that span from fragmentation to union. Total Clarity. We must correct a previous statement: Higher Moving/Higher Emotional are Astral and Messianic Bodies. Higher Moving Center/Moving Part – manages the health of the Physical Body and its use of energy, fuel, and fulfillment of desires. Impulses are most obvious here, as well as Compulsions. This is the Part that helps to fulfill Agreements, Karma, and Monads. Higher Moving Center/Intellectual Part – manages the health of one's clarity in communication, behaviors, and expressions regarding intimacy, honesty, ethics, "morality," and discipline. This is the Part that helps to activate Agreements, Karma, and Monads. Higher Moving Center/Emotional Part – manages the health of one's clarity of perception, dreams, aspirations, visions. This is the Part that helps to magnetize and attract Agreements, Karma, and Monads. Higher Moving Center/Instinctive Part – navigation based in non-local experience, such as past lives, Essence reviews, unresolved or anticipated Karma, Monads, and Agreements. These are highly simplistic synopses of the Centers/Parts, but they help to describe the functions and basic emphasis of each combination. MEntity: Did this cover the whole of the original question, Ingun? Q: yes, I suppose so MEntity: There will always be more for us to elaborate upon, but this helps to have a starting point for more extrapolation. MEntity: Good day to you, then, I. We will conclude here. Q: good bye and thank you MEntity: Goodbye.

March 7, 2002 Troy Tolley, Channel Racism [M_Entity] Hello to all of you. We are here. We understand the topic tonight to be “Racism.” We can begin by stating that we believe Racism, as it is understood, is simply a subcategory of a larger categorical rejection of, abuse of, neglect of, or dismissal of a particular group. We believe Racism is included along with Sexism, Species-ism, and other minor “-isms” within the larger context of “Classism.” Classism exists across the board, so to speak, and is included even within the sub-groups who claim to be victims of any particular “-ism.” To understand Racism, one must first understand Classism. Classism is not particular to any Soul Age as it might be guessed to be of Young Soul origin. It is not. Classism exists even within the gentler Old Soul communities, as well. We will define Classism as “the inherent need for identity that creates the illusion of division within social constructs.” Classism in not linked to particular Soul Ages because it is actually linked to particular Overleaves, which can be used in any lifetime by any Soul Age or Essence. Classism tends to be rooted in the interesting dynamic within a society as it is defined by the predominant Centering. In nearly all cases, the Classism moves in this direction: Intellect over Emotional over Moving. Inherent within Races, there ARE certain genetic inclinations that make that particular Race more potentially Moving, Intellectual, or Emotional in Centering. Naturally, the darker the pigmentation of skin, the more inclined that Race is toward Moving. The lack of pigmentation tends an inclination toward Intellect. This is NOT a rule, but an INCLINATION. We do not say, nor do we mean to imply, that there is a rule to define Centering based on skin color. In nearly all cases of Slavery and Racism within your history, the basis has almost entirely been based in differing Centers. When Centers are the same, the Classism moves to division based next on the PART. So, even within a society of intellectually centered Caucasians, the Emotional PARTs will usually take dominance over the Moving PARTs. This seemingly “natural” hierarchy is NOT VALID, of course, but is based in the vague longing toward “perfection.” Inherent in all fragments is that “longing”, however vague or clear. This longing is from the sense of separation and the apparent struggle to rise beyond that that seems to epitomize that separation: the Physical Plane. The Physical Plane is the most “separated” you will EVER be from anything; even internally there is the greatest rift you will ever experience as the division between “you” and Essence. If there could ever be an “original sin” identified, we believe it would be more accurate to identify the unconscious misinterpretation of the Physical Plane as a trap that must be risen above. By extension, this misinterpretation has manifested in many divisive ways. ALL “-isms” are a means to gain that illusory rise above what is most symbolic of what has trapped you here. If you examine your films, literature, history, you will find that most forms of SERIOUS praise and awards are given to those of intellectual stature. Frivolous forms of praise and awards are given to the more emotional categories of entertainment, charity, and the more moving centered sports. As we said that Classism is not exclusive to any Soul Age, we CAN say that the Mature Soul Age does the greatest work in alleviating as much of this as is possible within a Sentient Species. As can be seen in your world today, more and more methods of honoring all forms of Centering are coming forth and being taken far more seriously. With all of this being said, we must make it clear that Classism IS NOT a result of Centering, but a result of Fear, or Chief Feature. This fear is simply justified through the tool of Centering. The Exalted Chief Features will almost always be the dominant oppressor over the Ordinal Chief Features, many times despite the Centering. We will continue now with your questions for us. Otherwise, this is a strong foundation for beginning to understand the dynamics behind divisions within Class, Race, Gender, etc. QUESTIONS? [sam-nemo] What is the origin of races? How did they begin? I read a story in the Urantia book. [M_Entity] The origins of races is a grand topic, but we can say that we agree that the species eventually used by what is our Sentience began approximately 8 million years ago in what is now known as East Africa. [sam-nemo] To shorten the topic, did they pop up at one time or were they affected by genetic manipulation or alien experiments? [M_Entity] The varying Races had their development in part due to nomadic movement across lands, but more due to the genetic splicing effects when our Sentience moved to this planet. To respond to your question “in short,” we believe the “genetic manipulation” had more to do with varying Races than anything. Approximately 6 million years ago, the most dramatic divisions began. This was based on the genetic splicing and the care that the “aliens” had in creating the most effective and practical genetic bodies for the varying locations seeded. [MaryBV] How much of racism is based on bad past life experiences with or as part of a culture/people? [M_Entity] We would have to say that ANTI-racism is more indicative of past life experiences with or as part of a culture/people. Racism in its truest form is based in LACK of experiences. [Val] Please expand on the word “trapped” in your explanation and Exalted chief features, what is your meaning is? [M_Entity] We meant the word “trapped” literally, as in a confining and unchosen/unwanted condition of which there is great difficulty in escaping. The Exalted Chief Features are Greed, Arrogance, and Impatience. Because “you” exist primarily as “spirit,” the confines of the Physical Plane from the very beginning are quite uncomfortable and the challenges inherent to the Physical Plane are quite a shock to Essence. This affects the lifetimes in ways that are conscious and unconscious, leading nearly all extant to seek a vague sense of “somewhere else,” or “home,” be that in another person, a career, another location, or even another life, etc. This seeking eventually finds a balance and turns into “spirituality,” and eventually, as well, you realize you have never actually left “home.” [JNelson] Why would genetics predispose certain people towards certain overleaves? [M_Entity] Overleaves ARE genetic. Personality, while affected by environment, education, conditioning, is primarily based in genetics, in the same way a Body is. There is, literally, a gene that predisposes a Personality toward Intellect, as there is also a gene that predisposes a Personality toward Moving. We remind you that we say PREDISPOSES. This is overridden or flowed with as the life unfolds and choices and reactions are experienced. The Personality, even as it is defined by our system, is a biological description. In some parallels where genetic identification and manipulation is more accurate and acceptable, Personalities can be altered or at least identified and described quite early in a child’s life. This can and will be abused, of course, but as its more practical uses are found in some parallels it is a form of healing and/or preparation for a child’s life. [JNelson] So do fragments incarnate into specific bodies simply because they’re programmed with the desired overleaves already or would the fragment reprogram the overleaves itself upon incarnation? [M_Entity] The Overleaves are chosen first, as the Soul ages, and then the closest parental genetic pool is chosen to create the body. In early incarnations, predominate Essence dynamics usually determines the body a Soul uses, based on an already-defined Personality developing. For instance, a female body is 100% Female Energy (or Creative Energy) when a Soul is not using it. An Essence with predominantly Creative Energy in its ratio will be inclined to have female bodies in their earlier lives. Later, the Essence will more consciously choose against this as a means to learn balance and other various lessons. Eventually, the Energy Ratio can be used effectively regardless of the body’s gender. Infant Souls do not discriminate their choices of bodies as they would simply rather be born as soon as possible to escape the discomfort of being dead. Eventually, as the lessons of survival teach, they learn to choose and create more and more consciously. As the Soul learns, the creation of a lifetime and a body becomes an art form. If there are no more questions, we will say good night.

OMW - Jan 15, 2011 - Doing Vs Being Channeled by Troy Tolley Michael: Hello to each of you. We are here. We will share what we can in the context of "Doing Vs Being" as Troy has titled this exchange. The emphasis in this exchange will be on your Centering, and your Part of Centering, as well as a quick assessment of yourself and your relationship to your life, and then some solutions or tools for fulfilling your intentions. First, it is to be understood that no fragment is without all Centers. There are 7 Primary Centers, which correlate to what you may know as the 7 Chakras. There are more Chakras/Centers beyond these 7, but they are not developed enough during a Physical Incarnation to be of any practical use as a tool, though they are used and active. Those Centers/Chakras beyond the 7 come into more relevant play in Higher Planes. Though Chakra and Center are interchangeable terms for the most part, we will point out that CENTER is very different in meaning than CHAKRA. A Chakra describes the vortex of energy that acts as a kind of medium, gateway, or filter for certain energies. A Center describes your "Center of Gravity," or how your particular Personality has learned to function, be balanced, and navigate through a lifetime. The correlations between Centers and Chakras and the Overleaves can get confusing for some students, but there is a consistent correlation that we will not have to get into today. As the soul ages, the emphasis over the lifetimes moves from Doing to Being. This is not an easy experience to have while in a Young-Mature World. What tends to happen for the older soul in this paradigm is an internal conflict between that Being and Doing. The internal conflict is a begrudging attitude toward the demands of DOING, while walling up, protecting, and nurturing a rather fragile and unstable sense of BEING. [Brian_W] Michael, could you briefly describe your definitions for "Being" and "Doing" to ensure we are all on the same page? Michael: Yes, we will define BEING as a state of self-acceptance, and DOING as the action that manifests/represents BEING. For many of you, there can often be a disconnect between those two qualities so that you are DOING and BEING in very separate or managed dimensions. There are four Qualities of State that every fragment must exist within while on any Plane: DOING, BEING, HAVING, and KNOWING. These correspond to the Axes. Though the focus here is between Being and Doing, we will bring Having and Knowing into the equations that we may share for insight. Before the Old Soul cycles off, it will have found a way to bring resolution to the division between Doing and Being, regardless of any environment, imprinting, society, etc. That resolution can only come from the Integrity that develops between Doing and Being. When that resolution comes, there is very little difference between Doing and Being. The first step, then, is developing the Integrity, which is simply another word for developing Honesty, or bringing in The Truth as the bridge between those two states. Two additional developments MUST be brought into the equation for bridging two Qualities of State at some point: LOVE, and BEAUTY/Energy. In other words, every Quality of State will eventually find union/bridging through Truth, Love, and Energy. And put another way: it is only through the development of Truth, Love, Energy that one can bring Integrity, Pleasure, and Harmony to what one IS, what one HAS, what one DOES, and what one KNOWS. Until there is conscious development of those building blocks of your universe, applied to the building blocks of YOU, those Qualities of State are usually imbalanced, with one or two over-emphasized while one or more neglected. Though each building block is always in effect, it will almost always be through TRUTH that one gets started. In this case of Doing VS Being, then, the first step would be in assessing with as much honesty as possible just how closely those two states are in your life. Is what you DO representative of what you ARE? Is what you ARE nurtured by what you DO? For most of our students, we would say that approximately 25% of the life that is ACTION/DOING actually represents BEING, and that the sense of BEING is starving, so to speak, because the DOING is not nurturing/feeding BEING. This does NOT mean that because you work in a factory and are an Old Soul, then you are not representing your Old Soulness, or that your interest in the latest fashion does nothing for your Old Soulness. This does NOT mean that because you meditate every morning, do yoga at night, and smile pleasantly with pretty thoughts all day that you are honestly representing your Old Soulness, either. So the key here is not in WHAT you Do, but HOW and WHY you Do. The WHAT of your Doing is inherent in the Doing, but the HOW and WHY is the color and meaning of the What. We realize we are throwing out various familiar terms in correspondences that may be confusing, so we will share that now, so you can copy it, and refer to it as we continue: BEING = Inspirational Axis = Emotional Centering = WHO DOING = Action Axis = Moving Center = WHAT HAVING = Expression Axis = Intellectual Center = HOW KNOWING = Assimilative = Neutral/Instinctive Center = WHY One does not have to be DOING the obvious or the cliche as a means to represent BEING, or to have Integrity between the two. The key is in the Honesty between the Being and Doing, which means how much of YOU is there in what you DO. Because YOU are a spectrum, or because your Being is a spectrum, "YOU" will always be in what you DO, so the question must be even more specific: how much of the True You, True Personality, is in what you DO. Here is where things get interesting. Because YOU are in everything you DO, and because the universe is built from Truth, Love, Energy, it is impossible for your Actions to betray your Being. This is not to say that your Actions represent your True Being, but that they ALWAYS represent your Being. In some way. Everything you DO is to serve BEING. This means that even the most begrudging, routine, tedious, and terrifying tasks that you take on are somehow representing some part of your Being. So the process of bringing Integrity to bridge your Being and Doing is the process of examining exactly how what you are DOING NOW represents you now, so that you know just how far you have to go in bringing resolution. The way to do this is to ask yourself: HOW and WHY DO I DO WHAT I DO? This question can be contextualized so that you ask this in the various contexts of your life. HOW do I do my job? WHY do I do my job? HOW do I manage this relationship? WHY am I in this relationship? Or to keep the wording consistent: HOW do I do this relationship? Why do I do this relationship? This questioning can extend into areas that seem to lack Doing, as well: HOW do I NOT do a relationship? WHY do I NOT do a relationship? Asking the HOW and the WHY of your DOING gives you feedback as to where you are with yourself, and thus gives you some indication as to your current sense of BEING. To start this line of questioning, we would suggest looking at the most problematic and the most pleasant ends of your life. Before we move on, we will open the floor to discussion about what we have shared so far, starting with a question to each of you about how his line of questioning might work for you. There is no need for a queue. *****FLOOR OPEN****** [Geraldine] I'm in a fairly content and balanced state right now -- my doing is in balance with my being to a large extent -- I was much more chaotic when younger. I feel that I'm comfortable in my Old Soul late years post-5th IM. Michael: GERALDINE- we would agree with your assessment. The areas where your Doing and Being remain incongruent are specific to when your Doing is Reactionary, rather than Responsive. One way of understanding DOING as a spectrum can be through polarities of RESPONSE/ACTION vs