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OMW - Oct 22, 2011 - What is WRONG with me? MEntity channeled by Troy Tolley CocteauBoy SAYS: because today is a small class, do your best to really focus. We are going to experiment with a highly-interactive session today, so you'll have to answer questions, etc. At least, that's what I'm going to ask Michael to try out today. 9:32 AM 10/22/2011 [MEntity] Hello to each of you. We are here. We understand the subject to be that of the sort that asks "what is wrong with me?" This kind of question is asked in one of two ways: inquisitively and rhetorically. When it is asked inquisitively, insight can be gained, and the concept of "wrong" is held clearly as meaning only that comparison between one state and a presumably improved state. It is a form of self-awareness to ask this question, even if the wording is a bit crude. When it is asked rhetorically, it is only asked as a means to condemn the self, to undermine it, and is not interested in any actual answer. It is a form of self-delusion to ask this question in such a way, giving rise to voices that are not your own, but claiming them as if they are your own. So we will ask each of you, first: Do you ask "what is wrong with me?" as a form of self-awareness or as a form of condemnation? This question is not a test; it is a direct question toward your capacity for honesty in this. [Brian_W] usually condemnation [Martha] usually self-awareness [ML] well...both. More the former than the latter [GeraldineB] I rarely ask the question any more [Brian_W] looks like we got all four possible answers [MEntity] Owning the difference between inquisitive and rhetorical can help you greatly when the question is asked. When it is inquisitive, you will not mistake it as an insult, but as a friendly jab, if you will, toward a direction of improvement to your liking. When it is rhetorical, you will not mistake it as an honest question, but as a voice of condemnation that is not your own, and you may then provide yourself with the comfort you need in that moment. When you ask the question inquisitively, you inherently know what to do, for the most part: you simply learn from your experiences and continue with experiments. When you ask the question rhetorically, you are so confused about what to do, that you you miss the need and craving beneath the words. For most, the rhetorical question of "what is wrong with me?" means: "Fill_in_the_blank was right about me." This could be a vague "they" or a specific person, such as a caretaker or group of peers. But it is almost always a resignation into someone else's decision that you are not worth their time, not worth their energy, that you are not enough, that you think you are too much, that you are not worth living for, that you want too much, that you do not have enough, that you did not change enough, etc. He, She, They were right. Are right. And I am wrong. Of course, this is often tied directly to your own Chief Negative Features. In almost all cases, it is tied to the Secondary Chief Negative Feature. [Martha] so would this be worse for someone with Self dep as their secondary? [MEntity] Martha, we cannot compare the effects of this rhetorical questioning. It is hurtful to all of you. Based on those attending today, we can say that your rhetorical "What is wrong with me" are stating: They were right - I am not good enough (self-deprecation). They were right - I am too much (arrogance). They were right - I am not worth their time (impatience). If we have your secondary Chief Features incorrect, please correct us. [ML] oh, you were right on, in my case [Martha] looks right [ML] and, what about the 'default' CF, based on our roles....does that play a part? [Brian_W] lately I can see mine sliding to self-destruction, but yes, self-dep is definitely at play here [MEntity] Brian - we do not see Self-destruction at play here, but you know yourself better than we do. We would suggest, however, that destroying or ignoring all forms of inspiration and crippling of your emotional body are at the heart of your "they were right." Self-destruction tends to destroy the capacity for Expression and cripples the Intellect, which we would agree is partially at play here, but at the "heart" of your "they were right" is more along the lines of "life sucks," or "I suck," or "they suck." It is an Inspirational issue. Life is not good enough for you. You are not getting out of life what you presumed was promised or earned. You uphold yourself, others, and life to standards that teeter with an "all or nothing" differentiation. And to that extent, we see your "What is wrong with me?" as being rooted in your Inspirational issues. Everything goes back to your "being good enough." Everything goes back to others "being good enough." Everything goes back to everything either being good enough, or not. And keep in mind that your Chief Negative Features are