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OMW - Oct 19, 2013 - The Body's Language Channel: Troy Tolley 10/19/2013 [MEntity] Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin on the subject requested. The subject requested is that of the "body's language." This is a highly subjective topic that is difficult to cover in broad terms, but because the body is shared across the species, and has been the medium of experience for all fragments incarnating, there are very basic levels of language that could be considered collectively consistent and applicable. The body's language is fairly simplistic and while the messages are symbolic because of their condensed representation, the symbols often tend to be fairly literal. For example, if one is bitten, it can reflect how one is harming the self through internalized anger or guilt. This is fairly literal in that these things that "eat at you" can culminate into a "bite." This bite, while fairly literal then, is symbolic in that the anger or guilt must still be unpackaged into something clear about its potential origins, focus, and how it is serving the self. We cannot possibly cover all of the ailments, injuries, or illnesses that carry messages, so what we would do today is speak to how these can not only be interpreted on your own, but how you can unpack the insight from that ailment, injury, or illness based on where it is occurring in the body. Keep in mind that not all ailments, injuries, or illnesses are messages. There is a high probability that you are simply experiencing the scathing effects of living in a dense plane in a body that is vulnerable. ALL ailments, injuries, and illnesses can be interpreted as messages, but they are not necessarily intended as messages. To help you understand this differentiation, and why it is fairly moot, consider this: The sun will rise every day for Earth, and it does not do so just for you, but one day, you notice the beauty of that sunrise, and you pause, take it in, and it means something to you. There are many sunrises, many unnoticed, and many who see them or dismiss them, but this one today made a difference. It was not that the sun had a message, but that your consciousness made the choice to experience that sunrise in a meaningful way. The lack of inherent meaning vs. the extracted meaning are not in conflict, and do not negate one another. We mention this because if you are looking into the messages of an ailment, injury, or illness, then it means something to you, and can be treated with as much value as a message that was generated. However, if you wish to differentiate, then there are considerations that can be kept in mind. The message of an ailment, injury, or illness can be explored through the WHAT and the WHERE. What the ailment is, where it is. But the key for differentiating inherent message from extracted message is in the HOW. If you are a rock climber, then you are going to have injuries relative to the nature of rock climbing. If your hands are calloused, or you cut yourself on a rock, it may be very likely that it was simply scathing. If you are walking down the street, and a car drives over a rock that is then flipped into the air, flinging toward your forehead, this may be more of a generated message and not "just" scathing. Both scenarios can create meaning from the injury and gain something from that, but we caution against inundating yourself with interpretations of "everything" that bothers your body. If you are on your cell phone, not paying attention, and you walk into the path of a car, this may not be an inherent message beyond "watch what you are doing, be mindful," but if a car slides onto the sidewalk and hits you, there may be a message. So consider the HOW, if you wish to narrow down your body's language to the messages being generated from emotional and intellectual processes. There is value in considering the HOW, not for the sake of dismissing the injury, illness, or ailment when it is not generated, but for grasping the nature of its existence in the first place, which can often have more valuable meaning. For example, if you are a rock climber who is exploring an injury, that injury may simply be a part of the scathing that comes from rock climbing, but "why are you a rock climber?" This may be much more informative than the injury. If you have chronic headaches caused by your lack of hydration, the headaches may have information, but your refusal to hydrate more probably has even more to say about your processes. Before we continue on, do each of you understand this differentiation in the question of "HOW?" [Janet] Yes [MikeS] Yes [Bobby] yes [GeraldineB] I understand it, but don't resonate with it [Maureen] yes [DianeHB] I think so [ClaireC] yes [Jana_K] yes [MEntity] In what way have you found dissonance here, Geraldine? We will address this if it is a matter of clarification. If it is a matter of disagreement, we would honor your perspective, of course. [GeraldineB] It's a matter of "hard to accept". Or rather that meaning has no meaning [MEntity] That there is a language of the body at all, or that there can be a differentiation? [GeraldineB] Messages from "the Universe" [GeraldineB] it's ok -- continue :) I'm always a hard case on topics like this [MEntity] We will clarify that they are not messages from the universe. In terms of ailments or illness, it can be seem to make sense that these may be generated over time through emotional or intellectual processes, blockages, resistance, wounding, etc., but "random" injuries may seem a bit of a stretch, as if orchestrated. [GeraldineB] I think, perhaps, it's difficult for me to accept that meaning only has the meaning that one gives something -- there is no particular "truth" to it beyond that [MEntity] Injuries are not orchestrated, but they can be generated through attraction. For example, the rock flipping toward the forehead from the wheel of a car may be the 20th time something has flown toward the forehead, and this one finally landed. We can go into the nature of injury in further detail when of interest. For today, we will focus more on the messaging. Geraldine, keep in mind that Meaning is from the circle of Personal Truth. Personal Truth and Meaning are interchangeable. These are chosen, developed, and can change. [GeraldineB] I understand [MEntity] It is a Personal Truth that the sunrise this morning was beautiful and "made my day," but it is a Global Truth that it rises for everyone, every day. There is no infused meaning into truths beyond the Personal. It is a Personal Truth what a headache may mean to an individual, but the mapping and language of ailments, injuries, and illness in the body is a Global Truth. To make more sense of that last sentence, compare it to this: what a person says is a Personal Truth, but that there is expression capable from the human body is a Global Truth. What we look to share with you today is how to put your Personal Truths into perspective through the use of placement in Global Truths. [Maureen] It's a bit like dream symbology -- isn't it? [MEntity] Very much so. In terms of Meaning/Personal Truth, there will always be greater contexts even within these circles that one can seek to understand. For example, we can use a familiar experience of Troy's lack of focus, management of scheduling, and delivery of services. This can be "taken personally" and felt to be offensive and infuriating, and this would not be untrue, but that offense and fury would be a Personal Truth within a larger circle of Personal Truth, which is that there is no intended meaning in those delays, and that they are products of design and capabilities of the channel. These nuances are what we mean by events not always having inherent meaning, with meaning being created by the individual, not the circumstances. On the most personal of levels, anything, anyone, can mean nearly anything one can imagine. Most choose to create meaning that either serves them in harmful ways, or in nurturing ways. There are always larger truths beyond these. We do not know if we have addressed the dissonance, but we will continue. Next we will address the WHERE. There are different systems that have become root assumptions in shared consciousness across all fragments. This happens for all forms of Sentience. This system is not in place at the beginning of incarnations, but develops over thousands, even hundreds of thousands of years of incarnation. Just like any language, it evolves. Because it is such a basic language that is relative to a body, there is little nuance that is relative to culture, race, society, etc. One of the systems is based in regions of the body as they relate to the Chakra System. One of the systems is based in quadrants of the body as they are reflective of cosmic mapping, or astrology. These two systems would be the core for the mapping, but would then be subject to the nuances of individual, cultural, or societal layers, depending upon the degrees of imprinting from family, culture, and society. We will focus on the cores today. Mapping the body using the Chakras (which could be referred to here as Centers, as well), the body then would have 7 "regions." These are, in the most simplistic of references: LEGS, GENITALIA, STOMACH, CHEST/ARMS, NECK/FACE, FOREHEAD, CROWN. Any ailment, injury, or illness specific to a region would then be interpreted as messaging relative to that region and its symbolic context. For example, digestion issues would then be in the stomach region, relative to the Moving Center/Power Chakra. The