IRRESPONSIBLE/REACTION. [Brian_W] Michael, I wanted to ask questions on how do I study for my important exam, how do I get into a relationship with a young woman that has recently caught my attention, why am I too generous with time and money, but I think the root of it comes down to: "Why don't I have sustained self-confidence in myself and my abilities?" [Brian_W] Instead of asking "how can I piece my family back together," perhaps I should be asking "why do I feel it is my personal responsibility to piece my family back together, when it seems the others only want to fight" Michael: BRIAN - asking the specific questions of DOING when asking your question will help bring some clarity. For instance: "HOW do I help heal my family?" and "WHY do I help heal my family?" This would help reveal insights that can help you then to make decisions reflective of your True Being. [Brian_W] and for my upcoming exam? Michael: Start with the question that might reveal the most insight. In this, it might be the WHY. [Brian_W] why do I procrastinate and allow myself to become distracted... Michael: Brian, we will suggest the means for your own lines of questioning, using an example, but it would be your responsibility to continue that questioning into other areas. If our example is not clear, we will help to clarify, but we cannot and will not do the extended work, of course. [Brian_W] ok [Diane_H] Brian, the bigger question might be: "why are you taking this class?" Michael: Asking yourself "HOW do I study for an upcoming exam?" and "WHY do I study for an upcoming exam?" can shed light on the Integrity there may be, not be, between your Doing and Being. And then you would recalibrate your choices and actions from there. Your first line of questioning would be in the questioning of the HOW and WHY of NOW. [Brian_W] Diane, that one I believe at least began with what Michael has referred to as "the search," and I will have to ask for later clarification on that, as it is true, but I often feel like I'm trying to search for an unknown object in the dark. I know it exists, but nothing else of it Michael: BACK TO BRIAN - the rest of your questions can be addressed in the same way: HOW do I get into a relationship with a woman? WHY do I get into a relationship with a woman? Both being asked in the context of NOW. [Brian_W] Could you explain what you mean by "the context of NOW?" Michael: This would reveal your motivations and your methods, so that you may then alter them to be more reflective of your True Being. "The context of NOW" would be literal. NOW. [Brian_W] oh, okay Michael: In the case of your seeking a relationship to a woman that you do not already have a relationship with, you would be asking of your NOW in the sense of your what your experiences have been up to NOW. HOW do I get into a relationship with a woman is asked not as an instructional question, but as an assessment. As in: how have I got into relationships, up to now? Why have I got into relationships, up to now? Or to keep the wording consistent: how do I get into relationships, up to now? etc. HOW and WHY do I get into relationships? [Brian_W] the HOW is a very good question, the WHY, ... thankfully the answer to that is starting to shift Michael: Let this first line of questioning be revealing and insightful before the more instructional questioning. [Brian_W] ok, thank you Michael Michael: In your case, it might be that the HOW and the WHY might be answered as "HOW I do relationships is eagerly," and "WHY I do relationships is because I want to feel special, loved, and important." Of course, you may have your own responses, but if these were your responses, then you would want to ask if those are honestly reflective of your BEING. The honesty here is VITAL. We cannot emphasize this enough. [Brian_W] Does it all tie back into my self-dep and self-confidence issues? It seems to be the one thing that I am hearing almost screaming into my ears on this one Michael: And by honesty here, we mean that if the answer is YES to the question, then that is not a bad or wrong answer, even if you wish it were not true. If the answer is "YES, I own the fact that my Being right now is eager to be loved, wanted, special, and important to someone, anyone," then that is far more Integrity than the denying of that. And this is key. For every one of you. By HONEST, by INTEGRITY, we do not mean wishful thinking, or idealizing your responses. In this case for you, Brian, if the honest answer were yes to the question of integrity, then you have brought yourself to a state of self-acceptance that transforms your BEING toward a wholeness that would never come from your denying your current state of being. That Integrity then carries forth into your Doing, and the very act of your accepting those current qualities in the self helps to alleviate your emphasis on someone else having to do that work of accepting you, because you now have the foundation. We think we have responded enough to help bring some insight to the questions you may ask of yourself, and will move on to respond to others. [Brian_W] thank you [Diane_H] I ask myself "why" all the time about the big picture stuff (like why do I want to have a healing practice), but when I look at it, there are many smaller things I do in fear mode. And the "how" of what I'm doing seems to be more confused than anything else. I waver between expressing and hiding. Michael: DIANE - we would say that the fearful undertones to some of your actions within your fulfilling more of your Being are because of some of the lesser-beautiful motivations that you have not fully embraced. And this goes back to what we just shared with Brian: that your answers do not have to be beautiful, noble, or glamorous; they need only be honest. "WHY do I have a healing practice" might actually include the response, "because I am more important than I was led to believe I am, and I want to share that importance in a way that proves it." We SUGGEST our responses to prompt your own, but we are not doing the work for any of you. We say this so that you do not presume we are reading something concrete to you. These are merely suggestions; relevant, but not conclusive. [Diane_H] Wow, ok [Diane_H] I was thinking of embracing the fact that I want to be self-sufficient, ie. make money doing it. Michael: What happens when one does not include the lesser-beautiful aspects of honesty is that those remain like cracks in the foundation of our fulfillments. They will constantly need tending, covering, repair, and monitoring, and this can be exhausting. [Diane_H] I hear ya Michael: Yes, Diane, and the lesser-beautiful parts of your honesty in the WHY can help in securing the HOW. For instance, if one wants to use one's healing skills as a means of self-sufficiency, but one has not embraced the lesser-beautiful motivations behind the intention, then that degree of instability is built into the foundation of fulfillment. So the foundation of fulfillment, or the DOING, will be reflective of the BEING AS IT IS. [Diane_H] Way to poke holes in my Arrogance, I like it. Michael: Keep in mind that the lesser-beautiful is alongside the beautiful. To embrace either to the exclusion of the other would be to build upon shaky foundations. So to return to DIANE specifically, it is not that your only motivation is of lesser-beauty, but that it is fair and honest to own every part of your motivation. [Diane_H] So is it accurate to say that whatever we'd like to do, accepting our "higher" or "lower" intentions is the key to fulfillment, and doing it regardless of what imprinting, society, outside forces say otherwise? Michael: Diane, you have just described the difference between True Peace, and True Defense. If your life is motivated by "in spite of," or "despite," or "regardless of," etc, then your motivation is laced with defense. However, the key to the peace is in allowing that, letting that simply be a part of the equation, not something to rise above and escape or make up for. [Diane_H] Ah, ok Michael: TO ALL OF YOU: In short, NO PERSONALITY or ESSENCE has completely noble reasons for what to DO. EVER. [AnnH] lol!! [Diane_H] :) [Martha3] for sure! [Brian_W] hehe, ah, blind idealism for the fail [AnnH] (this realist has always suspected that) [Martha3] I know that is true for me [Geraldine] Well, I know we have "what's in it for me" beneath everything -- didn't realize Essence was similar :) Michael: By "noble," we mean that there is no such thing as selflessness, sacrifice, or any other of the positive poles of the Chief Features, which are held as indicators that one is somehow "higher" in intentions. We can say this because, as we have said in many instances regarding the nature of "higher" and "positive," that the higher or more positive the pole or intention, the greater its capacity for including the lower and negative. [Diane_H] Interesting Michael: The lower or more negative, the more investment in exclusive, conclusive, and/or elusive. Higher is a sphere, where as Lower is a bowl. [Martha3] I like that, good image for understanding Michael: If you can see positive/higher, and lower/negative in those terms, it can help you to see how the movement through life is either a constant emphasis on the fear not to spill what one has put in the bowl, or the confidence in the embrace of whatever is collected and homogenized in the sphere. [Geraldine] Life is a blender [Maureen] :) [Maureen] ribitt [AnnH] This is ringing a lot of bells! [Martha3] yep Michael: Even the Transcendental and Infinite in your history found their way toward representing their Entity or Tao by embracing the totality of their Being and Doing, and building upon that, not in spite of, because of, regardless of, or despite. The one who is referred to as Buddha built upon his ignorance and naivety, his sheltered and privileged life, using it as a means of contrast and choice, rather than as a showcase for shame and guilt as fuel. So, Diane, if you look to the darker motivations of your intent for providing healing, you would find more room for light in your progress, if you will. [Diane_H] Got it, thank you. Michael: This would resolve your divide between expressing and hiding, because you will not have shame or pride to hide. [AnnH] I am content with my finances and security. My intent is to finish my novel this year, but where I have conflict is WHY I do do (I think). I'm conflicted between doing because I choose to and for my job. Being judged. Also problems with the HOW. (I am also content with how I'm approaching losing weight) Michael: ANN - we think that you have gained insight from the responses to others, but we can say some things to you directly regarding your comments. First, the HOW of your writing your novel is not a mystery: you simply must DO it. It is the WHY that holds you back. Asking the question of WHY in the Now, even if speculative, is insightful. "WHY do I write this novel?" may help you to not only focus the content of the novel, but give you satisfaction in the fulfillment. This WHY has many answers, and it is from those answers that you can either stand them all together, or choose one that feels the most motivating. Your WHY has answers that we can suggest as: "Because I can." or "Because I want to." or "Because it would be the most personal and meaningful representation of my doing something that is entirely for and from myself." We think there is insight in the last suggestion. [AnnH] yes Michael: For the most part, many of your WHYs of life have been answers like "because I have to," or "because I need to," or "because I'm expected to," or "just because," or any other number of responses that leave your part of the equation as the most passive part. Writing your novel would be the single, most representative DOING that reflects everything about your BEING that you know is true of you, and the most proactive, active part of an equation you may ever have felt. The fears that undermine your actions are related to the fears of what you may find out about yourself in the process, but those fears are natural and only seeking to protect you from activating an equation that contradicts every other equation that has worked "just fine" for you. [AnnH] When I read that I keep thinking, ah, finally, then I'll be left alone Michael: Ann, that is insightful: it means that part of your Integrity would include the honesty that you are motivated, in part, by the craving to escape the confines of routine and authority that does not support your Being. Or rather, your sense of True Being. Of course, it DOES already support your Being, but only a part of it. For you, Ann, you are the only reason you would not finish your novel, and you are the only reason it will be finished. This is a terrifying process of owning your life in a way that means it is ALL UP TO YOU. And however resentful of your routines you may have come to be, they reflect the part of your Being that does not mind others being available for blame and cause. [AnnH] ouch, yes Michael: Owning that, first, is the acceptance of that darker part of the Being that is there, so that you can get on with the business of being more than that. [Bobbbi3] Much of what I enjoy DOING for myself might appear to be escapist to some. And DOING for others is still rewarding after all these years. [Bobbbi3] Rephrasing: Why do I find so much pleasure in escapism (sleep, dvd's, tv, novels) and also in DOING for others? Michael: BOBBI - you have worked hard to embrace the darker aspects of your motivations and your Being over time, and the very same things that worked to fulfill your need for escapism are now the very things that fulfill your more adventurous, exploratory, and curious self that was always there. [Bobbbi3] How so? Michael: You moved through a state of honesty with the self that has brought integrity to your choices, so that now, for the most part, if you choose these "escapist" activities or non-activities, you choose them because you want to, not because you need to. [Bobbbi3] They seem to bring True Peace. Michael: There is a fine line between ESCAPISM and TRUE REST, or Healing. [Bobbbi3] And much joy! [Bobbbi3] Thank you so much! [Bobbbi3] And I have retired, after all... Michael: The only reason they were seen as "escape" in the past is because you had the impression that you should be making up for the time and space you use up by being alive, so any time time not dedicated to that was seen as guilty escape from the responsibility of proving your value to the world. [Bobbbi3] much imprinting/conditioning Michael: There came a revelation at one point, and one that is still being embraced, that you HAVE A RIGHT to BE, just as much as any other, and that there are no conditions or standards against which any person needs to prove himself or herself in order to enjoy that right. [Bobbbi3] I finally got that from your teachings! [Bobbbi3] Knowing I have a place in an entity in a cadre...I AM! Michael: The same could be said for your DOING for others. In the past, this may have been motivated by your need to make up for your being alive at all, but now it is because it just feels good. It is okay to care enough for others because you want to, not because you need to, and this has translated into even greater care for yourself along the way. [Bobbbi3] Many thanks. Michael: You have a place wherever you are, regardless of any non-physical, intangible place beyond this life. You belong where you are, because you are there. You belong where you wish to be or go, because you want to or need to. There is never a context in which one does not belong, if one is there. BELONG does not translate into SUPPOSED TO BE, however. [Bobbbi3] I see. Michael: For example, to say that a child in an abusive household belongs there does not mean he is supposed to be there. It simply means that, wherever one is, one IS. You are never alone, because YOU are there, and you belong to you before any other context, which translates into the RIGHT TO BE. There is a reason our universe is so fragmented from TAO all the way down to the various sub-personalities of Personality, and of Personalities to Essence, and Essences to Entity to Cadre to Energy Ring, etc. Because there is never a dimension beyond Tao wherein one is alone. The most-isolated fragment on the planet still has "himself," whether that be a sense of division within the self, or a sense of self and Essence. The craving for wholeness comes from that vast fragmentation, and the embrace of your dimensions, or fragments, is the process. The process of return to TAO. [Bobbbi3] Alone is the worst feeling. Michael: Alone is a natural feeling. Loneliness, however, is a distortion of Aloneness. Aloneness is a part of every fragment's evolution, however, loneliness is not necessary. To return to our simplified imagery, Aloneness is the sphere; Loneliness is the Bowl. [Bobbbi3] Right! Michael: No fragment can get to know himself without Aloneness. Aloneness is the opportunity to like yourself, care for yourself, be yourself, etc. Loneliness is the rejection of that opportunity. [Bobbbi3] I really do see that. [Bobbbi3] Now. [Bobbbi3] 8) [Martha3] My intent is to finish my screenplay, with the goal of being able to leave my corporate job, and I am concentrating on being myself as much as is feasible in a corp setting. Problem areas are in getting my teenager to handle her responsibilities without having to fight over it. She wears me out Michael: MARTHA - your comments prompt us to remind you that your intentions are greatly motivated by a fantasy solution to many problems. [Martha3] :) Michael: The fact that you know this is Good Work. [Martha3] Prince Charming isn't coming with a winning lottery ticket? Michael: What you do with what you know is important, however, so it is helpful for you to occasionally check yourself in terms of how much pressure you are putting on your creative efforts to be your "ticket out." Knowing that this is part of your motivation is healthy, but to forget that you are also doing this because it