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ENERGY REPORT: January 2019

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Nadine
42 minutes ago, Troy said:

This might show up as a burst of feelings stirred up in the body that have no place to go but in circles and generating a range of unfounded or outdated and previously-resolved experiences for processing over and over. For those who had the most difficult time adjusting to the shift in energies for the new year, it will be helpful to understand that most of what you are feeling may be the equivalent of a calm lake bed being stirred up by a storm. The murky waters are not permanent nor do they represent any issues that have returned to stay. It will be difficult to see clearly and it may be disorienting, but it will pass. When it passes, it will likely be as startling as it was when it washed over you because you will wonder why it felt so overwhelming and felt so “real.”

 

"burst of feelings stirred up in the body that have no place to go but in circles" sounds about right...I was talking to a friend of mine about how we both felt like wild animals trapped in a cage, just going in circles. I hope this will pass soon, indeed....

 

@Troy Thank you, as always, for channeling these reports for us. They have helped me maintain my calm and sanity numerous times....

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Wendy

Wow that is so interesting that patterns and issues, though resolved and healed, never "go away".  And makes lots of sense.  As soon as the year started I found myself in a state of inertia for sure, and also a couple issues I thought I'd moved through are in full force, holding me in place (or that's what it feels like anyway). 

 

On the other hand, I'm still feeling quite overjoyed that I did not fall into Greed in December, which was the first time I felt like I was not experiencing the worst possibilities Ms outlined LOL.  And on the other other hand, I was probably in it most of the year.

 

And of course, the message about "the world" and frustration is disheartening and it will be interesting to see how we fare as individuals in this time of crisis.

 

Thanks for delivering this so early in the month @Troy. LOVE YOU!

 

 

 

 

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Diane

@Troy  Thank you for our energy report.  They are always so helpful.  

44 minutes ago, Nadine said:

"burst of feelings stirred up in the body that have no place to go but in circles" sounds about right.

 

Yes, I can feel the charge going on in my body and can't decide where to focus my energy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Rosario

Thank you Troy ❤️   these days I feel all over the place...with this creative energy building up. I hope to channel it into something soon. 

Much love to all! 

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Christina Lily Pedersen

This was exactly what I feared *sigh*

Thank you, @Troy, for giving us a 'warning' xD

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Christian

This might explain the energy to do.

 

Just do.

 

Not think about. Or analyze.

 

Do.

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RIppolito

After reading this report, my body feels tingly and I feel sort of in a woozy state. The insight I gained from this paragraph is a very big deal for me - the imagery works for me to "finally understand":

 

In both cases, it is important to understand that even when one has made great progress and evolution through issues, challenges, and patterns, they do not simply go away once they are resolved. They do disintegrate, dissolve, transform, etc., but they rest in the “sediment,” so to speak, of the lake bed of your greater body. Those challenges, issues, and patterns will always be a part of you and they may or may not be “stirred up” in any future wave of energy, but this does not mean they have returned or that you did not resolve them. Energy transforms and evolves, but it does not “go away.” This is true of the “worst” of who you are and for the best of who you are. You do not go away. You transform and evolve and grow, but you do not go away, and neither do all of the parts and patterns of who you are and have been. If you ever find yourself immersed in a return to old patterns and challenges, use your experience, wisdom, and understanding as best you can, and move through until the energies settle again.

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Leela Corman

I found this energy report so helpful. They're always so helpful, but I especially needed this one. Thanks!

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John Roth

Interesting that it said there weren't any nexuses this month (except the one that's already passed. I suspect this means that the collective has decided what it wants to do with the government shutdown, and there aren't a big enough block of dissenters to trigger a divergence nexus.

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NickG
On 1/8/2019 at 1:33 PM, Christina Lily Pedersen said:

This was exactly what I feared *sigh*

Thank you, @Troy, for giving us a 'warning' xD

I’m curious @Christina Lily Pedersen, why do you fear this? I honestly felt kind of optimistic for the future but I’m probably a part of the high expectation crowd lol

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Heidi
On 1/8/2019 at 8:31 AM, Troy said:

From what we can see in terms of these energies on a larger scale, we think there will be a great deal of over-anticipation, misreading of possibilities, high expectations met with great disappointments, and a great deal of frustration as patterns continue to repeat so that “nothing” seems to be changing or getting better.

