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ENERGY REPORT: May 2018

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Heidi
1 hour ago, Uma said:

The pressure from no nexus is really getting tangible to me at this point, so I'm as ready as I can be for something to pop or turn or break or nex.

Amen to that.

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AnnaD

I have hated this month. I have had continuous bouts of telling management truths relevant to my nursing team and we.are.ignored.Which.spikes.my.general.recalcitrance which I am trying to keep in check. I have this dreadful sense of anarchy in myself which I don't know when to "let out", I am being very careful about the battles I pick and zipping my mouth.

 

I have had general feelings of sadness, apathy, more sadness about the state of the planet such as whales full of stomachs of plastic who die from starvation, animal abuse which does me in, and how Muellers case is taking forever. 

 

I have wanted to sit this one out and just hibernate. The only things that have perked me up is being not at work, cooking, socialising/commiserating, and playing my uke. 

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MichaelE

I was reading the comments on this session today and an idea popped into my head when Juni was talking about the Nexus bubble going on for years if we cannot get it together. It brought me back to an idea that I have read and thought about before. The idea being that pressure can cause intense creativity and evolution to be expressed when the pressure is released. Like pressing down are a spring and suddenly letting go. The spring bounces across the room. I wonder if the Nexus bubble is similar. We may not see drastic changes while within the bubble. The pressure is building though and the potential energy is growing. It all depends on what we do when the bubble finally breaks.

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Rosario

On Saturday I had 2 wisdom teeth removed...When I came back home my bleeding wouldn't stop for hours (talk about floods!) , finally passed out a few times and had to be put on IV. 

I'm ok now.....just weak, tired, thirsty and with salty cravings 🙂  Paradoxically I feel somehow "cleansed"... with space for something new. 

 

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Luciana Flora
9 minutes ago, Rosario said:

On Saturday I had 2 wisdom teeth removed...When I came back home my bleeding wouldn't stop for hours (talk about floods!) , finally passed out a few times and had to be put on IV. 

I'm ok now.....just weak, tired, thirsty and with salty cravings 🙂  Paradoxically I feel somehow "cleansed"... with space for something new. 

 

I 'm glad you are ok now...

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Jeroen
6 hours ago, AnnaD said:

I have had general feelings of sadness, apathy, more sadness about the state of the planet such as whales full of stomachs of plastic who die from starvation, animal abuse which does me in, and how Muellers case is taking forever. 

 

 

I have been recently thinking about the whales too and all the plastics they consume. This is very saddening to me to think of them suffering and dying in this way. I have been keeping the use of plastic to a minimum and otherwise recycling as much as possible. I got my family to start recycling too and every little bit helps.

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Juni
5 hours ago, Rosario said:

On Saturday I had 2 wisdom teeth removed...When I came back home my bleeding wouldn't stop for hours (talk about floods!) , finally passed out a few times and had to be put on IV. 

I'm ok now.....just weak, tired, thirsty and with salty cravings 🙂  Paradoxically I feel somehow "cleansed"... with space for something new. 

 

  Yikes, glad it resolved! Feel better soon -get lots of rest. Minor surgery is still surgery.  ❤️

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Eric

Ugh. This month has been rough. Between a specific, recurring case of anxiety and the general depression/malaise that seems to feed into it, this whole tackling inner issues thing has been a frustrating roller coaster. Brief moments of empowerment between stretches of AARGH. Interestingly, though, I had a major emotional release last night and today made some headway with the issue causing the anxiety. Also scheduled my first counseling appointment. It hasn't felt great, but maybe there is something to the energy shift thing. Hard to tell of any of this is nexus bubble related or not.

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DianeHB
22 hours ago, Uma said:

Thanks for clarifying @KurtisM. I didn't remember a divergence. The turning point/breaking point June/July reference I remember, as it was in response to my question about Mueller and fuckface that it was first mentioned. The pressure from no nexus is really getting tangible to me at this point, so I'm as ready as I can be for something to pop or turn or break or nex.

 

I am really feeling the pressure building too, especially this week. I've managed it well enough on and off this month, but yesterday I felt weirdly lethargic, and then last night both Tex and I had a hard time sleeping. I tend to project the pressure on my dislike of my job and slowness in writing, but I'm realizing it's not entirely attributable to those things.

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Nadine

I've been feeling antsy, anxious and exhausted for the last couple of days. May has been a real shit show. Just fuck off already, May!

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Uma
On 5/2/2018 at 8:58 AM, Troy said:

May 22nd -- ENERGY SHIFT --  EMPOWERMENT -- This shift appears to be related to another rise of empowerment from among the wounded and hurting who are gathering power to bring change. This could be rather inspiring and related to paths of the Infinite Soul.

 

 

No nexus, but a definite shift has happened/is happening. 

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Ingun

There is a full moon now, so if you have trouble falling asleep or feel very awake, it could be that you are influenced by that. It has been like that for years to me, not only around full moon (1-2 days before and after), but also the same around new moon. I forget about the moon cycles, but then when I can't fall asleep and I'm just too awake to go to bed, it's always full og new moon when I bother to check.

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AnnaD

@Ingun, I regularly have a crappy sleep during a full moon. It is like the moon is very loud and talkative at night wait thats my brain.

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Sam K

I have trouble sleeping at the "right" times even in ideal circumstances, but yeah, full moon always makes it worse.