illness, injury, or ailment here would be relevant to how one is using the Moving Center, or processing through the Power Chakra, and all that this entails. Today will be quite rudimentary in example, but this can be built upon from here to become a meaningful language between yourself and your body so that processes are not simply left to suppression of symptoms and endurance of pains, but a transformation of the wounding that may be far more subtle in source. Once one has considered the Region, then the Quadrant can be considered. These would be as if the body were invisibly divided down the middle from the head, and across the chest just below the breasts. These lines are not strict, but symbolic in location. [Bobby] How would one determine the quadrant for "the Head" since it falls in the middle of a demarcation zone? [MEntity] Bobby, the head would be divided down the middle, so that one side is upper right, and the other is upper left. The UPPER LEFT tends to have messages relevant to SELF, or how one is processing "I." The LOWER LEFT tends to have messages relevant to RELATIONSHIPS, or how one processes "We." The UPPER RIGHT tends to have messages relevant to IMPRINTING, or how one processes "I AM." The LOWER RIGHT tends to have messages relevant to FUNCTION, or how one processes "They." We will elaborate upon each of these in more familiar terms, but this is a general picture. Other ways to see these might be that the UPPER LEFT is ASSIMILATION; UPPER RIGHT is EXPRESSION; LOWER LEFT is INSPIRATION; LOWER RIGHT is ACTION. Or Upper Left is (balance or imbalance of) CENTERS; Upper Right is ATTITUDE; Lower Left is MODE; Lower Right is GOAL. The correlations will tend to become obvious upon exploring this, and then can be customized to your most meaningful terms. As you might immediately consider, ailments do not always fall so cleanly into a quadrant, or even a region, for that matter, but this is, first, because these are symbolic demarcations, and second, because the body is a whole system that cannot truly be divided. The mapping is only for the sake of simplifying the move toward conscious awareness of the language of the body, not as a static system. This can be built upon with extrapolations that we will not be able to cover here today in any meaningful depth. The mapping of WHERE, and the discernment for HOW, is half of the work for understanding your personal language of the body. The other half is entirely within the realm of WHAT, which is the specifics of the ailment, injury, or illness. What we will do now is open the floor for questions about what we have shared so far. Questions regarding your particular ailments will be addressed after this. ***QUEUE IS OPEN for questions about the topic so far**** [Janet] When you say 'upper left', I just want to clarify that this would be what I consider my left, and not left from the point of view of someone looking at me. [MEntity] Correct. We can suggest this this mapping be reversed if one is "left-handed. [Janet] I am not. [MEntity] For those who are left-handed, this might require some experimentation, but there is relevance to a dominant "side" versus "passive" side. This is reflected in such practices as Palm Reading, as well, in that the dominant hand reflects how one is expressing the self, while the passive hand reflects the inherent nature of the self. Or "the original plan" versus "what one has done with the plan." No further questions? [Bobby] guess not :-) [MEntity] If not, then we will continue with our suggestion for your workshop element of this exchange. As you begin to explore the language of your body, you can find that it does not communicate with you only in terms of pain, ailments, injury, illness, but even more often in terms of pleasure, sensation, habits, preferences, etc. Much can be revealed to the self about all of the undercurrents of processing if one pays attention to this system of communication and language. What we suggest for each of you is to, literally, map the body over a period of 7 days, keeping track in two ways: ONE) Emphasize awareness of a specific Region of the body for that day, all day. Randomly check in with that area and consider it, touch it, watch how you treat it, even reading about it in terms of Center or Chakra that day for insight. TWO) Note any particular Region and Quadrant as you become aware of habits, pain, pleasure that day. You need not interpret, just note. Note if it was habit, pain, pleasure, distraction, etc., however you wish to describe the awareness drawn to it. At the end of those 7 days, note what patterns there are, both in terms of your intentional exploration, and your discoveries. Correlate these to the Centers, Chakras, Overleaves, etc., in a way that broadens your understanding of how your body is handling your use of the design of You. This can often become one of the most inspiring, intimate, and transformative experiments one can have regarding the relationship between the mind, body, and spirit, if you will. Often, this will have been the first time one has even considered the language of the body, and listened. It can be profound to finally include the most vulnerable, innocent, and unconditional parts of your Being. Keep in mind that your Being is a spectrum that begins in such innocence and vulnerability and is intentionally rooted in each Plane by the vehicle that is created for experience. The Body is as innocent as the Soul. It is just as ignored, as well, if not more so. Often, the difference is not so much how much one is ignored over the other, but how much one is resented over the other. When you can close the spectrum between Body and Soul, there is wholeness, there is a new circuitry that makes a difference. We will now open the floor to question regarding ailments, illness, injury, pleasures, habits, distractions. We cannot do the work for you in determining the messages and meaning, but we can help to bring some support to the process. [Janet] I have a current ailment but I will set that aside for a question about a past ailment. About 7 years ago something (a virus?) suddenly destroyed most of the vestibular nerve associated with my left ear. It took years and physical therapy to relearn basic balance. I find it very interesting that the left upper quadrant is associated with 'balance or imbalance' of centers. I am also 2nd level Old, and I understand that 2nd level is associated with balance and stability. I was mid-5th IM at the time, also. No specific question, other than a request for your comments about the issue in relation to the topic. [MEntity] As you can see, these scenarios often "speak for themselves" when put into perspective of the body as a map for the language. It is not a desperate language that seeks to tell you something, but a reflective language that is speaking for you. This move through the issues of balance/imbalance may have shown up very differently for someone else, but the mapping would reveal to you that this may have been about your relationship with yourself, about bringing yourself in alignment within, to deal with any sense of betrayal within. This may have been reflective of your wish to own the responsibility for wholeness, and not to focus on how this shows up in external relationships, or how you may have felt pushed out of alignment because of obligations, but returning to wholeness through your sense of will, strength, and compassion for your own pain and processes. [Maureen] Occasionally I have a really severe reaction to allergens during an allergy “season”. How are acute or seasonal pains and discomforts or flare-ups different than chronic pains and discomforts? How is my current sinus inflammation and blockage related to my intuition or my Right to Dream? I am assuming that it’s related as the blockage is very close to the 6th Chakra or Third Eye. Actually, I just had 2 sneezes (the first in 2 days) that helped clear it somewhat as I was writing this question out to you Michael. [MEntity] As we have stated, all allergies are denials. These denials are often symbolized in the details of the allergy. Denial here tends to be in terms of POWER, or RIGHT. Seasonal allergies can be ways for working through the layers of denial that continue to remain, or be rebuilt and enforced over a cycle of time. Airborne/plant allergies tend to be relative to one's denial of Power or Right for a "place" in the world. Seasonal allergies would tend to be reflective of an ongoing processing or struggle, as we said, but a chronic or persistent allergy can indicate a deep wounding relative to the symbolism of the allergy. In your case, there is some wounding, but more that there is always a struggle between vision and reality. [Maureen] that made me laugh [MEntity] "Reality" can often be quite disappointing when compared to your visions. [DianeHB] What would be associated with menstrual cramps? Challenges with the Higher Moving Center or Right to Feel? I think I have some of those. [MEntity] Menstrual cramps can be considered inherent pains of being in a female body with a process that produces some pain when releasing eggs from the ovaries, or ovulation. They often do not "mean" anything in any generated way. However, if there are diagnosed issues that exacerbate the pain, then there may be messages here. [DianeHB] Well, fuck. :P Pain killers it is then. [MEntity] Severity of cramping can be reflective of how one is relating to others in terms of intimacy, sexual or otherwise. The greater the cramping, the more likely one is dealing with rejection of feelings related to