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ENERGY REPORT - February 2020

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Mari Lynn

Thanks for this.

Last Wednesday, I got the news that my brother had unexpectedly died. Unbeknownst to him and his wife, he had advanced stage 4 metastatic lung cancer. Yes, he was a smoker. He was an early mature scholar cast Artisan, and his cf's were arrogance & self destruction. I am reeling from this news, as he & I were close. He lived in San Diego with his wife and when I lived out there, we had many good times...some not so good too, but I loved him dearly. That said, his self destruction literally contributed to his untimely death. 

 

I am going to take Michael's message to heart as much as possible as I navigate grief. 

Our shared memories of our challenges in childhood and his wanting to gloss over those wounds left a mark on him. My heart aches...my relationship with him is much different than my other sisters' experiences of him, and even tho I sometimes feel quite alone in my grief, I know too, that THAT is ok and being gentle with myself is important.

Thanks again Troy & Michael, for this timely message. 

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Amanda

I've been running around banging pots and pans together and saying this lately lolol 😂 good to know I was on to something!😁

 

"As the potential turbulence of the year unfolds within our students and around our students, it can be helpful to return your focus to kindness, no matter what the situation or scenario"

 

Practice radical kindness, y'all! ❤️

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Sam K

Ah.  A highly consequential divergence, waves of Self-Deprecation (that I am for once very in tune with), Younger souls continuing their Self-Destruction bender... Happy Birthday to me! 🥳

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Michèle

@Mari Lynn My condolences 🌻 I am very sorry to hear about the loss of your brother - and much love to you.

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Amanda
6 hours ago, KurtisM said:

It's crunch time. Do or Die.

"Do or do not, there is no try." 

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Becca the Student

I gotta say, I'm both excited and terrified for the end of February. I so hope one of those divergences is a breakthrough towards a movement that generates a more loving world, and I desperately want to be around for that. The other options are what terrify me. XD

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SunSand

I feel as if I had been lucky. Either I dont realize I am experiencing some sort of hardship this whole time or I just haven't been hit so hard the past few years. Just following my being-ness, or  at least I am rediscovering it. I feel uncertainty but also some anticipation about what the future brings. It is a good time to be 30. 

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WolfAmethyst
On 2/10/2020 at 3:09 PM, Troy said:

February 28th - 29th -- NEXUS -- DIVERGENCE - This Nexus appears to bring with it a kind of momentum launched by an ultimatum and/or threat that brings clarity and focus. This is not an ominous prediction, but the best way we can describe a pattern coming to a turning point on a collective scale. The reactions to this Nexus would likely generate a divergence for explorations of different outcomes over the next 5 to 10 years.

 

On Feb 29th...?
South Carolina Primary in US election cycle - who will / won't continue their campaign into / beyond "Super Tuesday" on March 3rd

A LOT of companies (airlines, factories, etc) may or may not be resuming regular transportation, may or may not be reopening for regular business in China / large swaths of Southeast Asia

 

Re: concerns re Coronavirus presence and spread post-February
Has anybody else seen a certain world map, with a circle encompassing China, India, and several nearby countries, that claims 50% of Earth's human population lives inside the circle, 50% outside?
https://science.howstuffworks.com/environmental/earth/geophysics/small-circle-asia-more-half-worlds-population.htm

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Connie Stansell-Foy

@Troy and Michael, thank you.

On 2/10/2020 at 12:09 PM, Troy said:

there are no circumstances that can prevent anyone from loving others and themselves and being kind to others and themselves.

I love this. 

@Mari Lynn, my condolences on your loss. You must be hurting.

I still have all my siblings, but we are getting up there in age (the eldest will be 74 in June), and I'm dreading starting to lose them. I know in my heart that they will, in fact, be completely safe and able to look back over their lives and enjoy the good and see how the less-good could have been better, but I'll miss them. And I think it's unlikely that I'll be the first to go.