@NickG, I wonder if the part above was what @Christina Lily Pedersen was referring to? I know Michael was talking about collective/large scale stuff, but at the same time it described the past two years for me to a T, so hearing that was kind of a bummer! 🙄

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Christina Lily Pedersen
9 hours ago, NickG said:

I’m curious @Christina Lily Pedersen, why do you fear this? I honestly felt kind of optimistic for the future but I’m probably a part of the high expectation crowd lol

Imagine how high my expectations were when I got my theme for 2019: TRUE PEACE!

Yes, please!

Then I read this (and what Heidi said, too ...)

 

THIS IS IT - I understand this in a broader scale, really, I am thinking of the world and the state it is in, especially with the environment ... we don't need to go into details, but animals are dying, nothing seems to be getting better, we have idiots in charge everywhere who doesn't understand one bit of what is going on, and so if THIS IS IT, then I think I have a hard time staying positive. People are not ready to make the personal changes that can save the world (if we are lucky). They are nowhere near. So, for that reason, I am feeling very discouraged. 

 

I also had hoped to have a little time off from all the grief of 2018, I think I have had years with not so much grief. The thought of the waves of grief continuing is almost unbearable for me to think of. 

 

I fear for the ENDINGS energy shift, because I worry what it has to do with, but hope it's something not-serious.

 

Then there is what Heidi said; that isn't what I would have hoped to hear about a very pivotal and important year ..  "a great deal of over-anticipation, misreading of possibilities, high expectations met with great disappointments, and a great deal of frustration as patterns continue to repeat so that “nothing” seems to be changing or getting better".

 

Of course, it could be a discouraged Trump who can't build a wall, and in general, most of the Energy Report could be read with a more positive focus, but ... It all sounds very big and large-scale to me, as well as very troublesome for us, personally.

 

How do you read it, @NickG? Pour your joy on me 😄

 

 

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Timothy J Sullivan
5 hours ago, Christina Lily Pedersen said:

Imagine how high my expectations were when I got my theme for 2019: TRUE PEACE!

Yes, please!

 

 

How do you read it, @NickG? Pour your joy on me 😄

 

 

As with everything,  every cycle of change, it begins with the so-called negative poles hence the " "...great deal of over-anticipation, misreading of possibilities, high expectations met with great disappointments, and a great deal of frustration as patterns continue to repeat so that “nothing” seems to be changing or getting better".

 

As we navigate through that beginning phase, learning as we go, more expanded and expansive opportunities, projects...and joy will emerge. Such is the way.  

 

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KurtisM

Interesting.... an Artisan Year. I was pretty solid for the Sage Year because during the last weeks of December leading into January there was a RUSH of energy around communication, fun and levity, playfulness, teaching, learning etc. And the Sages in my life were really coming alive and online.

After that I fell into exactly what the Ms mention here: a mix of Delusion, Frustration and Inertia that really hit hard just hours before this report posted. It's nice to know that it doesn't mean I didn't progress and evolve, but that it may have just been an emotional storm stirring up the past.

 

While I still am very frustrated and inert, I am doing my best to aim for Creation and Construction as always, and not to get caught up in any sort of fear nor in defining myself by them.

I am looking forward to an emphasis on how THIS IS IT- because while it does include long-term patterns ending and this will bring even more grief and inconvenience, it also ushers new beginnings for everyone where we can participate and contribute directly to the world through our every choice.

And after all, if we don't shift into the Mature Soul Paradigm now, we are just resisting and postponing it for future generations that will have to deal with that karma we created until we finally just DO IT. There's no escape from our consequences or humanity anymore.

 

It occurred to me that we must enter personal, communal, national and global Artisan Years when our primary focus is on the idea of "starting anew", "starting from scratch", "living as if life is a blank canvas". The phrase that comes to mind is "New Year- New You" and all of the defenses, delusions and awe in that excitement.

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Stickyflames

Seems about accurate.

The end of December I was energized and felt like I embraced myself in a way that included a future. Finally allowing myself to want and create.