not just imposed upon yourself, but upon the world and others, as well, so that it is not just you that is not good enough, but others and experiences. [GeraldineB] As a comment, I've noticed that Troy also uses the question in rhetorical fashion in terms of grappling with his crises and scheduling [MEntity] To Geraldine - we would agree. We know of very few Older souls who do not use the question rhetorically. When the question is asked rhetorically, it is the Baby or Young Soul within you that is asking. It is the immature part of you and even of your Essence. If there were no immature parts of Essence, there would be no necessity for evolution and reincarnation. Essence is not without its own deficits in understanding, or its issues, though they are defined and processed rather differently. We do not use the term "immature" as an insulting term, but as a legitimate term to describe the necessity for experience as a means to gain confidence around a particular thing. Regardless of one's technical Soul Age, all previous Soul Ages exist within, and they exist as a full spectrum, so the question comes from the more restricted end of Baby or Young perspectives, in most cases. The Mature and Old parts of you know that "wrong" is a useless term. Because the Physical Plane presence and Body tend to be the focus when "what is wrong with me" comes into play, it immediately draws from the perspectives most-associated with that focus, which are the Baby and Young cycles. [Martha] that's sure the focus for me when it comes up [MEntity] So whether this question comes from that Baby and Young part of your Essence, or from the Chief Negative Features of your current Personality, it is a two-fold matter: One - that it is a lack of experience, or an ignoring of experiences. Two - a craving for comfort; to be reminded or assured that everything will be ok. [Brian_W] YES [MariLynn] ditto [MEntity] So we will ask now: When you ask "what is wrong with me" rhetorically, do you find it valid that it tends to focus on the Physical Plane and your direct participation in it? [Brian_W] Michael, physical as opposed to emotional, or Physical Plane as in everything it encompasses? [MEntity] Brian - no Plane can be entirely isolated, but we do mean the Physical Plane in particular, and your sense of presence and participation in it. The tangible aspects of you. [Brian_W] hmm, hard to answer, as while yes, the lack of participation and invitation to participate seems to be an issue, I think it is more that I am having a difficult time extracting the positive emotional and intellectual experiences of the exchanges [GeraldineB] I know that when I did ask this, it was due to a feeling of inadequacy and failure, not being "good enough" in myriad ways [MEntity] In your case, Geraldine, we think that your Self-deprecation was an immediate source of false "comfort" to avoid the actual impact of Arrogance, or the "they were right - I am too much" at the core of the rhetorical question. Self-deprecation is where you recoiled into, but the question was prompted by your "being too much," or "thinking you were more than you are." [MariLynn] absolutely [Martha] yes, mostly about body image for me [MariLynn] for me, esp. with re: to older souled group interactions, its: aren't I evolved enuf or communicating effectively [MariLynn] ahh....I can relate a lot to that as well [MEntity] For those with Primary and Secondary Chief Features on the same Axis, it may be difficult for you to differentiate between what is at the core of "what is wrong with me," and how you self-soothed in reaction to the question. [Brian_W] like right now, I have been arguing with myself of whether or not to ask for help, if I could even accept or recognize the help, for someone to help me recognize and show me what love is. But I know that those types of questions are socially unacceptable to ask [MariLynn] for me, it feels also like a 'core' issue: am I really wanted here? [Brian_W] MariLynn, I get that too [MEntity] In your case, Mari Lynn, we see that your questions are rooted in issues of TIME. When one does not have time for you, or make time for you, or allow you the time for you to fulfill an intent, your question of "what is wrong with me" arises. [MariLynn] [tears] yes [MEntity] Though the specifics can be helpful, we will also describe the core issues in larger terms: For Self-deprecation and Arrogance, the core of the rhetorical question of "what is wrong with me" is about controlling or correcting the perception others have of you (how they feel about you), or how you are loved. In truth, your usefulness is in question in your own eyes. [MariLynn] oh, I can really relate to that one! [MEntity] For Self-destruction and Greed, the core of "what is wrong with me" is about controlling or correcting how others interpret your behaviors, mannerisms, and personal expression (what they think of you), or how honest, sincere, and