intimacy regarding one or more relationships. [MikeS] Despite living healthily and without any known genetic disposition (none of my family have it!) I suffer from high blood pressure. Am I correct in identifying my upper left as the quadrant that is sending me a message (hypertension) about how I process myself? Could you please expand on that as a means for me to sew together my understanding of the what, with the how and the where? [MEntity] When one deals with high blood pressure, it can be inherent as a result of other choices or factors, and not necessarily a generated message. It might be part of a syndrome related to, say, weight gain, stresses, sleeplessness, etc. However, if it is a generated message, it is often about how one is relating to the current self as compared to the past. It can be reflective of the process of releasing the past as the standard for comparison. It can be a process of dealing what "Who I Am" vs "Who I Thought I Would Be." And this can be either negatively charged, positively charged, but often a mix of both. This is about how you show up in the world, then, as a result of this. The What would be "hypertension" in the primary Where of Upper Left and Heart Chakra Region. We have not gone into the details of the What, but we think that many of the "what" are fairly literal, and there are some fragments who have done the work of general interpretation that we feel is fair enough as a starting reference. [MikeS] Would the role of Artisan be more likely to 'make' a condition like hypertension? [MEntity] You would want to play with the various correlations for the Where for greatest range of insight. No, we do not find much consistency in terms of ailments correlating to Roles. [Jana_K] I had a fungal problem with the two smallest toenails on my left foot for about 18 years now. I have tried to treat it chemically, mechanically, diet-wise, and nothing has got rid of it, though I have to say that I have not persevered 100% with any of those methods due to the amount of effort required. I have only marginally looked into possible body-messages meaning, until just now. It's in the quadrant of Relationships, according to what you have just related. Feet/leg problems in general, according to Valeri Sinelnikov's book "Love Thy Illness", are about strong fear of future, fear or reluctance to move forward in life. Does that correspond to LEGS, in your system? And which Chakra is that tied to - Root (1st)? Further, Sinelnikov says that he found that people who suffer from fungal infections strongly dwell on old experiences, wrong-doings and injustices. That their old views have "got mouldy". That they do not wish to give up the past, and allow it to drive their present. And this in turn stops them going forward in life (back to legs/feet in general). Nail issues in general according to him then signify feeling of vulnerability and constant danger. Could you comment and give me a steer in the interpretation? [MEntity] Yes, this would correspond to LEGS and ROOT/INSTINCTIVE. It is valid that fungal infections tend to be reflective of extremely old and outdated beliefs related to the past that are held onto in ways that are distracting at best, and lethal at worst. They are in direct conflict with efforts to move forward, and become quite highlighted in the body. In your case, these would appear to be minor, but persistent. The Quadrant suggests these are related to your processing of trust in the future of a relationship. It may mean that while you willing go forward, there is always a nagging, distracting insistence that speaks to an old idea about being discovered to be ugly, to not be seen beyond some of your private behaviors, or having trouble integrating those into a relationship. It may speak to a justification for "hiding." [Jana_K] that makes soooo much sense [MEntity] It may speak to the justification for needing to tend to yourself because you would not want that burden to be upon another. And so on. We merely offer suggestions, but you can extrapolate from there. In breaking "the code," so to speak, many of these conditions may find near-miraculous reversals if the underlying pattern is brought to consciousness for processing. [ClaireC] I have chronic pain in my right shoulder blade from a very old repetitive strain injury which persists regardless of any treatment. Can you offer me any insight on this? [MEntity] First, you would want to look at the nature of the original repetitive strain injury. Was this scathing by the very nature of the effort? [ClaireC] Yes [MEntity] In that case, it is most likely a matter of the nature of the physical plane and being in a body when using it in a certain way. If someone tries to lift a car and hurts his back, it is often just a message that the car was heavy. It may be that your repetitive injury is along that vein. Nothing metaphysical or reflective of underlying processes, but natural scathing. [ClaireC] But the pain continues long after I discontinued that action (using a computer mouse, of all things) :-) [MEntity] However, for such a persistent condition, relief and repair can still be gained through insight. [ClaireC] Yes, that is what I'm hoping.... How would this be related to Expression? [MEntity] The origin of the persistent pain might be reflective of your Imprinting and how repetitive behaviors fulfilled some of your fears about who/how you may become, while the process of effort for healing is the undoing of the momentum of that past. [ClaireC] That is helpful. [MEntity] These more insidious levels of imprinting can take a great deal of time for undoing. The effects may already be in the life, so it can seem that there is no way to undo the "damage," much like the repetitive strain seems to have left you, but this is a distraction. It is in the space between the pain that the truth can be found. The pain may return, may be persistent, but it is not always there, and when the emphasis can be found in that focus of freedom, however short-lived, it can begin to expand in time and space. The pain is a process, it is resistance. Pain is always resistance. But that is to be expected from such long-term momentum. It is like tapping on the brakes of a car that was speeding at 100 kilometers per hour. It is a careful resistance to change speed, to reverse directions, or merely to turn a corner. Embrace this pain as part of the process, while including the breaks between as the truth of the process, and experiment with the effects of this. [ClaireC] Thank you, Michael, I will. [MEntity] We must conclude here for today. Each of you are walking vessels of truths, processes, and messages. Most of this is ignored until between lives, but you are expressing courage and consciousness in your willingness to hear yourselves in new ways. This is Good Work. Good evening to each of you. Goodbye.

OMW - Aug 6, 2011 - Validating Your Profile Channel: Troy Tolley [MEntity] Hello to everyone. We are here. We will begin with discussion about the concept of Validation. We have shared on this subject many times, but will do so again, as it is a subject worth revisiting on a regular basis, or as necessary for rekindling the active process of validating. We have described the processes of Validation to include INTERNAL Validation, EXTERNAL Validation, and TRUE Validation. INTERNAL Validation is the process of determining what is valid and true for the self, and this does not have to be valid and true for anyone else. EXTERNAL Validation is the process of determining what is valid and true for others, and this is not always valid or true for the self. TRUE Validation is the process of matching Internal and External Validation into a kind of wholeness. The Validation process is never about absolutes, and is always about personal truths. Truth that is from the Global or Universal Levels of Truth require no validation for them to be Truths, but Internal and External Validation can help one to work with those truths, reject them, work around them, etc. For instance, Gravity is true for your planet and everyone on it, regardless of whether you have validated this for yourself, or not. However, if you fall down, you now have an experience that may validated the truth of Gravity for you, Internally validating it. If you see someone else fall down, you may then have witnessed the validity of Gravity for others, Externally validating it. This is True Validation. But in terms of Validation, it only means that it is now "true for you." However true and valid Gravity may be, there may be some who refuse to validate it for themselves, or they ignore the implications of what falling down may mean. This kind of logic and equation, if you will, remains the same for Universal, Global, and Personal Truths. NONE of them are true and valid for YOU until you Validate them. Validating from only one side, Internally or Externally, does not mean a truth is half-valid, or not valid, but that it is only true IN THOSE CONTEXTS. For instance, Love is a Universal Truth. You may have validated that it exists Externally, because you see it play out around you, and hear about it, and know others claim to have experienced it, but you have never truly grasped the validity of it for yourself. This means that Love is true and valid Externally, but not Internally. For YOU. Conversely, you may have grasped the magnitude of what Love truly is, moving unconditionally and with agape through your social and intimate relationships, accepting yourself and others, but having a hard time seeing this same state played out among your