is simply what you love to do may undermine your energy and efforts. [Martha3] good point Michael: The same could be said for nearly every other demand upon your energy: you do most of it because you love. That is not the same thing as "love to do it," but because you LOVE. Your exasperating and exhausting time with your child is fair to describe as something you do not love to do, but that you do because you love. [Martha3] yes Michael: This is one of those finer examples of the lesser-beautiful and beautiful being embraced, rather than one or the other defining the DOING. Your BEING is reflected in your DOING, and the WHY of your Doing is because you LOVE, or try to love. This is often forgotten. [Martha3] not sure I completely understand what you are saying Michael: Though we see you have moments of sudden, emotional clarity that bring tears to how much you do love the ingredients of your life, even as you work hard to move them into higher ideals. As we said for each of you, your DOING either REFLECTS YOUR BEING, or your BEING is manifested in your DOING. As one grows in consciousness, the Doing moves from reflection of a part of your Being, and into manifestation of your True Being. So when we said that your Being is reflected in your Doing, we mean to point out that what you do is reflecting your Love, and knowing this is important to your then moving toward wholeness. That wholeness would be the acceptance that what you do (that you do not want to do) is reflecting your capacity to love, so that when you then do what you love, such as your screenwriting, you are fully present, instead of thinking it is only to escape what you (think you) do not want to do. [Martha3] I understand [Maureen] I think I'm 'kinda' where Geraldine is at - sort of - I have some days that are better than others - but generally I am so much better than I used to be at Doing and Being that it is hard to know what I could specifically be changed. Michael: MAUREEN, we would agree with your assessment. One of the last areas for you to let into the wholeness is the tendency toward self-consciousness, or self-monitoring. Sometimes this takes you away from the experiential and into a kind of autopiloting. A heightened awareness without a complete connection to the vehicle, much like driving from point A to point BE, but not remembering the trip. That was a typo, and not a clever pun on our part, by the way, but it works. [Maureen] :) Michael: But this is minimal, Maureen, and we mention it only for the sake of suggestion. [Maureen1] How do I move away from 'auto-pilot'? Michael: MAUREEN, by embracing it. There is no other way. By this we mean that you first know that it is happening when it is happening, and then decide from there whether it is something necessary for concern. Using the analogy of driving from point a to point b, was it really necessary to see the view along the way? Did you arrive safely? Did you tend to anything along the way that was important, such as avoiding a crash or taking the correct turns? Realizing when you are on auto-pilot is one thing, but then you can decide whether it is necessary to be present, or if it is okay to tune out to other dimensions along the way. It is not the autopilot that is the dividing factor, but the self-consciousness that might come from it. The self-consciousness can move to self-awareness when the conscious decision as to whether you want or need to be present is then made. Sometimes your presence is important and you will not want to afford a self-consciousness, and other times your presence can be fragmented into various tasks. Letting that become your choice is the step toward wholeness. [Geraldine] Inserting this for AFTER Maureen. First, I do not see a question posted by Nicholas aka baby-love. And, then as a final question, I would like to ask on behalf of Troy if there is anything you might offer him in terms of his doing versus being with regards to his underlying issues that might be causing his scheduling problems. Any comments that might help him with his intention to get on track and stay on track. Michael: GERALDINE, we think an entire session is in store for dedication to Troy's questions, and questions for Troy, so he will schedule this with you where we can then focus on the issues of interest. [Geraldine] Thank you Michael: Before we move on, what would Nicholas like to say? [baby-love] I am fairly content w/ the areas of my life right now in terms of BEING and DOING...as I am moving through my 4IM, I find that I am re-discovering my BEING and what DOINGS support my new clarity [baby-love] My intention this year is to move to San Diego...the WHY of it, is to be nearer to my ET, Viktor and the ocean:-) [baby-love] I guess I don't have a question other than what tools do you suggest can help me to continue lessening the gap between my BEING and DOING? Michael: NICHOLAS, the WHY of your intention also includes "because I deserve this." The concept of DESERVE is important here because this is another example of RIGHTS. [baby-love] and I want it! "I have a right to live wherever, with whomever, and however I choose and want." Michael: This is because so much of your life, up to the point of your dive into the 4th Internal Monad, was spent guided by SHOULDS, and now you are guided by COULDS. [baby-love] yes, indeed! [Brian_W] so its okay to admit selfishness and wanting something, as long as we keep in mind that getting it is another story? Michael: BRIAN, it is always "okay" to admit to selfishness, but we point out that while there is never an act that purely selfless, it is not always selfish. Selfish and lack of Selflessness are not the same thing. Selfish, in this context, would be a state that might include "regardless of; in spite of; despite;" etc, whereas lack of selflessness simply means that it is okay to admit that it makes you feel good, that you want it, that you gain by doing it, etc. It is "okay" to admit all of that. Admitting that your most selfless of acts actually feel good and that is why you do it, or admitting that you are partially-motivated by a kind of defiance, are all Good Work. Often, there may even be a mix. TO CONTINUE ON. And to work toward concluding our time with you: As you can see, each of you would do well to examine whether you are inclusive of both the darker and lighter, less-beautiful and beautiful, of your intentions. Some of you have emphasized the beautiful and have dismissed or did not realize the value in embracing the less-beautiful. Some of you have emphasized the less-beautiful and did not think you had a right to include the more beautiful, or the lightness of your intentions. So keeping an eye to your intentions in terms of the whole of their motivations can help you to free up energy for fulfillment of those intentions. In terms of CENTERING, your habitual Centering and PART of CENTER can give you clues as to why you have your intentions in the first place: Every Center corresponds to a BASIC RIGHT of PERSONALITY and ESSENCE. The three Lower Centers tend to be of those that an individual will develop habitual uses. Even when one uses a Higher Center, it can never be the habitual Center. The Higher Centers are not designed to be Centers of Gravity for the functions of the body and personality, but only to be *experienced* by the body and personality. Tears, Pleasure, and Laughter are physical manifestations of the Higher Centers. Imagine life lived in tears, pure pleasure, and constant laughter. In theory, this sounds delightful; in reality, that person is "crazy." Therefore, we will point to the Lower Centers as a helpful insight into your motivations. Your PRIMARY CENTERING describes the RIGHT that you most-easily SUSTAIN, which means that even without effort, you work to sustain that Right. Your PART of CENTERING describes the RIGHT that you most seek to fight for, to defend, to clarify, and this usually takes effort, or is often challenged. The Center that is least-used is one that you NEED the most, as in, you often forget that this is a Right that is missing in your life, needs attention, etc. EMOTIONAL CENTERING = your RIGHT to LOVE and BE LOVED. INTELLECTUAL CENTERING = your RIGHT to SPEAK or HEAR the TRUTH. MOVING CENTERING = your RIGHT to CHOOSE, or your RIGHT to BE FREE, to take action, or do what you want to do. Looking to your own Centering then can lend insight into your motivations, consciously or subconsciously. For instance, one who is Emotionally-Centered, Intellectual Part, might be one who naturally Loves, finds it easy to love, and accepts that she is motivated by desires to love and be loved. It is a given that this is an important part of life, a Right. The Intellectual Part would indicate that this fragment may find herself in positions where speaking up, saying the truth, sharing the truth, her truth, or being honest, is often challenged, an "issue," a Right that must often be stood up for. It would also indicate that this is an area of necessary refinement so that her truth can be heard, and not just something shouted into the world, or imposed, in contrast to some whose are hidden and unspoken. What this fragment, then, might find as a missing key, or a Right that is not practiced, and often forgotten, is the Right to Choose, to Do, to take Action, to be Free. Looking to the PART can give insight into your motivations, and looking to the neglected Centering can give insights into what key might be brought into the equation for fulfillment of your intentions. For instance, this person would forget that her secret resource is in her DOING at all. That she must DO what she wants to do, in order to practice her Right to Freedom, instead of getting caught up in the battle for only protecting her Right to Speak/Hear The Truth. Do each of you understand and find relevance to your Centering? [Maureen1] Yes :) [AnnH] Yessir. Michael: Keep in mind that these are indications of your habits, not something static, and these may change over time, or in certain contexts. [Geraldine] Yes (but I'm Emotional/Intellectual; so I got a bigger explanation) [Diane_H] yep [Bobbbi3] yes [baby-love] yep, absolutely! [Geraldine] Martha is away for a moment Michael: To conclude our little group tonight, we will synopsize: ONE) clarify your intentions TWO) own the whole of your motivations for those intentions, including the darker elements that may not seem fair or "good." They are important parts that, if ignored, may be your undoing. THREE) What you do ALWAYS reflects at least a part of your BEING, but when you choose what to do, you manifest your True Being. FOUR) Understanding the WHY and HOW of your doing can lend insight into the wholeness of your motivations, and then you can embrace that, or alter it. FIVE) Your habitual Centering, Part of Centering, and neglected Centering (or an easier terminology would be your Primary, Secondary, and Tertiary Centering) give great insight, not only into your Intentions, but into your basic motivations for every action. SIX) your Being and Doing do not have to be exclusive Quality of States, but brought into harmony to widen your playground of life. And, eventually, they will be. We know there is much more we could discuss in the context of this topic, but we think this is plenty of food for thought, or for doing, and this is a start. Good evening to each of you. We will conclude here. Goodbye.

NYC Michael Speaks LIVE: Freedom from Life Traps May 14, 2011 Note from Janet: This is the transcription (by Elaine) of the live session from video. MEntity: Ok, We can begin now, and hello to each of you. We understand the topic to be a broader context of healing for the life in terms of cumulative effects of wounding over a period of time within the lifetime. We realize that Troy's idea is not quite clarified, so we will build on that as best we can, and share what we think might be helpful relative to the intent of this idea. So first we will say that there is a concept that could be described as a trap, but also described as weight, an anchor, a vortex, emptiness, and so forth, that describes the experience of your life in some way being held back to a degree that you have become aware of this. Some people have these same traps or anchors, or holes or emptiness, that do the same thing. It holds them back, but they are not aware of it and it does not matter to them, and these fragments can function in their lives in a way that is acceptable to them. But for some, who are either self-aware enough or sensitive enough, there is awareness that something is wrong, and by wrong we mean by your standards, and that is why those who have the same conditions that we will talk about today could function and be happy and fulfilled even though they have these same conditions as another person who has become aware of these conditions and feels the necessity for healing it. It is up to you how you deal with those conditions. So when we say that you know something is wrong, we mean that in the most relative and subjective sense possible. On your terms something is wrong. Something is holding you back. In our system of Overleaves we describe centers that help you understand your navigational process through a lifetime. On the most mundane of levels these are the Intellectual, Emotional and Moving centers. By the age of 3, most of you have decided which one of these centers is the most comfortable for your body, for your patterns of choice, for your intentions and so forth, and you will have that centering: Emotional Centering, Intellectual Centering or Moving Centering. This of course is flexible and can change all the time and at any point become replaced by new habits that you implement, but for the most part most personalities tend towards a centering that becomes habitual. This is relevant because as you progress through the lifetime you will develop preferences for your centering, not only primary centering, but a secondary centering, which is often what is described as the part of the centering. The third centering is the most neglected and/or the resolving center that helps to bring balance to the other two that are more habitually used. The goal for those of you who are self-aware enough is to use the centerings appropriately and at will, and consciously so that if you are in a situation that requires intellectual centering, then that is what you can pull up, if you are in a situation that is emotionally centered, then you are able to use that and if action is required then you can use that. All of this is relevant to the concept of healing your life, or freeing yourself from the traps that have developed over a period of time. You tend to try to solve your problems and issues and cumulative effects of wounding, using the most familiar and preferable combination of centering, and what you will end up doing is creating a trap, and that is why that term is relevant in regards to this topic. You will find yourself cycling through two components of your centering in a way that keeps that part of your life stuck and unchanging, becoming a form of weight, or vortex, emptiness, loneliness, unfulfilled intentions and dreams and so on, blocked creativity. What we are talking about today is the chronic aspects of these, not something short term. Are you aware of that sense of a trap that feels like it is holding you back, or blocking a sense of being fully alive, currently in your life now? It is not uncommon and certainly is not unsolvable. First we will point out that your primary centering is how you take in life. The part of your centering is how you put it back out there, and the tertiary centering is how you bring balance to those two — the center and the part — or break the pattern that has become a trap. A very simplistic example would be someone who is Emotionally Centered navigating life through feelings, and directions that pull them towards inspiration, often using perception as the means for navigating the life. Because the emotions do not require logic, they simply require a developing internal trust of Perception, which is the positive pole of the emotional centering. And so this individual would navigate life based on feelings. If it feels right, that person would go in that direction; if it feels wrong, that person may question. And if they are Emotionally Centered with an Intellectual Part, this means that this person would navigate life based on their feelings and then express those feelings because of the Intellectual Part. So this individual would like to talk about these feelings, and find a way to share those feelings and basically create a construct for those feelings. Often using the positive pole of the Intellectual Centering would develop insights based on those feelings, because the positive pole of the Intellectual Center is Insight. And so they are able to make sense of their feelings and then possibly do something with that, by pulling in the Moving Center. Although the centers that we describe correlate quite nicely with the chakra system, we do use the terminology in a different way that the chakra system describes. We describe your centering based on the concept of “center of gravity”. So for those who have Emotional Centering, that is their center of gravity. This can translate into the chakra system, but we want to make it clear that they are not necessarily [interchangeable], in terms of these concepts and terminology. Going back to our example of an Emotionally Centered personality, this individual is going to navigate life through feelings. So this person will feel and then think with the Intellectual Part. So as trauma happens and wounding occurs, it happens first to the emotions and then it has to go through the thinking process or through the thoughts, through the intellect. If insight is not accomplished, then it falls into the negative pole of Reasoning. The experience will often cycle back through the emotions generating new feelings in response to the thoughts that just occurred, which then must pass back through the thought process, and