truthful you are. [Martha] oh yeah [MEntity] In truth, your worth or value is in question in your own eyes. For Impatience and Martyrdom, the core of "what is wrong with me" is about controlling or correcting how others experience your actions, choices, and decisions, or how successful, productive, and accomplished you might be. [MariLynn] yes, esp. living with a parent that has a HIGH level of impatience [MEntity] In truth, it is about what you feel you have to show for your use of time and energy. For Stubbornness, the core can be any of the above, but always in terms that might go back to where/how you are NOW in comparison to where/how you WERE then. In truth, it is about how much you feel you have evolved or changed as a result of your experiences. [MariLynn] omg, yes [MEntity] We understand that, regardless of your Secondary Chief Negative Feature, all of these may seem familiar, and that is because your Chief Negative Features are HABITS, not fixtures. When one goes into a spin of "what is wrong with me," it can explore and ignite every Chief Feature. However, understanding what is actually at the core for you can help you to know where to start. [MariLynn] I was wondering how much our attitude plays into this issue... [Martha] I think I've made a lot of progress, but it seems like there are always more layers to the onion [GeraldineB] I can personally attest that it does get easier, that personal acceptance of self becomes much stronger as one finishes the 4th and then the 5th IM -- acceptance that one's choices are no longer huge chunks out of one's self esteem [MEntity] For instance, to go back to Geraldine, the inadequacy and failure seemed to indicate a core related to Self-deprecation, but we pointed out that the core may more likely be Arrogance. If she can validate this, and it is accurate, then it would mean that her core "what is wrong with me" comes up as a result of being put in her place, dismissed or rejected as thinking she is better, smarter, wiser, etc than she has a right to feel about herself. [GeraldineB] I'd agree with that assessment -- but some of the intensity of my CF has diminished, too -- trying to recapture the past isn't always easy as it no longer means much [MEntity] We think you still experience those moments in which you are reactionary to the feeling of being dismissed or judged as overstepping your rights, boundaries, or "being too much," but you process it much more quickly and right yourself again. Pun intended. [GeraldineB] yes, tis true [GeraldineB] it's not "gone" -- just easier [Brian_W] I think part of my issue is my reliance on others for help, as I don't know how to help myself anymore. I can't even pinpoint where the hurt comes from, I just feel the hurt at this point [MEntity] In response to Brian - You are disappointed. It is that simple. Your inspiration has been lost. When your inspiration is intact, nothing has to be perfect or even on track with expectations, and your enthusiasm is high. What "hurts" is that block on inspiration. In terms of the immature aspects of asking "what is wrong with me," you are simply angry that you are not getting what you want when you want it and how you expected to get it. You experience this as meaning something is wrong, and not just with yourself, but with the world. When, in fact, it is simply a matter of navigation, calibration, and adapting to the terrain of life. There are very few lifetimes that have no detours, obstacles, and disappointments from start to finish. [Brian_W] .... ouch, but fundamentally true, whether I care to admit it to myself or not [MEntity] To compare life to a game is not to diminish it, but to understand the elements of it, so we will do so here: There are few games designed to immediately let you win. It would mean nothing to win that game. It would be empty and useless. And so it is with any lifetime. Your obstacles and challenges can either be seen as condemning elements and taken personally as if they define you, or you simply navigate them, and nurture your inspiration to try something new, different, creative, loving, and aimed with continued intent. We can say this to you and it is true: You are going to be ok. You are ok. You will be ok. We can say that without it being an empty comfort. At least one version of "you" will fulfill all that you intended, and it might as well be "you." Put one choice in front of the next, just as you would get back up and put one foot in front of the other as a means to move forward. You will get there. YOU can say these same things to yourself, and they would not be empty comforts. They would be far more meaningful and true than "life sucks." We will speak to each of you on this matter: Mari Lynn - we can say that you do not have to prove yourself, or justify yourself. You do not have to earn love, and you would do well to remember that others do not have to prove themselves or their love for you. It