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Leela Corman

I like their comment about cliche. It reminds me of this quote from one of my idols, guitarist Rowland S. Howard: "You only notice a cliche when it's done badly; if it's done well, it's a very powerful piece of imagery."

 

I've been almost blind with sadness lately. It's hard to tease out where it's coming from. I mean, I cut off communication with my parents in December and am only just now reestablishing it, I don't trust them and I still think they're both crazy, destructive people right now. But it's depressing no matter what. It feels like I'm doing something terrible to them to not talk to them, it feels like a betrayal of myself to let them back in, it all sucks. Beyond that, there's another situation in my life I very much want to have traction with and don't, but it's not a conflict, fortunately, just a mountain I'd like to move.

 

However, other mountains have moved. My alma mater, Massachusetts College of Art, suddenly awarded me my BFA without my having to take any more courses, after months of resistance and Soviet-level bureaucratic nuttiness. I was about to give up and just start lying to potential teaching jobs, but I made one more attempt, pulled a last string, and suddenly there was an email in my inbox saying Here's your diploma. Either they finally looked at my CV and realized I'm a genius powerhouse, or they realized what a persistent pain in the ass I am and that I would never leave them alone until I got what I needed from them, so they decided to avoid the headache of dealing with me any further. I suspect it is the latter. So after 20 years, I have my motherfucking BFA! Up yours, state-mandated math class!

 

I also suddenly am making some money. People are buying my original art, projects are getting funded, I got hired to teach a Jewish Graphic Novel class at UF Jewish Studies DESPITE not having a PhD (who the fuck has a PhD in illustration and comics? NO ONE, EAT A BAG OF DICKS, ACADEMIA), I'm booking speaking and workshop gigs. I have had a couple of big, hard conversations with my husband that I had been scared to have and they went great. Yet...I am so sad. And I'm scared for the direction of the country. And I've been immobilized by a knee injury for months and have barely left the house, which is making me crazy, but when I do leave, I remember how much I hate living here now and that my beloved entity mate friend is gone and I cry and if the sun is out I also get enraged by it.

 

Thank you for coming to my presentation, there are no snacks. Let's hope we all get through 2020 intact, personally and democratically speaking. Oh also, don't vote for Bloomberg in the primary, he's a racist dickwad! ❤️

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Crystal

Pre-nexus/divergence personal drama - anyone having any this month? In the past week, I've had: One very sick older cat, who is now getting better, I think/hope. Fingers crossed. This is Daenerys, the cat in my icon. She had a bad flare up of her Inflammatory Bowel Disease and her asthma (she's the dearest teddy bear kitty in the world but also the one with all the auto immune issues!) and got put on steroids. They seem to be doing the trick. 

 

"Sister from another mister" friend got so violently ill with food poisoning that she had to call an ambulance. I rushed over there today (I freelance, thankfully) with a care package and to help her to the pharmacy to pick up her meds.

 

And then I come home to my family room permeated with the smell of burning plastic! It turns out my under-sink hot water heater (delivers hot water to a little spigot so I can have tea, cocoa, etc. right away) gave up the ghost AND shorted out. I unplugged it and am airing out my house because pee-yew. I'm just thankful it wasn't a fire!

 

I hope all this is getting my personal parallel's ya-yas out so I land in the Good Nexus come the 28th!

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Miizle

I had a dream 2 nights ago, that some people, at least TLE members, maybe others, were gathered in a forest. Some were in a physical form but many non-physical or something in between. What was happening, was , for the best of my recollection and understanding, that they were integrating some larger pictures about themselves. This was a little bit "heroic", and a little bit scary although basically i think fairly simple. I was there in the forest, a little bit to the side, and i had some confusion about the process which i can't remember anymore what it was as i didn't get to write it down immediately.
But i'm pretty sure i saw @Troy and @Martha , and i read a sheet of paper, that said " @WolfAmethyst is doing it because of her love for humanity".
And now i thought about the Infinite soul manifestation reducing parallels and got such unpleasant chills for this. Was not happy to read in the state of the planet that the propability is 88%. 😕

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