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OMW - Jun 21, 2014 - You and Your Centers Channel: Troy Tolley MEntity: Hello to each of you. We are here, now. We can begin. Today we are asked to discuss each of the Centers/Chakras, not only in terms of their nature, but in fairly personal terms of where and how you are with the health, function, habits, blocks, and balance of your own. Instinctive Center - Regulates Choice What we will do is speak a bit about the Instinctive Center, then address that Center for each of you who are present, then the Lower Centers, then the Higher Centers. We know that time is limited and that we may not cover all of them, but we will attempt to do so. To help deliver this in as succinct a manner as possible, we will cover these elements of each Center: Basic Function, Most Obvious State of Positive Health, Most Obvious State of Negative Health, Most Direct Means of Healing, and then your assessment. The reasons that the "most obvious" states of health can be useful is because these states can help one to sense fairly easily which direction one is leaning, even if nowhere near the extreme. By "health" here we will mean this in terms of the Center, not necessarily in terms of symptoms in the body, which can often be symptoms of combinations of issues and not specific to a Center. For the most part, the more obvious health of your Centers can be seen in your behaviors long before your bodies. First, we will say that Center and Chakra are often used interchangeably because they are the same systems. However, in our teaching, "Center" is a reference to one's habitual "center of gravity," which is how one navigates the life. It is the funnel through which all experiences tend to first be processed by the Personality. Chakras, on the other hand, are more a teaching of the complex system of circuitry that runs as part of the various bodies, including how that links to Essence. In our teaching, "Center" extends to include all of those that are not your habitual "center of gravity" because each Center still has its use of all of the other Centers, its "Parts." So it is fair and safe to use these systems of understanding interchangeably, but there is a difference. Though none of you here are Centered in the Instinctive, your Instinctive Centers are as active as your Primary Center. No body or Personality can function without the Instinctive Center. It is from the Instinctive Center that the Personality arises. This is the only Center that is ever carried forward from each life. All others "die" with the bodies. Think of this as the "floppy disc," to use a rather outdated technological term that is carried from one life to another. It can also be "copied" easily among Concurrents, and then recombined in Reviews. No matter what your Primary Centering, the Instinctive Center will be your Center that regulates your capacity to CHOOSE. So in its simplest terms for this particular exchange on the topic, we will say that its Basic Function is the means by which the Personality will Regulate Choice. When the Instinctive Center is in its Positive Health, it shows up as owning the responsibility, consciousness, and capacity for choice. This means that the individual understands that, however restrictive the contexts, there will always be levels of choice with which one can work. One can be held captive in a box and still know that there is the capacity for choice for one or more bodies. The Physical Body, in that case, may have been stripped of choice, but the intellectual and Emotional bodies may still utilize Choice. This is an extreme, and disturbing, scenario to be used as an example, but we only do so to illustrate that some of your most restrictive scenarios in your life are nowhere near as restrictive as they could be. And you still have choice. The healthy Instinctive Center knows this. This does not mean you like your choices, or your range of choices, and that you may wish to work on expanding your range of choices, but there is, at no point, a sense that one no longer has a choice. The negative health of an Instinctive Center is when one begins to relinquish the responsibility of choice, and default only to reaction (rather than response). This Instinctive Center functions only as a means of navigating away from perceived or real threats. The life is spent only assessing threats. Possibilities become elusive and lose priority. This is sometimes necessary, so we do not mean "negative health" in terms of "bad," but more in the sense that the capacity for conscious choices has been reduced or honed toward only survival. Depending upon your Primary Centering, this can take the form of Emotional Survival, Intellectual Survival, or Material Survival. You will know if your Instinctive Center is leaning toward the Negative Health if you perceive your Emotional realm, Intellectual (expressive/social) realm, or Material Realm to have been reduced to a point of dependency, defense, or desperation. The most direct means of healing the Instinctive Center when in the Negative State of Health, or