is your right to BE, no matter how much time or energy it uses or takes. It will be true that you are loved and accepted, regardless of whether you decide you are worth it, or think that others should prove that you are worth their time and energy. Keep in mind that when time and energy/space is involved in terms of acceptance and love, it is often not a condensed moment that can prove or justify your want to be accepted and loved, but an accumulation of moments across time and space that becomes your responsibility to note, remember, and collect as being just as powerful as any singular moment. [MariLynn] another words, how I "talk" to myself? [MEntity] For Martha, we can say you can pretend to be as ugly and as inadequate as you enjoy yourself to be, but it would be a lie. Just because you do not, or cannot, generate powers based on superficial aspects of yourself has nothing to do with how beautiful you are, and how competent you are as a woman, mother, and mate. Using standards that are not your own is an insult to everything you have worked to become over your incarnations. You wanted a beauty that is timeless, not something that can be tucked into a magazine archive to be laughed at in another time and culture and society with new standards. And you have cultivated that beauty. It is yours. It is your right to be in the skin that is yours, not to condemn it for deviating from your immature values that are sometimes convinced to be the highest. We can say to you without it being an empty comfort that you are beautiful, and that you are as beautiful and as attractive to others to the extent that you accept that you are beautiful and competent as a woman, mother, and mate. Anything that undermines that truth is just meanness. And you are not a mean person. To Geraldine - you have never been too much. You have always been just enough, even when the gifts of insight, judgment, feedback, voice were not appreciated or embraced. And they were gifts. And we know you know the difference between those innocent moments that were intended as gifts, and those that were not. But even in those moments that were not intended as gifts, they were still gifts. Your voice is yours. It is your right. It always was, and will continue to be so, even if others have intentionally or unintentionally silenced you. It has meaning, power, and impact, and while you may have had to learn how to wield such a force with grace, it was always and remains to be laced with gifts, even on your worst days. We can say to you without it being an empty comfort that you are important and meaningful. You are not forgotten. Every person within your discriminating circle of communication is permanently affected. [Martha] Yes we are! [GeraldineB] now, I remember some of those times when I've used rhetoric and wanted to pull away :) [MEntity] We offer these valid statements to each of you because you need to hear them. You do not even know that you want to hear them, but you know you need to hear them. [Martha] Oh yes [Brian_W] true [MEntity] We also offer these statements because it is often the case that when you are stuck in the concept of "what is wrong with me," you no longer hear yourself, even if you were to say these same statements of truth to yourself. But one additional truth is that we did not simply draw up these statements based on our interpretation of you; we pulled these from you. These truths are what exist below the "wrongness" and hurt and meanness. They are your truths. Your feelings. They are what you know is more valid about you than what you think is wrong with you. [Martha] pulled from us the Personality, or Essence? [MEntity] When such statements are known within, there is no differentiation, but technically speaking, it would be that your Personality had to know this before Essence could be in on that knowing. We will not always be there to remind you of these statements and knowing, so it is your responsibility to remember these truths. To remember those truths does not mean giving up the frustrations, loneliness, sadness, fear, etc, but that at least you have invited yourself back to YOU, back to the truth, and then you have a choice. What hurts, and what is mean, and what feels "wrong" is when you take your choices away. That goes for Brian, too. You wonder where the hurting is, and why it is, etc, and this is at the core: you have taken your own choices away. You presume you are done for. You presume your disappointments are the conclusion, the truth. And they are not. They are just an experience. You have a right to continue, to draw on your creativity, and to be your own inspiration, to see and accept every shimmer of inspiration that might blink at you or within you. Add it up. There is more to you than this. [Brian_W] So I really do have to find it from within, I'm not going to find someone that can physically be there to provide comfort and confidence to give me a "boost" [MEntity] To Brian - we did not say that, nor did we imply that, but we do point out that this is another of your "all or nothing" scenarios that generate your hurting. You are allowed to enjoy the comfort and confidence of others as a means for gaining a boost. It is all around you. It is in this chat. It is in your community with "TLE." However, if you condemn or ignore even those remote forms of comforting and confidence, then you condemn them all, and this can affect your personal space so that no one wants to risk that condemnation for not living up to your expectations. The key here is not in finding the comfort and confidence, either without or within, but ALLOWING it. LET IT BE YOURS. If you truly wish to be inspired, let it not be more meaningful if coming from within or without. Let it come from everywhere and everyone. Let it. Allow it. Do not look for it. Just let it. It is there. You are exhausted from keeping it away from yourself. [GeraldineB] Do you have a statement for Troy? [MEntity] For Troy: We will only briefly state that your life does not have to continue being a series of terrifying reprimanding. You continue to fear punishment, rejection, and failing expectations, so you aim as high as possible and then you hide internally and externally when you fall short. You have a right to do as well as you do. You do not have to exceed that. You do not have to protect others from you, either. You are a positive force, despite what you were convinced of as a child. You are enough. You do not have to be more than that. Do what you do well and let it be enough, because it is plenty. We have more to say than that, of course, but it is enough for now. We must conclude here today. We have pointed how each of you might identify the core of your "wrongness" and that it is not your own voice. We have pointed out the truth of the voice beneath that, and reminded you to own that, if only for the fact that it increases your capacity to choose. And we pointed out that your hurting, meanness, and feeling of being "wrong" is an indication that you have taken your rights away, and take your choices away. We think you can make a difference with even this little bit of information. The rest is up to you. Good day to each of you. Goodbye.
[This material was originally posted by NickG as a private session transcript on May 18, 2016. Permission was granted for placement in the Study Library.] Nicholas33: Hello to you too Michael. When we had the session on manifesting essence you stated something along the lines of the role having core values as a foundation to build upon. You gave me some examples for the Sage but I was wondering if I can have the core values of the other roles as well. MEntity: Yes ... PRIESTS - Understanding, Inspiration, Meaning, Consistency, Presence, Integrity and being living examples of Self-Awareness. ... Keep in mind that these Core Values will be upheld in some way, even if they are upheld in desperate and unhealthy ways. These can be upheld in ways that serve only the self, serve only others, or serve a balance between the two. ### end of transcript ### Note: You may comment on the original post. See Core Values of the Roles.
Janet posted a topic in 2002 Michael SpeaksApril 4, 2002 Troy Tolley, Channel 7 Spheres of Awareness of Essence NOTE: The word “Levels” was not a very accurate word for what Michael was trying to convey in the chat on this Topic. I found when editing the transcript that Michael suggested SPHERES instead. This gives a far more accurate picture to the development of Awareness in a life. [M_Entity] Hello to all of you. We are here. We understand the topic to be “7 Spheres of Awareness of Essence.” We will share what we can in regard to this within the time available. As many of you are aware, the Physical Plane is not the only Plane of existence. The Personality only exists within the Physical Plane, along with the Physical Body, while Essence exists to some degree in all Planes “at once.” In any given lifetime, the Personality is capable of gaining awareness of its own Essence in varying circles of awareness. A Soul Age or Essence Role or Overleaves do not limit the Sphere of Awareness, though it can be said that these things contribute to the ease or challenge of gaining awareness. The oldest soul may have a particularly difficult lifetime that inhibits awareness, while a younger soul may find blissful connection to Essence on all levels. It is the choice of Personality as to whether it wishes to have a connection to Essence on a conscious level and to what degree. Essence NEVER imposes itself on its Personality. The Personality is too valuable for that kind of relationship. Essence needs the Personality as an extension of itself to explore and learn from the Physical Plane. Essence cannot exist fully where you are incarnated without a body of some sort. For that reason, Essence allows the Personality to seek