January hits and I become fixated on my past and how it will always be a wall to living a life I want. 

I became rather obsessed actually. Frantically trying to contact google to erase old blogs, to no effect. Frantically trying to contact old porn companies to scream “ why wont you delete my videos!? No one watches them!!”.

Just overwhelmed with this powerlessness that blogs are designed to last forever and if you lose access to them....you can’t do ANYTHING about it. If you lose your password to a bank, you can show id to access your money....for a google account? Nothing...if you don’t remember your favorite tv show 12 years ago...as a security question, you are fucked. Listening to podcasts of people with internet histories, less than mine, who lost everything and still are not hired by anyone.

I wonder...” is this delusion?” Because it DOES happen to people.

Anyway, I have been obsessed since new years.

In my moments of clarity, when the dust storm settles...it becomes clear to me how many people in my life don’t give a shit about anything I did when I was a messy 22 year old. I can’t imagine anyone in my life turning on me for any grande reveal of a catty blog or my exposed netherregions. All my terrified delusional over the top future possibilities I am conjuring are all related to THE WORLD. As if all my dreams are deeply rooted in mattering to the world or proving myself against a wounded past. 

A hard reminder that the only thing I control is how I feel about myself and whether or not I allow myself a future. Why does that still feel more delusional than hopelessness? Maybe because I am deluded.

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Becca the Student

It's funny how people can read the same thing and interpret it several different ways, isn't it? Everyone seems to be focusing on that "over-anticipation and disappointment" sentence, and yet not the one immediately following: "This will not be true in the long-term, but it may seem to be true while these energies are swirling and murky and unclear."

 

Not "may not be true in the long term" but "will not be true".

 

I'm seeing a lot of fear and throwing the baby out with the bathwater thinking on this thread, and that's okay; I'm dealing with suddenly-re-arisen fears myself. It sucks. But to comfort some of those fears, remember THIS IS IT in the sense that this is the year we can create the life we want. This is the year we can create the world we want. That's the message Michael's trying to impart here, I think: if you can move through your fear into the world of positive possibilities, you really can help those positive possibilities come through. The creative Manifestation energies of the Artisan Year, coupled with the productivity of the Moving Center and the Mode of Flow pointing the compass toward Freedom, means we have all the tools we need at our disposal to do what we want to do. The Universe quite symbolically has our backs here this year. 😉

 

I'm assuming "Endings" is a shift that will bring the end of Young Soul patterns, however that ends up manifesting, based off the context given in this report. It's frightening for things to end, but it'll be pretty exciting and wonderful if we can begin some fantastic new patterns this year, too.

 

(I hope this post is helpful!)

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Luciana Flora
10 hours ago, Christina Lily Pedersen said:

Imagine how high my expectations were when I got my theme for 2019: TRUE PEACE!

Yes, please!

True peace really looks like a great theme !! I hope 2019 is a great year for you !!


  When I received my QP for 2019 and I read true trust and it would be a turning point I was excited too .. And at the same time I thought Michael was feeling very optimistic ..

But Michael seemed to describe everything I'm trying to do .. but how I always saw myself as an insecure person .. see me difcomo someone confident seem to be a big challenge for me ..

  I've never been a person that actively seeks to improve the world .. achoo that a little due to my insecurity .. I always thought that thinking that could change the world would be very pretentious on my part since I barely gave account of my own life ...

  I mean I did not get real friends until my 23 years .. 5 years ago I was totally financially dependent on my parents .. That only changed at age 31 .. How anyone who is that way could change the world ??