fellow humans in the world; seeing a great lack of love around you in others' lives. You know that Love is True. For YOU. But you have not Externally validated it in a way that it shows up in the world around you. Keeping this difference between Internal Validation and External Validation in mind can free you from a great deal of confusion and frustration when one is lacking. We often see our students using Validation as a form of defense against participation in the world, or as a means to delude themselves, or resist ideas and insights, because they have decided what is true Internally, but forget that it can also be validated Externally. Some of our students decide what their Overleaves and Role are, and regardless of feedback or evidence to the contrary, or evolving understanding through study, will continue to uphold that those Overleaves are valid. And they are. To them. And some think this is as far as Validation needs to go. Others may receive an inaccurate set of Overleaves from a channel and then work hard to make those Overleaves fit, because this set has been presented as valid, Externally, via the channel. Some think this is as far as Validation needs to go. In other words, Validation is reduced to "If I say it is true, that is all that matters." or "If [a channel] says it is true, then it must be." To some extent, both of those statements are true and valid, but only if you decide they are. Determining what is true for you, or accepting as truth what is true for others, are fair ways to work through experiments and explorations of the Physical Plane, but neither of these bring wholeness, and neither of these allows you or Essence to be fully present in your world. True Validation is not "easy," and it is often a dangerous obstacle to evolution, but it is also one of the only ways to truly evolve. When we say that it is "not easy," we mean that it is not often the case that you can find Internal and External agreement for validation. When we say that it can be a "dangerous obstacle to evolution," we mean that sometimes when both Internal and External validation matches up, those involved can resign from validating or questioning beyond that. An example of the first might be a homosexual teen who knows "who he is," and yet his family insists he is wrong about, or for, his sexuality. An example of the latter might be something like that which comes from cult thinking, such as "Jim Jones," "Manson," or "Heaven's Gate." This is why we build into our teaching an insecurity or instability that will always remain as a means to keep our students questioning, grappling, trying to make sense, taking separate stances, etc., because it is a teaching that supports your evolution, and is not meant to provide comfort and sanctuary. As soon as all of our students would agree, this teaching would no longer be a teaching. We share all of this with you because the process of Validation is not as simple as deciding what the truth is, and it is not as simple as someone else deciding what the truth is, and it is not as simple as everyone agreeing. It could be said, then, that Validation is "an active, conscious, constant navigation of Internal and External truths that can never be presumed conclusive." Before we get into the Overleaves, we will share one more consideration regarding Validation. Validation is a Monadal Process: a process of returning to a state of wholeness that is compromised of seemingly contrary or divided forces or states. This Wholeness is ultimately greater than the sum of the parts. Validation, then, is a constant dance between Internal and External truths. When one insists on one or the other, division is the result, regardless of how true something may be Internally or Externally. But there is a solution, even if only temporary, along the way to True Validation. And along the way through True Validation. And that is through the truth of: I DO NOT KNOW. Or: THEY MAY NOT KNOW. Taking the example of the homosexual teen who has struggled with accepting his sexuality, and has done so with great love, but is rejected by family for having done so, with their insisting he is wrong or bad, how can Wholeness for the teen come from this? He would embrace these conflicting truths, allow them to exist, under the umbrella of "THEY MAY NOT KNOW" and "I DO NOT KNOW. In this case, "They May Not Know" would refer to the fact that the family may simply not understand that that this difference in sexuality is of no threat, no consequence, no sin, and nothing more than a small part of him. This grasping of their lack of knowing can help to cultivate patience, and to help deflect the personal feelings of rejection and hurt that come from their lack of knowing. "I DO NOT KNOW" might refer to the fact that he does not have the skills right now to manage the rejection, the necessity to educate them, the impact of their words, etc. NOT KNOWING is always a viable bridge between conflicting truths. It "buys you time," allows for patience, compassion, effort, awareness, insight, perception, etc to come into the process. To be even more inviting of those helpful qualities, it might be helpful to add: "It is okay for now... that I do not know." or "It is okay for now, that they do not know." All of what we have shared above can help in the process of validating your Profile, Overleaves, Essence, and all channeling that might come through our channels, as well as your explorations of self, relationships, choices, and life. It can also help you in moments of conflicting truths where the battle to impose an External Truth over yourself, or to impose an Internal Truth over others, is simply useless and pointless. True Validation never comes through imposition, but through education and invitation. If you find that you are uncomfortable with a truth, or trying to force a truth, it does not necessarily mean that this truth is not valid, but that you "do not know." And that is as profound to embrace as knowing. Now we will move this into application for validating your Overleaves. Before we take on specific questions, we will say that the above can be applied in this way: Your Overleaves can be Internally Validated by you through your understanding of the terminology and how those accurately describe and lend insight into how you understand yourself. Your Overleaves can be Externally Validated by others through your seeing the behavior and feedback of others in relation to you, as you gain this self-understanding. External Validation of your Overleaves does not necessarily mean that someone else decides, "yes, that term fits." To rely only on confirmation of terminology would never give you True Validation. But if you find that your Internal Validation of the terms as they help you understand yourself is also affecting how others respond and react to you, as well as how you respond and react to them, then you may have found True Validation. In any case of terminology where you may not KNOW, the next steps are education and invitation. Which is why we are here with you today. We will leave it to Geraldine to choose the order of the questioning, but we will now open the floor to your questions about specific elements of your Profile. We will offer what we can for help in your, at least, Internally Validating the term, and then your External Validation may come in time. FLOOR IS OPEN [Martha] my question is about true vs public/private - is that on the table? [MEntity] Yes, Martha. Formulate your question about this and we will respond. [Martha] some of the overleaves for me are so different between true - public - private that it seems it speaks to me not having my subs integrated or something along those lines especially the centering was completely different for each one so some help with understanding that is what I'm looking for [MEntity] The Public and Private sets of Overleaves are shortcuts to understanding how, in general, one wishes to be seen, and how one is seen. They do not speak to sub-personalities, but do speak to the facets/personas that one may have developed. In your case, your sets describe the distance between how you see yourself vs how others see you, or how you wish to present yourself vs how you tend to be received. [Martha] So I act like a server and look like a warrior? LOL [MEntity] Though personas/facets may be related to sub-personalities, they are not necessarily connected. [Martha] or act like a warrior and look like a server? [Martha] but all sage cast :) [Martha] it's confusing [MEntity] In your case, the profiles speak more to the fact that you find yourself falling into positions of subservience and nurturing on a rather regular basis, but because of the resentments that may come from that, you can show up as harsh, frustrated, coercive, pushy. To respond to the Sage Casting for both, it would simply mean that you will still be expressive in either case, and often in loud ways. [Diane_H] I would like more clarity on Server casting. How I use it, etc. You previously mentioned I mainly serve myself, which I agree with. But most of my days I act more Scholarly. [MEntity] Though the Role is how one "shines" in the world, it requires the presence, or Manifestation, of Essence for that to happen on any regular basis, and this is something a Personality may or may not strive to do in a lifetime. However, Casting will always show up, as it is how the Personality defaults to functioning on a day-to-day basis. To help with Validation of any Role or Casting Position, it can help to look at other qualities that describe that Axis. In