Essence as Personality sees fit, though Essence is ever watchful and loving to each version of Personality within the Physical Plane. Though Essence is not as attached to the Physical Plane as a Personality, Essence still finds great empathy and ever-growing love for each Personality. The Tao, and by extension the Essence, finds it to be a far more loving relationship to have what is created seek the creator, rather than the creator enforcing itself on the life. As Personality and the Body grows within each lifetime, it must “re-remember” all of its Soul Levels and Ages and regain that level of consciousness and perspective all over again. It is stored in the Instinctive Center exactly where you are in your development as Essence, but each new Body must regain consciousness as a means to house the perspective of Essence. Some may or may not reach the previous level of Soul Age. It is perfectly possible to have a Young Soul lifetime wherein the fragment is technically an Old Soul, depending on several factors in Personality. The difference is that each Soul Level has its capacity to gain up to and through all 7 Spheres of Awareness. It could easily be said that these Spheres of Awareness are the Levels WITHIN the Soul Levels. The 7 Internal Monads could be said to be the process of INTERNAL rites of passage toward moving through a Soul Level, while the 7 Spheres of Awareness may be said to be the EXTERNAL process of moving through a Soul Level. Both must be completed and experienced within as many lives as it takes before moving to a new Soul Level. The 7 Spheres of Awareness then could be described as follows: Sphere One: This is the simplest Sphere of Awareness. This Sphere is basic to any Sentient Being. This is self-awareness on the most rudimentary and mechanical level. You are aware you are alive; that you must feed yourself; that you must protect yourself; that you must interact with life. Sphere One is the most separated, narrow, and isolated of all Spheres of Awareness. There is no real concept of “spirit” or anything more than what is immediately tangible. This would extend into areas of “love” and other such intangible experiences. The fragment perceiving from within this Sphere merely does what it needs to do to survive and to gain the next experience. This fragment usually experiences life solely from the Negative Poles of the Personality and rejects all forms of intervention for helping raise its awareness. There is an absolute disconnection from all life forms around this fragment. It is hard for them to even understand the “point of living.” Sphere Two: This is the Sphere wherein you get a glimpse of life through the Positive Poles of your Overleaves. You gain a bit of awareness as to what your Essence is like, even if not fully defined. You decide you must have a soul. That much is at least considered to be possible. This Sphere of Awareness begins to expand beyond the limitations of the Body and into the realms of possibilities. Imagination becomes more harnessed for creativity, rather than fear and protection, as in Sphere One, and the fragment begins to consider his dreams along with other concepts that are not tangible, yet acknowledged as experienced. It is a Sphere in which the fragment begins to consider his relationship with himself as more than a machine, but a BEING. Sphere Three: Expanding beyond the Spheres previous to this, Sphere Three allows the fragment to begin to consider the intangibilities between it and others, not just within. The fragment begins to long for and seek deeper intimacy. This Sphere is marked with the awareness that other fragments share a history with you that extends beyond the current life and Personality, even if this is not quite understood. The relationship to Time begins to change and there is less emphasis on it as a constraint, but rather as a convenience. Sphere Four: This is the Sphere of Awareness that brings a fragment to the reality its own Past Selves to-date. The fragment becomes capable of acknowledging wisdom gained from outside the confines of the current life and allows influences from Past and Future Lives alike. This Sphere finds Personality capable of recognizing patterns in the life and the life of others, enabling the fragment to envision probable futures as they are created or as were planned before the life. The fragment begins to realize that the Personality focused on at any given moment does not diminish the reality of MANY versions of that same Personality across Parallel Universes created by Essence to house all of the choices possible. This is the Sphere that the fragment truly has the capability for channeling, healing, directing energy, and using psychic tools. (We will note here that ALL Spheres are capable of Intuition, which is simply the extension and combination of physical senses. True psychic awareness, though, is not the same thing.) Sphere Four is the first time a