what happens in that case, is a vortex is created, or a loop is created, that we call a trap. Those experiences that you take on as wounding take on in a cumulative effect that becomes what we will describe as your life traps. To differentiate from the centering traps, we'll call it the Life Trap. This person will keep trying to solve the situation by feeling it out, thinking it through, feeling it out, thinking it through, feeling it out, thinking it through, and so on, until it becomes a weight much like the process of generating a pearl within a clam, except this is not as beautiful to each of you. Understanding the origins of what is causing the effects of the Life Trap is not as necessary as what you do in response to that now. In other words it is not necessary to go back and work through or understand or feel out or correct anything obvious or tangible at this point, at the first step. The first would be to free yourself from the effects of that Life Trap. That would be the first step. Often it is the only step necessary because once you have freed yourself from being locked into that Life Trap, it often loses all significance whatsoever, consciously or subconsciously. The way to free yourself from that is to break the pattern that you are using in dealing with it. So the person who has a Life Trap that has been developed from trying to deal with wounding by having feelings about it, trying to make sense of it, which causes more feelings which causes more confusion and so forth, this individual would want to emphasize tremendously the Moving Center, which has been left out of the process. Those of you who are Intellectually Centered Emotional Part, or Emotionally Centered Intellectual Part, probably can attest to the fact that there is very little action that you take to break the cycle of your emotions and your thoughts in regards to what you feel is holding back your life. Would you agree? If you know your center? The same would apply to those who are Intellectually Centered Moving Part or Moving Centered Intellectual Part. That the allowance of feelings and the exploration of feelings and the embrace of inspiration, which is where the emotions and Inspirational Axis are tied together, would be a common neglected area of the life that might be obvious to a person with that centering combination. We realize that this sounds quite simplistic, to say that whatever centering of the three lower centers is neglected is the solution, but it truly is that simple. For an individual whose life feels as if it is blocked who is Emotionally Centered Intellectual Part, more action is necessary in that life to break that cycle and to free that individual from the effects of the Life Trap. Nothing else is required. For the individual who has neglected the Emotional Centering, allowing feelings, allowing affection, allowing anything that related to trusting and perception, would break the cycle. The emphasis on the neglected centering would be proportional to the weight of the Life Trap. So while someone who has neglected the Emotional Center could allow the experience of being hugged to be felt, it would not change the life in that moment. But in the same way that the Life Trap became a Life Trap through cumulative insults and wounding, so would the resolution come in cumulative effects. However it does not take as long as the Life Trap took to develop. It can be changed depending on the commitment and the awareness of the emphasis of the neglected center. Question: So if, using your example, Emotional Center Intellectual Part, having to use the Moving Center, is it in general or does it have to be specific to what your trap is? Moving is moving? MEntity: We would say it has to be the positive pole, so in terms of a neglected Moving Center, you would not want to move to just move in terms of the negative pole of being frenetic or in some cases frustrated. Frustration and frenetic behavior are results of an imbalanced Moving Center. So having random fidgeting, or restlessness, or sexcapades, or masturbation, or simply running errands and so forth, does not bring the resolve that is necessary. You would want to be in the positive pole, which is Productivity. In other words, the actions would show results. The actions that you are taking bring about some sort of result that you intended. And that is our definition of productivity, in that the results that you intended you achieve. Question: Unclear MEntity: Which is where we think we were headed in the elaboration on the difference between the positive and negative poles: the productivity does not necessarily in the beginning relate to something from your past that has caused, or that you feel is at the core of, your Life Trap. At the beginning it is simply doing something that provides positive results for you. However in the process of bringing that centering some emphasis and activity: for instance, simply working out, so that at least something in your life that you feel could benefit from action begins to show results. The ideas and the awareness of more specific actions that might be more connected to the Life Trap could come to the surface and to your awareness, and then end up making more of an impact. But at first it is simply making the effort to focus your actions in a way that brings intended results. The details will come later. Does this answer the question? Audience: Yes thank you Question: (UNCLEAR) — unrelated and left out MEntity: If you know your centering, what do you know has been neglected, and do you have questions about how to emphasize it or how it might show up etc.? Question: (Unclear) about lack of action and why one would not take action? (Why it is neglected?) MEntity: It is not so strange; it is daunting. If there were a structure involved which you can insert your ideas into, your productivity would be more obvious and more immediate. But for many creative fragments often the actual tangible results of that creativity is lost when the structure is not provided. Structure comes easily to Artisans, but to Sages it is a little bit more complicated and difficult. Artisans naturally develop a structure that can become a path to tangibility of the creative process, but for Sages it is a little different, and the structure often has to come from external sources. For any Sage who feels blocked in his or her creativity or in his productivity, it is often that one key element that is left out: the necessity for providing structure. Once in the framework of a structure then you are free to develop a path to tangible results. So you would use that as your first step, seeking resources for the structure, instead of being the one responsible for developing that structure. You might find results come much more quickly and easily. Question: But he is very good at structuring all the other little details in his life MEntity: Those are compensatory structures, to make up for the lack in the area that is not being fulfilled. Question: Yeah I know, but I am saying if he can structure all of these other little doodads… it would seem like he should be able to structure.... MEntity: Compulsive structuring is quite different from creative structuring Audience: Oh Good Point MEntity: One is a form of protection and one is a form of creativity, and the realm of creativity is vastly unknown. The realm of compulsive structuring is vastly familiar, and it is very easy to move in that direction for comfort and security, to compensate for the sadness or the lack of fulfillment in the unstructured creative realms. Does this make sense to you? Question: It makes sense but I am not exactly sure what an outside source of structure is MEntity: This could show up in many different ways: having a friend work with you so there is accountability, having someone who could volunteer the time and the energy to manage your ideas, and help put them into an outlined structure. In other words, asking for help would be the first step, and that help would be from someone who is experienced in doing what you have already done, or rather doing what you intend to do. This could come in a form of asking a person or simply doing the research and seeing if there are already, for instance, programs online that might help to bring that structure for you. But for the most part, Sages require accountability and in the process of having someone to report to, who is also privy to the structure required, productivity can soar. We cannot provide the solution for you as to where that resource is but we can suggest to you that it is a step towards using the action required to break free from that Life Trap. You understand? Question: Yeah, it is something I have thought many times. I wish that I only had someone to help me and then the other part of my inner dialogue says, “Why do you need to have someone to help? Everyone else does it on their own.” I just always had this feeling that if there was someone to help me, I would Just Soar. That is how I felt. MEntity: There is actually no better word. That would be what would occur. In part of the cumulative effect of that trap is the lie that you must do it alone, and convincing yourself that others have done it alone. More often than not, they did not. Even if incremental steps of a successful creative person were done on their own, then eventually other people had to become involved. And depending on the individual, the point at which people are necessary, or that structure or whatever might be necessary for that individual, is relative to that individual. And in your case, it would be helpful from the very start. Any other questions? Question: I have a question about Moving Part of the Intellectual Center. I never really did grasp what it meant not to use Emotional Center, as I don't feel that I am without feelings. I don't really see how it is applied in certain situations. MEntity: All of your centers are present and all of them are active to some degree. Some of them more restricted and in the negative poles and some of them more towards the positive poles and freer flowing of the energy relative to that centering. And in your case, you have continually, from what we can see, moved towards a greater capacity towards the positive poles of your centers, but the Life Trap would have come from frustration and annoyance, not only with others but with yourself, because of that Intellectual Center Moving Part trap. You would have developed many reasons for your experiences, and as you navigate it is based on reasons. And then the Moving Part would be bringing it back out into the world in forms of frenetic activity, doing just to be doing, or even frustration. Often this can also show up as rage and anger, which then of course can flip and become depression and defeat. It is not that you don't feel, but with this cycle being your trap, it is going to keep the emotions in a state of sentimentality, so that you blurred the line between symbols and meaning. That is how we describe the negative pole of the Emotions; that you have lost the differentiation between symbolism and meaning, so that if you are not showing up in a way that you feel you should be, that means something about you. If others do not show up the way that you expect them to show up, that means something about them. Or there may be attachments to figures in your life from the past that you feel have impacted you in some way. That if these individuals had not been that way, or were not that way or are not that way, then you may be clear. We could come up with many examples but we will leave it to you to find more relevant examples or more specific examples. The most obvious way, and the greater context in which the Emotions being neglected would show up for you is in the difference between trust and distrust. In the neglect of the Emotional Center, there is a greater distrust of yourself, of your life, of those in your life. Whereas the positive pole of the Emotions, which is Perception, moves into a state of trust, develops, builds and accumulates experiences that develop a sense of trust in the self in the life and in others. When that part or that centering is neglected, trust is a great issue. Does this ring true? Audience: Absolutely MEntity: So what you would want to do as part of your solution to breaking that cycle is to consciously choose trust in situations that allow for it. By that we mean to fall back on experiential differentiation. You may have developed a distrust based on some things that have happened to you in your life, but every experience has the potential to bring new results. So therefore it is an opportunity to trust yourself, because at least you have that to depend on. You have survived situations, you have risen above situations, you have gotten through situations. You have been there for you. Even if you have been harsh sometimes, you have been there for you, and that is the first place that you can start for developing or choosing trust that at least I trust myself. No reasons, no necessary logic involved. No actions necessary, just the choice to trust. And in doing so, this can begin to extend to people around you and that doesn't mean always trusting in obvious ways. It can sometimes mean trusting that what is frustrating you about this person is okay, because that person has to make the choices necessary for his or her life, and whether they correspond elegantly with your own or not, does not determine your capacity for trust. Question: Unclear Response/Question MEntity: We think this may have provided some insight into how your dynamic works. So the first step then is to free yourself from the experience of that weight of the Life Trap, by emphasizing the neglected center. The second would be to then pay attention to the results of that emphasis and what that brings to your attention, because once you start doing or feeling in a way that you have neglected, new layers of yourself are going to come to the surface. New resources and energy will be brought to the surface, and at first these can be disturbing and frightening and often kick in your self-defense, your chief negative features, your basic fears. So when you feel defensive, or more broadly described, when you feel self-protective, you are probably closer to the breakthrough than not. What you would want to do in that situation then is to make your choices to go forward anyway. That is if you choose to do so, and is not our instruction but is only our information, that you can use however you would like. Once you start to feel defensive, once you start to feel vulnerable, scared, reactionary, etc., allow that experience but choose to go through it, and in so doing you may find yourself completely free from what we would describe as your Life Trap. Again this may take time and repeated efforts over time, but that is the simplest formula for freeing yourself from that weight. Again that weight might then lose its significance altogether so that you do not have to go back and address the issues that might come to the surface. But if they do, you would have the resources, the balanced resources within you to be able to handle that. Right now the reason why it has become a Life Trap is because you do not have the skills or the tools at your disposal for handling going back and dealing with what has accumulated. It will take your breaking that cycle and building on that for you to then have the tools for you to deal with that from your past. Does this make sense to you? If you had the tools and the resources and the skills now, you would have dealt with it. So give yourselves time and free up that energy and then make your choices from there. Again that is if you choose to work on this concept of the Life Trap. We will add one more thing to consider as you break this cycle of the Life Trap and its effects on you. There may come a point where you may experience something that might be considered enlightenment as a result of your efforts. And by this we simply mean that you have a realization or a revelation, a breakthrough, that stunningly sheds light on your life in a way that can bring great amounts of emotion, tears, sometimes a breakdown to some extent. A brief short one, but it is something to consider as a possible result, because once that flow of energy has been allowed that has not been allowed throughout most of your life to this point, it can move you into states of bliss and higher centered experiences that you are not familiar with. This can be disconcerting and sometimes be misread as having done something wrong, or throwing yourself into an abyss of the unknown in a way that is terrifying, but often it is because you've cleaned the slate. You've freed energy, and now you're back to your spectrum of choices that has become far vaster than you've experienced. And that can be terrifying to the personality who has taken comfort in these Life Traps for so long. So we caution you to be aware of this as a part of the process of freeing yourself from your Life Traps, so that when you get to that point you embrace it as a revelation that it is, and not something destructive or life threatening. And with that we will close the topic unless you have questions relative to it. And we can take personal questions for a round or two, if that is what you would like to do. Personal Questions Excluded

