ENERGY REPORT - February 2021

[Troy 20,705]

ENERGY REPORT

FEBRUARY 2021
 

2021 OVERLEAVES

ROLE: Server (emphasized all year)

CENTER: Higher Intellectual (emphasized all year) (and Intellectual Center)

GOAL: Re-evaluation (emphasized Jan - Mar)

MODE: Perseverance (emphasized Apr - Jun)

ATTITUDE: Cynic (emphasized Jul - Sep)

CHIEF FEATURES: Martyrdom (emphasized Oct - Dec)

 

FEBRUARY continues the process of reflection and re-evaluation that will be a thread throughout the year. The focus of re-evaluation has turned toward the Server elements of energy this year, with questions and considerations coming up for how you can take better care of yourselves and each other, and for most of you, how to strike that balance between taking care of yourself and others.

 

Many of our students may not “know what to do with themselves” during this shift into Re-evaluation and Server energy and may resort to familiar methods of retreat or distancing because the pressures of the inner and outer worlds continue to be felt, so rather than avoid retreat or distancing, we can suggest to use these methods to your advantage for examining and practicing how better to care for yourself and/or others. 

 

Retreat can be a way to avoid Re-evaluation or it can be a way to embrace it. If you find yourself uncertain and untethered in retreat, it can be grounding for you to ask “what little thing can I do today to show I care about myself.” Follow through with this little thing. What you may learn from this is that what you do for you matters as much as what you might wish others would do for you. It does not count less because it comes from you. In fact, it “counts” even more. 

 

Many of you may be in retreat as a way to understand that Server energy is not something that you only provide as a gift to others or only wait to receive as a gift from others. It is something that you nurture all around and inside of you that creates a common ground of exchange with others. 

 

When you reject your care for yourself, you diminish and block the path of care that can come from others and you compromise your effectiveness in caring for others. Many relationships struggle under this weight of assuming that caring is something you give to others or receive from others, but Servers know that a circuit MUST be created or Service falls into Bondage.

 

Service is when one includes and nurtures caring when giving to the self and other.

Bondage is when one rejects or ignores caring when giving to the self and others.
 

We will define caring here as BLAMELESS. When you care about others, you are not blaming them for their needs, even if they are neglecting those needs. When you care about yourself, you are not blaming yourself for your needs. You give what you can, how you can, and when you can.

 

Service is blamelessness.

Bondage is resentment.

 

If you find yourself in a strange limbo of retreat, allow yourself that time to reflect and reconsider your relationship to caring for yourself and move away from resentment and into blamelessness. 

 

Your loneliness is not your fault.

Your isolation is not your fault.

Your needs are not your fault.

Your moods, anger, and exhaustion are not your fault.

 

Give yourself the care that you need, ask for the care that you need, give the care that others need, when you can, how you can, and in ways that you can. 

 

That is all that is necessary to help begin to heal any painful distance between you and yourself, you and others, and you and the world.

 

Keep in mind that Service can come in many forms. It is not just about desperation. It is about the smile that someone needed to see. It is about the laughter that needed to be shared. It is about the insight that needed to be exchanged. It is about the patience that needed to be given or received. It is about listening. It is about all of the “little things” that matter in ways that are often ignored.

 

[approximate] DATES OF INTEREST:

 

No Shifts or Nexus in February

 

HELPFUL THOUGHTS OVER FEBRUARY:

LITTLE THINGS MEAN A LOT - Practice giving awareness to all of the little things that you can do for yourself and for others in a way that nurtures caring. Give weight and meaning to the little things you see offered to you from others. Let your heart and mind bring you little thoughts, little feelings, little moments that can be considered as caring for yourself. Your needs are your needs. Sometimes your needs cannot be met, but you can still care by not blaming yourself or others.

[Diane 8,322]

 

14 minutes ago, Troy said:

Many of you may be in retreat as a way to understand that Server energy is not something that you only provide as a gift to others or only wait to receive as a gift from others. It is something that you nurture all around and inside of you that creates a common ground of exchange with others. 

 

 

Thank you for our Energy Report, Troy. Love you and appreciate you!   

[Connie Stansell-Foy 2,232]

I love this. I think I needed it, or had begun to implement it unconsciously, but I love it anyway. Thanks Michael and @Troy!

[Cong 6,319]

Thank you, Troy, for continuing to care a lot about us!