when damaged or "blocked" in any way, is to ask for help. Even if one were locked in a box, this is true. And most already know this, regardless of Soul Age, and "instinctively" call out for help, even to unknown or invisible forces when having fallen into Negative Health. We can safely say that each of you here lean toward your Negative end of Health for this Center. This is not a static state, but probably relative to your Primary Centering. [ViP1] i'd estimate i'm at the negative end at least 60 or 70 percent of the time [Janet] I’m very surprised. I would have said I lean toward the positive end [ClaireC] I know I fluctuate a lot. [ViP1] these days, at least, I think I've had times in the not too distant past that may have been closer to the opposite [GeraldineB] I'm somewhat surprised, too as while I have medical issues that are ongoing, I am seeking help for them [Ingun] I'm not surprised, I think most people lean more toward struggling in some way with survival issues, but fluctuating a lot. [ClaireC] Defense and desperation ring a bell. :) MEntity: Janet, we are not speaking in static terms, nor in assessment of more recent times, but in broader terms. However, it should be noted that even as each of you are far more conscious and in Positive Health of the Instinctive Center than most, you would not grow if not for the challenges that the Negative bring. [Ingun] Yes, that makes sense. [Janet] I agree that makes sense. [ViP1] what are those broader terms, Michael? [Maureen] I know I have had anxiety for, oh, about 6 million years or so. It's a hard habit to break. MEntity: It is not a report card, but a fact of incarnation. We could have posed the question as a "test" of your own understanding of this, but we do not think that the Instinctive Center is covered enough for that to be a fair question. [Janet] We incarnate in order to learn to choose. Once we have mastered that, we no longer need the experience. MEntity: It is natural for each of you to dip into the Negative on a regular basis, though some will tend to do so in more extreme ways than others. What may be new to you is the context in which this is most often played out, and this would TEND to be through what you identify as your Primary Centering. [GeraldineB] oops -- I slipped up again and used a standard definition for negative pole, not the Michael one MEntity: Even if someone struggles financially, but is Emotionally-Centered, it is in terms of Inspiration, self-esteem, meaning, etc. that this struggle plays out. Yes, there will still be the material, of course, but this person may have a much more difficult time separating his status from his sense of value. So when each of you sense your move into Negative Health of your Instinctive Center, note that, first, there is likely still a great range of choice, even if not what you would wish for it to be, and that you can make the effort to respond, rather than react, as a means of navigating a scenario, and finally, that you can ask for help. You may not get it, or you may have to ask more than you would like, but remembering that you can ask, that you have a right to ask, and that you may need to ask, is healthy. By "asking for help" here we do not mean coaxing someone else to do the work that you can do. Though we described each of you as leaning toward the Negative Health, we did so to point out its necessity to do so as a part of your living a life. Now we ask that each of you consider your own assessment. Share what you think is your likely percentage of Positive Health vs Negative Health as you see your life right now. [ViP1] for me, same as mentioned earlier - 60 to 70 percent in the reaction/survival in response to "threats" mode, which I understand now as Negative end of health of the instinctive center [GeraldineB] I would say that I'm reasonably healthy both mentally and emotionally, am in a state of wellbeing -- maybe 80% -- but, physical, am declining, so would put that at 50% or less even though I am seeking help [ViP1] by the way, that "right to ask for help" - is that one of the 7 basic Rights, Michael? [ClaireC] I could definitely ask for help a lot more, from my guides and Essence I suppose. [ClaireC] Positive 75% Negative 25%. [Maureen] I would say I may be at 80% Negative Health but I'm finding it hard to put a number to it. [Janet] It is hard for me to ask for help but I think I do it more often than I used to do. I’ve been working to avoid being reactionary. I am generally conscious of my right to choose. I can’t give a percentage for right now. I will have to give it thought. [Ingun] Fluctuating, but between Pos 40 - Neg 60 [GeraldineB] I still am locked into a belief system of "permanent conditions," rather than one that could be changed by other beliefs and/or Essence [ClaireC] I think our physical health affects our emotional health and outlook. MEntity: Visaish, yes. The "right to ask for help" is a subset of the most basic Right to Be Real, to Exist. No one exists in a vacuum. [ViP1] great, thank you (as I saw from other material you shared through Troy, that