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NickG

@Heidi hmmmmm Ithink I see. Yah could be a bummer to go through but I think we're all fairly intimate with that kind of energy now lol I just don't feel that way now meself at the moment. Just figure I  have to keep going and not hang up on the results. Ironically coming from me who is obsessed with results lol 

 

10 hours ago, Christina Lily Pedersen said:

How do you read it, @NickG? Pour your joy on me 😄

😂😂😂 I'll do my best. It's not that I think the world was going to change overnight or hell even in the span of a year. I don't know, something in my atmosphere just has a sense of possibility to it that wasn't there before. An embrace of what could be. Granted, I usually get very caught up in the craziness of the world, but it's just all so absurd in a horribly morbid,fascinating way. I don't know what else to do but laugh sometimes at it. Plus, I'm doing what I can in my personal world to make things better. It's not as if I could change the world. I'm doing my part and things will change regardless so whatever happens then I'll just adapt to that too. I'd rather try to enjoy my time now then wait for some elusive, heavenly state of the world. Now I say this while knowing and not knowing fully how fucked up the world is and can be. It's not that I wish it away so to speak, but try to acknowledge the joy, with the despair, the awe, and the disappointments, the love and ironically the apathy. Totally not a full proof system lol but I think I may be on to something, at least in my personal sphere. 

 

But hey what better time to discover your True Peace then in a time where that is seemingly impossible 😂 I imagine it is more about finding the peace in conflict, in craziness, etc... And to rehash what @Becca the Student said this seems to be our year to do and create what we want in our world. Like, we're given all the paints, and brushes, and canvases, so now we can actually do something with it and begin to create the life we've always dreamed of. 

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Becca the Student

Luciana, even just changing your lifestyle can change the world! Composting your food waste instead of throwing it out; walking or biking or taking public transit to work instead of driving (or using an electric car!); bringing a sustainable cup to your favorite coffee place instead using their disposables; shopping at thrift stores instead of mass-production outlets; buying local food; smiling at a stranger on the street or cheering up a friend. All these things, though they may seem little, add up. Even giving five cents to a charity you like does something. Living a calm, fulfilling life does something. You impact the world just by existing within it -- if you want to change the world, change how you exist within it. 🙂 It may sound simple, but it's true.

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Leela Corman

I'm feeling the "stirred up old patterns" quite a bit, and resonating hard with it. The sediment analogy really worked for me and has been carrying me through those feelings. I was deeply struck by how beautiful that analogy is, and by extension their teachings. For me, some of those patterns are a kind of sadness carrying over from fall of 2018 that I thought I had moved through a bit more than I had, as well as some obsessive thought patterns I thought I had worked through more successfully. I didn't think I was past these, but I guess I thought I was at about 80%, when in reality I might be at 50%? The sadness and obsessing is keeping me from fully enjoying myself and my continued successes and delights, which are many. Then today I was incredibly edgy, in a way I haven't been in ages but used to kind of live in. Oh man, I'm glad that's not my daily life anymore. It started to feel chemical after a while, like my brain was firing the wrong stuff. I was just MAD all day, and not at anyone. Just aggro, anxious, irritated. I kept reminding myself that it was some sort of old stuff getting stirred up, and that I didn't need to react to it. Then I went to band practice, where being in the presence of my bandmates and a lot of very loud amps made me giddy, and now I'm just tired.

 

I do feel like "things are just gonna stay the same" in some areas of my personal life. This actually isn't upsetting me too much, because I don't want to build up wrong expectations of certain people, so if things stay as they are now, well, it's a bummer but it's the same bummer I've been managing for months now so whatever. I'll deal. In public life I am well acquainted with uncertainty, so it's not really bugging me. I don't think things will stay the same, actually; not with all these new mostly women shaking the rotten foundations so beautifully. But the physical plane is slow and the wrong people have power, so it will be longer than we would like.

 

I am experiencing delusion in that I am afraid that I might be deluded about how certain situations might shake out for me. Too "Idealist", maybe. I am experiencing Inertia big time and it's not good because I have a lot to do, but my brain and body are just floating out there like I'm not teaching three classes and on a bunch of deadlines.

 

Beneath all of that I feel a sense of excitement about the new year, and overflowing gratitude. 

 

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Juni

I am also now on Team Old Crap I Thought I Was Done With Spiraling Over. It sucks. I came back to reread and be reassured it's temporary.

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Becca the Student

Has anyone on this thread tried Body Tapping? I've found that and reiki to be really helpful in releasing some agitated energy and settling some sediment.

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Bobby
8 minutes ago, Becca the Student said:

Has anyone on this thread tried Body Tapping? I've found that and reiki to be really helpful in releasing some agitated energy and settling some sediment.

 

@Wendy is our official resident tapper  🙂

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