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Juni
17 hours ago, AnnaD said:

@Ingun, I regularly have a crappy sleep during a full moon. It is like the moon is very loud and talkative at night wait thats my brain.

 This runs in my family, but only the women seem to be affected. It's multigenerational though, to the point that they often just chat with one another during nights of common insomnia.

 

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AnnaD

@Juni, that sucks, big time. There would be homicide or suicide for someone...

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catherine
On 5/2/2018 at 5:58 AM, Troy said:

Most students and much of the collective consciousness is on board with some relief from insecurity and continuing the effort to be present and empowered and grounded.

I found this to be true to my experience. The insecurities and turbulence peaked and tapered around late April - early May. Up to that point I had been feeling scattered and wired. I decided I really needed to sit down to reassess and get ahold of myself. I think maintaining the effort to be present and grounded was and is a major undertone. I feel that I have been needing to stay present and conscious in order to maintain a sense of mental and emotional equilibrium.

 

In terms of external activity, the craziness hasn't lessened at all. Just when I thought things were slowing down, they picked right back up again. The level of mania is more-or-less the same. The difference is that I feel more even-keeled and have better focus. I feel better able to handle things. I don't feel relaxed though -- I feel the same level of alertness as before, but feelings of panic and despair have dissipated. I still haven't gotten as much rest as I would like but am ok.

 

On 5/2/2018 at 5:58 AM, Troy said:

feeling a prompt to metaphorically stand up, shake off, and take off. If you feel this prompt to start getting things done, being inspired again and generally interested in improving yourself, your environment, your mood, etc, then you are plugged into the collective shift in that direction.

This was true for me as well. Despite feeling tired, I've been more motivated and proactive about getting things done, being inspired, and improving. I delved more deeply into learning about policy and issues of economic inequality, environment, food, health, et al, and how they are interconnected with each other. There's this really great interview with Les Leopold that I found very motivating. Being better informed definitely makes a difference in feeling more driven and being more conscientious about everyday decisions.

 

On 5/2/2018 at 5:58 AM, Troy said:

Do what you can, when you can, and let this process be an honest one. Incremental action can be as powerful as any momentous action.

This helped and was the perspective I tried to keep in mind; have been telling myself to take one thing at a time and to keep moving, even if slowly, instead of just dwelling.

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KurtisM

Is anyone else feeling confused and agitated again?

I was having some pretty "good" days but now my mood is haywire, i'm not getting proper rest again no matter how much I sleep, i'm not digesting things right, and at some point each day I just cannot function or stay awake anymore and have to sleep.

 

Maybe it's just me.

But I guess it's worth sharing.

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AnnaD
1 hour ago, KurtisM said:

Is anyone else feeling confused and agitated again?

yes. No escape/release valve still. Help us out here, @tao.

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Troy
1 hour ago, KurtisM said:

Is anyone else feeling confused and agitated again?

 

 

Yes. Especially with the ruling of the Supreme Court announcement that our country decided to protect a hateful ideology over the rights of an oppressed people. Plus, I've been sort of sick (not sure what the fuck it is) for about a week and I apologize for its interruption in my scheduling and calendar updates and energy report... but yeah, I'm pretty pissy these days. lol

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Eric
1 hour ago, KurtisM said:

Is anyone else feeling confused and agitated again?

I was having some pretty "good" days but now my mood is haywire.

 

Yeah, that's happened to me. I had some decent days, but the agitation is back. Granted, mine has specific triggers that I'm working on, rather than a more general kind of thing, but yeah. I think the ordered chaos of the renovations happening on the house may also be contributing, even though they're ultimately good things. My attempts at self-reflection and improvement may be helping to keep it a bit more subdued than before, but it still pisses me off. 

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Wendy
2 hours ago, KurtisM said:

Is anyone else feeling confused and agitated again?

Wait, did anyone stop?

 

Yeah, I guess the answer to that is a resounding yes.

 

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Jeroen

I have had some good and bad days since my last post in this thread. I felt reasonably well last week and had quite a bit of physical activity. Since Saturday, I have been feeling very tired and generally unwell. I have had some reasonably good sleep but it has not been all that rejuvenating. My throat region of my body has been bothering me today.

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WolfAmethyst
2 hours ago, KurtisM said:

Is anyone else feeling confused and agitated again?


Every time I read / see / hear news about the latest in American politics, I can't help but ask myself "What is it going to take for the people in power to distance themselves from this man?!"

If you'll pardon a reference from tv's "The Handmaid's Tale" about half the current news makes me think "Hello, Gilead!"

Especially living so close to the Canada / US border.  Ever since the current president took office, anytime the weather is good, I wonder when / if displaced persons (aka refugees) will begin crossing into Canada here (as they already have in so many other locations).

 

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KurtisM

It looks like everyone here is feeling relatively shitty.

 

Glad I'm not alone in this. I just.. can't plan anything right now like I have been able to.

I can't talk to my Essence like I usually can either.

The best I feel I can do is take very small steps, incrementally moving forward. I can't focus on big long-term projects- all I can see is what's right in front of me.

 

I've been waking up each day feeling out of it, not knowing any solution to my problems.

It's like I can't mentally process much and just need to sleep more.

😕

i think I'm sliding to Re Evaluation a lot.

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