is indeed the Right that is related to the Instinctive Center.) [Ingun] I would guess I sometimes can be in more than 60% Neg Health also, and also in more than 40% Pos Health [Ingun] I'm also working on asking more for help. [Maureen] I have a hard time asking for help. Half the time I wouldn't even know what to ask for. It's more feelings. MEntity: We would wish to add that "asking for help" includes asking this of yourself. For some, this does not occur to them. There is a complete sense of paralysis, fear, defense, distance, etc. They can even use their conscious choice to refuse to choose. [ClaireC] Our interactions with Michael are a way of asking and receiving help. [ViP1] agreed, Claire MEntity: Claire, we agree. [Maureen] I agree too Claire. MEntity: We would point out that our exchanges with you, in that regard, are not one-way. You help us. Our invitation to our teaching is a request for your help. We cannot evolve without you. [ViP1] oh wow, that really touches me for some reason... [ViP1] but I'm glad to help [ClaireC] That is touching, ViP. MEntity: Existence is never a vacuum. Not even in the High Planes. [ViP1] "Vacuum" and "aloneness" are different things, in the way you use those terms, right Michael? [Maureen] I do ask Essence and my Guides for help and Michael, of course. It's just harder to ask for what I need from a living, breathing person. [Maureen] maybe it's a Priest thing. [ClaireC] But you're really good at offering and giving help, Maureen. MEntity: Correct. Aloneness is recognition of one's existence as singular representative of wholeness, while being a part of a greater wholeness. Vacuum is an emphasis on a false sense of distance between the self and other. Maureen, eventually, it is understood that help is effective and accessible from all realms of relevance. [Maureen] understanding it and asking for it are two different things -- aren't they? MEntity: It is often useless to ask "God" or guides to help one with material concerns, for instance, and much more effective to ask for help from those within the relevant realm. "God" and guides can help one with the less-dense dimensions. We agree, Maureen. [ViP1] you agree that this is a difficulty that Priests especially have, Michael? MEntity: That is the case with any learning. The gap between learning and application. [ViP1] oh sorry, never mind MEntity: It is not unique to Priests. [ViP1] that's what I thought, I misunderstood which of Maureen's comments you were responding to - please ignore, sorry MEntity: We understand. To continue with the Centers: [ViP1] by the way Michael, what do you think of our assessments of ourselves in terms of negative vs positive percentages for the Instinctive centers? MEntity: We think they are fair, even if leaning a bit on the high side for Negative Health. We think that each of you are closer to the middle than that. [ViP1] ok, thank you! MEntity: The assessments we see are when you are at your "worst." To clarify: the assessments each of you offered are more accurate to when you are at your "worst." [Maureen] When I am bad -- I am really bad. :) [ClaireC] :) [Ingun] How will it be played out if an Intellectually-centered person struggles financially? MEntity: This might tend to show up more in terms of how this represents the individual, how others might see that individual, and/or how this person struggles to express himself or herself, to give presence and form to the self in the world. It is a struggle with havingness and self-worth. Which is different from self-esteem, by the way. Self-esteem is how one feels about the self, while self-worth is about how one thinks about the self. Self-esteem is the use of relationships as reflections of self. Self-worth is the use of things as expressions of self. [Ingun] Thanks. Please continue with the centers/chakras ... Moving Center - Linked to Goal MEntity: MOVING CENTER has as its Basic Functions the regulation of your movements, directions, and paths. In its simplest description for this exchange, we can say that it is how one navigates WHAT WORKS and WHAT DOES NOT WORK. This is everyone's means of creating or clearing his or her path through life. It is directly linked to the Goal. No matter what your Goal, in terms of Axis, it is your ACTIONS that create or clear your path to fulfilling it. One cannot fulfill their Goal in any lifetime without ACTION. In Positive Health, this shows up as an evolving capacity for LEARNING. Though learning happens among all Centers, there must be application and implementation for true learning while in a body. Regardless of one's Primary Centering, this Center is where one actually learns, at least in terms of the lifetime. Not necessarily how one learns math or how to raise a plant. Those who are Moving Centered will tend to have greater emphasis on the Goal as their priority for the life. When the Moving Center is in Negative Health, it often shows up for the older soul as AGITATION. One of the most direct means of healing this Center is to apply what one has learned. It is that simple. Keep in mind