the case of the Server, you would want to look at the fact that this is an Ordinal Casting, first. It is Ordinal/Inspirational, next. This means that on a day-to-day basis, you may find that you naturally gravitate toward one-on-one scenarios, rather than group scenarios, and because you are Inspirationally-Cast, it would mean these one-on-one scenarios may require some sort of Meaning for them to be at all. [Diane_H] That's true, I hadn't thought about the Inspirational aspect. [MEntity] If something of Meaning can be brought to the exchange, then it may be more comfortable or pursued, but meaningless or random social or intimate contact is usually not of interest to the day-to-day functioning. The Priest seeks to bring Meaning to the masses, or a path to the creation of Meaning, whereas the Server seeks to bringing Meaning to the individual, or at least a path to the creation of that Meaning. [Diane_H] That really fits. [MEntity] If Server Casting is valid for you, it may show up as your being an important contact person for an important handful of fragments over time as you connect them to Meaning. Looking further, it might show up as a Re-evaluation in your pursuit of your Goal, Reserved in your Relationships, Stoic in your Perceptions, and even Self-deprecating, in general, in your day-to-day functioning. Re-evaluation of your Goal would show up as your constantly ebbing and flowing, halting and launching, always questioning the progress of your pursuit of your actual Goal in terms of the Overleaf, but also in terms of general goals, such as career. [Diane_H] Wow, that's a bull's-eye [MEntity] Reservation in your Relationships would mean always monitoring yourself, sometimes with Restraint, and sometimes with Inhibition, as you build yourself up in contexts of intimacy and resonance. The Stoicism in Perceptions might show up as your always keeping cool, or appearing cool, unfazed, no matter what you see, or how something is perceived, sometimes through Tranquility, and sometimes through Resignation. Though you will have your spectrum of Overleaves that describe you in much more detail, your Casting Position is like a packaged form of that entire Axis, and it will permeate the other Overleaves in some way. [Diane_H] But I also have all neutral overleaves, how would I begin to tell the difference between sliding and effects of casting? [Diane_H] Or perhaps I slide to the Server overleaves more easily? [MEntity] Neutral Overleaves ALWAYS appear like other Overleaves, hence their being Neutral. Neutral Overleaves will always "slide" as a means for functioning, and they may often go to the Axis of the Role or Casting. In your case, for you to truly Flow, you will slide to Growth or Dominance. Both of these are on the Axes related to your Casting and Role. The GOAL will remain the same, which is to Flow, but your means of Flow is to sometimes turn your challenges into opportunities for Growth/Evolution, and sometimes into opportunities to return yourself to a position of Dominance/Leadership. Validating Neutral Overleaves will always go back to looking at the Positive and Negative Poles as descriptions of where you land. For example, you tend to "take charge" and move into Dominance because you have fallen into Inertia, or feeling like life is not going anywhere, or is moving in a direction you would rather alter, and though you will use Dominance to alter that Inertia, it is still for the sake of Freedom, or returning yourself to a state of peace, not a state of control. [Diane_H] Very true [ClaireC] My "True Work/Life Task" seems rather abstract, no doubt because it probably relates to the "Big Picture". I'm able to validate that I do find commonalities amongst apparently disparate people and groups of people, however, could you give me other examples of how the pursuit of my "Task" has manifested in my life? [MEntity] Yes, Life Tasks are deliberately broad in scope, because we do not wish to define for you how you fulfill your Tasks, but our descriptions should still be able to be found in evidence, if valid, and if the Task is actually pursued. In some cases the evidence is obvious and grand, and in some cases, it is "right under your nose," and completely missed. In your case, the pursuit of this Life Task is still being explored, and there are only hints of its fulfillment at the moment. Most paths of fulfillment of a Life Task are rather subtle in the beginning, and are often not even clear until retrospect is possible. Your pursuit seems to show up most often in two ways: through being "in the middle" between those who are divided in some way, and by pulling together concepts from various systems that can then be translated into something useful for yourself or someone else. You seem to do this so naturally that you might even take it for granted. [ClaireC] Yes, this really resonates with me. [MEntity] Some may dive into a system and that becomes a core around which other systems must adapt, which is just as valid a means of exploration as any, but in your case, your Life Task is to bring systems together like gears in a clock. And by "systems," we also include people. For now, with minimal evidence of your Life Task, we can offer this up as a means to help with your Validation: Beneath your relationships and philosophies, you may find a dominant undercurrent question that may be something like, "Now, how and where does THIS fit..." [ClaireC] That's exactly how I function....like a giant jigsaw puzzle [MEntity] Others may relate to that kind of questioning, as well, but in your case, it shapes a great deal of your choices and pursuits, all funneling into the Life Task to find or create commonalities/common ground within various systems. [carolyn] Hello it's vey good to meet you here. I would like to ask if stepping into a designated "space of information" regarding the nine realities, could be used as a valid way of creating greater understanding around the True Validation of Overleaves. Particularly if this involved working in tandem with an entity mate or someone from your Circle of Support [MEntity] If we are understanding you correctly, we would say that is a valid means for bringing True Validation. This would be a process of recognizing that you may not share the same understanding, insight, experiences, "reality," but that your intention to invite and educate so that you can build some shared understanding, insight, experiences, and even "reality," then. It can also be the same if you already share these things, so that feedback is felt to be trusted and honest when exploring who you are to yourself and someone else. [carolyn] Share the same Overleaves? [carolyn] Well an aspect of your overleaves to be more precise. [MEntity] If you already share a reality with someone, share truths, share perceptions, it can be helpful for the validation process, but only if the intention is for validation, and not justification. [carolyn] By "inviting" say the Enlightenment position from your Circle of Support to assist, could this help further validate as opposed to justify? [MEntity] Those who share the same overleaves may show up as completely different Personalities because of how those Overleaves are used, so this would need to be considered, but there would be core traits that can be used by both. An Enlightenment Position from your Support Circle, such as we are for you and our students, is quite helpful for validation of such esoteric, philosophical, and intangible elements of the self and life. The Enlightenment Position helps one to develop the structures through which experiences are organized, understood, and processed, and having that in place can help a great deal when seeking True Validation of anything. Have we understood your questions accurately? [carolyn] Yes, thank you. [Geraldine] I've never completely validated to my satisfaction that I'm Sage-casted Sage; however, I think that is in large part due to poor definitions for Old Soul Sages in positive poles. I've validated my saginess more from how I acted when younger more than as I've been during the past 20 years or so. Although, I'm accepting that Old Sages may be far more wise and involved with truth than we give them credit for being. But, I liked how you worked with Diane's casting based on her Axis. Would you do similarly for me, even though I have matching casting/role? [MEntity] First, we will say that in the case of Sage for Casting or Role, the "packaging" would include Acceptance, Power, and Idealism, even Greed. In your case, these would show up not only when you "shine," but as a means for functioning on a day-to-day basis. Regardless of Soul Age, Sages will ALWAYS be affected by issues of Acceptance, and regardless of the Goal, will always move in directions that support or encourage Acceptance. This progresses in cycles of pushing for Acceptance of the self and of pushing for Acceptance of others. Beneath every motivation of a Sage is somehow connected to the pursuit of being Accepted. [Geraldine] Yes, I'm prone to a sweeping feeling of being rejected on a heartbeat. [MEntity] In other words, Dissemination or Oration will always be related to a Sage's navigation of Acceptance. For example, most Sages who Orate do so as a means to compensate for a sense of not being Accepted. [carolyn] I was cast with Sage as a discarnate Essence Twin, Priest role and Artisan cast. They all seem to fit on some level. [MEntity] Common to the motivation of all Sages would be statements that might go something like "I am telling you this so you can accept me;" or "I am