fragment discovers a true relationship between the Personality and the life and finds a deep sense of trust and safety as the life unfolds. Sphere Five: This is the Sphere in which you begin to see others as extensions of yourself. It is profoundly realized that the helping of others to resolve their own troubles will also contribute to your own lessons on many levels. This Sphere brings with it the realization and awareness that the Personality is a temporary and a beautiful “child” of Essence. A strange double awareness will be experienced here, wherein the trials and challenges of the life indulged in, while maintaining a consistent awareness through the perspective of Essence that “all is well”. Sphere Six: This is the Sphere of Awareness that brings with it the realization that the Universe has an awesome structure that can be understood. A new, consistent relationship to what might be called “spirit” then develops. You begin to recognize the “signatures” of different spiritual families, or Entities, and find the lifetime heavily focused on what might be called “the path.” This “path” will be, of course, defined and created by the individual fragment, but a deep recognition that ALL are on variations of similar paths will be incorporated into the life. This is the first time the Fragment begins to recognize the value of life in other species beyond itself. Energy and life force, as expressed in all its forms, begins to become deeply important to the fragment to be in harmony with. While the Fifth Sphere allows the fragment to see other fragments as extensions of self, the Sixth Sphere will build on this and find this extends to animals outside the realm of that fragment’s own Sentient Species. The fragment profoundly grasps that other beings are capable of relative fear and have relative emotional lives, too. From this Sphere a deep longing for what might be called “home” begins to motivate the life. Sphere Seven: This is the Sphere wherein the fragment finally grasps how to use all of the tools of the Body, the Physical Plane, and the Personality and finds the life unfolding, changing, and being created in profoundly acceptable ways. ALL limitations of the lifetime are found to be acceptable, while all of the possibilities are recognized as well. There is no division between Essence and Personality in any way. All Levels of Soul Age gained to that point are used effectively and appropriately. This is the Sphere where it is difficult to find anything ugly about life. A childlike innocence is regained and everything becomes new and fun again, without fear of anything. We include the “fear of fear” in that statement. Sphere Seven allows Fear as a tool appropriately. If fear is experienced, it is recognized as simply part of everything that is wondrous about the life. There are, of course, far more detailed descriptions of each Sphere of Awareness available, but we share this for you within the time frame available here. What we have shared should allow for adequate consideration. We will now take any questions you may have for us on this topic. [val] Can one be aware and functioning on several Spheres at once, i.e., I resonate with Spheres three through seven, I feel as if I’ve been there and living these Spheres, or is your essence setting up these stages to bring them to your awareness so that when you get there it feels like home. [M_Entity] Different Spheres of Awareness may be present within different contexts of your life. For instance, you may have Sphere 3 Awareness when in relationships, while having Sphere 4 in your Career. Your Awareness will fluctuate throughout the lifetime and you will recognize different time frames having different Spheres of Awareness as well. Although you progress through the lifetime to gain Spheres of Awareness, you will move “up and down” through the Spheres as relative to your experiences. Sphere One, for example, will ALWAYS be available in any lifetime. It is the Sphere of the heaviest of Karmic relationships. A fragment may have reached the Sphere Seven of Awareness in a lifetime, but a ribbon of Karma may be chosen to burn and the Awareness will then constrict to Sphere One as it is dealt with. [mdfsage] What is meant by “to find other animals outside the realm of that fragments sentience”? [M_Entity] In your case, the Awareness would begin to include strong resonance and recognition to beings who are NON-human. The recognition may only begin with the recognition of other ensouled beings, such as Cetacean and Gorillas, but eventually would include those beyond that. [val] How do we regain consciousness, and open this instinctive center to better communicate with essence? [M_Entity] In the interest of using the time available efficiently through this channel, we will say we have answered this question in other chats. These transcripts would be available through Troy or his web site. Troy, or other students, will