that this prompt for application of learning can come in the form of impulses, a quiet sense of knowing what one "should" do, and often as your means of handling pain. On the scale between AGITATION and APPLICATION/LEARNING, where do each of you feel you might fall in terms of learning? You need not use a number, just a sense of direction. [ViP1] I think I lean more toward agitation, but not too far off the "50/50" mark [Janet] I have been studying and have received many tips from you Michael that would aid in my goal of (self-)Dominance. But the tips are hard to apply so I clearly haven’t learned them. I am definitely on the negative side here. [Maureen] I have one foot in agitation and one foot in application -- on average I'm uncomfortable. [ClaireC] Confusion at times, some Agitation. [ViP1] I think I tend to react to agitation with freneticism and/or tendencies to addictive behaviors as a distraction from the agitation, but I do believe I'm getting better at applying what I am learning [ClaireC] I work on Application constantly. MEntity: The reason there is a Goal is because it will require the use of the Moving Center in some way, even if one is not Moving Centered. When looking at how you are Agitated, look to your Goal. In most cases, it is directly relevant. [Maureen] That makes sense. [Ingun] Fluctuating, but 45-55 [Janet] Oh that’s good advice. MEntity: It would indicate that you may not be applying all that you have learned. [GeraldineB] I could be self-deluded, but I don't feel all that much agitation with my Goal -- I've gotten quite patient with myself MEntity: Agitation tends not to come unless there is Learning that is not being applied. Agitation is a kind of short-circuiting that indicates the gap between action and experience/knowledge. [GeraldineB] I'm in such a constant state of learning, it's like all of it just keeps rolling over and into itself [ViP1] I like that description of Agitation [ClaireC] Me too. [Maureen] Me too [ViP1] :-) [Ingun] I know I'm not applying everything I have learned MEntity: For example, if you you find yourself in a pattern of Agitation with certain "kinds of people," or a circumstance, or relationship, you may not be applying the experiences and knowledge that has come from previous fulfillment of the Goal. [Janet] That definitely happens to me. I’m doing better though. MEntity: Each of you continue to do better. If not, you would not be here. [ClaireC] I would imagine that one's Frequency of processing would help here. MEntity: It is relevant, but one end of the range is not better than another. Not allowing oneself to process at one's natural Frequency can be troublesome, though. [ViP1] you said that when not manifesting Essence, one tends to process closer to the default Frequency of their Role, rather than the Frequency of their Spark/Essence, right Michael? [GeraldineB] I'm not familiar with that idea -- does each role have a default frequency? [ViP1] it appears so, it was in a question that I asked in a Michael Speaks [ViP1] or a default range of frequencies [ViP1] or an Ask Michael, I can't remember which MEntity: In the same way that Bodies are 100% Male Energy when of the male gender or 100% Female Energy when of the female gender (in most cases), so are Roles locked into a range of frequency. This range of frequency is not the same as that of Essence, so Essence will trump that frequency, in the same way that it does in the Body's Energy Ratio. This is how one can find a low Frequency Priest and a high Frequency Priest, even if the default range of frequency for the Priest Role is high. And how one can find a high "female energy" man and a high "male energy" female. When one neglects the care of the body, Energy Ratio starts to move toward the default. When one rejects Essence, the default range of frequency for processing in the Personality is that of the Role. [GeraldineB] Do we have a list of the defaults for each Role? [ViP1] ok, so that is the case when rejecting essence, rather than NOT Manifesting essence then (rejecting Essence is not the same as not Manifesting Essence) [ViP1] Not through Troy, G [ViP1] not that I know of at least [ViP1] sorry if I'm derailing the topic of the session by now though... please continue with the Centers if we can take up Frequency further in a different exchange :-) Emotional Center - Linked to Mode MEntity: The EMOTIONAL CENTER has as its Basic Functions the regulation of your intimacy, empathy, and sensitivity. In its simplest description for this exchange, we can say that is how one navigates between MEANINGFUL and MEANINGLESS. This is everyone's way of infusing or extracting meaning from his or her path/experiences in life. It is directly linked to the MODE. No matter what your Mode, in terms of Axis, it is your EMOTIONS that create or destroy your sense of meaning from your experiences. One cannot fulfill any range of significance in intimacy, sensitivity, without having infused or extracted Meaning. One cannot implement the Mode in any healthy way without evolving one's range of INSPIRATION. The more