January 6, 2000 Troy Tolley, Channel Conscious Connection to Essence Note: This series continues in Michael Speaks -- Conscious Connection to Essence (2 of 3). [Michael_Entity] We are here. One moment. Welcome to your New Year. We realize and understand the significance of this marking, as it is an ingredient of human sentience to measure time with great marks. It also marks the close of one of the more unusual “windows” for a Nexus (parallel shift), which has not gone unnoticed by many of you. As we move into this topic, “creating conscious connection to Essence”, we feel it best to have it an on-going discovery on your part, a journey of remembering, or a journey of re-connection. You will always “embody” or express Essence, even if only minutely. It is never a matter of “finding” Essence or seeking Essence, it is always about becoming CONSCIOUS of Essence. When you, as Personality, are lacking consciousness in direction or action, feelings, thoughts, etc., you are limiting Essence’s expression, but you can never truly limit Essence. You merely limit your personal intimacy with Essence. Essence will freely allow a Personality to run “amok” or fall into fear and pain, though these experiences are ALWAYS as a result of a Personality’s decisions. Essence inherently steers a life away from these, but Personality is invaluable to Essence and Essence can never know what “burns” unless at least ONE version of a Personality touches the “fire” so to speak. For those experiences, Essence is deeply grateful, even if it, itself, is inclined more toward what the nature of a particular universe is. In this case, your universe is EXPANDING, therefore Essence seeks expansion as well. Expansion is recognized in terms of pleasure, fulfillment, happiness, joy, and love… those things that give Personality pleasure are in synchronicity and alignment with Essence. This is so, regardless of temporary social mores, standards and judgments of the time. As we said, the journey toward enhancing your conscious connection to Essence will be paved with your own realizations, questions, and sharing. [debo] Regarding conscious connection to essence–If one is talking to essence and continuing a dialogue going during a day–is this as valid as meditating and connecting to one’s higher self? It seems too easy in a way. We will begin with the question posed by the fragment known as “debo” here. One moment. In answer to debo and her question: You have addressed a very subtle factor in many Personalities seeking conscious contact with Essence. Having and maintaining contact with Essence is always thought of in terms of something “other than” self; something more extravagant, more magickal, more ‘something’ than the Personality, itself. Therefore, it is many times assumed that contact with Essence must be marked by some kind of initiation, ritual, or euphoric sense of knowing, some complicated/complex passage. This is simply not true, though it certainly can be your decision if you require such meaning for your progress. What helps put things into perspective is that Essence not only CREATED you, as you know it, but also NEEDS you. You are its eyes, its heart, its hands, its feet, its face, and its fantastic world of physical sensation. It is blind without you. It is blind in many ways while dealing with the Physical Plane. As you are, in as many ways, without it. This means Essence listens to you with great depth of compassion, commitment, and interest. While Essence can see your larger contexts, your Agreements, your Karma, and many other factors that are not necessary for you, as Personality, to know, it innocently has no idea how important a good night’s sleep is, how important it is to you to be held, or how a bowl of cherries might make your day. You, as Personality, “feed” this information to Essence as you experience it. While some of you “speak” to Essence and continually co-create the life, many of you use your Instinctive Centered years or Instinctive Reviews (individually) for “uploading” or updating your Essence. Many of you may feel you “speak” to Essence to no avail, but we suggest that if you are feeling along these lines, you are not speaking to Essence, you are simply in need of more tangible and physical support. It is valid and important that you seek this out. Essence cannot magickally “rescue” you; it is as interested in your panic and plight. You are all capable of making changes in your life that you seek, and you are all capable of reaching out for others. When it appears Essence isn’t “listening”, try reaching out for or allowing a “spirit in the flesh” into your life. So, in answer to your question or comment, debo, it is usually quite a wonderful experience for a Personality to address its Essence on a daily basis, even if simply in words and thought. It teaches Essence about the more subtle aspects of the life. Otherwise, this is only extracted upon life review, or during Instinctive reviews. What we will be working toward in this journey, is a sense of Essence BEING you, not just being spoken to by you. We will speak more on this later as the class consciousness builds. [Barry] I’m wrestling with the phrase “creating a conscious connection to Essence”. Would you explain what you mean by “conscious”? Do you mean a waking knowledge of the essence that is us? How do we know when we have achieved this? Are there different methods of doing this best suited for each of us? [Michael_Entity] What we mean by ‘conscious’ here is basically a code word for “acceptance”. In many of your cases, Essence is distanced to a great degree, even if honored by you. Another way of describing this class topic may be “choosing to accept your Essence” and all that that implies. [Barry] You make it sound like that implies a lot…. [Michael_Entity] As you progress through this class, you have the opportunity to not only experience your Essence INTIMATELY, but to allow Essence to experience YOUR world intimately. The possibilities to blur your lines of differentiation are high. For each Role, there will be different paths, yes, and when you are maintaining a sense of Essence daily, it will be rare to find your world threatening, unsafe, unloving, or disappointing. This, then, is part of the symptoms that will allow you to “know” of your conscious connection. [Barry] We will be in a “state” of LOVE? [Michael_Entity] We cannot answer that yet as we would need to determine whether we are talking about the same thing. Most of you do not comprehend what Love is as a universal truth but usually refer to the sensations or peripheral counterparts stirred by connections and relief. We might suggest that the sensations are the first signs that you are near Love, but most have not grasped the reality and implications of what Love truly is. We will be outlining the Roles and their potential “paths” to consciousness as we build here tonight. We wanted to hear your questions tonight to help us better customize our interactions with you in regards to this topic. [MBV] I seem to have a hard time seeing through the haze of my Overleaves. Could Michael give me some examples of the artisan role in essence that would help me identify those qualities which is my essence speaking to me? Would these qualities be true for all artisans? [Michael_Entity] You have long survived as Personality “alone” and it is Good Work that you acknowledge your strengths as such. It is a confusion that Essence must be involved in all undertakings while you are Physical or it implies you are “lost”, but this is not true. The entire basis of parallel realities is to allow the Personality its varying versions and ideas about what the life “should”/”could”/”might” be like. Essence has it’s “original plan”, but it relishes in the creativity that a Personality might run with. In your case, Mary, you have “branched” and “branched”, so to speak, far from the “trunk” of your original plans, drawing in realms of extreme experiences that were not necessarily Essence’s “idea”, but are enriching your collective self entirely. You have now found yourself being drawn back into Essence after exhausting a creative path as desired by Personality. This is the motivation behind your questions and feelings. In this process, your first glances in recognizing Essence will appear to be “in a haze” as you have always as Personality been “your own strength”. You now seek Essence as a resource in addition to “you” as you know you. You will have to “get to know” Essence again. In your case, your “unruly”, giddy, untamed flows of energy are your Essence flowing and speaking. In most cases when you’ve “heard this voice” you funnel this energy “reasonably” or hold it off until “appropriate”, as this has become one of your strengths: to “behave”. As you bring more of your Essence in and your world starts to align to it, you will find the balance that will allow safety and peace, with no threat to your security built. For now and over the next three months or so it might be expected that you feel very disoriented, moody, extreme in emotion, as you relinquish some of your Personality’s precious and justified hold. We will address more of this privately and personally. We will also note here that there are, yes, certain qualities that each Role can recognize as being in Essence, but they are only references. It is always an individual discovery. In your case, you, as Personality, are discovering that you and Essence can “play” without getting into “trouble”. [debo] If we are maintaining a sense of Essence and are seeking joy and pleasure but instead feel disappointment, is this due to unrealistic expectation? How do we know what is a valid path for Essence to experience (our chosen source of) joy, and what is not valid? [Michael_Entity] If what you seek is being called “joy” and “pleasure” but ending in disappointment, then you are not perceiving the truth of that situation. Joy ends in Joy. Pleasure ends in Pleasure. There is no exception. If what you seek is based on the IDEA of joy or pleasure, you may want to reassess if the results are proving otherwise. Another valid consideration is that the situation may simply be a larger context than that which gives you joy and therefore must be examined in parts. For instance, to say you love to eat does not mean you enjoy the full, overblown sense after, or the gas, or the heartburn, etc. It may simply be a matter of altering the experience so the emphasis is on the joyful part, EATING, but with more conscious moderation so as to eliminate that which creates a less joyful or even disappointing end. You may enjoy eating, but not eating certain foods, or so much at a time. It usually only takes a moment, but certain commitment, to dissect or clarify exactly what it is that is pleasurable in the seeking, and how to adapt or alter those parts less appealing. “Unrealistic Expectation” does lead to disappointment, but this can be used to your advantage. If EXPECTATION is instead seen as enthusiasm, and DISAPPOINTMENT is seen as knowledge, then much is gained. This is an entire topic unto itself. As for the “validity” of a path for Essence: this is determined through your personal sense of happiness. In fact, that is the main question for the next three months from Essence as the Instinctive is moved through: “does this contribute to my happiness?” Happiness, at least in this universe, is a navigational tool for Personality. If you are unhappy, and you know it, this is good. This means you are honest with yourself. Being honest with you allows empowerment. Empowerment is implemented through planning. Planning is carried out through creativity and enthusiasm. Creativity and enthusiasm is sustained by seeking pleasure/happiness. Pleasure and happiness are guaranteed when being “present” in your life. Being “present” in your life means you are being honest. Though this is a crudely displayed path in words, with some examination you will see its merit. Each of these facets (6) revolve around a central concept that might be considered “living”, completing a septant for change. More on this later. [nemo999] I feel cut off from my essence; is it that I want to control it or I am not accepting/unhappy? [Michael_Entity] You are never truly cut off from Essence, but Essence can be cut off BY you as Personality, at least in terms of conscious connection. In your longing for Essence, it is doubtful you are cut off in any case; Essence responds immediately to any thought in its “direction”. In other words, it may not be Essence you seek or miss, but the “essence” of something else. Nemo, you have experienced losses that still require grieving. Grieving is acceptance of some “hard” truths for the Personality. It would not be amiss at this point in your life to “go back” to what you have lost, indulge in the grief as a process, allowing freedom for that energy, thus making space for something more. For now, it appears you are still hoping or holding out for a revision of a time since passed. You are not alone or cut off from Essence, Nemo, quite the opposite. You are a tremendously sensitive body, it appears, and your Personality and Essence will change your scenario when you are done with the feelings being explored. We remind you all that this forum is difficult to “skim” over your very important and personal lives, so we suggest taking our responses as PART of a larger response, not a complete response. We just do not, through this format and channel, have the space or time available to be effective for all of you on that level. To summarize, Nemo, determine what tangible thing it is in your life you miss. Your answers can be revealed in that. You are looking “UP” for answers when you might want to look “back”. [rion] When meditating I have at times felt a very loving presence which I interpreted to be Essence. However, people channel and are in contact with “other”. What is essence and what is “other”? How does one tell? [Michael_Entity] In all cases of channeling, meditating, etc., it is ALWAYS your Essence which makes first contact. In the same way that you cannot interact with “other” without a Personality while Physically extant, so too is it impossible to contact nonphysical “others” without Essence as the medium. In reaching out during meditation or channeling without specificity, you can rest assured it is Essence in some way. If you seek contact with nonphysical “others” specifically, Essence will act as medium. So our answer is, in creating specificity this allows you as Essence and Personality to differentiate the subtleties between self and other. This can be done only with practice, as many beginning attempts for contact with “other” are almost entirely based on filtering of many sorts. To understand this, observe your experiences when meeting a new stranger, physically, between Personalities. This will lend you insights into how you will differentiate subtleties nonphysically. For some, interaction with another person to determine “who” that person is may last a few minutes, for others a few years or more. In your case, you are adept at “reading” a person and this also spills into your explorations in the non-physical. We can also suggest you attach symbolism to what you know you want to contact. For instance, you can ask that Essence present itself as a certain colour, feeling or sound. This then would help you determine differences when touching other sources. [Sandra51] I understand that the Chakra system and Essence has a connection. Would you describe this in relation to the topic tonight? In a nutshell, ha ha. [Michael_Entity] We will touch on it briefly, but will get a more succinct transcript out for Otterly and your discussion list later. As you explore your conscious connection to Essence, you will also be heightening your sense of self as a Personality. As you explore your sense of self as a person, you will make more room for Essence in your life. It is a two way street, so to speak. In exploring yourself on either level, it is important to examine your “rights” as a physical being and your expression of those “rights” and/or the damage or interference to those “rights”. For each chakra, or Center, there is a basic “right” that the Personality must have tended to fully embody the Essence. We say “embody” as a convenience, as it is actually the opposite. YOU as Personality are embodied in Essence. You most basic “right”, relating to the Instinctive, is your right to exist, or be alive at all. The right to be real. This can also be said to be your right to “have”. Your second Center/Chakra must be examined in terms of your right to feel, experience intimacy, and create. Your third chakra/Center is examined in terms of your right to take action, or to make change. Another way to put it is your right to be free. Your fourth chakra/Center is examined in terms of your right to be loved, and to love. Your throat chakra, or 5th Center, is your right to the truth, whether speaking it, or hearing it. Your 6th chakra/Center can be examined in terms of your right to perceive, to have vision. This can also be said to be your right to dream, on all levels. And finally, your 7th Chakra/Center is your examination of your right to spirituality, or your right to ” inner knowledge”. Though we skimmed these, the slightest examination of these areas of your life can be revealing in what Centers/Chakras are not being cared for or possibly denied, thus blocking Essence. They may have also been damaged or imprinted with allowances from other fragments in the life. The three “lower centers” (3rd, 4th, and 5th) are all the most obvious and easily examined. They are the keys to balancing Personality. In fact, these centers can potentially be examined with a degree of accuracy, at least as a starting point, in your translating your personal Centering in your Overleaves. When looking at your Centering it might be said that your primary centering is the right you SUSTAIN, while the PART of the centering is the right you “FIGHT FOR”. We remind you that Emotional Centering is your right to feel, Intellectual Centering is your right to speak or hear truth, and Moving is your right to act out or make change. The Instinctive Center is always under examination and use so it is almost always in some form of distortion without conscious guidance. This is balanced through creating a daily balance among your “lower centers”. The “higher centers” (2nd, 6th, and 7th) are keys to your understanding your connection to Essence. With examination, if any of these centers appear to be limited or distorted through fear or imprinting, it will be your task to incorporate experiences which fulfill that level of your rights, if you choose. We will conclude here then. Goodnight.