I feel I have been in retreat/ re-evaluation mode for a while, partly due to covid and partly due to the recent soul age transition. Before this, I have been playing with the theme of self-care since late 2018. Self-care was a novel idea to me, I learned about selfless devotion to others from my server parents, I was imprinted with action roles from school and peers, sometimes blindfolded by my passion mode and spiritualist attitude, I chased all kinds of relationships at all cost. For the longest time, I found the greatest pleasure in getting close to goals and people I care about. It is not until a complete sense defeat around that time that I realized how much wounds I internalized and carried around. Symbolically or maybe quite literally, self-care and healing gave me another chance to live. For this reason, I am grateful for the Great Pause we are in now, as it allows me to intensify the level of care. It will be interesting to see how we will embrace the outer world after this period. Until then, let's cherish this moment of reflection and retreat. 

Edited February 15 by Cong

[WolfAmethyst 2,044]

2 hours ago, Troy said:

ENERGY REPORT

FEBRUARY 2021

 

FEBRUARY continues the process of how you can take better care of yourselves and each other, and for most of you, how to strike that balance between taking care of yourself and others.

 

What you may learn from this is that what you do for you matters as much as what you might wish others would do for you. It does not count less because it comes from you. In fact, it “counts” even more. 

 

When you reject your care for yourself, you diminish and block the path of care that can come from others and you compromise your effectiveness in caring for others. Many relationships struggle under this weight

 

Service is when one includes and nurtures caring when giving to the self and other.

Bondage is when one rejects or ignores caring when giving to the self and others.
 

yourself, you are not blaming yourself for your needs. You give what you can, how you can, and when you can.

 

Service is blamelessness.

Bondage is resentment.

 

Your loneliness is not your fault.

Your isolation is not your fault.

Your needs are not your fault.

Your moods, anger, and exhaustion are not your fault.

 

Service can come in many forms. It is not just about desperation. It is about all of the “little things” that matter in ways that are often ignored.

LITTLE THINGS MEAN A LOT - Sometimes your needs cannot be met, but you can still care by not blaming yourself or others.

Wow- Michael on Caregiver Burnout!  Perfect timing given recent concerns I've had regarding certain people in their 70s, as their healthcare needs + the ageing process meet COVID craziness.

Edited February 15 by WolfAmethyst

[SunSand 1,271]

Yep, feeling exhausted and have a continuous feeling of anger(?) and disdain(?). Usual things that I do for years don't give me peace. 

[Luciana Flora 11,675]

I find it interesting that even though I am not a server .. I always saw a lot of Retreat in me .

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  In my case, I think it happened due to my giving up on looking for relationships (I mean friendships). something that has only recently changed ..

  Isolation was part of my life long before any pandemic.

Maybe that's why I found this part interesting.

 

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Give yourself the care that you need, ask for the care that you need, give the care that others need, when you can, how you can, and in ways that you can. 

 

That is all that is necessary to help begin to heal any painful distance between you and yourself, you and others, and you and the world.

 

Keep in mind that Service can come in many forms. It is not just about desperation. It is about the smile that someone needed to see. It is about the laughter that needed to be shared. It is about the insight that needed to be exchanged. It is about the patience that needed to be given or received. It is about listening. It is about all of the “little things” that matter in ways that are often ignored.

 

I found it interesting because this distance is something I have felt my whole life .. so maybe this is something I really need to do ..

This reporting energy also reminded me of something Michael said about my family.

That the relationship between my family is based on resentment.

 

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MEntity: The missing element to consider here is maturity. Maturity comes from benefiting from learning from your experiences. What we see as a dynamic among you in your family is not maturity but resentment. Rather than benefit from experiences, the reaction is to resent them. There is a great deal of resentment currency in your family.

 

MEntity: There is a great emphasis on what is fair and unfair and this is micromanaged and controlled to such an extent that there is no real sense of what is fair or unfair anymore. There is only a measure of resentment.

 

MEntity: What we suggest to you as a means of gaining some footing in your emotional and intellectual maturity is to completely remove any concepts of fairness in regard to your engagement with family.

 

MEntity: If you can remove the concern for fairness, you can begin to treat your family as people, not father, mother, sibling, etc.

 

Luciana: ok

 

MEntity: There are legitimate scenarios of unfairness in your family, but much of it stems from wishing each other were different from who you are.

 

MEntity: The emphasis is always on what others could do to make things better.

 

 

I really remembered that part of my session when Michael talked about blaming others or oneself ..

 

 Every time  I read about server the more I believe my mom is on the negative pole.

 

and it seems that this interferes with family dynamics ..

 

[Crystal 2,995]

Thank you, as always, @Troy for being here for us, and to the M’s as well.

 

It looks like February is going to be a nice quiet month - no Nexuses (Nexii?) and no shifts, either. Which I intuited, and which I think we all NEED after the intense times that were December and January. We need to take a rest and breather and do some self-care and nurturing in this parallel. I don’t know about all of you, but the past four years felt like forty. I have aged in dog years!  I’m all for a nice, calm month.

[avi 837]

11 hours ago, Troy said:

Your loneliness is not your fault.