telling you this so you can accept that;" or "I am telling you this so you can accept you;" or "I am telling you this so I can express my acceptance." [Martha] Oh yeah, that fits [Martha] A Sage must have come up with the "Like" button [MEntity] Going further, all Sages take a stance of Authority or Oppression in terms of relating information to you. Sages RELATE to the world, or to others, in terms of Expression in the face of Oppression, or sharing information as an Authority on that particular information. Power Mode is about being Present, and this is how Sages make their presence known. This is why Sages can come across as "obnoxious" and as "know it alls," because this is their nature: to be themselves, even when you wish they would not, and to speak or communicate with confidence, even as they know there may be more to learn. Sages have PRESENCE, or in our system, POWER. Sages cannot relate to others without feeling PRESENT. Otherwise, they are invisible, and invisible equals non-existent. No other Role (or Casting) requires their Presence to be known as a means for experiencing existence. Sages must show up somehow, to someone, or they die, either or both metaphorically and literally. Going further, all Sages, regardless of Soul Age, see the world in terms of how it can be improved. Regardless of the Attitude of the Personality, there will always be a theme of communicating for the sake of improving what has been deemed in need of improvement, whether this is a slow conversation, an awkward moment, a relationship, or a paradigm. Sages may do this through telling you all of the steps necessary for that improvement (coalescence) or by simply telling you it needs to improve (naivety). To Geraldine: are you finding resonance with these descriptions? [Martha] (I know I am) [MEntity] We will continue. In terms of the validating your Overleaves, will offer up statements and questions that can help in determining the validity of your set of Overleaves: [Geraldine] (and yes, I was) [MEntity] For your GOAL, a helpful way to understand how it shows up in your life is to ask: Is this a state to which I constantly strive to return my life, or the lives of others? For instance, those with a Goal of Acceptance will always find a theme of effort to be accepted, accept themselves, accept others, and encourage others to accept each other. Always. No matter what is going on in the life, the pursuit of this quality represented by the Goal is always a motivating factor in every choice. The Positive Pole is usually the most obvious way to find the validation in terms of your aim, and the Negative Pole is usually the most obvious in terms of when you feel the most ineffective or defeated. In other words, someone in Discrimination may see it most obviously in terms of moving his life into a state of refinement, or Sophistication, but can also validate Discrimination by seeing that he turns to Rejection as a way of dealing with defeat or ineffectiveness. Acceptance can see that he aims for bringing more affection or Agape into his life and the lives of others, but responds with Ingratiation when feeling defeated or ineffective in doing so. For your MODE, it can most often be validated by what you seek to encourage out of others, and what you often see is missing in others. For instance, Passion Mode would tend to encourage Passion out of others, and may gravitate toward others who lack Passion. Observation Mode might encourage others to pay more attention, and often gravitate toward those who have a hard time seeing clearly. For the ATTITUDE, it may be most easily validated by seeing what it is you most often find yourself trying to convince in others. The Spiritualist will try to convince others to the possibilities, and the Cynic might try to convince others to see the other side of the obvious, while the Idealist would try to convince others that the self, relationship, life can always be improved upon. We do not have time in this format to go through each overleaf, but these efforts to convince can show up in both positive and negative ways, relative to the poles. For instance, the Spiritualist would seek to convince others of possibilities, and can do so through helping others verify those possibilities, or by encouraging blind faith, or belief. In another format, in another time, we can describe all of the overleaves in terms that are far more capable of use for validation. We will conclude here for today. Our channel is fading in focus. Good day to each of you. Goodbye.

March 2, 2000 Troy Tolley, Channel Conscious Connection to Essence 3 of 3 Note: This series begins with Michael Speaks -- Conscious Connection to Essence (1 of 3) [Michael_Entity] Hello to all. We are here. One moment. In our sharing with you our various perspectives of what is and isn’t being conscious of Essence, we believe a practical examination of each Essence Role would be beneficial. In our examination we will share what we perceive are the Maya (or Great Lesson) of that particular role and a more ‘organic’ approach to determining what might be considered rejection of Essence or what might be considered acceptance of Essence. We will note here that the positive and negative poles of the Essence ARE NOT indications of being conscious or accepting of Essence. A fragment in the Negative Poles is just as potentially “in Essence” as a fragment in the positive poles, at least in terms of experiencing its life. What we have sought to exchange with you is what it means to reject Essence or accept Essence as part of your primary being. Those who reject Essence are in deep isolation and a myriad of other traumatic or deteriorating experiences, regardless of how together their life appears or how wonderful their work and relationships and successes are. Those who are accepting and conscious of Essence usually have the enthusiasm to ‘make the best of everything’, even in the midst of what ‘should’ be devastating. Poverty, drama, accidents, horror are NOT signs of disconnection from Essence, they are merely experiences. A positive pole role can still be at its apparent ‘best’ yet still be disconnected from Essence. A negative pole role can be as difficult and trying as expected, and be conscious. The keys are in the act of Decisions and CHOICES. In the moments of your darkest despair, if you can “look up” and recognize that this space is simply where you are at the moment, even if you seek no resolution beyond that realization, half of your battle is completed. When you say “yes, this is where I am right now, I know I could do something but I do not feel like it right now”, you have granted yourself an open door to Essence. Acknowledging your state of mind, your resistance, your struggles, etc. are in that very moment your decision and choice to allow or change, you become immediately centered and present, regardless of your choice in either direction. This will immediately and in that moment connect you consciously to Essence. This does not mean your mood or situation will magically remove itself from your life, but you have opened your world and option for greater probabilities by that single choice, a millionfold. Besides your initial acknowledgment that you may have dropped your connection to Essence, we will say that the most powerful and profound choice you can make next is to ASK FOR HELP. The body is not designed to sustain animation and life without connection to Essence for any extended period of time once sentience has moved in. We want to note at this point that there is no REAL disconnection from Essence; we merely use these terms for convenience, even the term ‘rejection’ is inaccurate in light of the truth, but these terms capture the experience and we will continue to use them with this understanding. We will begin now with each Essence, but first, we will pause for a few questions, if there are any, about what we have shared thus far. [nemo999] What are the most common states of mind? Pleasure, pain, depression, sadness, happiness, attention, boredom … are these states of mind or are they illusion? [Michael_Entity] This set of descriptions are only conveniences to describe whatever a person interprets as their reality in the moment. They are highly subjective and can refer to either illusions or what you have called ‘states of mind.’ They are all ‘real’ to a person experiencing. The definition of ‘illusion,’ or Maya as we prefer, is in the apparent indulgence in a ‘truth’ that is subjectively inappropriate for the fragment. There are some Maya that are shared collectively, some that are individual. Despite the fact that Personal Truth will render all of these experiences “real”, we will share a little of our perception. Depression from your list can be considered a collective ‘illusion,’ and one that is a deep indulgence in Maya, though very ‘real’ when inside of it. Depression is a resigned stance toward the life, an emotional suicide based on one or more of the Chief Features. This is not a judgment. When one is in Depression, we differentiate this from Grief. Depression is literally the consistent and insistent effort to reject the life. If Depression is being experienced, acknowledge that you are where you are in your experience, and ask for help. Depression is one of many Maya that creates a situation where intervention from outside forces is required. Pain from your list can be either Maya or “real”, but is always a symptom of resistance or friction, which we do not see as inherently good or bad, merely resistance to some Growth. Pleasure is always a symptom of higher awareness and connection to Essence. Sadness can be either, though if tears are involved, recognition of a truth on some level is occurring. If there are no tears, this is most likely a form of Depression. Boredom is always a symptom of Maya and is a literal self-lie to remove responsibility. When Boredom is indulged in, you are living in a space of time that was created from want of “having more time”, then when it arrives, you seek to fill it. This all happens because creation on the Physical Plane is denser and slower, therefore the space and time sought “shows up”, but sometimes out of synch with your faster moving mind. Making a note that Boredom is a sign of forgetting your original intentions can help make more of that time. It is not required, of course, that you continue with your original intentions, but release the judgments about EXPERIENCING the slowing of time and take a moment to stop. When we say this is a self-lie to remove responsibility, we mean this in terms of being able to respond, not in terms of discipline. [Azure362] What happens when one fragment is deriving pleasure from another fragment’s pain? Here is where I get confused. This encompasses all these levels, personal or collective, as in when society feels some sort of pleasure at putting some fragment to death, as in capitol punishment. So this would not be true connection to Essence then? So it is safe to say that some pleasures are of Maya? [Michael_Entity] That is difficult to reconcile within the confines of the Physical Plane. We do not expect you to reconcile that, nor do we think it can be. Sometimes events are not understandable by Personality. We will say, however, that True pleasure is rarely experienced at the expense of another, unless both Essences involved have a mutual agreement for something that is otherwise seen as horrific. We will define true pleasure as being that which retains the recognition of the choice of others. If the choice of other is interfered with, then this cannot be true pleasure, it is only stimulation. And, no, it is not correct to say some pleasures are of Maya. Pleasure that interferes with the life, path, or choice of another is stimulation, not true pleasure. [Azure362] And then it is true pleasure that connects to Essence? I think I am getting it. Sorry, lol, but I see some fragments getting pleasure out of stimulation as such ? [Michael_Entity] Consider the image of a person gratified by eating a chocolate bar versus that of one being gratified by stealing the chocolate from a child. You will most likely intuit the difference. It is not complex when examined and the differences between self-stimulation and true pleasure are glaring. Again, the difference is in the lack of interference of choice in another. Our system of Personality and Essence is comparatively quite simple and each part of the system is dynamically linked to other parts, leading to what many have called Michael Math. Each role, attitude, CF, center, etc. are all linked by their axis. For instance, the Ordinal Inspiration will have re-evaluation, reserve, stoic, emotional, self-deprecation, and lunar body types, along with the Server, and the attributes of the number one. Therefore, as we discuss each role tonight in its disconnection from Essence, you might also recognize in that disconnection a link to that role’s inherent Chief Feature. In this instance, though, we might call it “The Great Lesson”. This is not a term we prefer, but it is one our channel found appropriate and we do not disagree, though more creative ways of seeing this will surely come from our sharing with you. Therefore, each Essence will have its “Great Lesson” and this ‘lesson’ will always recur each lifetime in some form. There will be no lifetime that does not struggle with this ‘lesson’, however briefly. Regardless of the dynamics of personality and its chosen emphasis of challenge, the Essence IN ITSELF has its challenges, though it is seen from a very different perspective and eagerly played with. This results from Essence “forgetting” the inherent challenges of the physical plane while being Astral. The body has to regain consciousness each lifetime regardless of soul age and seeks to grow back into the soul age last reached in the previous life. We will also note here that each of these scenarios we might mention in regard to the Roles can be applied to each of you since you may relate it to your own CF that then relates to the Role we are describing. Each Role and CF relates to a Chakra, or Center, and this can also lead to connections. We suggest you only focus on your Role for now, figuring in the consideration as to when or whether you are conscious and accepting of Essence, regardless of these extrapolations. We will begin with the SERVER. For now, we will examine the basics. When a Server is conscious and connected to Essence, regardless of its struggles and fears in the life, its Great Lesson is in discovering that it can take care of other things, nurture them, help them, be tremendously effective in catering to the nuances of needs in another all the while being able to care for self. The Server connected to Essence and conscious of that connection chooses to take care of itself no matter what is happening in the life, knowing inherently that this is the only way to truly be successful in any endeavor. The Server who is not connected to Essence chooses not only to slack in its care of self, but loses its enthusiasm to seek to care for others. This Server will seek in its universe and emphasize in its universe any and all ways to prove that things are not loving, that there is discord and that their own lives are not making a difference. They are self-deprecation, manifest. This Server has its roots in only emphasizing its own and all others inadequacy, or lack of being. This can be overt or subtle, but it will show. Their keys to bringing back a conscious connection to Essence (besides the first vital two steps, recognizing choice for where you are, and then asking for help), is in doing anything physically stimulating. Running, jogging, going dancing, anything with dirt and the ground, and getting a massage. Anything that allows contact PHYSICALLY with what is considered the “outside world” that provides data without judgment. The SERVER more than any other Role can use the past as their world and choose to gauge everything within that context, therefore, it is successful to release the past and choose experiences that bring the Server more “presence.” Next we will comment on the ARTISAN. The Artisan who is conscious of and connected to Essence is one that has learned to allow happiness into the life. This may seem deceptively simple and universally applicable, but any true Artisan can tell you that it is one of their Great Lessons to learn to like receiving and indulging in the pleasures of this world. An Artisan who is connected and conscious with Essence has true joy and enthusiasm for the life, allowing whatever levels of prosperity and abundance are appropriate at that moment. They have admitted to themselves what they wanted, what they needed, and they are allowing themselves to have it, to create it. The Artisan that is disconnected or rejecting of Essence feels their needs are too great, that they will never get what they deserve or are not worth the life used on them. Artisans are clever in their disconnection from Essence because they have helped to construct a culture that supports it. It plays on other fragments, deriving from them false compassion and pity, but nothing of value to make the life seem “worth it.” The Artisan disconnected from Essence is self-destruction, manifest. They have determined that they are not worth what they want. The Artisan can endure for years and years in this state, far longer than any other role disconnected from Essence, because this state eventually requires others to reach out and care for them, even if they are not making changes, themselves. Eventually, the Great Lesson is learned and the life is transformed. At some point, and probably more dramatically than any other role, a shift in the life occurs. This brings the Artisan into a space that says YES to life, to what it wants, recognizes its needs and says they are worth pursing it for. Ways for the Artisan to connect to Essence in times of recognized disconnection are through any form of artistic expression, but most especially painting or sculpting, making a concerted effort to GET OUT OF THE HOUSE. They can purchase things that feel fun are usually labeled “trivial”, interact with small animals, or dance privately to music. Next we will comment on the WARRIOR. The Warrior when connected and conscious with Essence finds itself in many a challenge against or within the life where there appear to be imbalances. A Warrior that is Conscious recognizes that their very nature requires them to live intentionally and with purpose of action. This means, regardless of its tediousness or turbulence, they are always out to conquer something. The Warrior connected to Essence finds itself in many situations of chaos and disorder as a means to exercise and emphasize what is and isn’t Power or Empowering. More than any other role they are more perpetually in crisis or challenge because this is truly where their “heart” lies. It may not be acceptable or as “easy” as other roles’ experiences or what the culture supports, but it is their world and it is vital. The symptoms of a Warrior connected to Essence can most likely be seen in gauging the strengths of their relationships. The