OMW - Oct 19, 2013 - The Body's Language Channel: Troy Tolley 10/19/2013 [MEntity] Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin on the subject requested. The subject requested is that of the "body's language." This is a highly subjective topic that is difficult to cover in broad terms, but because the body is shared across the species, and has been the medium of experience for all fragments incarnating, there are very basic levels of language that could be considered collectively consistent and applicable. The body's language is fairly simplistic and while the messages are symbolic because of their condensed representation, the symbols often tend to be fairly literal. For example, if one is bitten, it can reflect how one is harming the self through internalized anger or guilt. This is fairly literal in that these things that "eat at you" can culminate into a "bite." This bite, while fairly literal then, is symbolic in that the anger or guilt must still be unpackaged into something clear about its potential origins, focus, and how it is serving the self. We cannot possibly cover all of the ailments, injuries, or illnesses that carry messages, so what we would do today is speak to how these can not only be interpreted on your own, but how you can unpack the insight from that ailment, injury, or illness based on where it is occurring in the body. Keep in mind that not all ailments, injuries, or illnesses are messages. There is a high probability that you are simply experiencing the scathing effects of living in a dense plane in a body that is vulnerable. ALL ailments, injuries, and illnesses can be interpreted as messages, but they are not necessarily intended as messages. To help you understand this differentiation, and why it is fairly moot, consider this: The sun will rise every day for Earth, and it does not do so just for you, but one day, you notice the beauty of that sunrise, and you pause, take it in, and it means something to you. There are many sunrises, many unnoticed, and many who see them or dismiss them, but this one today made a difference. It was not that the sun had a message, but that your consciousness made the choice to experience that sunrise in a meaningful way. The lack of inherent meaning vs. the extracted meaning are not in conflict, and do not negate one another. We mention this because if you are looking into the messages of an ailment, injury, or illness, then it means something to you, and can be treated with as much value as a message that was generated. However, if you wish to differentiate, then there are considerations that can be kept in mind. The message of an ailment, injury, or illness can be explored through the WHAT and the WHERE. What the ailment is, where it is. But the key for differentiating inherent message from extracted message is in the HOW. If you are a rock climber, then you are going to have injuries relative to the nature of rock climbing. If your hands are calloused, or you cut yourself on a rock, it may be very likely that it was simply scathing. If you are walking down the street, and a car drives over a rock that is then flipped into the air, flinging toward your forehead, this may be more of a generated message and not "just" scathing. Both scenarios can create meaning from the injury and gain something from that, but we caution against inundating yourself with interpretations of "everything" that bothers your body. If you are on your cell phone, not paying attention, and you walk into the path of a car, this may not be an inherent message beyond "watch what you are doing, be mindful," but if a car slides onto the sidewalk and hits you, there may be a message. So consider the HOW, if you wish to narrow down your body's language to the messages being generated from emotional and intellectual processes. There is value in considering the HOW, not for the sake of dismissing the injury, illness, or ailment when it is not generated, but for grasping the nature of its existence in the first place, which can often have more valuable meaning. For example, if you are a rock climber who is exploring an injury, that injury may simply be a part of the scathing that comes from rock climbing, but "why are you a rock climber?" This may be much more informative than the injury. If you have chronic headaches caused by your lack of hydration, the headaches may have information, but your refusal to hydrate more probably has even more to say about your processes. Before we continue on, do each of you understand this differentiation in the question of "HOW?" [Janet] Yes [MikeS] Yes [Bobby] yes [GeraldineB] I understand it, but don't resonate with it [Maureen] yes [DianeHB] I think so [ClaireC] yes [Jana_K] yes [MEntity] In what way have you found dissonance here, Geraldine? We will address this if it is a matter of clarification. If it is a matter of disagreement, we would honor your perspective, of course. [GeraldineB] It's a matter of "hard to accept". Or rather that meaning has no meaning [MEntity] That there is a language of the body at all, or that there can be a differentiation? [GeraldineB] Messages from "the Universe" [GeraldineB] it's ok -- continue :) I'm always a hard case on topics like this [MEntity] We will clarify that they are not messages from the universe. In terms of ailments or illness, it can be seem to make sense that these may be generated over time through emotional or intellectual processes, blockages, resistance, wounding, etc., but "random" injuries may seem a bit of a stretch, as if orchestrated. [GeraldineB] I think, perhaps, it's difficult for me to accept that meaning only has the meaning that one gives something -- there is no particular "truth" to it beyond that [MEntity] Injuries are not orchestrated, but they can be generated through attraction. For example, the rock flipping toward the forehead from the wheel of a car may be the 20th time something has flown toward the forehead, and this one finally landed. We can go into the nature of injury in further detail when of interest. For today, we will focus more on the messaging. Geraldine, keep in mind that Meaning is from the circle of Personal Truth. Personal Truth and Meaning are interchangeable. These are chosen, developed, and can change. [GeraldineB] I understand [MEntity] It is a Personal Truth that the sunrise this morning was beautiful and "made my day," but it is a Global Truth that it rises for everyone, every day. There is no infused meaning into truths beyond the Personal. It is a Personal Truth what a headache may mean to an individual, but the mapping and language of ailments, injuries, and illness in the body is a Global Truth. To make more sense of that last sentence, compare it to this: what a person says is a Personal Truth, but that there is expression capable from the human body is a Global Truth. What we look to share with you today is how to put your Personal Truths into perspective through the use of placement in Global Truths. [Maureen] It's a bit like dream symbology -- isn't it? [MEntity] Very much so. In terms of Meaning/Personal Truth, there will always be greater contexts even within these circles that one can seek to understand. For example, we can use a familiar experience of Troy's lack of focus, management of scheduling, and delivery of services. This can be "taken personally" and felt to be offensive and infuriating, and this would not be untrue, but that offense and fury would be a Personal Truth within a larger circle of Personal Truth, which is that there is no intended meaning in those delays, and that they are products of design and capabilities of the channel. These nuances are what we mean by events not always having inherent meaning, with meaning being created by the individual, not the circumstances. On the most personal of levels, anything, anyone, can mean nearly anything one can imagine. Most choose to create meaning that either serves them in harmful ways, or in nurturing ways. There are always larger truths beyond these. We do not know if we have addressed the dissonance, but we will continue. Next we will address the WHERE. There are different systems that have become root assumptions in shared consciousness across all fragments. This happens for all forms of Sentience. This system is not in place at the beginning of incarnations, but develops over thousands, even hundreds of thousands of years of incarnation. Just like any language, it evolves. Because it is such a basic language that is relative to a body, there is little nuance that is relative to culture, race, society, etc. One of the systems is based in regions of the body as they relate to the Chakra System. One of the systems is based in quadrants of the body as they are reflective of cosmic mapping, or astrology. These two systems would be the core for the mapping, but would then be subject to the nuances of individual, cultural, or societal layers, depending upon the degrees of imprinting from family, culture, and society. We will focus on the cores today. Mapping the body using the Chakras (which could be referred to here as Centers, as well), the body then would have 7 "regions." These are, in the most simplistic of references: LEGS, GENITALIA, STOMACH, CHEST/ARMS, NECK/FACE, FOREHEAD, CROWN. Any ailment, injury, or illness specific to a region would then be interpreted as messaging relative to that region and its symbolic context. For example, digestion issues would then be in the stomach region, relative to the Moving Center/Power Chakra. The illness, injury, or ailment here would be relevant to how one is using the Moving Center, or processing through the Power Chakra, and all that this entails. Today will be quite rudimentary in example, but this can be built upon from here to become a meaningful language between yourself and your body so that processes are not simply left to suppression of symptoms and endurance of pains, but a transformation of the wounding that may be far more subtle in source. Once one has considered the Region, then the Quadrant can be considered. These would be as if the body were invisibly divided down the middle from the head, and across the chest just below the breasts. These lines are not strict, but symbolic in location. [Bobby] How would one determine the quadrant for "the Head" since it falls in the middle of a demarcation zone? [MEntity] Bobby, the head would be divided down the middle, so that one side is upper right, and the other is upper left. The UPPER LEFT tends to have messages relevant to SELF, or how one is processing "I." The LOWER LEFT tends to have messages relevant to RELATIONSHIPS, or how one processes "We." The UPPER RIGHT tends to have messages relevant to IMPRINTING, or how one processes "I AM." The LOWER RIGHT tends to have messages relevant to FUNCTION, or how one processes "They." We will elaborate upon each of these in more familiar terms, but this is a general picture. Other ways to see these might be that the UPPER LEFT is ASSIMILATION; UPPER RIGHT is EXPRESSION; LOWER LEFT is INSPIRATION; LOWER RIGHT is ACTION. Or Upper Left is (balance or imbalance of) CENTERS; Upper Right is ATTITUDE; Lower Left is MODE; Lower Right is GOAL. The correlations will tend to become obvious upon exploring this, and then can be customized to your most meaningful terms. As you might immediately consider, ailments do not always fall so cleanly into a quadrant, or even a region, for that matter, but this is, first, because these are symbolic demarcations, and second, because the body is a whole system that cannot truly be divided. The mapping is only for the sake of simplifying the move toward conscious awareness of the language of the body, not as a static system. This can be built upon with extrapolations that we will not be able to cover here today in any meaningful depth. The mapping of WHERE, and the discernment for HOW, is half of the work for understanding your personal language of the body. The other half is entirely within the realm of WHAT, which is the specifics of the ailment, injury, or illness. What we will do now is open the floor for questions about what we have shared so far. Questions regarding your particular ailments will be addressed after this. ***QUEUE IS OPEN for questions about the topic so far**** [Janet] When you say 'upper left', I just want to clarify that this would be what I consider my left, and not left from the point of view of someone looking at me. [MEntity] Correct. We can suggest this this mapping be reversed if one is "left-handed. [Janet] I am not. [MEntity] For those who are left-handed, this might require some experimentation, but there is relevance to a dominant "side" versus "passive" side. This is reflected in such practices as Palm Reading, as well, in that the dominant hand reflects how one is expressing the self, while the passive hand reflects the inherent nature of the self. Or "the original plan" versus "what one has done with the plan." No further questions? [Bobby] guess not :-) [MEntity] If not, then we will continue with our suggestion for your workshop element of this exchange. As you begin to explore the language of your body, you can find that it does not communicate with you only in terms of pain, ailments, injury, illness, but even more often in terms of pleasure, sensation, habits, preferences, etc. Much can be revealed to the self about all of the undercurrents of processing if one pays attention to this system of communication and language. What we suggest for each of you is to, literally, map the body over a period of 7 days, keeping track in two ways: ONE) Emphasize awareness of a specific Region of the body for that day, all day. Randomly check in with that area and consider it, touch it, watch how you treat it, even reading about it in terms of Center or Chakra that day for insight. TWO) Note any particular Region and Quadrant as you become aware of habits, pain, pleasure that day. You need not interpret, just note. Note if it was habit, pain, pleasure, distraction, etc., however you wish to describe the awareness drawn to it. At the end of those 7 days, note what patterns there are, both in terms of your intentional exploration, and your discoveries. Correlate these to the Centers, Chakras, Overleaves, etc., in a way that broadens your understanding of how your body is handling your use of the design of You. This can often become one of the most inspiring, intimate, and transformative experiments one can have regarding the relationship between the mind, body, and spirit, if you will. Often, this will have been the first time one has even considered the language of the body, and listened. It can be profound to finally include the most vulnerable, innocent, and unconditional parts of your Being. Keep in mind that your Being is a spectrum that begins in such innocence and vulnerability and is intentionally rooted in each Plane by the vehicle that is created for experience. The Body is as innocent as the Soul. It is just as ignored, as well, if not more so. Often, the difference is not so much how much one is ignored over the other, but how much one is resented over the other. When you can close the spectrum between Body and Soul, there is wholeness, there is a new circuitry that makes a difference. We will now open the floor to question regarding ailments, illness, injury, pleasures, habits, distractions. We cannot do the work for you in determining the messages and meaning, but we can help to bring some support to the process. [Janet] I have a current ailment but I will set that aside for a question about a past ailment. About 7 years ago something (a virus?) suddenly destroyed most of the vestibular nerve associated with my left ear. It took years and physical therapy to relearn basic balance. I find it very interesting that the left upper quadrant is associated with 'balance or imbalance' of centers. I am also 2nd level Old, and I understand that 2nd level is associated with balance and stability. I was mid-5th IM at the time, also. No specific question, other than a request for your comments about the issue in relation to the topic. [MEntity] As you can see, these scenarios often "speak for themselves" when put into perspective of the body as a map for the language. It is not a desperate language that seeks to tell you something, but a reflective language that is speaking for you. This move through the issues of balance/imbalance may have shown up very differently for someone else, but the mapping would reveal to you that this may have been about your relationship with yourself, about bringing yourself in alignment within, to deal with any sense of betrayal within. This may have been reflective of your wish to own the responsibility for wholeness, and not to focus on how this shows up in external relationships, or how you may have felt pushed out of alignment because of obligations, but returning to wholeness through your sense of will, strength, and compassion for your own pain and processes. [Maureen] Occasionally I have a really severe reaction to allergens during an allergy “season”. How are acute or seasonal pains and discomforts or flare-ups different than chronic pains and discomforts? How is my current sinus inflammation and blockage related to my intuition or my Right to Dream? I am assuming that it’s related as the blockage is very close to the 6th Chakra or Third Eye. Actually, I just had 2 sneezes (the first in 2 days) that helped clear it somewhat as I was writing this question out to you Michael. [MEntity] As we have stated, all allergies are denials. These denials are often symbolized in the details of the allergy. Denial here tends to be in terms of POWER, or RIGHT. Seasonal allergies can be ways for working through the layers of denial that continue to remain, or be rebuilt and enforced over a cycle of time. Airborne/plant allergies tend to be relative to one's denial of Power or Right for a "place" in the world. Seasonal allergies would tend to be reflective of an ongoing processing or struggle, as we said, but a chronic or persistent allergy can indicate a deep wounding relative to the symbolism of the allergy. In your case, there is some wounding, but more that there is always a struggle between vision and reality. [Maureen] that made me laugh [MEntity] "Reality" can often be quite disappointing when compared to your visions. [DianeHB] What would be associated with menstrual cramps? Challenges with the Higher Moving Center or Right to Feel? I think I have some of those. [MEntity] Menstrual cramps can be considered inherent pains of being in a female body with a process that produces some pain when releasing eggs from the ovaries, or ovulation. They often do not "mean" anything in any generated way. However, if there are diagnosed issues that exacerbate the pain, then there may be messages here. [DianeHB] Well, fuck. :P Pain killers it is then. [MEntity] Severity of cramping can be reflective of how one is relating to others in terms of intimacy, sexual or otherwise. The greater the cramping, the more likely one is dealing with rejection of feelings related to intimacy regarding one or more relationships. [MikeS] Despite living healthily and without any known genetic disposition (none of my family have it!) I suffer from high blood pressure. Am I correct in identifying my upper left as the quadrant that is sending me a message (hypertension) about how I process myself? Could you please expand on that as a means for me to sew together my understanding of the what, with the how and the where? [MEntity] When one deals with high blood pressure, it can be inherent as a result of other choices or factors, and not necessarily a generated message. It might be part of a syndrome related to, say, weight gain, stresses, sleeplessness, etc. However, if it is a generated message, it is often about how one is relating to the current self as compared to the past. It can be reflective of the process of releasing the past as the standard for comparison. It can be a process of dealing what "Who I Am" vs "Who I Thought I Would Be." And this can be either negatively charged, positively charged, but often a mix of both. This is about how you show up in the world, then, as a result of this. The What would be "hypertension" in the primary Where of Upper Left and Heart Chakra Region. We have not gone into the details of the What, but we think that many of the "what" are fairly literal, and there are some fragments who have done the work of general interpretation that we feel is fair enough as a starting reference. [MikeS] Would the role of Artisan be more likely to 'make' a condition like hypertension? [MEntity] You would want to play with the various correlations for the Where for greatest range of insight. No, we do not find much consistency in terms of ailments correlating to Roles. [Jana_K] I had a fungal problem with the two smallest toenails on my left foot for about 18 years now. I have tried to treat it chemically, mechanically, diet-wise, and nothing has got rid of it, though I have to say that I have not persevered 100% with any of those methods due to the amount of effort required. I have only marginally looked into possible body-messages meaning, until just now. It's in the quadrant of Relationships, according to what you have just related. Feet/leg problems in general, according to Valeri Sinelnikov's book "Love Thy Illness", are about strong fear of future, fear or reluctance to move forward in life. Does that correspond to LEGS, in your system? And which Chakra is that tied to - Root (1st)? Further, Sinelnikov says that he found that people who suffer from fungal infections strongly dwell on old experiences, wrong-doings and injustices. That their old views have "got mouldy". That they do not wish to give up the past, and allow it to drive their present. And this in turn stops them going forward in life (back to legs/feet in general). Nail issues in general according to him then signify feeling of vulnerability and constant danger. Could you comment and give me a steer in the interpretation? [MEntity] Yes, this would correspond to LEGS and ROOT/INSTINCTIVE. It is valid that fungal infections tend to be reflective of extremely old and outdated beliefs related to the past that are held onto in ways that are distracting at best, and lethal at worst. They are in direct conflict with efforts to move forward, and become quite highlighted in the body. In your case, these would appear to be minor, but persistent. The Quadrant suggests these are related to your processing of trust in the future of a relationship. It may mean that while you willing go forward, there is always a nagging, distracting insistence that speaks to an old idea about being discovered to be ugly, to not be seen beyond some of your private behaviors, or having trouble integrating those into a relationship. It may speak to a justification for "hiding." [Jana_K] that makes soooo much sense [MEntity] It may speak to the justification for needing to tend to yourself because you would not want that burden to be upon another. And so on. We merely offer suggestions, but you can extrapolate from there. In breaking "the code," so to speak, many of these conditions may find near-miraculous reversals if the underlying pattern is brought to consciousness for processing. [ClaireC] I have chronic pain in my right shoulder blade from a very old repetitive strain injury which persists regardless of any treatment. Can you offer me any insight on this? [MEntity] First, you would want to look at the nature of the original repetitive strain injury. Was this scathing by the very nature of the effort? [ClaireC] Yes [MEntity] In that case, it is most likely a matter of the nature of the physical plane and being in a body when using it in a certain way. If someone tries to lift a car and hurts his back, it is often just a message that the car was heavy. It may be that your repetitive injury is along that vein. Nothing metaphysical or reflective of underlying processes, but natural scathing. [ClaireC] But the pain continues long after I discontinued that action (using a computer mouse, of all things) :-) [MEntity] However, for such a persistent condition, relief and repair can still be gained through insight. [ClaireC] Yes, that is what I'm hoping.... How would this be related to Expression? [MEntity] The origin of the persistent pain might be reflective of your Imprinting and how repetitive behaviors fulfilled some of your fears about who/how you may become, while the process of effort for healing is the undoing of the momentum of that past. [ClaireC] That is helpful. [MEntity] These more insidious levels of imprinting can take a great deal of time for undoing. The effects may already be in the life, so it can seem that there is no way to undo the "damage," much like the repetitive strain seems to have left you, but this is a distraction. It is in the space between the pain that the truth can be found. The pain may return, may be persistent, but it is not always there, and when the emphasis can be found in that focus of freedom, however short-lived, it can begin to expand in time and space. The pain is a process, it is resistance. Pain is always resistance. But that is to be expected from such long-term momentum. It is like tapping on the brakes of a car that was speeding at 100 kilometers per hour. It is a careful resistance to change speed, to reverse directions, or merely to turn a corner. Embrace this pain as part of the process, while including the breaks between as the truth of the process, and experiment with the effects of this. [ClaireC] Thank you, Michael, I will. [MEntity] We must conclude here for today. Each of you are walking vessels of truths, processes, and messages. Most of this is ignored until between lives, but you are expressing courage and consciousness in your willingness to hear yourselves in new ways. This is Good Work. Good evening to each of you. Goodbye.