one limits his or her sense of Inspiration, the less-likely one can relate to others, to see himself or herself in others, and more importantly, less-likely to recognize others in himself or herself. By "others," we speak of any creature, sentient or non-sentient. In Positive Health, this Center could be described as showing up as GIVING/GENEROUS. In Negative Health, it can show up as RESENTFUL. The means by which the Mode is fulfilled at its best is when approached from this state of Giving/Generosity. The trick here is that no lifetime can be experienced without some experience in giving, but when one begins to keep score, to stand in righteousness, to give when not fully capable of giving, then Resentment begins to step in. So the evolution of Giving is a matter of one's evolution of Meaning. As each of you look at your Emotional Center, how often do you feel Resentment? How often do you feel that you Give in meaningful ways? How honest are you in your stating Yes? No? [Janet] ‘Resentful’ feels strong but I recognize it at times. I am definitely on the negative side here. [Janet] I think we are hoping to pursue intellectual center to get a balanced transcript. [GeraldineB] Yes, I agree with Janet MEntity: In that case, we will close on the Emotional Center by stating that the state of your relationships is a fair means of assessing where you are in terms of Health in the Emotional Center. Intellectual Center - Linked to Attitude The INTELLECTUAL CENTER, then, has as its Basic Functions the regulation of your impact, effect, and presence on your path in this life. In its simplest description for this exchange, we can say that it is how one navigates between HONESTY/Innocence and DECEIT/Jaded. This is everyone's way of testing out behaviors, traits, and negotiation in terms of their effects, impact, and presence in form. It is directly linked to the ATTITUDE. No matter what your Attitude, in terms of Axis, it is your INTELLECTUAL CENTER that runs the core of your basic philosophy about this life. One cannot test out one's philosophy without experimenting in the range between Honesty and Deceit, both in terms of others and the self. The Attitude cannot function in any healthy way without this Center moving more and more toward Honesty. The more one limits his or her sense of Expression, which can show up as false personas, lying to oneself, lying to others, not questioning inherited philosophies, avoiding contact, evading society, etc. the more one falls into Deceit. Or Jaded. In Positive Health, this Center could be described as ENCOURAGED. In Negative Health, it can show up as DISMISSIVE. The means by which the Attitude is held in the Positive Pole is at its best when one is Encouraged, or Encouraging. The most direct way of healing this Center is through QUESTIONING. By this we mean that one does not operate from a higher proportion of presumptions and prejudices than one does from curiosity and inquisitiveness. So the questions here, for your assessment of health of the Intellect, is in how often you feel discouraged, jaded, avoiding of contact vs curious, inquisitive, and having an impact. How often do you turn to your sense of encouragement over your sense of dismissiveness? [Janet] This is one center where I think I’m on the positive side. [Janet] Recently anyhow. [ViP1] I think I too might be slightly more on the positive side recently, than the negative [ClaireC] Michael, does this apply to the Intellectual Part as well? MEntity: We are speaking today of these Centers, regardless of Part or Primary. [ClaireC] Okay. [ClaireC] I tend to be on the Positive side here. [GeraldineB] I'm definitely on the more positive side -- it's a major component of post-5th IM MEntity: All of these Centers are functioning in each of you in many ways at all times, though the range varies in terms of health and awareness. [Ingun] I'm sure I have a potential for healing here as well as in all my centers. [Janet] Since yours is an intellectual teaching MIchael, are most of us here more likely to lean toward the positive side of this center? Is there a correlation between being drawn to these teachings and the impact on the intellectual center? MEntity: We think we have shared enough for each of you to consider how these can be checked on for their health, and how to bring them back into positive health, if you choose to do so. It can also help you to understand the point of your falling into negative health, which is not because of failure or doing something "wrong," but that you have a chance to evolve. [Maureen] I'm been focusing on the internal dialogue that goes on in this center as a way towards better health. It isn't always what other people see or how you are in relationships that need "the work". MEntity: Ingun, yes. We will conclude here today by saying that each of you, while allowing yourselves the room for the Negative Health of these Centers, always move back into Positive Health as your integration and evolution. That is the nature of the older souls in positive poles. That is the nature of a true student.