direct you to those detailed responses. There are different ways each Essence Roles may find to open connections to Essence. [Kathryn41] If you advance through a soul age level within a life – say Old 3 to Old 4, do you start again at Sphere 1 of awareness and ‘lose’ the previous awareness, or do you overlap and keep that awareness and start over. How does that work? [M_Entity] These are rare and interesting lifetimes when a fragment transitions within a lifetime without taking on a new body. The Older Soul finds this process to be less confusing, but still have a great deal of challenge in this shifting. When a transition of Soul Age or a Soul Level occurs within a lifetime, yes, the Personality will undergo a great change in some way, even if only over a brief period of time. Considering that the Body will have not lost its memory, it is quite possible to regain those Spheres of Awareness within minutes. There is a process that occurs for those who move Soul Levels within a lifetime. We refer to that experience as an Octave Ending/Beginning, and would be another topic in itself. But to simplify the response, since the Body will not have been replaced, the evolution through the Monads and the Awareness Spheres will not have been lost when entering the new Soul Level. [sam-nemo] I thought 6 level was the heaviest level of karmic payback and most psychic not 1 or 4. [M_Entity] You are comparing the 6th Level of a Soul Age to the 6th Sphere of Awareness of Essence. They are completely different contexts. When in the 6th Level of a Soul Age, depending on the Soul Age, the lifetime may be submerged in Sphere One of Awareness or not. We realize English is a bit limited in our choices for describing progressions and evolution. We suggest that similar terms do not mean the same thing, necessarily, when in different context. For most Older Souls, Sphere Five of Awareness is quite common when experiencing the 6th Level of Soul Age. This allows for the life to be lived consciously, while still being free to indulge in the Karma. [sam-nemo] Therefore essence awareness lags soul age. [M_Entity] It may help to think of the Spheres of Awareness as being angles of perception toward an experience. In other words, as Awareness progresses, you move from only Personality experiencing, to Essence AND Personality being present for the experience. We are open to suggestions for more appropriately naming these 7 Spheres. And yes, Awareness Spheres may exceed or “lag” behind Soul Age, but eventually Awareness on the 7th Sphere must be reached as a means to move to the next Soul Level. [ClaireN] Please expand on the “true relationship between personality and the life” as mentioned in Sphere four. [M_Entity] It is the first time a fragment may consider that life happens FROM them, rather than TO them. It is the first time a fragment may realize that he or she may not only being learning how to choose, but also choosing how to learn. We will conclude here then. Good night to all of you.
This question was originally posted by Suzanne on 10/7/07. This below from the Energy Report really talked to me. As there probably are many others feeling the same, would you please expand on how better to 'look at oneself' for more valid experience to 'being seen, heard, and understood'? I have been taking my own breaks for my Self, while feel there is more good work yet to this. Key thoughts in the weeks ahead might be: EMPATHIZING; SLOWING DOWN; CREATING PATHS, not plowing them; CREATING MOMENTS OF SOLITUDE, not being solid in the moment; LOOKING AT ONESELF FOR THE EXPERIENCE OF BEING SEEN, HEARD, and UNDERSTOOD, instead of fighting to be seen, heard, and understood by others. RESPONSE FROM MENTITY: By "looking at oneself for the experience of being seen, heard, and understood," we refer back to our statement that "what one most wishes from the world are the very things craved from the self." In other words, any area of your life that may be linked to the concepts of "if only..." are areas that require your nurture, not the halting of that nurture until it is found elsewhere. When one has blocked the ability to truly see oneself, how can one expect to be seen? How will you ever know if someone sees you, when you don't know what you see as you. In most cases, when one has rejected seeing oneself, then all others who do see you are rejected, as well, even if they see you most clearly. The same for being understood, or being heard. Observe yourself to gain self-awareness. Listen to yourself as a means to be heard. Find a way to like who you are now as a means of being understood. Self-rejection is a form of repulsion between you and others. Self-acceptance, which includes knowing oneself, hearing oneself, and seeing oneself, is magnetism between you and others. You will have had to have learned what each of those things mean to you before you can ask them of anyone else, and then the opportunities abound.