(Excerpt from Wholeness of Soul, Chapter 2, shared with permission) Movement can be said to be built from the triad of Action, Interaction, and Reaction. Life can be created or allowed through any point within that triad, but in any case, the ability to do so Confidently, and Without Attachment to results, will be the key to your more pleasant and pleasurable experience. Keep in mind that non-attachment is not apathy, nor is it a lack of desire. Non-attachment simply means that you acknowledge the inherent nature of change. GOALS & TRIAD OF MOVEMENT In most cases of the Ordinal Goal, the experiences of life will lean toward learning how to “REACT more Responsibly,” while the experiences of the Cardinal Goals will lean toward learning how to “ACT more Successfully.” Those Personalities who have the Goal of Relaxation/Flow will have experiences that lean toward learning how to “INTERACT more Navigationally.” We will define REACTION as your effort to minimize effects on you. We will define ACTION as your effort to maximize effects from you. We will define INTERACTION as the freedom from effort as a means to move with the fluctuations of Energy within the life. Reaction, Interaction, and Action can be done appropriately (positive) or inappropriately (negatively). When Reaction is appropriate, there is a RESPONSE to the Patterns within the life, like the use of an umbrella in an unexpected downpour of rain. Rain is a natural pattern in life, even if it is often unpredictable. However, how you respond to it often determines your experience of it. When Reaction to something as natural as rain is inappropriate, there is Defensiveness, such as anger, helplessness, and agitation at the rain’s effect on you. When Interaction is appropriate, there is NAVIGATION within the Patterns that are unfolding, much like a surfer on a wave, or the use of oars in a boat, but when Interaction is inappropriate, there is a crash into Paralysis, much like a sense of drowning in that wave, or losing one’s oars. When Action is appropriate, there is SUCCESS that is measurable and personally-fulfilling within the Patterns of the life, such as the fruits gathered from a watered crop, but when Action is inappropriate, there is a sense of Failure, as if one’s efforts meant nothing, such as might be the case if one were to find the yield from that crop not as expected. Appropriate Action does not undermine honest effort. POSITIVE > Responsible Navigation Success NEUTRAL > Reaction Interaction Action NEGATIVE > Defensive Paralysis Failure GOING TO EXTREMES Within all Goals there is a spectrum of experience that ranges across Reaction - Interaction - Action. Within that spectrum, there are extremes to which one might be inclined to fulfill his or her Goal that are counterproductive. In all Goals, the eventual point of balance will be in your capacity to REACT, INTERACT, and ACT effectively and appropriately, with confidence, trust, and non-attachment to results. If your Goal is Flow/Relaxation, you may find your “natural” counterproductive extremes lean toward Patterns of Inappropriate Interaction within events and relationships, so you may find an emphasis on your constantly learning how to Navigate, not control, the Actions and Reactions that are a part of life around you. Your increasing capacity to Navigate can then become the basis of more flexible and evolving definitions of Success, and improves your ability to Respond. If your Goal is Discrimination, Submission, or Re-evaluation, you may find you “naturally” lean toward Patterns of Inappropriate Reaction within events and relationships, so it could be said that there would be an emphasis on your constantly learning Responsibility (ability to respond) as a foundation for your definitions of Success, which then improves your ability to Navigate. If your Goal is Acceptance, Dominance, or Growth, you may find you “naturally” lean toward Patterns of Inappropriate Action over events and relationships, so it could be said that your emphasis is on constantly learning to define what Success even means to you in the first place so that you can build your foundation for understanding your Responsibilities, which then improves your ability to Navigate. Although we described the above as inclinations toward specific, inappropriate extremes relative to certain Goals, there are no rules to these inclinations, and one may experience any of these extremes, regardless of Goal. To help you examine further as to which extreme you may be inclined, regardless of your Goal, you can explore the following statements: When one experiences Inappropriate Actions, one tends to be disappointed in what one is GETTING OUT OF LIFE. When one experiences Inappropriate Reactions, one tends to be disappointed in what one is GETTING OUT OF OTHERS. When one experiences Inappropriate Interactions, one tends to be disappointed in what one is GETTING OUT OF ONESELF. People who are Responsible, Successful Navigators realize and behave in ways that recognize that WHAT YOU GET OUT OF LIFE, OTHERS, and SELF IS BASED ON WHAT YOU GIVE. THE TRUTH ABOUT THE LIE Some of you may delude yourselves into thinking that you “give and give and give” or “try and try and try” and you get nothing (or very little) in return, or that you are constantly imposed upon in some way that does not allow for your true nature to shine. This is one of your Great Lies to sustain the momentum of false security in the routine patterns of frustration in your life. The truth is: Your life is exactly as you need it; EXACTLY; without exception; including your defensiveness, your failures, your successes, and your responsibilities. This does not mean you like it or understand it. When you no longer need things the way they are (or think you need them the way they are), they can change. When you no longer want things they way they are, you can change them. There is something of value in your life AS IT IS, even with the effort and intent to change it. To interpret differently is to lie to one’s self. Unless there is another fragment, or group of fragments, who are creating a karmic imbalance by removing your ability to Choose, which would be in the form of some kind of imprisonment, torture, or death, then you have the ability to Act, Interact, or React in a way that can evolve in alignment with your wishes as a Personality and Essence. This means that any person who is undermining you, or any situation that is disempowering you, that you cannot describe as unlawful imprisonment, unsolicited torture, or murder, is a condition sustained ONLY by your participation in it. If you wanted things to change, you would change it. If you have not changed it, then there is some kind of value seeming to be gained from it. While this truth may seem harsh, it is, in fact, quite freeing. There is no fault here. No blame. Only a recognition of the nature of those undesired things in your life that could, can, or would change, but have not. You may not have control over many circumstances and conditions in your life, but you will always have control over your perspective of those circumstances and conditions, which is where the greatest and truest change exists. How you interpret your circumstances and conditions makes a difference. Being honest with yourselves about the investment you have in the supposed “worst,” or most uncomfortable, patterns of your life can be quite freeing, potentially unbinding your energy to move in ways that are far more genuinely alive, and beneficial for all involved. Some of your “worst” situations, conditions, or perspectives of those situations and conditions, may actually have a great deal of “payoff” for you in ways that you have not taken the time to explore because your Reactions are defensive. Or you may have the capacity to change your situation, condition, or perspective, or do things differently, but you have not made the effort because your Actions continue to be interpreted as Failures, instead of as processes of learning.