Your isolation is not your fault.

Your needs are not your fault.

Your moods, anger, and exhaustion are not your fault.

whew. chills. needed this so much. thank you @Troy 

Edited February 16 by avi

[Maureen 23,440]

I think it’s really cool that the Rover that just landed on Mars in 2021 is called Perseverance in a year where our Mode is Perseverance.  

 

[Connie Stansell-Foy 2,232]

9 hours ago, Maureen said:

I think it’s really cool that the Rover that just landed on Mars in 2021 is called Perseverance in a year where our Mode is Perseverance.  

 

 

Cool! I hadn't caught that. I also see I need to add a twitter to follow. Thanks, @Maureen!

[Leela Corman 4,782]

Nice.

 

Strangely, I feel like I'm gently emerging from the heaviness of the last...year? Four years? I'm not sure. I suddenly find myself able to read books again, which I haven't been capable of since the pandemic started. I know a few people who've said exactly the same thing in the past couple of weeks. And I'm at the beginning of a new musical collaboration with someone who's kind of my dream collaborator - my age, same tastes in music (not easy if you know my tastes), similar interests and outlook, plays exactly as I like. It's completely remote, we don't even live in the same country. But it's bringing a lot of life back to me. So right now I feel a restoration of connections, both internally (my brain) and externally. Of course I still barely leave my apartment. I really want to wear makeup in a museum again. I'm so sick of lockdown that I've started pining for JFK Airport. 

[Maureen 23,440]

Some good news... here’s two of my favourite Priests.

 

[Maureen 23,440]

Judge Merrick Garland, nominee to be Attorney General, testified at his confirmation hearing before the Senate Judiciary Committee on February 22, 2021. It looks like he'll get the votes. I had wondered what kind of Attorney General he would be, with so much on the Assimilative Axis, but after seeing him answer questions today, from both Democrats and Republicans, I was blown away with his candor, his openness, his humility, his humanity, and his strength. He's a great choice for Attorney General. He would have made a stellar Justice on the Supreme Court. 

 

Note: For those who don't follow American politics, Senate Republicans (led by Mitch McConnell) blocked Garland from even getting a hearing when ex-President Obama nominated him for the Supreme Court in 2016.

 

MERRICK GARLAND = 2nd Level Mature Manifesting Young to Mature Scholar-Cast Scholar from Cadre 5/Entity 4 with a Scholar Essence Twin, a Pragmatist in Observation with a Goal of Acceptance in the Emotional Part of the Moving Center with Chief Features of Self-deprecation. Completed 3rd Internal Monad in Positive Pole. Incomplete/Negative Pole 4th Internal Monad.

 

 

[Juni 8,644]

On 2/21/2021 at 9:29 AM, Leela Corman said:

Nice. ">

 

Strangely, I feel like I'm gently emerging from the heaviness of the last...year? Four years? I'm not sure. I suddenly find myself able to read books again, which I haven't been capable of since the pandemic started. I know a few people who've said exactly the same thing in the past couple of weeks. 

You can add at least two more-my boss and I were just talking about how we were able to focus as of the last fortnight or so, and actually finish books again. 

[Crystal 2,995]

Same, @Leela Corman and @Juni. I feel like I've aged forty years in the last four, or something, and that this big...orange...THING...was always looming in the back of my mind, and the pandemic only made it worse.

 

Now I'm feeling much more inspired and energized and for lack of a better word, ready to live and just be again.

[Becca the Student 3,486]

Raising my hand for the count. I just went through a week or four of odd disconnectedness, but I feel so much more focused this week. Coming out of the negative pole of Re-evaluation, maybe.

[Crystal 2,995]

And another one! I was talking to a friend of mine whom I hadn’t seen in a while and she was saying how down and depressed she had felt between October and January. She did a “kaolin cleanse” and she said she felt like a new person. I’m sure it was the energy shift as well. There really is something in the air, and it isn’t that old-school perfume L’Air Du Temps: 

 

[Rosario 8,425]

I feel there's a powerful energy shift going on, or the IS have activated their superpowers been waking up at 4 ,  feeling  almost hypomaniac the last days (in a good way, creating, sharing, envisioning... HyperPriesting haha

[Connie Stansell-Foy 2,232]

On 3/5/2021 at 2:04 AM, Rosario said:

I feel there's a powerful energy shift going on, or the IS have activated their superpowers been waking up at 4 ,  feeling  almost hypomaniac the last days (in a good way, creating, sharing, envisioning... HyperPriesting haha

 

I've wondered about that. I've been waking earlier than normal, too (which is aggravating because I tend to go to bed about 3 hours later than I should, so it means short nights). Also since there was no shift or nexus in February, I've been wondering if we might get one fairly early in March.