Warrior disconnected or rejecting Essence feels that their life is one unrolling world of chaos and they determine they are just ‘lucky’ for what they have, relinquishing effort to make a path. More than any other role, even if arguably, the Warrior that is disconnected from Essence spends it life seeking approval and recognition, while consistently remaining in the shadows. The disconnected Warrior lays low, evades conflict, and depends on others heavily. The disconnected Warrior has a deep sense that at some point it needs to do or be something specific in order to be loved or recognized. Most of the time, this Warrior has no idea what that “something specific” is and will continue to close its circle of life down until it learns to make choices for itself, grasping that they are in control of their lives; this is their Great Lesson. The disconnected Warrior is Martyrdom manifest. This is another role that can regain connection to Essence by incorporating or balancing with heavy physical activity. Making contact with life in a physical manner that brings data into the body emphasizing security and control, such as Tai Chi or the Alexander Technique, a sport that requires coordination, or can all bring the Essence back into the picture. Asking to be held, or holding someone important can help, as well. We will address the SCHOLAR now. The Scholar that is connected to Essence and conscious has learned its Great Lesson, which revolves around the reality of shared love. This Scholar has realized with a great amount of profundity that they will not love another until they have sought to love themselves. As we have said, there are many of these Role symptoms you all may find applicable, but for each Role, you will see they are a deeper lesson when specifically considered. All other Roles have an “easier” time at loving and being loved than the Scholar does. The Scholar who is connected to Essence has realized they are whole and complete, that they like themselves and have decided to trust and open their hearts to their life. They recognize that ALL aspects of life are capable of being loved, even themselves and all the hard times passed through. When the Scholar is disconnected or rejecting of Essence, they do their best to ignore their lives, to resist the examination that not everything is fine. This Scholar refuses to examine their vulnerabilities and have not dealt with their shadow feelings, resulting in acts of dominance or power struggles. They have never experienced intimacy of any depth due to these things. They become adept at arguing their points, ignoring the pains of their past, destroying or deteriorating any relationship or person whom touches too closely too personal areas of pain and sensation. They are Stubbornness manifest. They, more than any other Role, truly fear what is called love. The disconnected Scholar can still bring in a definite resource of love into their lives, but this is usually sought only out of need for refuge, a place to securely hold up the walls around their own hearts. The Scholar disconnected from Essence can be one of the most painful and emotionally tormenting of all exchanges for someone trying to love them. Some suggestions for bringing more of Essence in might be to talk to children about their perspective on life, actually play with children or play on a child’s playground. Seeking laughter of any kind brings Essence immediately back in for a Scholar. Seeking the experience of the aroma and visuals of botanical gardens or observing the ocean can help, or having flowers within visual and olfactory range. We will address the SAGE now. The Sage in connection to Essence is the most obvious and closest to what the positive pole describes. They are TALKING. The Sage connected to Essence, regardless of what they are communicating, is at least communicating. They seek to express any and all feelings and thoughts as a means for communication. When they are angry, you know it, when they are sad, you know it, when they are happy, you know it; they will gladly tell you and tell everyone else. The Sage who is disconnected from Essence becomes silent. Of all the roles, the Sage is the most tender and fragile of all roles. We do not imply this negatively. This is simply because they are the “children” of our universe, and no physical age or soul age will ever change this. It is their “job”. As this Role pertains to communication, children, and the Intellectual Center or fifth (Throat) Chakra, you can see the fragility in a child who has been driven or shunned into silence, when the child hangs its head to cover the vulnerable communication center. This can be reflected in all ages of a Sage, as well. When a Sage has gone silent they are rejecting Essence, losing consciousness. In fact, forms of silence can range through all forms of suppression. This means this Role more than most is susceptible to addictions and substance abuses, anything to redirect the energies from having to address what wants to be said. They are Greed manifest, as they fixate on something they feel they do not have enough of, and remain struggling to attain this at the expense of life and self. Their Great Lesson is in realizing their expression and feelings are important, that what they have to say about what they are experiencing is important to someone, even if this starts out being just themselves. Ways for the Sage to regain consciousness and connection are through writing letters, reading personal journal entries to someone who will listen, sharing a personal story or poetry, trusting what you feel about a person when you first meet them, and singing out loud. We will address the PRIEST now. The Priest who has a connection to Essence realizes that life is full of many truths and each experience has its own truth. More than any other role, this role when connected to Essence has a deep and profound trust in life, knowing with true perception how to pass through the next moments and lead others through those confusions in life as well. Life is intuitively navigated. When disconnected, this Essence lives in a world of concepts and ideas, rational thinking and over-analysis. This would normally seem harmless, but the Priest disconnected from Essence enforces these rationales, ideas, and over-analysis to the point of destroying the life or misleading others as a means for false validation of beliefs. They lose their ability to adapt to the nuances of life and seek only to remain in a predefined, structured, and thought out picture of life. This removes their ability to intuit and trust in life, but creates severe judgment and enforcement of fear. This Role more than any other Role can make a lie become a profound but false truth about themselves, life, or others. They are Arrogance manifest. To help bring the Priest back into connection, we suggest to this Role more than any other to literally make time to communicate to what you consider to be your higher self, every day. We also suggest purchasing or making a set of cards with inspirational affirmations or a book of quotes that can be a “message” or “thought for the day”, or whenever in need, to help lend insight from someplace beyond analysis. And finally the KING, we will comment on. The King who has a connection to Essence is keenly aware of the fact of all possibilities, a sense of connection to all of its life. The King connected to Essence does not just live the life, it IS the life as well. This King recognizes that it is the source of all of its life, through choice, creation, and from even higher. This King sees no separation based on time or space, but only the beautiful unfolding of a life as perfect, no matter what. They do not judge the life, themselves, or others for their position in it, but instead recognizes itself in everything around it. This King has dealt with what might be called its “dark side” and now sees through that state in others, recognizing all the illusions. Limitation is never seen as an obstacle, but an important aspect of life to help direct growth. A King who has rejected Essence becomes highly separated from its life, separated within itself, and from others. Its Great Lesson is in acknowledging they are a PART of everything and everyone, not APART. This King is caught in circles of self-gratification and simple distraction for stimulation. They feel they alone are completely responsible for all achievements in life and resist any help in any form, in fact, sometimes violently. This King rejects people outright due to imperfections reflected from self and creates enormous amounts of Space and Time between those who are their most powerful support. They are Impatience manifest. This King who is rejecting of Essence will forever remain in a circle of development since they allow no other influences or support into their lives. Ways for a King to bring back a sense of connection to Essence is through visiting spiritual temples for moments of quiet and reflection, watching or reading information shared by spiritual leaders they resonate with. They can make changes in the life that reflects a commitment to the acknowledgement of the life force in all others, such as through vegetarianism or volunteer work. More than any other Role, we would have to doubly emphasize that this Role could benefit from ASKING FOR HELP. We will conclude here. Since this session ran so long, we will not be able to respond to questions in this forum, but we invite your questions through your list or discussion forum at Otterly’s [aka Troy Tolley] site. Good Night.