OMW - Nov 16, 2013 - On Being Stuck Channel: Troy Tolley [MEntity] Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We will begin discussion on this topic requested. [MEntity] This is described as "I Am Stuck." We understand the implications in that phrase and will address the variations that contribute to this experience in a lifetime. [MEntity] There are two ways that one can be "stuck." Consciously, and Subconsciously. [MEntity] Though the differentiation is sometimes subtle, it is rare that one can get stuck unconsciously (as opposed to subconsciously). In another discussion, we can clarify the differences, but for today, we will focus on the two ways that are most common, as well as most useful to you now. [MEntity] The only difference between being stuck in a conscious or subconscious way is your awareness of being stuck. When you prefer a different result from what you are getting, you tend to be stuck in a conscious way. [MEntity] When you are moving in patterns that do not serve your intentions, then it tends to be that you are stuck in a subconscious way. [MEntity] Therefore, when you have identified that you are "stuck," you have already made the first step into the only way to break a pattern: AWARENESS. [MEntity] We will return to this as part of your steps in a moment. [MEntity] Because there is complexity to Sentience and being in a body, the consideration for consciousness, subconsciousness, and even unconsciousness is not easy to delineate. Often, a pattern may have elements existing among all of these. [MEntity] As we help to delineate the concept of "being stuck" and the process by which to become "unstuck," we suggest keeping this mind so that you do not miss that there is, potentially, a network of elements connecting the more obvious to the less obvious. [MEntity] We will start with "being stuck" SUBCONSCIOUSLY. [MEntity] "Being Stuck" subconsciously is, in a more succinct term, a HABIT. [MEntity] A Habit is something that one does, even without thinking or feeling. These can be beneficial, and these can be harmful. [MEntity] A beneficial habit may be your routines for getting to work on time, or driving a familiar distance, or any routine that is helpful to you. [MEntity] Keep this in mind because "being stuck" is the difference between a habit that is helpful and a habit that is not. [MEntity] Many of your most unhelpful Habits come directly from the more insidious behaviors learned as protection as described the the Chief Negative Features. [MEntity] You may think they are eccentricities, behaviors that are social, behaviors that represent your "rights," behaviors that are acceptable, even charming or humorous. [MEntity] So when you are assessing your Habits to determine if they are helpful or harmful, it may be difficult to know. [MEntity] Is it helpful or harmful to gossip? Is it helpful or harmful to feel insulted? Is it helpful or harmful to give in to a craving? Is it helpful or harmful to just stay home again another night? It is helpful or harmful to complain again about yet another thing? [MEntity] The truth of the harm or help in these questionable habits, and many others like them, is a spectrum. The answers will sometimes be yes, and sometimes be no. [MEntity] For instance, gossip is not inherently harmful, but it can be used to harm. Feeling insulted is not inherently harmful as it can help you to recognize your boundaries, but it can be used as a form of manipulation and self-harm, as well. Allowing room for a craving can bring pleasure, but it can also be for a pleasure that produces more harm than good. [MEntity] And so on. [MEntity] Your means of differentiating between a helpful and harmful habit can be done in only one way: IT COMES TO YOUR ATTENTION. [MEntity] Once it comes to your attention, you can then discern if it is helpful or harmful. [MEntity] Think of your HABITS as something similar to Breathing. You may do it on a regular basis without thinking or feeling, but sometimes something smells good, something smells bad, or you may find you have trouble breathing, or that you feel a need to take a particularly deep breath at the moment, and so on. [MEntity] So if your gossip is more harmful than good, you will know it. If your craving is doing more harm than good, you will know it. If your staying in another night takes its toll on your sense of participation in the world, you will know it. If your pleasures bring more pain, you will know it. [MEntity] You can ignore the knowing, reject the knowing, be confused about the knowing, but you cannot UN-know it. [MEntity] Once your Habit has come to your attention that it is harmful, and you CONTINUE to do it, it is no longer a Habit. [MEntity] It is an Addiction. [MEntity] An Addiction is merely a Habit that you are aware of that can be broken, and yet you continue to do it. [MEntity] Keep in mind that one can be quite tricky in the process of assessing one's Habits and Addictions. [MEntity] For example, one might assess that the Habit of the routine for getting up in the morning and going through the rough effort to get to a job one does not enjoy is then an Addiction if one does not just quit that job. [MEntity] But that would not, necessarily, be the case. [MEntity] And this is for two reasons: [MEntity] ONE) when something is a Habit, it is most often devoid of emotion and thought. You just do it. A Habit is a lack of awareness/presence in what one is doing. As we mentioned before, this awareness is not always necessary, but once a Habit is in your awareness and you feel it is not serving you, then your awareness MUST BE THE DIFFERENCE. [MEntity] So if your routine in the morning for how you prepare and journey to work is brought to your attention as you groan, your very awareness can make that difference by bringing in something new to the equation. Because Habits are based in doing without thinking or feeling, then you would want to bring new thoughts and feelings to the experience. [MEntity] You may not actually need to quit your job. You may simply need to add new thoughts and feelings alongside the habitual ones. Alongside, I HATE THIS could be I HATE THIS, BUT I DO NEED THIS; or I FEEL SHITTY NOW, BUT FEEL GOOD THAT I HAVE SOME INCOME. [MEntity] This injection of intentional feeling and thinking can slowly, and sometimes immediately, shift you from being in Habit to being in CHOICE. [MEntity] TWO) one does not instill a Habit, or succumb to Addiction, unless there is a PAYOFF. [MEntity] Remember, a Habit is not necessarily an indication that one is doing something harmful to the self. This must be assessed by how that Habit comes to your attention. Your Habit is not an Addiction if it is determined that the payoff is beneficial. [MEntity] So your Habit in the morning routine for work may be able to use some injection of consciousness, but knowing that your Payoff is that you do this Habit for the sake of taking care of yourself means that you are not Addicted. You are simply doing what you have to do for an intended result. This Habit, then, is helpful. [MEntity] One does NOTHING without the motivation of a PAYOFF. [MEntity] That Payoff is the determining factor between what Habits become Addictions, and what Habits are serving you. [MEntity] When a Habit serves you in beneficial and healthy ways, it could be said that it is some form of LOVE. This is all that needs to be understood for you to keep nurturing the Habits that serve you. You go to work because you Love. You gossip to your friends as a way to bond, to vent, to heal, not as a way to harm, because you Love. You treat yourself to pleasures that do no harm because [MEntity] you can express Love this way. Your sense of feeling insulted is because you care enough about your well-being; you Love. And so on. [MEntity] You breathe, because you Love. [MEntity] We elaborate upon these subconscious patterns referred to as Habits because when they serve you well, they often go back into a state of Habit, even if you have injected some consciousness into them for a while as part of your assessment. [MEntity] Again, consider the Habit of breathing. You would not want this to be dependent upon your injecting conscious awareness into every breath, but it can be a beautiful experience to do so once in a while. [MEntity] So once you have determined that a Habit may simply have needed some attention, and you see that is serving you well, it can be left alone. [MEntity] When a beneficial Habit comes to your attention then, it is often for the sake of GRATITUDE. [MEntity] Bringing Gratitude to your beneficial Habits once in a while can be quite inspiring. [MEntity] We mention this because it can be much easier to assess and embrace the Habits you discover are serving you well, and if you nurture these, recognize their Payoffs, and bring Gratitude to them, the work necessary to transform the harmful Habits and Addictions can be reduced to half or less. [MEntity] This energy necessary for transformation of unhealthy and harmful habits is vital. [MEntity] As mentioned before, NOTHING is done without the motivation of a PAYOFF. This is not a selfish term. It is simply inherent in evolution, particularly in terms of consciousness. [MEntity] This is why there is a Goal as a primary part of a Personality. [MEntity] The Payoff you gain, or seek to gain, must be gained through a PROCESS. [MEntity] If your Payoff is gained through the beneficial and healthy Habit, it would be considered worth the Process, whatever that process may have been. [MEntity] As mentioned before, a Habit that you discover is beneficial and healthy is one that is some form of Love. These do not become Addictions because the results are intended, even if not necessarily preferred. [MEntity] However, when a Habit is brought to your attention as harmful and unhealthy, yet you continue to choose to do it, it is an Addiction. The Payoff is nowhere near what you intend, even as there is still a Payoff. [MEntity] This Habit, then, is motivated by some form of Fear. [MEntity] The key to transforming Addiction is in determining what the Payoff is that you are settling for, as opposed to the one toward which you intend. [MEntity] In most cases, this Payoff can be found in your personal Chief Features. [MEntity] Has it been brought to your attention that your constant complaints are not helpful, not healthy, and yet you continue? The Payoff could be that it serves your Arrogance, or your Martyrdom, or your Impatience, for example. Is your Payoff that it feels good to feel better than at least someone? Is your Payoff that you might get the pity that a victim deserves? Is your Payoff that it satisfies your panic at the loss of control over time? And so on. [MEntity] If you can assess that a Habit is an Addiction, then you can assess what the Payoff is by looking at your Chief Negative Feature/s. From there, you can find the keys to transformation toward your True Intentions. OPEN FLOOR QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS [MEntity] We will stop here to open the floor to questions regarding what we have shared, so far. After that, we will talk to a few of you as examples for how to transform toward your True Intentions. [Maureen] It is clear so far Michael. [GeraldineB] Michael, I think most would like that personal interaction -- so, can we move to that? [GeraldineB] If so, why not go in Alphabetical order, beginning with Brian? [MEntity] Of course. If all is understood, so far, then our responses will be more useful. [MEntity] Begin. [Brian_W] Hi Michael, I suppose my biggest habit / addiction that I have issues with is the lack of self-love [Brian_W] from what you have said, I know it feeds the Self-Dep, that feeling of not being enough / fear of being too-much [Brian_W] what steps might I take to start loosing it, even if its enough so that I can breathe and be more pleasant company to others, to invite people in my life rather than pushing them away? [MEntity] Before we respond to this, specifically, we must clarify the steps that we think are useful in any pursuit to transform an Addiction and redirect toward an intended Payoff. We will return to your question with a response after that. [MEntity] FIRST, as mentioned at the beginning, one must have AWARENESS. If there is no Awareness, there is nothing to work with toward transformation. [MEntity] This takes care of bringing THOUGHT back into the equation. [MEntity] If this Thought/Intellect is to be helpful, it must be from the Positive Pole: Insightful. Awareness that merely seeks to explain away one's actions is the Negative Pole: Reasoning. If you wish to change a Habit or Addiction, you must use Insight. Insight is the difference between using the past as a way to understand and affect the present and future, vs using the past as a way to excuse and secure the present or future. [MEntity] If you find that you are constantly using "Reasons" to excuse your behaviors, you will not make much difference. [MEntity] Reasons for the past can be quite legitimate, but if that is not used as Insight for affecting the present and future, you will remain stuck. [MEntity] SECOND, one must bring AWE back into the equation. [MEntity] AWE is the Inspirational/Emotional element that is often missing in a Habit. [MEntity] If you bring Emotion back into the equation, yet fall into Sentimentality/Attachment, you may find that you defend your actions, instead of change them. When it comes to Addiction and harmful Habits, Sentimentality is an attachment to what is already familiar. [MEntity] A simpler way to understand the negative uses of Intellect and Emotion when they are brought back into the equation, leaving you stuck, is to understand these as BLAME and EXCUSES. [MEntity] To truly bring Awe back into the equation along with Awareness, you would want to bring Perception to the equation. This means that you throw out what has always seemed obvious to you, what seems most apparent and immediate, logical, and even tangible. [MEntity] SEE PAST WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS SEEN. [MEntity] Do not worry if it makes sense to you, or that it conflicts with past experiences, or that you just know it will not work out. SEE PAST THIS. [MEntity] Be in Awe of the possibilities. [MEntity] Once you have brought Awareness and Awe to the equation of transformation for a harmful Habit or Addiction, it means no more blame, no more excuses. [MEntity] Only effort. [MEntity] Now that you are making the effort, you must continue to draw on Awareness and Awe because now you will begin to unveil your TRIGGERS. Triggers are the prompts to your Moving Center to do as was programmed, not as is chosen. [MEntity] Your Triggers are the equivalent of your Wounding. When you are triggered, you are hurting, even if you have numbed yourself to it. If you fall into harmful Habit and Addiction when Triggered, you are doing so because you hurt, and that protective behavior is your Payoff. [MEntity] Triggers, by the way, are the Instinctive Part of your Moving Center. [MEntity] Use your Awareness to note these Triggers. Use your Awe to see past them. [MEntity] Use your EFFORT to make a difference, to make a different choice, to make a choice at all. [MEntity] And those are your most powerful tools for transforming your harmful Habits and Addictions that keep you stuck: AWARENESS, AWE, and EFFORT. [MEntity] This process of transformation may take time, patience, and kindness, so you should be considerate of these factors if you truly wish to transform a pattern. [MEntity] For the most effective transformations, you would want to use your Awareness as a means to bring forethought to any situation that might have known Triggers. KNOW that you will be Triggered. You may not be able to avoid the Trigger. And that is when AWE can come in handy. SEE PAST THAT TRIGGER. With all the strength you may have in that moment, see past it to other possibilities. And then use your Effort to make a difference, however mimimal that may be. [MEntity] And, finally, ask for help. None of you must go through your transformations of habit or addiction alone. Support can be important, if not profoundly vital. [MEntity] And now we will return to Brian's question: SEE ABOVE. [MEntity] Next. [ViP1] I have a question, if no one else before me in alphabetical order does [MEntity] We feel that the above information would apply to most questions for how to, personally, approach the process of transformation. [MEntity] As we know there is such limited time for these grander concepts and applications, we try to share what will be meaningful to each of you as a whole. [ViP1] I think that as with Brian, most of this question may be addressed by what you just shared, but I can put it out there still. [ViP1] my issue is that I am addicted toward denial. [ViP1] If there is an issue that is likely to be painful that I need to actually take action on, I instead start looking in every possible direction for information, background, and guidance, ostensibly to understand the issue, and what I should do about it, better. [ViP1] And I do this, up to a point. [ViP1] But when it gets to a point where I don't need to ask any more questions of anyone or anywhere else, my wheels start spinning on what I've read, or heard, or, [ViP1] endlessly reviewing all of it. When in reality, all I am doing is looking for a way to point my head in the other direction and buy time to enjoy myself in blissful ignorance (or rather, denial) more. [ViP1] I have (some) awareness of it. I know it has gotten to a point where it is harmful. I know it comes from fear. And the payoff is delaying what I am sure will be painful. [ViP1] And it's not only in one area of my life. I am resistant to change, in general, to varying degrees (my tertiary CF is stubbornness.) [ViP1] But especially in situations where I have a personal emotional stake, I tend toward denial in a manner that historically tended to fit your description of a Habit (without feeling or emotion). [ViP1] Recently, I have become more aware of it, and I think this would now qualify it as an Addiction. As you described Triggers, I am fairly sure that this behavior is related to a trigger, but I am not sure what it is. [ViP1] What is the Insight, or how can I find the Insight, and bring it to bear, to stop denying and instead, simply think, reason, decide, and ACT? [ViP1] If this question is too long to answer today, that's ok too (end of question) [MEntity] It is not too long, and our response is applicable to Brian, as well: [MEntity] First, up to this point, you have been working with what you had to work with. Now you have something more to work with. This may not make a difference, but that is up to you. Allow for your AWE to come into play here. You are not bound to the past. You are not bound to only what you have known as familiar. You are now trying something new, different, a bit more encompassing in Insight and Perception. But in the end, it will still require your Effort to make the difference. [MEntity] Use your Awareness to note your Triggers. Really look at these. Allow for the wounding to surface. You may not ever know what that wounding was/is, but it will come. It may come in nothing but tears, or pleasurable relief, or bizarre bursts of laughter, but let it come. We cannot tell you what those Triggers are. You must discover and own these as part of you. We cannot do that work for you. [MEntity] Even now, in reading this, some of you may have wounding surface simply because you are conscious and caring of yourself in this moment enough to let it. [ViP1] i know what they are, i just don't want to admit it (as being the truth) [MEntity] We cannot stress enough: you do not have to know what the wounding was/is. You do not have to make sense of it or break it down or rehash it or unearth a memory. The wounding will surface. [MEntity] What you want to own is the healing. You already own the wounding. [MEntity] In the end, as a last resort, if you are fully aware of an Addiction, yet you continue to choose in that direction, remaining stuck, THEN OWN THAT CHOICE. [MEntity] This is your life. Your body. Your patterns. Your fears. Your path. Your evolution. Your choice. [MEntity] And owning that choice to remain in a pattern of addiction is THE MOST LOVING CHOICE YOU CAN MAKE. And this begins to make the difference. [MEntity] This breaks down the resistance. This breaks down the friction that is pain. [MEntity] This surrender may be the very key that breaks the pattern. [MEntity] Sometimes, being told what to do only serves to push you toward what not to do. Embracing what not to do brings back your curiosity for what TO do differently. [MEntity] Let yourself have your addiction, your spiralling patterns, your confusion. These are yours. No one can take those away from you. Only you have the right to do so. And you can. [MEntity] If you can sense even the slightest bit of curiosity for what other options there may be, then you can use your Awareness, Awe, and Effort to test out new directions, new choices. "Just to see." Only then will you know what your true choices were/are. [MEntity] This is enough. [MEntity] Even a slight taste of healing and transformation is often enough to spark the transformation process toward much greater payoffs than were ever considered possible before. [MEntity] But all along the way, each of you would do well to be kind, patient, and generous with yourselves. [MEntity] You will one day realize that you were never truly stuck. You were, and are, simply alive, living, and none of this was ever ugly. Just degrees of all that is life, and the choices you make within that. [MEntity] Good evening to each of you. We will conclude here for now on this subject. We think we will speak more on this, eventually. [MEntity] Goodbye.